>>120936
Rooting for you!

I'm scaring myself into staying…

I only make about 260,000yen a month after taxes. Our current apartment is 90000yen/month. Share houses start around 40000yen a month… I don't have much savings. Maybe I could rent a room with someone but I feel that will be hard to arrange on the DL. Manga cafe is 3000yen/night on weekdays. Hotels are more.

>>120943
You can look for help here

1. https://telljp.com/

2. http://shelter.or.jp/

3. http://wn-kobe.or.jp/

4. http://osaka-shelter.jp/

5. http://ywca.or.jp/

6. https://www.gender.go.jp/policy/no_violence/e-vaw/siensya.html

>>120944
Some errors here use this in place of number 2.
http://www.nwsnet.or.jp/

>>120945
https://nwsnet.or.jp/
Sorry the 's' was missing

i wish i had a friend. it hurts to see others have friends. even children do. even intellectually disabled people do. even so-called lonely people do. even bad people do. most people do. but i have no one and never have. it hurts so deeply that i can not being to explain it to someone who has had a friend before.

Is this selfish? I've been told I lack empathy so idk if I'm overreacting. I feel hurt and unappreciated.

Almost every night, my husband and I watch whatever youtube/streaming/tv my husband wants to watch. Altough he will sonetimes present options for me to choose from. At least 2 times a week we will spend 5-8 hours watching material only he is interested in.

In my free time, I'm watching his favorite anime series because he asked me to. I'm over 30 episodes in.

Last night he offered to watch my favorite series, which I have never pushed on him. I was so happy. He watched 4 episodes and complained it wasn't interesting yet.

…Then we watched 6 episodes of a series he likes.

>>120937
Start complaining too…grown man lol

>>120937
Do you enjoy watching the stuff he likes or are you just doing it to spend time with him? imo there's no point making him watch your stuff if he's just going to complain and be annoying the whole time, but you should also maybe stop being willing to constantly watch his crap all the time too if he's gonna act like this.

>>120940
I like about half of it, I guess. I'm willing to watch anything and I can usually find something I like about any piece of media. But he will put on a miniseries on ww2 and get mad when I doze off a few hours in.

>>120913
<3

>>120931
I like how my message number ended in 13 and yours in 31^^
<3

No thankyou.

If you don't like art, twinks or having a functioning brain we really have nothing to discuss.

Don’t agree with your main point but I did love the Dracula untold movie

Dear A.

Years pass. They feed off themselves. Yesterday I looked up your recently published papers despite feeling, most of the time, indifferent towards you. New infatuations come and go. I stalk my crushes online. It feels like the natural thing to do. It's what I've always done. You once told me I'd make a good detective—if only you knew.

My new love doesn't share your name, but his is an anagram of yours. Here, where it is always dusk, all the shadows in my dreams could be your silhouette. I looked up a translation of Unica Zürn's alleged last poem before she committed suicide, but I couldn't find any. I’ll try to translate it myself. You wouldn’t like that, because you enjoy referring to authorities, even if you claim otherwise. I know this because I do the same.

As time separates us, I realize how similar we always were. Everything I despise about you, I have also found within myself. Words always come too late, and one of the last things you told me was that I was never coherent. I fall in love with strangers on the bus and in the library, and they all look the same. Even before you, they have always looked like you. All I needed was for my daydreams to have a name.

You were too real, which is why I could never have loved you beyond the mirror of my daydreams. I've been in love with someone else for a year. Could you believe that? They don’t love me back.

I could never be a good detective. I'm not trying too hard to be coherent these days and maybe it shows. I was young and tried too hard to exercise rigorous semiotics instead of facing the world. I don't think you were entirely wrong. I don't think you're a genius wasting away your talent anymore, either. I think you're just like me. Maybe you told me that once and I forgot. There's a lot of things we talked about. The insults and disagreements I try to forget.

Unica Zürn's last poem begins like this: All of this has existed before / others spoke about it.

you were an archetype i had to confront at some point and seeing your true colors was all the closure i really needed. im definitely changed i just wish i didnt do anything permanent for you
like get a shitty tattoo of ur initial

You are a pedophile, your "partner" is a groomer.

I wish your cheating ass nothing but misfortune, a miserable life and anyone that you love to betray you the way you betrayed me.

People like you don't deserve love or safety.

You've always said how much you hate pedophiles, yet you abandoned everyone for pedophiles.

Hope you have a miserable life

are ya winning, son? how is that immaculate fortress of zero remorse treating you? i hope you’re good and settled down in there because there is nothing outside of those walls for you.

Hi

I've had a massive crush on you for years. Never done anything about it because I know you don't feel the same way about me. Also don't want to make things weird with our mutual friend, who I think you probably have a thing for. I don't know how to feel, I know nothing will ever come of me feeling this way towards you but I also don't know how to move on. I think I'll just always have this soft spot for you, even though we don't even see eachother often. I feel like such a fucking creep. But I also privately wish you knew how I felt and I could know how you feel about me.

Bye

>>120832
Are you daft girl?

>>120832
your boyfriend should naturally want to protect you and baby you and stuff and he's really far away from this. you say that sometimes he can be super loving so maybe when he's in a good mood, tell him how upset he's making you but be really sweet and nice and it'll probably really help to cry. maybe act needy? I think this could get him to stop but idk the guy. if he seriously doesn't stop soon then don't waste your time. don't let things get worse. you'll have to break up with him

He's only gonna get worse, break up

He threatened to kill you. It will only get worse and worse and harder to leave. You should probably go no contact.

why are some women so restarted when it comes to men. this guy is going to kill you. he's probably going to stalk you when you leave him too

he's just being your e-bf

>>120797
A role he really needs to fullfill better.

>>120797
>>120839
op here, i came to check on this thread because i was thinking about him (and feeling terrible) again, and this really made me laugh so thanks you guys <3

>>120844
how can I get into an obsessive relationship like you?

>>120911
meet someone who is equally as mentally ill as you, talk from literally when you wake up to when you go to bed, develop complicated feelings for him, "confess" but make it clear that you're not sure if you actually like him (or men at all), tell each other your worst secrets, profit

>no close relationships
Just with my father and some friends, I only see most people as acquaintances and have no desire to know them better.
>alone
I love it, if I could, would even have meals alone.
>no interest in sex
I masturbate and enjoy reading literotica, but have no desire to have sex. Would enjoy to have a relationship but 99,9% of men aren't asexuals.
>emotionally flat
I have more reactions while interacting with people my age, so I doubt they think I look aloof, but feel that I look aloof around my stepmother and her family.
>rarely feels happiness
I do feel it, but eating something I like results in the same happiness as travelling to a new area/city.
>no one to trust
I have some people, but I'm keeping 70% of things to myself only
>indifferent to praise
I'm indifferent to praise from people I know, but enjoy when it's from acquaintances or strangers.

I don't think I fit the criteria, and also don't relate to many posts by schizoids in the Schizoid subreddit.

I check every single box, unfortunately. I don't want to believe it, so I'm not a schizoid. Not until I get an official diagnosis. Is there really no cure for this? My late brother was an actual schizo/bipolar. Could be genetic :/

>>107253
Youre more likely to be schizoid or schizotypal if you have a relative with full on schizophrenia lol

>>105650
Had no idea there's a term for this. I feel it.

>>105650
all of this thread is "teeheee look im a schizoid, look at how unique and cool i am teehee"

>>120902
This is how I am with my writing. Sometimes you just don't have the inspiration or motivation. Let me know if you find a way to get it back nona

>>120902
You just have to start. Tell yourself you're only going to do a simple sketch, and momentum will carry you. It's like when I don't want to clean. I tell myself I'm just going to dust a bit of one room, then it's all the rooms, then the house is basically done.