>>121561
I couldn't mow his lawn, it's pretty big and on has a big hill part. I guess I could make him some meals. As for cleaning his house, the tension between my other siblings who are there a lot and I will probably thick enough to cut. I'm a little scared to deal with that. I should though, so I guess I should just suck it up. Maybe it would be a good way to do as this Nona said >>121516

I remember this time when my younger brother was trying to start a fight with my second oldest brother and after catching him, threw him through a fence. My brothers remember these kinds of events fondly, but that sort of stupid moid stuff always scared me. I think it’s because they didn’t have a mother figure and they communicate very physically. I had a dream last night where I knocked on my eldest brother's door and my second oldest picked me up and throw me into a china cabinet. He would never, but I think subconsciously am really nervous about this situation.

They like lasagna. "A way to a man's heart is through his stomach", right? Couldn't hurt.

>>121567
I’ll head over tomorrow. I’ll give you nonas updates as to whether I’m thrown out a window or I’m actually useful.

>>121567
Hope it all went well at the visit. The aggression between each other is just a moid way of exploring boundaries, very important. My mom used to intervene between my brothers when they were fighting as kids because she was uncomfortable with it and they've sort of become enstranged as a consequence, it's sad because they could've been best friends.

>>121624
I think they did. sorry my posts have been sloppy. I usually only post here after drinking a bit. I’ll try to write more clearly to the 3 people reading my posts XD. Even if no one actually cares, it kinda feels therapeutic writing about it, even if I’m not the one suffering most here. Also I’m going to be super rambly here, so sorry in advance. Also I know its probably obnoxious having me refer to my brother by older and young, but if I use a fake name, I’ll probably start using their real ones by mistake.

So, I showed up at my eldest brother’s house last evening. When I pulled into his driveway, I saw my second oldest brother since he was outside laying down a bunch of stones to make this terraced garden thing. In high school and college, he had a job in earthwork/construction, so he is pretty good at that sort of stuff even though he works in a lab. He zones out really hard with headphones and he didn’t notice me until I was right next to him. I spoked him and he dropped a big stone on his foot, but he was cool about it after rolling around in the dirt for a bit. He told me he was trying to make a cool new garden for my eldest brother because he wanted a nice garden and to change things up to remind him less of his wife and kid. I guess that makes sense, although I’m not sure why he doesn’t just move from that house if it’s that much of an issue being there. My older brother did not pick me up and threw me into a piece of furniture, so thankfully my dream about that was no prophetic.
When My older brother and I went inside, and my younger brother and eldest brother where inside playing call of duty zombies. I think my younger and second oldest brother carpooled after work to head over to my eldest brother’s house. My sister wasn’t there that day. For about 2 or 3 hours, we played zombies. When we were teenagers, we’d play zombies a bunch since my eldest brother bought a Xbox 360. I never liked playing it much, but because COD was the only game my brother would buy, the area I was in was too rough to run around, and I had no friends, it was one of the few things I had to do growing up for fun. The only person who hated it more than I was my second oldest brother. He owned a computer as a teenager that he’d play his own games on and was willing to do stuff outside by himself, so he never got as good at the game as the rest of us. We spent a goPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>121636
So, we start a fire in a firepit in the backyard and just hang out. We talked about some childhood memories and our family. It was pretty calm and nice. Eventually, my eldest brother gets messed up and My brother carry him to his room. Only my older brother came back out since my younger brother decided to pass out too. Things became pretty awkward since we weren’t talking, and he kept going over to the stick pile to keep the fire going. I don’t remember how, but we started talking about our lives and what we were going to do about our elder brother. He told me something about his old job being willing to taking him back, since he was one of the few people at the port who could get things done. I suggested we try to find him someone else to start a family with, but he said that it would be a bad idea. He also poked fun at me about being too alone myself to be a good wingwomen anyways, but I thin he wasn’t being mean since he doesn’t really have any relationship experience either. I have a lot of trouble reading him, especially when drunk. I remember asking him if I should go to the gym with everyone else and he told me I could but that I probably wouldn’t like it. He said he was going to try to find a beach or hiking trail this weekend, but I said I probably couldn’t make it. Not sure why I said that, but I did even though I never have anything going on. At some point we just start throwing asmany sticks and leaves as we can on the fire to try and make it huge. Then I remember sitting down and resting my eyes and waking up on a couch.

I’m 90% sure I was carried inside but I can’t remember for sure. I don’t know if this is weird, but I enjoy it when you smell like smoke and wood after being around a fire. I called out of work today because I was still kinda buzzed when I woke up and I hate my minimum wage job. I’m still at my brother’s house and I’m probably about to play zombies again in a few minutes as of writing this. I already cooked up some dinner with the help of my younger brother. I want to tell them I will go with them to the beach or whatever. My sister is coming too, so it would be super fun, I think. Idk, this whole situation feels weird, but I think I’m happy. I’m going to try and talk with both of my older brothers some more.

Not dear Mom
You should've aborted me just like you originally planned. I know you had two abortion attempts but each time you changed your mind at the last moment. It's unfair you gave birth to me just to remind me how much you didn't want me and how much of a burden I was for the next 23 years of my life. It's unfair how you never taught me anything of value, laughed at me, abused my cat, criticized everything I liked (like my hobbies), called me names, often told me I can't do anything right and always picked my alcoholic father over me because scrotes' attention was always the most important thing for you in your life, besides spending money on jewelry and clothes and other bullshit, that caused you to get high in debt and going as low as stealing my pocket money I got from grandma. I never forget how I had to do my homework with a candle as the only source of light, because you didn't pay the bills again. It's unfair how you neglected my dental health for years, it's unfair how you mocked my mental disorder and told me to kill myself.
I'm glad you died (although cancer was very cruel on you and I never wished a painful death upon you, I just wanted you to disappear somehow, and after a few years of prayers God granted my wish), otherwise I would never be free. I hope I will never see you again after I die and I will only see my cat.

>>121409
oof.
i know its rather weak consolation, but everything that didnt kill you makes you stronger.i can only imagine how strong of a character you must be. never lose hope

dear rheek terra
going by a new name changes nothing when new call out posts are made daily

gorilla? you called him GORILLA

>>121409
That's quite understandable. Your mother was probably a product of her upbringing aswell. But you can improve yourself, because you are aware of it!

Your brain keeps changing and evolving as you get older. The younger you are, the faster you change. People are expected to marry young…

It's a recipe for disaster. You will change. He will change. You divorce if lucky. If unlucky you end up stuck hating each other in a loveless performative measure with cheating as your only personal outlet.

My dad cheats but will not divorce because he thinks it will be the social death of my mother and that is more cruel to her than being cheated on. This was true maybe like 30 years ago not right now. My mother stays because they own stuff together and dividing it is a waste of money. The marriage was over back in 2019-2020 but the illusion must continue.

>>121617
If you ever hear my mother talk about love , marriage and kids you will get the feeling that you are talking to an unmarried woman in her mid 20s waiting for the right man.

A lot of moids marry with an implicit desire to cheat. Sometimes, they do it because they're too unattractive for regular hookups. Sometimes, they genuinely believe that it's somehow okay when moids do it.

thats why my bf proposed to sign a contract upon marriage that will make him bankrupt if he cheats or mistreats me

>>121340
>usually of lower intelligence
Not particularly. Their intelligence is usually trained on direct competition with other males rather than on technical instrumentality so it's kinda apples to oranges.
>at frat parties
It's true that college football players make up a microscopic percentage of college students but somehow manage to do a majority of collegiate rapes but I don't think frat parties are a necessary ingredient in this criminal pattern. Otherwise colleges could just suspend fraternities until rape on campus stops. I don't think that's worked for those colleges that have experimented with frat elimination.

enjoy your karma, janny

>>120331
*except

>>120315
being intellectually-minded but choosing to work in a blue collar manual labour job, it demonstrates a glorious combination of masculinity and humility, and clever, but not some timid nerd who jacks off to hentai but is in denial about being a pedophile

>>121610
Okay Dagny

This might be shit advice but I just try to find things to get excited about, it doesn't have to be anything big, sometimes I try to get obsessed over media or something so I'll be excited to spend time consuming it. Could be a hobby or some little treat you grant yourself on a certain day. lowkey jealous of the yumejoshi bc they always seem to get excited about doing things related to their waifu/husbando, way better than getting obsessed over someone real since you can't get hurt or disappointed either

Sounds like your family is just being a big bitch and making shit dificult for no reason.
Instead of a motel, maybe try renting a cheap air bnb, you may have to be willing to drive out to find something affordable for a week long stay. I did this a few times years ago and helped me destress from my families petty bullshit.
Otherwise you could try spending all your time at the library, but I'm a nerd so I like quiet spaces

>>120113
Go outside and get lost. Look around and just look out and see something that makes you go "I want to go THERE. I want to see THAT." Wander out, preferrably walk there, it helps you internalize and appreciate the trip.
Treat it like you're an RPG protaganist, because your really are

>>121614
So her being nasty to you was a good reason to do what she wants? You knew what you were doing but you did it anyway. Ask yourself why. Were you just bored? Did you want to fuck around and find out? Are you just that numb and lacking moral compass? Only you know the answer to these. The important thing is to self enquire.

>>121614
her hurting your feelings a little was worse than fucking hacking someone? it’s a serious crime whether it’s illegal there or not. you’re a creep whether you’re a man or not. i literally don’t believe you hacked her and then looked at nothing. who would? that’s clearly not what happens. and who would spy on someone and obsess over someone they think is a loser? you were both clearly jealous of something and interested in SOMETHING to HACK HER.

>>121615
yeah it’s pathetic. this is the creepiest thing ive seen a nona confess to and they do it defending themselves? like they want us to forgive them and no?

>we got along and she made me realize that life isn't always about your final sat score or your gpa. that maybe its about the little things that happen.
caring abt ur gpa and sat is more valuable than softbullying and uhh hacking a girl

>>121628
i love the correlation between both of their gpas falling past caring about them as their obsession with this girl they stalked grew. karma.

>>121259
Just people on the internet. You know, the most credible source of info out there haha

Glad our advice helped you nona, hopefully that other moid kills himself so he doesn't leach off another naive nona

You want too much for a world that's crashing very badly. You should be grateful you can pursue any career at all and are not forced to protest on streets about the price of wheat. I am not from USA so 90s and 50s were all equally horrid. My mother and my grandmother all of them worked multiple jobs to feed their kids, and even though grandma's husband was military man he just ate too much so that kids had nothing left after he had his part. Being a caretaker IS being a breadwinner. As a mother, you will be the only one who cares and the only one who will have to actually sacrifice something for them. Whenever that's fulfilling is another question, but you seem to have an idea that having kids is supposed to be easy way out, when it's not. Get a perspective. You were not born to laze around, you were not born aristocrat. You can still have kids if you want it but given how you think about your whole situation, you actually don't. You really aren't ready for the lifelong labor that it entails. Men don't really care about children, they lie when they claim to do; and thus they will betray you one way or the other if you expect them to help you with raising kids. Some will lose their jobs, others cheat, third ones beat and drink, the fourth one will be escaping family relations with work and your children will never see him and have same mentality as single-mothered children. Et cetera, the ways men betray their children is endless. There is no winning here because they really REALLY do not care. In any case being a sahm is privilege, a dream; not a right. Having a job however is a right since that's what your own survival depends on. A lot of people nowadays can't even get that much and are forced to be forever their parents dependants with no way forward. Back in the days in European villages there was a custom to keep youngest daughter tied to her parents to take care of household when they are old; she would never have a right for kids or love and when the parents eventually died she was 45-50 out of commission for marrying, growing old and weak herself, forced to be a beggar and abusestock at her brothers family (if they took her at all). Would you like to be born to be that type of "caretaker"?

>>120115
it's really hard econonically right now. honestly, people like to say if you work hard you'll make money and live well, but the truth is, that the wealthy are making 5-10% a year on their assets while the economy grows at 1%. and with that money they buy more assets, increasing that rate. that means houses and rent will continue to go up, services will continue to get worse and more expensive. ordinary people get poorer when the rich get richer. you and your bf would have done enough to own your own home and live very comfortably in the mid-20th century. so don't feel like a failure in a system that makes it extremely hard to just get by.

>>120406
Retarded literally means being behind in development. Kids aren't retarded if they're well developed for their age. That said, emotional isolation from either of the parents leads to at least partial retardation.

>>118960
My best friend's bf was like that and it was miserable to play with them / hear her be sad always because he got mad over a video game. Jesus it's not that serious noona, have fun and stop being a prick, you bf just wanna chill with you, not be part of esports team. Be tryhard but with random people lobby, not your friends and family.

>>118960
Maybe there's another geimu to be mutually tryhard together in if he sucks at class shooters as a genre, alternatively you could send him down paths to draw fire or blow up mines for you while you uh support him

There are types of games i specifically avoid playing with my bf cause while he's not amazing i really suck at them and he doesn't like it because he doesn't want to be upset at me.
Just find another kind of thing you can play together you aren't so try hard at.

I wish I could experience this but I only play jrpgs. The one fighting game I was good has been pretty dead for years too.

>>118960
get an alt account/smurf and play with him only on that account?

>>121575
my awful gangstalking not husband abuses me whenever i log off league of legends guys please help me all i have is a shit work from home job mcdonald’s wendy’s arby’s and burger king know me by name and hate me! i have no choice but to spent all my time on image boards please believe me

>>121575
i work LONG HOURS at the gangstalking factory to afford your xbox live subscription get back to grinding

I want to kill myself.
Covid destroyed my immune system and now I get sick constantly.
My job is being controlled and destroyed by this retard president and his gay autistic first buddy so even though I wanted to get my shit together and perform better at work I am stopped constantly by new bureaucratic bullshit every single day.
I've had 4 supervisors in the past 4 years and this new one is constantly breathing down my neck now that the previous underperformers are gone. She told me to seek help last week but I have nobody but a discord community and my unemployed boyfriend.
Before covid I was doing great at work, I was going to grad school part time, achieved so much all the time. I could work from home some days if I wanted to and I could explore all these new topic areas and implement them.
I'm 30.
I feel like a shell of who I once was.
I started posting content online during the pandemic as a creative outlet and did well enough with it that it became my side hustle. Now there's fucking hitler particles everywhere in the community I'm in though because these fucking pick mes would do literally anything for clout and pander nonstop to moids who don't want women or anyone besides them to have rights. The one thing that made me happy and was an outlet for me and made me feel like I could be okay is tainted by grifter bitches. I have neonazis trying to fuck me in the comments now and I'm too scared to say don't bring that shit around me because apparently being a literal neonazi is "apolitical" now and saying you don't want to be around that is political.
Everywhere around me I'm surrounded by this fucking ideology. It feels like we learned fucking nothing from world war 2.
I feel like I'll lose my job at any given moment.
I drown my sorrows every night by doing edibles and trying to not think at all but my brain won't fucking stop.
I'm not as smart as I thought I was.
I left my ex-fiance because he was unsupportive of my hobby two years ago and he took the dog in the split.
I gained 30 lbs.
I'm fat. I'm sad. I'm stupid. I can't do anything right. And I could live with all of that if this world was worth living in, but it's just not anymore in my opinion. Nothing is getting better. America is dying. Children don't know how to fucking read anymore so that's just going to make the whole maga problem worse. There's no hope for the men of gen z and whatever the gen after them because they've been mind poPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>Rock bottom
>Has a boyfriend
Pick one.

>>121583
Most places hold your application for 6-12 months. I reapplied yearly for several years before going WFH. I should have been clearer. There are WFH jobs with few credentials but it's not easy, as I already elaborated on.


> Years pass. Decide to try a test
The years later thing was a test to see if he'd still sabotage things.

>>121584
> do you believe every thing out of a homeless man’s mouth too?
This is what I was replying to.

>you’ve had twenty years to get in these programs like please.
And I've been passed over for that long despite reapplying and checking in on my applications.

>>121585
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