It feels more self destructing and dangerous than taking drugs of questionable quality.

>>118829
It is also the most sublime drug known to man. Better than an entire drug cocktail

I knew for sure when I realized I only want to marry and have kids with him.

It’s a hunger a need for someone. When I love someone I need them for my life to have any meaning

One side bliss, one side worry.
Every moment with him is wonderful. Laughter, passion, pleasure. I can open up and be myself with no facade.

Without him is anxiety. Did I mess something up? Is he okay? He’s depressed, so will he leave me? Did I hurt him? Is he eating? Did he get drunk? Is he okay at work? It tears at my heart.

perhaps you could report him for this? threatening you, damaging your belongings

>>121962
He will just act more aggressive and try to harm my sister and me. He knows people that own guns etc etc.

>>120911
meet someone who is equally as mentally ill as you, talk from literally when you wake up to when you go to bed, develop complicated feelings for him, "confess" but make it clear that you're not sure if you actually like him (or men at all), tell each other your worst secrets, profit

op here again. i texted him earlier and he left me on read. i sent him another text after that which he didn't read. i hate my life.

>>120950
Learn not to rely on him.

>>120918
pretty much the same happend to me
for 2 year we sorta dated but i told him we couldnt be with him because im a lesbian
when he got over me and started seeing another girl i realised im probably just bi and stupid
but the coodependency hit really good while it lasted

op here again bumping this thread!! it's been a while since this all happened, but i talked to him a couple weeks ago and i got some form of closure. he basically told me that we got too close, and that he was telling me things about him that he shouldn't, as well as thinking that we were too dependent on each other.

i'm doing better now! i still feel sad about our friendship not working out (especially since i couldn't do anything about it) but i'm not as worried. i just hope he's doing okay. he's a good guy, even if he doesn't always feel like it. sometimes i come across a tweet or tiktok and i'm like "lol toby would like this" and then i remember. oh yeah. can't send it to him because i have him blocked on instagram and imessage. i'm in therapy now (thank god) and hopefully i'll start changing for the better. :)

Daddy issues?

And yet I can't help but love some moids sm

>>121405
It did massively well for it's budget and still retains a huge cult following and the ED is one of the most notorious EDs of all time

I hate how true it is. My ex is a lolicon on twitter. I hate him I hate him I hate him. I want to ruin him. I want him to beg for mercy as I stab him.

>>121953
my ex was a lolicon too and I absolutely destroyed him kek. he's still yearning for me

at times there's a very moot line (ha ha!) between an observation, an exaltation, and a confession. mine could land here, tonight: at times, more than i'd like to admit, i read your poems again and try to… not copy them necessarily, but to internalize their structure so that maybe someday i'll write a verse that you could've thought of. it's the only way i can feel closer to you, pathetic as it is.

i love you. i want to bask in your light. even if you think of yourself as a cool-toned, lichen-y green, everything that surrounds you blooms in fateful silence. yesterday i overheard someone asking what a sound is. i thought of you. i always do.

Don’t ever reach out to my precious friends again, you vicious, soul-sucking demon. It’s been about four months since I checked out, and you need to realize it’s completely over. I feel nothing but animosity for you now. Leave me the fuck alone.

I know it's been close to a year, and I know we didn't last long and that what you did to me was fucked up, but it kills me that I'll never feel again the way I felt when I fell in love with you. Sometimes I see you in my dreams and you look at me the way you did when you first said you loved me and I wake up feeling empty. You've probably been through several other girls since then and you probably broke them the same way. I almost wish it never happened and that I just stayed a femcel forever. Getting a taste of how other people live was bad for me. I find myself craving things I know I can't have again. I need to accept that some things aren't meant for me. The worst part is that sometimes I miss you even though I know you're scum. I met your ex before me and you literally dumped us with the same bullshit story. It kills me that you changed my brain forever and I'm just a footnote to you, if that. I hope that my replacement is smarter than i was and that she recognizes what you are and leaves you before she gets hurt. And I hope that I can stop feeling the hollow space where you were. I hope one day barley tea stops tasting like you.

Dear A
I should hate you. You cheated on me despite a year of love and loyalty together. You’re 20. You call me immature but your ex is still wrong you’re not unloveable,I still love you even if it hurts. I hope my Australian underage replacement understands that deep down you’re a monster with the facade of a cute innocent boy and leaves you for another older man. I hope you kill yourself and your last thought is of your broken promises to me. I need you and I hate you and I love you. We can never be together now but I will always remember you and how you made me feel like a princess rather than a smelly useless femcel. I’ll be a femcel forever to remember you by. No one was able to pretend to love me like you did.

>>121956
ruin his reputation

Physically and mentally tired. I need a week to myself but it's not possible.

My boyfriend let his tranny friend get really close and touchy with me during a hang out, and when questioned later he told me he thought I was okay with it despite him knowing I do not like troons and knowing I am a quiet and private person. He even straight up told me that it was different than if his friends who weren't trannies would have done it. It happened a few months ago and he's apologized for it but I can't get over this because this sort of behavior was exactly what my parents would do when I told them boys were sexually harassing and molesting me in elementary school; just a total brushing off and avoiding it. They never cared about what happened to me and now I'm dating someone who still doesn't care. Nobody ever fucking cares and all my life it just feels like I will never matter and my feelings will never matter and I should just fucking kill myself.

>>121951
Samefag and the worst part is how I can feel myself become bitter and mean when people talk about being sexually harrassed and being upset about it. I just think about how it's not a big deal at all and it's only because nobody ever acted like they cared about me during my vulnerable times. I don't know how to change, I just feel like I'm becoming a "hard", bitter person. I don't like it.

I can only bond with people online. I’m an adult who lives at home and I wish my parents could understand. My online relationship was real to me.

>>121957
just because something happened online doesn’t make it any less valid. some of us never find that level of closeness in our physical lives, so when we finally do. even online. it means something. it’s real. it matters. and no one gets to define that for us, nona. people who dismiss that don’t understand that connection isn’t about physical proximity. it’s about feeling seen, understood and emotionally safe.

Fit, Makes enough , ambitious

fat and retarded

Tall and blonde British accent. Smart and ambitious
Ideal relationship: he’s dominant and possessive of me I play mommy to him. Lots of handholding and kissing.
Ideal date: lying in a forest together watching the sunrise and making out as we discuss books and baby names.

>>120943
You can look for help here

1. https://telljp.com/

2. http://shelter.or.jp/

3. http://wn-kobe.or.jp/

4. http://osaka-shelter.jp/

5. http://ywca.or.jp/

6. https://www.gender.go.jp/policy/no_violence/e-vaw/siensya.html

>>120944
Some errors here use this in place of number 2.
http://www.nwsnet.or.jp/

>>120945
https://nwsnet.or.jp/
Sorry the 's' was missing

op Here. I let my husband convince me I was the problem again. I convinced myself if I did better he would treat me better. I stopped fighting. I went along with everything. We had more good times, but he would often just turn cruel without warning. And when I didn't give into his baiting he would punish me.

Tonight I agreed to throw out some "contaminated" trash and do extra cleaning. I followed all his instructions. While I was cleaning he was watching tv, eating, and drinking. He kept accusing me of not cleaning and lying. When I finished a task he told me I didn't actually do it. Then he told me I finished too fast. This happened repeatedly until he set a timer and told me I had to spend 2 hours cleaning the entry way ( about a 1meter x 2 meter space including the genkan). All the while calling me a bitch and a liar. He was using headphones so I quietly put on some dirty clothes from the hamper and ran away. I turned off my phone. Bought food because I wasn't allowed to eat until I finished cleaning. Now I'm at a manga cafe. I feel a lot lighter even though I have no plan. tbh the thread of that girl who was groomed and kidnapped who had first made a thread about how to fix herself was running through my head.

>>120944
Sorry for not replying earlier. Thanks for the support. I've spoken with the shelter in my area and they will take me but I have to quit my job which I can't do right now.

I have no plan and I have a medical test and have a big work thing this week but I7ll manage.

>>121922
How often are you going to crawl back to your husband and then come here to cry about how he abused you again.

What's your home country?

you’re not too sensitive. without a face or voice you can say whatever you want without disregard for others. it gives people a pass to vent out any horrid and baseless thought and encourages it.

>>120345
i used to frequent 4chan, but then i took a look at this place and i never want to set foot in there again

tldr; its not you, its 4chan

Nothing on the internet feels like it affects me or is even directed at me.
Instead I feel like I'm too sensitive for social interaction. Knowing people and having them know me in return feels far too intimate and overwhelming, I'm always anxious and insecure because there is so much at stake. The internet protects me from all that. Even if I have to talk to someone 1 to 1 I can hide my face and my life and remove myself from the situation instantly and permanently any time I like.

>>120355
>it's a very small percentage of people on websites like 4chan
hmm, not really, now it's the norm, you easily could see it on twitter or tiktok