>>130924
You're not even old shut up

I wish hijab wasn't associated with islam so I could wear it to go outside at least

>>130927
Maybe try some of the other headscarves out there? Just a thought

And it's never enough, the plastic surgery I mean, even if you could end up in the high end of the normalicy spectrum you won't be pretty which I'm not sure if enough, likely not. I wonder what do you do at that point, I'm still researching on what I need to fix my eye area, I think I need compactness and a decent shape and then malar augmentation after a bimax/trimax, could get paranasal fat transfer to support the nasal base and the nose, it would also pretend nasolabial folds from happening, I need my temples to be shaved to get rid of that mongoloid weird contour, but I've read this is because of how your eyes are developped so like close set eyes are actually orbitals that are too forwardly projected which also gives you blocky face, that's why I was thinking of getting obo because I can't fix that without shifting my orbital bones laterally; I figured out after popping out my braincells thinking about how to alter eye area lower third and mid face is much easier to fix. I would also like to get some cranial top implants to make my head look less flat but these are just options I consider in my mind, I'm still not sure about the obo, I don't need ipd just change the direction of my orbital projection to reduce the blocky appearance of my face, internally; but then there's my skull so I'm worried this may not work due to my already asian skull expanding from the sides, so I think the right thing to do here would be adapting to downgrowth instead challenging against it because that would give the illusion of higher cranial top, the only problem is, however is that this time my ipd will go shit, it's like you haave to sacrifice one aesthetic flaw for another, but I will consult to surgeons and collect more information about this

diet exercise sleep community medication therapy

love.

How do you know she died?

>>130860
its a male man

It pisses me off how weak the human mind is, well, at least mine. You can't study or take in information constantly, there's only so much it can think at a time, then it has to rest. And I have no patience for this.

>>130865
I really feel like these kind of posts are by women but idk really

>>130867
Nope, that was obviously a dood, he wasn't even hiding it.

never beg a man to show you he loves and cares for you. never beg a man to chase you. especially not an avoidant one. the minute you have to do these things you should just assume he doesn’t give a fuck. i’ve tried for more than a year now to get him to care and he doesn’t. i beg for him to love me like i’m some pathetic idiot. i’ve lost all my dignity. i have nothing and he knows it. i want to die everyday. it all hurts so much. my only comfort is that it will all be over soon.

>>130893
Expired moids is all you can get as a sub5

>>130887
So you only tolerate men when they’re approaching the male pattern baldness stage of life? Interesting.

>>130895
You still did not explain why you consider late 20's and early 30's moids "ancient."

>>130897
That's what you get for picking moids with shitty genes. Do you go for moids with autism, too? Would probably more matched for a shotafucker because spergs have the mentality of a child.

I'm a little tired of repeating myself, but I really want to clarify (once more) that I don't want anything to happen between me and him.
CAN SOMEONE TELL ME HOW DO I MAKE THESE FEELINGS GO AWAY INSTEAD OF FIGHTING EACHOTHER?!

>i just wish guys tried to be interested in what their gfs liked as well.
I honestly write a lot and even show it to my bf but he doesn't care to read it and then complains that I don't tell him much… but tbh I cannot express myself irl quite the same as I do on paper… but he doesn't want to read…

>>130847
honestly I got bored halfway through this boring ass rambling post so i can't blame other guys for tuning out when you speak

>>130848
awesome!!!! ive been sorta inactive on here for finals but i saw your thread literally today while i was making this, haha. super cool to see another schizo, i dont see many ppl talking about their experiences on the schizo / psychotic spec!

also yea, even though it’s a slop pov video made for engagement, she’s just borderline ageplaying and nobody in the comments is saying anything 💔

my interests r pretty underwhelming; mostly into transformers, modding and emulating, newgrounds and old Internet forums/sites, and im trying to look into linux… one of my friends has been encouraging me to make the switch but i honestly dont know too much about it rn. there’s plenty of other girls in all of these but my point still stands!!

>>130851
Oh that's cool I also made one mod too. What ws your mod like? I want to study this stuff a bit further because I simply enjoy learning and this relaxes me. Anyways nice to meet you nona

They don’t like autistic girls because of their neurodivergence, but because they perceive them as naïve. They can’t maintain relationships with neurotypical women because they miss social expectations that have nothing to do with neurodivergence and everything to do with being poorly raised, emotionally immature, and unwilling to take responsibility for being a decent person. So they prey on you instead, hoping you’ll be gullible enough to take on all the domestic and emotional labor while they ignore you until they want sex. In their ideal setup, you stay occupied with your hobbies, ask for very little, and only exist when it’s convenient for them.

Looking at yumejoshi type pics fills me with a certain emotion and, strangely enough, a sense of affinity for the other.

I have a hard time expressing affection by default. I state everything matter of fact and I'm kinda just in my head most of the time, with my nice or romantic gestures reduced to the same few moves.

But with art, I can become a slightly different person. It's like I enter a dream-like state where everything gains more color. This makes me think of my beloved more and get more involved with them…

I really start to wonder if romantic love is just fantasy based. But also, it's interesting how immaterial things once again can affect one's perception and actions so much. I think this is important.

My bf was naturally good at finding beauty in another, in the way I describe it. I don't think he needed cute pictures for this. Something I actually admire a lot in him.

>>130737
Why is it cringe?

>>130863
I honestly forgot wtf was I thinking when I wrote that post. I think what I find cringe is the general reasoning for veganism more than anything else. If it were something like "I won't eat meat because I'm not a casual" I'd think that's kinda awesome.

Lolcow’s lonely women thread and murderer documentaries on youtube really make me feel not alone in being really isolated and out of touch from reality. Thank you lolcow autistic experiences thread and weird people youtube documentaries, also the strange people thread here on /x/. This is something really hard for me to come to terms with as it fills me with dread.

I did a bit of tradie type work for a little while and it inspired me to go back to college. The work itself wasn't bad but I can't stand the type of people who do manual labor. They are all egotists and/or have huge chips on their shoulders. Tons of low iq out of shape people who are always trying to posit themselves as better then someone else and put each other down. That, or they're drug addicts, or maybe both. I knew that if I had to spend 40+ hours a week around these people for the rest of my life I would eventually snap and shoot up my workplace. I feel genuine sympathy for any intelligent decent person who just likes carpentry or whatever and has to deal with this all the time.

>>130604
I live in a nice area and a manual labor guy helped me jumpstart my car I wish I bought him a coffee or something

>>130861
Im gonna think about my mishap here the rest of my life

average white man in 2026

advanced porn addiction

>>130804
surprised moids haven't invented competitive porn addiction yet

>>130805
don't give them ideas

How old is he?

Test

Ok here’s the last one
Someone offered to compare us to ow character and here’s mine
I wanted to post this
> You're Sigma, or Sybren de Kuiper. A self-absorbed old man with bare feet. Totally insane. One day, your life's work drove you mad, and music became a permanent fixture in your once-clear head. It might sound creepy, but madness actually suits you. A rather aloof character, it seems he can only truly feel at ease when alone, which, I think, resonates with you. You're comfortable in your own world, pieced together bit by bit, often excluding any unnecessary connections. I think you're a thoughtful and engaging conversationalist, but you have issues that prevent you from opening up to people. But the question is, do you really want to?

Interesting. I remember being an extroverted, lively, and talkative child, good-humored and sociable, but very naive and easily impressed. I remember being constantly reprimanded by the adults around me, especially my mother and teachers; the other children and teenagers around me were also awful. Because of this, I became increasingly withdrawn, preferring solitary activities similar to those I was interested in. Due to this, over the years I simply lost the habit of interacting with the people around me, I just remain silent, I arrive at places without speaking to anyone, and I've reached a point in my life where I simply don't miss it. I only have my fiancé as a friend, and my younger brother, as he's immediate family. I wonder if I might really have some kind of disorder or condition, or if being completely solitary and unsociable was just a habit I acquired throughout my life.

>>130786
A disorder is really about a state where a person is distressed by their condition. The personality disorders don’t exist physically in your brain as a unit, a schizoid or a borderline does not exist, it’s just a loose group of phenotypes, that are usually pretty idiosyncratic.

Um, what’s my point… I think we’re both the same. And whether we’re disordered by the DSM or not, that may be beside the point. My goal in this thread was to share my experience of what it is like to be me and how I came to be. Do I have a disorder? I don’t know. But I had serious issues with functioning. I know my environment caused this in some way. I still don’t know what I am, but I can describe the phenomenon of myself.

Um, thanks for replying. Sorry I just woke up so I may be incoherent

Oops meant to say egosyntonic not idiosyncratic