Samefag from before.
Pfft "people never forget how you make them feel" trust me half the time they'll also run all over other people just for kicks. Just because you're rubbing people the wrong way doesn't mean your the only one fucking up. If anything you're probably the least of our problems.
The world is honestly kind of a sleazefest.its a sinking ship no matter how you look at it. You're greatest weapon is to take none of it seriously and laugh at people subtly, while engrossing yourself in something you love to protect you from thinking.
If you only blame yourself and idealize everyone besides yourself, you'll become easy to manipulate, easy to fool, easy to brainwash. No offense but some of you sound like you've never hung out with normal people, and seen what they're really like to each other.
They're opportunists and they're often out for blood for no particular reason and a ton of playground girls never actually grow out of it, they just bring it to college, to work, especially, it seems to the bored suburbs.
If y'all really want to get beyond this internalized self-loathing, w"wired girl vibe" problem you need to stop comparing yourself to what you imagine.
Stop taking things so seriously. Laugh at everything. The second you start taking things too seriously it all falls apart, you start to take on this mushy out of touch self loathing aura.
You get pulled into dark perspectives, black and white perspectives ..that color things incorrectly. As long as you never take anything too seriously you're good. When you're never too serious it's impossible to really offend anyone because you aren't carrying around things you imagine.. hard feelings etc.. (which people can pick up on it if you're energy is heavy) Just forget everything heavy.
I have this problem from time to time. I have a lot I hate sometimes for morons. Sometimes I don't know what to do with my ruminating until I remember to forget everything and take nothing seriously accept what I'm working on. This is the only thing that makes life bliss. Things can go from black to sunshine in under a couple of minutes if you remember a this.
But seriously stop idealizing people. Fuck people unless they're rare gems you know exceedingly well.
You should never go out of your way to appear needy for anyone/ any groups approval or attention. It does nothing for you, and it just makes you look like a moron, people can tell. All the shills you know in class are just basic shills. Only interact with them, especially moids, on your own terms