It's like any addiction. You start when you are young and dumb.

I didn't have a whole lot of casual sex but I've had a fuckbuddy or two before. I have an avoidant/anxious attachment style, hell, it's taking me a while to actually feel something for the moid I'm with. I always have walls and barriers up because I know I'm going to be left behind and I don't want to get hurt.

I have casual sex because I like sex. I don't like emotions. If you can't have sex with catching feelings, then casual sex isn't for you. That's fine.

>>129537
If you like sex, casual sex isnt for you. You need to get to know each others bodies first, likes and dislikes etc.

I have personal circumstances that prevent me from being able to have a long term relationship but I still want affection. Its not the healthiest but I can squash my feelings easily because I remind myself of the circumstances I’m in and other things that make me unworthy of a relationship. I also don’t have friends and only really interact with people for sex yet I’ve met interesting people this way.

Sex is YOU conqquering HIM - absorbing, engulfing, stealing his power

Tie him to the bed and blindfold him.
Now you can do what you want without any pressure. No female role, only your own desires at your own speed. You don't even need penetration.


>>129203
>And surely a guy who goes down on you is acknowledging your dominance and practically worshipping you
Make him deserve you. He show some devotion or he won't feel you.

>>129522
You don't need to be raped to do that, and you won't be getting money unless you extort him out of court.

>>126444
OP, if you are still here I think I can understand.

What you should do is to speak to your BF because you will get over it together or not at all.
Make him understand your problem and try to solve it, if for no other reason because otherwise he will stay dry.

The solution I propose is to have him be the receiving end. There is no need for penetration, play with him and tell him what to do.

If that is not reasuring enough, have him sexualized while you are not. Make him be naked for a full weekend, make him tell you how he value you as a person while you call him a walking dildo. This sort of thing will reasure you that you are not his lesser and that sex is neither humiliating nor submisive.

>>129539
You don't know blackpill-chan? She absolutely does not have a boyfriend kek.

You barely sound like a native speaker of your only language, how could you possibly think you're qualified to decide what counts as proper english?

>>129275
me when my enemy makes a spelling mistake

if you were going to tell me to kms you
probably should have hidden your offline status and not needed to aggressively kill stuff in a game afterward for the first time in a week. i meant that shit i said to you. i’m going to outlive you.

you don’t get to have power anymore

I want to gloat to you that I know how to access your deleted posts and decoded the stupid cipher you write them in, but then you would stop doing it lmao

>>129475
moid hand typed this post.

I hate that any time I go into a new job thinkiing I'll be able to look like picrel but then either the dress code sucks, or I end up being too tired to put in effort at all.
it's been a month and I'm still hopping from job to a job hoping to find a somewhat balanced one because it's either too exhausting, too boring, or the uniform sucks, I know that's a silly reason to turn down a job tho
But since most jobs pay about the same, why would I stay at one where you can't even look cute

I feel like such a bitter loser. I went to Ikea last weekend to pick up a skillet and got there when it was full of happy younger couples picking out kitchenware, holding hands and shit. I just felt depressed for the rest of the day.

i’ve become pretty annoyed lately with how emotionally manipulative modern politics is. i generally wish there were forms of political content that were more academic, evidence-based, and did not resort to emotional manipulation. beyond politics, i’ve become aware of how emotional coercion is used in everyday conversation, both by myself, and other people.

there’s this trend of people ragebaiting others that, for a while, got on my nerves. i never really understood the point of spreading pointless conflict. but recently i realized that i myself tend to weaponize shame when others views did not align with my own moral values. the more i thought about it, the more i realized how this was produced out of my own desire to control others out of the belief it would protect my own interests. it was selfish in that sense and only really led to my own unhappiness. at the end of the day you can never really control other people’s thoughts and behaviors, and even if you could, that’s not really “them” so much as a reflection of your own authoritarian impulses.

i feel a rough rule for discerning between people who do respect your emotional autonomy and who don't is as follows: if you enter a conversation with a person emotionally stable, and leave it feeling ashamed, exhausted, pulled into conflict that didn’t initially involve you, or angry, especially in the form that leads you to feeling mobilized against others—all without progressing your views in some way that is productive—you are likely dealing with someone who is being emotionally coercive / is not respecting your emotional autonomy.

i generally feel like the world would be better if everyone just put a bit more effort into controlling impulses to emotionally manipulate. again, you can’t control others, but you can find people who get it and don’t resort to these tactics.

>>129542
also

grey rocking helps a lot with ignoring emotionally manipulative people

Femininity is lame, so you're doing something right.
Anyway, connection and closeness is not something so mystical and wonderful. I think if you got what you wanted you'd realise it's just "okay" and you'd be just as fine on your own.

i love you, internet stranger

im really wishing the best for you anon, i have been struggling with deep insecurities for years. all i can say is you have to try getting on the path to healing, it will take time but it will be worth it in the long run. please take care hugs

i struggled with this exact thing nona, and while it can come from a wide variety of places, what is important is understanding that there isn't necessarily one right way to be a woman. for a woman who isn't traditionally feminine like myself, it can feel like there's no place for you. this isn't true. the world is big and you are you, and that is exciting! there's a place for every kind of woman, and being patient with yourself while finding female friends will help open your eyes to this. it will get easier, i promise. take care

Question- does your friend care about how you're feeling? Enough to ask how you're doing? Basic empathy stuff.

Also, if he's just ramming it in without using foreplay or even lube, he hates you and is only using you for your youth. Do yourself a favor and leave before he baby traps you

>>129432
Not OP, but… uh oh… I met him when I was 18 and he was 25…

Being an ugly girl is like being dead but you still have to feed yourself and pay taxes.

my witch fren made an altar for me this full moon. not sure if it worked (or is working) or not but it's nice.

nona you should hire me

No, we have witches at home

No. Magic isn't real.

I also always wanted an obsessive bf but after self-reflection i realizedit's because of insecurity and a need for constant ego boosts. Growiing up with not enough attention and care from my parents makes me feel like if someone isn't unhealthily obsessive with me/not love bombing me means it's not love

>>129533
Napoleon usually wrote his letters while doing two or even three things at the same time. might have been geopolitic or diplomacy, or managing a network of spies. I wonder what else he did when writing this one.


>>129534
You do not want somebody who if fighting Austria half of the time as a BF.

I'm a wagie but it's all wfh since 2020 so it feels like being a bedrotting neet anyway, but also I have to do boring stuff all day. It's terrible

>>128736
Is this little guy dead? I hope so.

>>128738
No he's getting an x-ray under anesthesia. Also rude

Im a neet for like 10months now because i had one too many mental breakdowns working with my dad. I mostly try to help around the house and take care of myself. I cook, clean, talk with friends on discord game, make art, read, but ive been going out on walks to get some exercise and fresh air. I gotta get my resume updated and start applying but im afraid to.

fuck around on the pc, browse my phone, smoke pot, harass my cats. I do occasionally go out for walks at the park and I definitely plan on being more active in the summer