>>295962>I think I am suppose to be nonverbal but I was forced to talk as a childYou really think no one is trying to force non-verbal autistic kids to talk? You think feeling like an alien and an outsider is not an incredibly common human experience? You hate staring people in the eye because you can feel a disconnect, which sounds like the sort of eye contact avoidance typical to social anxiety rather than the heightened autonomic arousal responses more typical to autism.
The catastrophization and self-victimization from level 1 autistics has become so insufferable. Differences between populations of people with autism diagnoses and people with none has almost disappeared because of solipsistic, moderately neurotic idiots like you and the doctors who diagnose you.* They can't conduct studies on autism anymore if the trend of the diagnosis criteria subtly dropping keeps up to the point of there being no difference between diagnosed autistics and the populations who would be used as the control group.
You would have been comfortably part of the normal distribution 30 years ago. Back then you would have done what everyone with an ounce of self-reflection does and tried to build the best possible life you can around your flaws and failings. I guess people had permission structures to wallow in their "unique" pain then too, but still! For years, level 1 autistics have been going around autism forums misidentifying their neurotypical-adjacent feelings and experiences as autism related. They do shit like talk about eye contact being uncomfortable for abstract psychological reasons rather than being caused by the neurological hyper arousal of level 2-3 autistic people, who describe it as painful and can't be coaxed to do it at all. It's the reason for eye contact avoidance being one of the defining symptoms. Internet autists talk about "masking" as if neurotypicals don't do exactly what they're describing, as if being able to mask in the first place isn't actually a point against having autism. These quarter-autistics have been furiously jerking each other off while the more seriously affected people won't by the nature of their more debilitating autism participate effectively in the conversation. Now the whole disorder is defined by the misidentifications of these people who can't imagine a world without their made up vers
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