why do you bite yourself?

I'm 20 and also used to self-harm, I can also get quite anxious. You should try some fidgetting toys or trying to release that anxious energy on something else. Exercise, art, writing, music. It will be hard at first and you'll have to force yourself to not self-harm. The more you practice eventually you'll condition your brain to express it in whatever other way you choose and it'll get easier.

I don't recommend talking about doctors on self-harm unless you're 100% sure you cannot control yourself. They could send you to a mental ward if they consider you a threat to yourself, and that place is more often than not a worse experience. Cheers nona, good luck

>>131446
i can afford the art school without loans, it would end up being cheaper for me than the university! they ended up giving me a lot of aid.

I've been having a horrific bout of OCD caused by seasonal affective disorder that started in February and hasn't left me alone since. It went away for a little bit because I was distracted by stuff like the fact that I was moving but it's all come back and I can't fucking get rid of it. I'm literally pacing around sobbing every day now and I don't know how to feel better

she mentions 15 seconds into the video that she has a boyfriend btw. literally living on easy mode.

>>130869
He’s right tho, all the people here are unfunny and like the nona he was replying to, she is literally like a female mtf tranny. the fact his post is still there with all the 15 yo male threads means this site is dead.

i have retard fatigue

>>131480
>>pink nipples
good taste.

>>131480
>Right leaning + not feminist
extremely cringe

>>131463
>bald
cringe

>21-25 or not stupid
>does not really identify with anything, cares about humanity as a whole (dutiful and self-sacrificing like a male feminist)
>can survive and make peace in any situation (such as being trapped in a basement)
>good fat storage, slightly fat because he takes care of his needs
>promiscuous and easily charms others to have homosexual relations (“my husband’s bf”)

i have cptsd, i personally stay away from medication after many bad experiences with it as a teenager. i don't think medication treats the main issue, which is trauma. medications have short-term and long-term side effects.

i really really really recommend searching on youtube for trauma-informed yoga tutorials. this helped me a lot, it was actually magical. they let me begin to stop blaming myself for what happened. ive cried (in relief!) from them and for 24 hours after yoga i don't have self-hating thoughts about myself. i like to take a warm bath and then follow the yoga tutorial afterwards.

journalling has been a slow and steady aid. i have a problem with waking up late at night feeling awful and like im on a raft in the middle of the ocean and the raft is falling apart. a few hours ago, i journalled after waking up at night and i was able to process some feelings. i think the physical act of writing, versus typing, computes in one's brain more solidly.

i also think it's important to enjoy life. feeling good lets us begin to feel again. i know i really struggled with feeling at all. warm baths are one of those things that let me enjoy life. i also enjoy going to museums, playing my guitar and baking. this part is customizable, depending on what you enjoy!

eating healthy is important. i feel best when i eat three meals a day, with snacks in between. id also mostly stay away from drugs and substances in general. i drink a few times a year and i feel this is more than enough. i don't really like how it makes me feel, and i notice i feel worse mentally afterwards.

having socialization and good times with others is so important too. it teaches you that other people can be safe. i know i really struggle with socializing, and for a long time i was a shut-in. if you can hang out with people, even if they aren't super close, i think it's good. if you don't have friends and are very isolated, you could try something short-term like volunteering at a rummage sale. you'd mostly be around old people but you would have a task and some socialization. i did this recently so that's why im recommending it lol.

hopefully this isn't too much! if anything, just try the youtube yoga!! all you need is a cheap yoga mat and youtube.

>>131447
i would love to try yoga but I am a fat D:

Also to answer OP's questions even though she's not here anymore
My psychologist that was evaluating me and the psychiatrist who was managing me both told me CPTSD is more about therapy rather than anything else, medication alone can't help.

Psychiatrist suggested EMDR therapy, but it sounded so dubious the way she described it.
>It was pioneered by a woman who noticed moving her eyes around helped her cope with cancer
like, ok

>>131475
if you have limited mobility, you could try just some of the stretches. im sure there's a way. they have chair yoga for elderly people, so im sure someone could do some kind of yoga if they were fat.

>>131447
>>131482
also, i forgot to mention, somatic exercises have been helpful for me! i recommend sheBREATH on youtube. they are easy to do and help a lot.

Being short with high pitched voice is a death sentence

tbh i hate my voice too actually

What's even the point? Attractive men will never love me, desire me care about me. I will never feel what being valuable is like, what being loved is like. I'm so sick, I don't even want to think about it anymore, I'm going to do it, I'm going to overdose. I just want to be loved and desired, I want to be pretty and worthy

I'm in so much pain, i juust want to be loved

All i want is love having such strong need and not being able to satisfy it is the worst feeling. Im literally starving, mentally and there's no cure for that.. im a dead person who has died long time ago from starvation, thats all. Then you start physically starve yourself too because theres no point in carrying a dead mind in a rotten flesh. I was meant to be buried under ground as soon as I born but instead i had to pay for my sins in this hell because i must've been a bad person in my previous life, right?

>>131476
The scientific reason is when they met you dopamine flooded their brain every time they were with you so it was easy to do nice things and be romantic. after a while the novelty wears off and there is less dopamine so it's like watching a movie you have already seen 500 times and you just want to be done with it.

a mature man knows that doing genuinely nice things and serving they ones they love will bring them joy, even if it doesn't seem like it will.

also porn has rotted men's brains so good luck finding a good one.

stop thinking about sex so much and you will be less miserable. yes, heterosexual reproduction is fucked up when you really think about it, but you have to ignore that and go on with your day

Don't have sex, the only position where you can kill a man while having sex is straddling him.

It is as well not recommended for men to do it, because of the consequences it can give to their male clitoris.

Female humans are not sub humans. If anything, the vagina evolved as that because it was coherent with pregnancy. Females are in charge of choosing who to mate with, females have never tried to be like males if anything they have desired to not be abused or used and discarded.

The ban of abortion in some countries will just make women more responsible of celibacy, if women cannot be celibate then you can say we are sub humans.

It is hard anyway, socially women are raised to comply and do as told, despite the bible proposing the complete opposite, that men should be the ones that should obey and work.

Females are not submissive by nature, if anything, they are raised to be compliant.

I am ignorant in history, so I cannot tell you since what period of time women started being raised to be compliant.

>>131034
>In the process though, women always ran the risk of creating a weapon too powerful for them to control
Woah… It's just like that one Jewish myth about a golem…

>>131035
>Judaism
Yes, exactly

No thought or act by any human can be inhuman. Subhuman is a nonsense word.

Men will have a mirrored anxiety to what is expressed in OP. The social imaginary does not make the interpretation expressed in OP as available to men as to women. The anxiety about the aggression in male sexuality defining them as people and manhood is still there.

Whatever this is:
>sex is the fundamental part of the reality
it comes from a pathological place.

Our sexuality is a part of our psyche and we can learn to accept the contradictions between it and the rest of our minds. Like a child turning on the lights over and over again to see whether the monster they imagine in the shadows is truly only in their imagination and eventually coming to trust that if they were to turn on the light nothing would be there. So can people look outside the sexual part of their minds to see whether sexuality's relation to the aggression inherent in male sexuality has removed their sexual partner's ability to regard them as whole people beyond the sexual context.

It is likely, and overwhelmingly so in a serious romantic attachment, that you will find that upon exposing their sexuality to their partner a man will be relieved to find that his woman has not replaced the totality of his being with a monster in her mind and a woman will find that her man has not replaced the totality of her being with a slut in his mind. That is unless some pathology hinders the acceptance of these ambiguities. Like the one which produces this:
>sex is the fundamental part of the reality
It may be relevant to point out that psychic health is hard to maintain when spending a lot of time online.

>>131178
Back then i allowed my loneliness get to me and i started hanging out with people that i normally wouldn't. I became friends with people just because they liked me, not because i liked them, at the same time i was too afraid to make friends with people that i actually liked.

>>131187
i get that, i hope you are doing well <3

I also graduate a couple months ago and feel very lost, I didn't really have any friends left after high school and I don't know what I'm gonna do for work, my anxiety is eating me up and I can't even get out of bed until the afternoon most days. I'm tempted to kill myself but at the same time I know that wouldn't solved anything because eventually I'll be out of this bullshit and be looking back and be like "oh I can't believe I was so freaked out". I feel like I'm in some weird purgatory where I can't just calm down and relax but I also am trying not to let myself spiral out of control

>>131187
> I became friends with people just because they liked me
lol yeah this usually ends up poorly

>>131170
i wish i had stayed away from older men

They don’t like autistic girls because of their neurodivergence, but because they perceive them as naïve. They can’t maintain relationships with neurotypical women because they miss social expectations that have nothing to do with neurodivergence and everything to do with being poorly raised, emotionally immature, and unwilling to take responsibility for being a decent person. So they prey on you instead, hoping you’ll be gullible enough to take on all the domestic and emotional labor while they ignore you until they want sex. In their ideal setup, you stay occupied with your hobbies, ask for very little, and only exist when it’s convenient for them.

>>130870
Assuming the worst about people's intentions and reasons is why people become miserable like this. People generally want "autistic" people to date, simply because they want someone passionate with hobbies who aren't normies. That's it. Making up evil or insecure reasons for others actions just isolates you more.

>>131437
Without love, it cannot be seen…

But to be fair this is still a pretty retarded(superficial) reason to want someone autistic.

>>131439
Slightly autistic people are simply easier to love.
If they were the type of autistic that snapped at everyone because they were over stimulated it would be a different story.

>>131441
Liking someone for “not being a normie” and “having special interests” is not liking them for their autism. It may sound better than the previous example, however it’s still just as superficial - only the image of autism.

If you are autistic yourself, if you had a lot of close experience with autistic people (and so learning to accept them, as you would do with any other person) and just get along with them better, now this is the type of reason that has meaning. You may actually love the person themselves.

“Slightly autistic”. “Easier to love”. A childish idea.