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>>11768
You would let someone other than yourself be the authority of your reality? Pathetic, you'll never be a cult leader.

>>11764
>Cards
6 of Pentacles
6 of Cups
The Hermit

>Generic Reading
6oP - Generosity/Giving, assist others without expecting anything in return
6oC - Nostalgia/Children, reconnect with the past and grow from it
The Hermit - Introspection, reflect inwards without external distractions.
The Hermit usually means "No" when drawn in a Yes or No question.

>Raw Kabalistic Meaning
6oP:
6 - Sephiroth Tiphereth (Balance/Harmony/Beauty)
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tarot.com says my next year's tarot card is the Devil.

>>11779
That devil will be AI counselors, yep

>>11780
As in getting chained to them or letting them go?

>>482
Countries where euthanasia is legal do not apply it to people with only depression. Euthanasia is for patients that will 100% die due to an illness and are suffering because of it

>>573
Could be potentially easier and cheaper by setting a controlled fire inside your car and locking everything, but dont do it

>>9856
>>6598
Back on this thread 3 years after my initial post. Relationship fell apart after 2 and a half years and I'm living alone in a city with not a single friend or support system. I'm doing uni and even started an antidepressant in hopes of improving my mood but I'm still suffering from the same issues, unable to perform most tasks, can't engage with hobbies and interests etc. I am not really alive, just here.

Suicide is such a beautiful dream to escape into. Dreaming about waking up dead, being hit by a car, dying of disease and finally having some physical manifestation of what's going on inside. I'm craving an end to pain. I'm not fully committed to the idea as I don't think I've hit rock bottom just yet. I still crave love and conncetion though it's extremely far out of reach. Do you guys feel like it was doomed from the start? When I recall my memories it seems there was always a veil of tragedy and quiet alienation over my life. I'm going to keep trying for now but I'm researching methods in the background for when I inevitably give up again.

>>11758
i recommend sasu forum. i hope you find the peace you are looking for.

every now and then I hear about a bunch of dumbasses die because they ran their car in a garage for warmth
makes me wonder is it really that easy to die sometimes

>>11744
are you heterosexual and is the girl cute

Everyday I am fighting the urge to try and catfish an old friend. Just pose as some rando online so I can strike up a friendship again. Purely so I can just snoop in on their life, I want to know all the gritty details of how they are fucking up. I also have the urge to just straight up contact them again so I can rub it in her face how much better my life has been since I stopped talking to her.

I know this isn't healthy, but the schadenfreude is so addicting. Last I heard from her is that she identifies as a system now lol

>>11773
larping as a system is crazy work. now i kind of want you to do this and tell me the details. i’m so fascinated by people who do that. like would she just message you paragraphs of role play and stories then come back and be like actually none of that is true. this is what’s true. and then repeat? i would be so curious what they made up. also if they reused your stories you told them about you as a character.

>>11774
I'm not too sure if I will go through with it. I managed to find her twitter just remembered how draining it was to actually speak to her. I did find out some some details. Seems that she started identifying as a system after dating a chick who also claims to be a system. They both seems to ship all their alters together. I think I am content just stalking her for now, she seems to really believe this shit. She is blaming all her lost friendships (including mine) on an alter doing "dormant" or whatever the fuck.
If I ever do change my mind I will post as many details as I can here without getting caught.

>>11775
god i wish i could know her socials already but you absolutely cannot risk it. i always wonder what it’s like for those people when they break up do they accuse each other of faking it

>>725
I've seen them in person and it's the most claustrophobic place you can be in.

>>291
Reminds me of Twistee Treat

does this qualify

>>719
As fake as the chimney and shoe pile.

New scary fact.

>>11672
>>11714
>>11714
Googled it up, it’s false

>>11746
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Psychopathic men are better able to mimic prosocial personality traits in order to appear appealing to women

>>11672
No. You are inside a skeleton. Look again.

Portal to what? I felt like taking an edible, so I did.

>>11739 based Nona

Its a portal for spiritual awakening and setting Intentions via manifestation. Due to 11 being a "master number" that represents intuition ans manifestation, the fact that it shows up today doubled amplifies this energy to create a portal between the physical and spiritual realms. It also doubles as a cosmic reset button for change and transformation due to the celestial alignments, but I personally dont know too much about that.

>>11740
Hmm. Well as it happens, I felt driven to stop procrastinating and waiting for conditionals before doing a bunch of stuff

my dad SA-ing me. all my teeth falling out

>>10880
I had some scary nightmares about holes appearing in my body that were making me disappear, faceless family members dying in a car accident one by one, my grandpa raping me (he's sweet irl, never hurt me nor been creepy in any way), seeing an uncanny dog with human eyes and being so frightened and confused about it, getting lost in a world consisting of nothing but light and shadow, no objects or anything but horrible music playing and the shadow half of the world creeping up on me, beating a young child with a stick and not being able to stop, and so on…
But the worst one was one where I felt really dizzy and was convinced that I was going crazy. I got really sick and had to throw up and I felt like I was going to pass out, people brought me to the doctor and said I had psychosis and mental problems, I thought I was hallucinating and I was put in some room that was just really metallic for sanitary reasons and I threw up more and I really believed I was actively losing my sanity and sense of reality and that meant I was actually dying and it just felt extremely real and even after I woke up, I still had the lingering fear that I was going crazy and couldn't tell dream from reality and what if I was really sick and going to die?? Luckily, that feeling went away after a bit, but I was still kinda spooked all day, that nightmare really shook me.
…I've also had a couple of dreams where people tried to kill me, but I killed them first, so it was fine and I wouldn't count them as nightmares. I've heard somewhere that playing video games helps with nightmares and I do kill people in video games so maybe that's why murderers in dreams don't scare me as much? I've also dreamt about the world ending and then me luckily being able to turn back time to stop it and similar dreams, so maybe it's also my childish fantasising about having magic powers that helps me with stopping some of my nightmares from getting worse. Idk, who knows.

>>10904
Fuck. me too. It just never stops, every week they are in my dreams. And I end up waking up irritated and overwhelmed that I can't be bothered to get out of bed. How does one stop this?

>>10880
I've had so many of the same nature. Where my boyfriend is watching cp/making cp of me when I was younger or talking about cp. It's fucking disgusting everytime. It's corrupted my impression of him and I can't stand being around him without feeling disgusted. It's so over.

>Surrounded by colleagues and strangers in a public environment
>Brother tries to make me happy by being annoying
>Suddenly were alone
>Brother creates a dangerous situation by accident
>I try to save us both, situation increasingly gets worse
>When we're about to lose hope the dream transitions to me being isolated and brother being implied dead
>Always have to suicide by whichever means to end dream
When i was in high school there was a period of time where i had a variation of this nightmare every night for a month straight, i am not suicidal, nor even like him that much.

>>11361
I need to know more about this person. Their use of lighting and angles is unique and honestly very visually stimulating. I’ve just been staring at their art for a while now. I need to know what happened to this person so they feel compelled to create such genuinely unsettling art.

>>11361
Are you aware furries are often also pedophiles? They groom kids into becoming "cubs".

>>11671
I hate furries and know they groom the shit out of kids, but cub is the furry equivalent of loli/shota. I've not seen furries refer to minors in the fandom as cubs, I think that would be too on-the-nose creepy even for them.

>>11671
>>11673
>often pedophiles
That's any moid group tbh, not exclusive to furries.
I've always found moeblob pedos to be more numerous than anthro cub pedos, but that's probably because I'm in more anime spaces than furry spaces.
Idk about furries who are into actual animal depictions or animal-like pokemon though. I'd imagine those to be worse by default.

>>10117
>>11633
im not gonna lie this is amazing and genuinely the type of art that i aspire to create. the artist is obviously skilled and chooses to create in such a transgressive art style willingly.
>I need to know what happened to this person so they feel compelled to create such genuinely unsettling art
i draw simmilar art and to me it was life-long isolation. people treated me like filth my whole life so i began rejecting societys standarts for whats appropriate, and that included its standarts for what is "good" art. id post a few of my own pieecs but im skittish and dont wanna hijack the thread

>>11656
To be fair it gets posted on Lolcow too but mods are quicker to delete it and Junkuchan has multiple posts of it that stay up for weeks

i remember one that was instructions for some type of craft where you wrapped duct tape around a spoon handle, held the spoon over a lighter to heat it up, then held the spoon under tap water. because of something something pressure the spoon would explode and a bunch of ppl replied with their hands all fucked up

>>11635
>Is there even any non-disturbing side to 4Chan?
If you consider trannies shitting every board with racebait bs, MAP pedophile supporters bragging about le so called “c#nny” and immediately get mad at you with a “are you lost?” type of shit parroted message if you dare to double with them, right wing supremacists not being able to stfu about le 104th low IQ conspiracy theory about shit nobody cares about things & people isn every board being a hugbox and posting the same shit thread for a whole of 10 years straight… and someone people are fine with this and consider it a great “anonymous forum”.
Then yeah you could consider said website to be creepy and disturbing by how obnoxious the people are there!

Weird ramble but I used to lurk /wsr/ and there were constant random threads with a photo of a girl, often wearing say a mortar board/obviously a uni student, with the single request "who is she/what's her name/what's her social media".

>>11724
Creepy.
I used to post on /wsr/ because I just like helping people and I also filled draw requests on some boards, but I stopped because that moid community is garbage, perpetuates violence against women and well, everything that >>11695 already said, it's shit and I don't want to contribute to a place like that getting any traction.
I sifted through alternatives and I'm really glad I found this place and other, more positive altchans, especially since most altchans seem to be even worse than 4chan.

>>11708
Ewww

>>11703
How'd you go nona?

praying 4 you

>>11719
little bit of money gained not 8k though
>>11721
Thank you :)

Cant, im manifesting my 10th grade crush stalking me.