I'm so fucking sick of my pickme coworkers, one pickme from my shift is friends with two guys who hit on me in the past, I refused one of them, I was dating the other one but nothing sexual in terms of genital contact happened between us because a) he turned out to carry a dangerous STD (I asked him to get tested and even after we knew he's carrying the STD, he was still pressing me to give him oral and was guiltripping me and calling me an egoist when I refused to touch his genitals. I still had a health scare though, because I thought I caught something just from him touching me because I got a damn infection. But thank god it was just something bacterial bc the scrote didn't wash his hands before touching me, of course. I tested myself for STDs for my own sanity and thank god I was all clear. I know there's a small risk for transmission through fingers but it's still a risk) and because b) he was toxic and idolized Andrew Tate lol. So I stopped dating him. I'm still a virgin but I bet the scrote either told her he fucked me or that I treated him very badly because she has a strong dislike for me for some reason, and she still claims the scrote is such a "good guy" and women are so pathetic and evil for not giving him a chance. I also dated our mutual coworker but again, nothing sexual happened between us, just kissing. But from the way she treats me I just know she thinks I'm a dirty whore who jumps from one man to another kek. She makes fun of feminists and women who sleep around, and I know she already put me into the second category. I'm not friends with anyone from my shift and the other 2 female coworkers and our shift leader have a very good friendly relationship. They love to gossip about other people's relationships and do pickme shit like calling sex pests "good guys" and shitting on women who don't want to date them. I just know they talk about me. I wonder if this one pickme knows that her male friend carries STDs and wants to give them to women in a fully aware way? I wonder if this is something he gladly tells her, since they're SUCH good friends? People are so pathetic. When I finally decide to quit this job, I have a feeling I'm gonna just call them names on my last day and say everything I had on my mind for this entire time kek. Just so they know they're retards in my eyes before I leave

>>128859
Imagine if you were a politician or famous to some degree, people would talk bad things about you nonstop, if famous people can go unaffected by something like that, then so can you, don't let it get to your heart. NOTHING HAS HAPPENED.

>>128862
Thank you anon, I will try. Still though, rich people have enough money to separate themselves from those who gossip about them and I have to work with them, at least for now lol

I'm so tired
Every other day I have a new type of cancer
I can't calm down even if I suspect that it might not be the case
what if what if what if what if what if

I have such bad anxiety lately over dying, conspiracies, and the afterlife. Genuinely the fact that we know so little causes me so much stress and anxiety. My only copium is knowing I'm still relatively young so I won't be dying anytime soon but still the anxiety is just looming over me

>>128837
Yeah, I also feel this way. The thought of living my whole life without ever experiencing it because it's kind of plastered all over the media, in books, movies, music, even irl people place such importance on it that if you miss out on it you might feel like there's something wrong with you or you're unworthy or something. But honestly I think most people live without ever finding actual love in general. Most relationships seem to be just out of convenience or hierarchies or shallow shit. Or maybe I'm just trying to rationalize it idk. I mean even if you try to be realistic about it it's still a scary feeling. But at the end of the day I feel like most people feel this way deep down. Its a very human feeling I think

schizo

>>128889 O fuck off, let a girl be happy on this wondrous day, I wish I was schizo, they would send me to some rent free facility until my end with free food, water, warmth and all of that stuff.

go for it omg

Pros
> very sweet and kind, he plans cutes dates for us and is always nice…
> very cute, extremely out of my league
> smartie pants
> puzzle master
> lets me drag him along because he always gets lost otherwise
> has sex witb me on my period
> good taste in films/kino
> very good kisser
> sensible political views for the most part
> not a big whore
> always nice to talk to, very compatible in that way
> really really funny
> gets really sweaty but in a cyte way during sex

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>>128469
>ctrl + f hot
>photo
>hotdog
>photography
>shots
>hot tempered
….

pros:
Very attractive, both facially and physically (big muscles and low body fat percentage) though he does have self harm scars(Burning, cutting) which is off putting, but they’re old enough (doesn’t do it anymore, 2 years I think?)

Very physically fit, can do anything. Goes to the gym everyday.

Very smart. Great grades (we’re in uni), native level fluent in 3 languages, can remember many details, can learn anything, immense creativity and imagination, one of the smartest person I’ve ever met.

Very affective (also a con sometimes but it’s not deranged level). Constantly saying "I love you", asking to hug me, kiss me, lick( yes he really likes licking me there) me. It’s not lovebombing (I think) cause I can feel that he enjoys(?) "worshipping" me? he doesn’t ask for the same amount of devotion back even though it kinda forces me to reciprocate. He always wants to hug and cuddle. He himself told me he "loved loving me" (?)

He’s pretty good at acting, not top tier actor but he can be really funny with it. He likes impersonating crazy characters, which is REALLY funny sometimes.

He’s really into cunnilingus

He’s a likable person on the outside and the inside. He sometimes can just go into crowds and talk to people, (harmlessly) prank them in many different ways. and start conversations and make friends.
He can vent a lot about his emotions. He loves sharing moments with me. I love when he looks at me with puppy eyes. 🥺
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>>>128885
Also I found out he’s autistic (did a little digging) but he never told me. I also think he might have some sort of other mental illness here and there.

oh god gaming alone on tonight of all nights and listening to that soundtrack and tycho and toy boy and lord huron all in a row… the lavender marriage of all lavender marriages. i know what he was doingggggg.

friend of my friend.

Jesus, what a faggot…

it’s genuinely obvious and i enjoy it. have fun thinking of me.

>>128880
Really chuckling at the idea of opening the post one day to find a hand written, unsigned letter reading "Jesus, what a faggot…", and nothing else.

^
Try taking out your OS and running through the components one at a time until you get to BIOS. Start with the RAM. That sounds like it would be the culprit. Take one out and try booting, if the problem persists try the other one. If that doesn't fix the problem start replacing components one at a time until you get some signs of life. I doubt it has anything to do with the CPU, those things are super durable. Just my process, you're on linux so you almost definitely know more about these things than I do.
Good luck and please give updates!

>>124183
I tried to boot into the bios in all sorts of ways but it didn't do anything. I tried swapping out the drives too, same thing.

Additionally I scanned the whole system for malware but didn't find any. I ended up wiping the Linux drive just in case.

I fixed it! I ended up reseating the ram and fixing the Linux system and it works like new now!

what a dumb, surreal thread

>>128879
I should add that I'm 22 and don't have any stds

I've only slept with women, I'm afraid to go the full way with a guy

I identity as bisexual but I'm sexually confused, I'm not sure if I'm a lesbian

I live in a town of sorts so there's not really a local lesbian scene for me to explore

I feel creepy for being attracted to women, the majority of women I've crushed on weren't interested in me at all and I easily obsess

How do I tell which women are lesbians without asking?

>>128842
Immoral and emotional

>>128841
>picrel
imagine thinking autists are unemotional

Anyway, some women are fucked up people. They're a bit less ballsy about it than men are and will be more underhanded, cry-bullying, morally justifying their own sadism. But the pathology is the same.

Lots of hypocrisy, people that care more about status symbol rather than their friends happiness.
Lets say your friend has some grievances with her bf, not toxic shit but just some annoyances, the so called "friend" will say dump him immediately.
She doesn't care about the long term happiness of her friend thou, she just wants her to dump the guy because guy.

>>128856
This shithole examplefies it nicely

>>128856
And to add on top of that, this female friend of yours all along is waiting on the sidelines and shouting , encouraging you to break up with your boyfriend to leave you all alone. Only for the friend to use it to her advantage to bring along her own boyfriend and rub their relationship in your face while you're at your lowest point. It's all about dark triad and her having the most power in your friendship dynamic.