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i wonder how HNW nona is doing i hope she got the help she needed it's so sad seeing her replies here

>>10372
What do you mean by "the help she needed"?

>>10299
Was the military trying to spy on you by hijaking the camera or microphone? Or where they just snooping through your files on the pc? Also its kinda funny that you can just lookup a military IP on the internet like this for example 156.112.111.142 though I doubt that they would do something like that but who knows, maybe someone was trolling by using the military prefix. But kek idk.

>>4513
I'd pay to see ugly women/chad theater

>>4525
based af and too true

>>4844
yeeeeeees

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>>10376
Every time anyone claims attractive man/ugly woman is a thing in real life the examples they bring to bear are ugly men/average women.

Tulpas aren't real.

Kek, what's your tulpa like and what do you mean by feeling strange, nona?

>>9303
Good for your Nona, Use your newfound knowledge for good

>>10232
GOOD FOR YOU NONA, YOU DID NOTHING WRONG. fite fire with fire

>>10366
you didn't know any better, its ok

ok, worse thing i've done… i've cyberstalked and
harrased cancer men

>>10367
you mean the zodiac, nona or? kek

>>10368
would you believe me if i said both?

jk, the zodiac

got involved online with a guy in his mid teens when I was in my early 20s. They guy looked/acted and sounded like he was over 20, had a full face of facial hair, deep voice etc which is why I believed (as did my online friends at the time) that he was in his 20s. found out he wasn't but didnt think it was a big deal at the time, in hindsight it was probably grooming. Honestly, the fact that I blew any chance of being an e celeb before I even tried with this dumb bullshit bothers me way more than the guilt. But there is some guilt. It eats at me, it really does.

>>10388
for legal reasons I'd like to specify that when i found out his true age I stopped doing anything with him but we still talked as friends a good while after that when I should have just blocked him

what is it about

Didn't know it had seasons, though it was just a website.

>>10009
Basically, it's a series about the conflict between nostalgia and innovation. I think thats what its about, what I got from the Wendigoon video. But it has this character called Ellis who basically looks like a hot Emo

Season 1 started with "Reefer Melody," season 2 starts with "Reciever"

slay, queen

>>10380
idk, I might be. I do enjoy telling lies

>>10379
Nona I wish nothing but love and strength for you

>>10190
DID isn't real you just talk to yourself

>>10383
I believe they believe it, but it's peak delusion and it seems to only happen in extreme cases of child issues though more often now due to media making it "known" through movies and books where the kid hears about it then probably uses it as a cope for their outbursts and whatnot (or takes on the persona of their imaginary friend to fight those harming them and suddenly the friend is "real") then the delusion gets more and more "real" to them as time goes on and into adulthood they're essentially a skitzo with their beliefs and need extreme therapy to snap out of it. Whatever anti delusional therapy entails plus whatever issues caused them to feel the need to put on certain personas in the first place

>>10385
Double posting but I should add, I'm not trying to talk from any point of malice, just my observations from knowing someone who definitely has it as opposed to a faker. Also I'm not exactly totally fine myself in the head so I'm not looking down on anyone who believes they've got a split personality.

I studied in Tokyo for a bit and there was this cute guy at my bus stop. I followed him off at his stop for a bit before stopping cuz I realized how fucking creepy I was being. I didn't want 2 stalk him I was just curious where he lived so I could figure out how to meet naturally but I realized and hauled ass back to my apt quietly.

>>10109
make a voodoo doll <3

>>10202
glad you're doing better nona <3

OP is definitely me in disguise,I do that to my ex gf because I love her so much!!! I love her!!! but I love other people as well it's a bit of an unhealthy obsession though that might be due to my C-PTSD and my personality disorder!!! anyway I just sit and rot in my room while playing osu and browsing these threads!!

damn, where do I begin? Well, I keep a file of dox information of pretty much everyone I meet on discord, all information they give to me willingly, but I keep track of it all in case they ever wrong me. I also cyber stalked a guy I had a crush on when I was back in highschool. Ive made alot of alt accounts on various websites to spy on people and keep track of them saying things about me. Even going so far as to interact with people who have blocked me and talk about myself with them without them knowing it's me. Oh and one time while this cute coworker was taking a nap in the breakroom I took some pictures of him. Actually I've done this to strangers I thought were cute a few times too. Oh and whenever someone is in a vc with me and turns on their video I immediately take a screenshot and add it to my dox file.

robotripped 860mg with boyfriend and i think that was the most profound love ive ever had for someone ever inthat single concentrated moment.like i was in a dream of love…barrier broken.. i got thrown into 2d abstract realm like just 2d shapesand geometry and i had lived a whole life in this little world until he came to me like god ofthe whole universe and he looked so indescribable to me because i was just a little 2d creature and my eyeballs could not comprehend 3d i feltlike crying because i thought i was dying and this was me going to scribble fractal girl heaven… he led me to my bed and told me to lay down and close my eyes and when i opened them i was back in 3rd dimension and i was like oh my god you saved me you made me 3d again!!!!!!!!!!! until he dissipated and realized boyfriend was asleep by now and not even in this country actually. after slight moment of despair induced clarity immediately i became an alien in a beige waterfall room that was really nice

I got a shatter 2 pack and it's got pink princess and lemon haze
The lemon haze tastes quite nice and lemony and the pink princess doesn't taste like much but both give a fantastic high. I smoked a bit of the lemon haze today and feel pretty relaxed and a soothing happy feeling that has eased my anxiety. I really love it
I tried the pink princess after having smoked a joint on the way home so no idea what it's like on its own but I'll find out tomorrow night. I love the names and they were under 30$ which was great for how wonderful the high is. I'll definitely buy again. And next time I'll remember to be use less per dab cause it's pretty strong haha

>>10343
lol dabs are like the crack of weed

raises your tolerance so much so fast bc of such high potency that eventually no other form of thc affects you at all

>>10344
I think if done recklessly for sure just cause it's so strong, but I've personally found I use less overall now (once I figured out how little to add lol). I also like the experience a bit more in regards to the flavour and the high it produces. Flower always tastes the same to me lol
I take a dab when I need and I find the effects I want (relaxation and anti panic attack/ptsd issue) last much longer than smoking flower, plus I'm coughing much less which is nice. Probably cause I'm smoking less stuff at once but also cause it smokes out fully without leaving much residue or extra plant matter. The first night I got it I definitely over blasted myself but now it's just a little dab maybe 2-3 times a day on a bad day and I'm trying to go down to once at night or at worst once during the day on a bad one. Since it's so strong and I feel it for a while, I think it's easier to keep myself away vs flower where I'd add a little pinch to my bowl here and there not noticing how much I've smoked as my anxieties and memories creep back in.
I like it much better than a vape cart, with vapes I found I really messed my tolerance up cause it was right there and the effects went away pretty quick it felt like even if it's supposed to be pure concentrate. It also wasn't great on the lungs cause unless you buy expensive they add so many filler flavours to the vape, and even the "pure" stuff isn't the same as actually dabbing concentrate I've found. Tbh I think those cheap 90% thc flavoured vapes kill people's tolerances more than dabs will unless they're at dabs cause flower doesn't hit anymore which wasn't really my case. I swapped cause I heard it was better than trying to vape the stuff and after getting a rig it is cheaper cause you can get pure concentrate for about half the price of a good vape cart and yeah, it's better than the vape. Maybe I'll check in a few in the future and find out I was totally wrong but I think if used responsibly it could be more beneficial for people who smoke often to swap a bowl of flower for a hit of a dab

>>10355
I also have anxiety and PTSD and dabs literally have given me panic attacks, just like every other form of thc.

Except edibles. I eat dispensary gummies every day and its based af. Mainly a body high but sometimes I get a bit silly and euphoric. Plus, zero lung damage. 10 out of 10 edibles = best form of getting potted up on weed

>>10308
a bit of both. study by reading books or having a teacher can help to open the door by making it easier to see patterns. Divinity is all around us at all times but we are blinded to it. We were raised by forces jealous of truth and jealous of the spirit placed within all of us by the mother divinity. It instilled a set of false axioms meant to break the tie between our body and our spirit. Once the door has been opened (or inner eye, veil parted, whichever vocabulary you use to describe this) you will be able to see and hear the divinity in the world. It may appear in dreams, coincidences or synchronicities, or omens. Occasionally you may even receive a visit from a divine emanation in one of her many forms. You can also encounter divinity through logic such as mathematics or through art.
I would recommend most of the books in the OP. most things are tainted with some falsehood, so allow your heart to lead you to truth and follow whichever path the divinity sets before you.

>>10309
Thank you for your reply. Is there a good book that resonates with you especially? One that has emphasis on mother divinity? A lot of books I come across are very masculine.

>>10310
i liked the book by zuzana budapest in the OP under dianic wicca. You'll see I took a lot of inspiration from her. Mary Daly is good too.
The one that most resonated with me and broke me out of the spell of lies was reading the gnostic version of genesis. I had been raised catholic but since very early realized that the god of the bible was evil. It is especially obvious in genesis: the lie that women were borne from man's rib (and not the other way around), the curses the male god places on humanity like flooding the earth or killing innocents in egypt. He is jealous and vengeful. very unlike a creator and more like a usurper trying to control a creation that is not his. Even from a young age it felt like a trick. Reading the gnosic version is much closer to the truth, though i think their conception of material reality as evil is an oversimplification. the thunder perfect mind is a poem from the nag hammadi library, i think, which has a lot of hidden truths.
Unfortunately lots of traditions about the mother divinity were passed down orally, suppressed, eliminated, or assimilated. If you look, youll find fragments of her in your own culture. Take these fragments and follow them. She is not a vengeful goddess, don't worry too much about doing things the perfect way, just do what you can and she will show you the rest. Ask the women in your family, look at the female figures in your religion, or even look to history or mathematics and philosophy. You'll find her.

About the flooding, according to Plato's work Timaeus in ancient times there where many floodings that actually destroyed civilisations and their accumulated knowledge which they where desparate to pass on to the future generations to the point that underground libraries where built like the ones in Egypt.

Can someone recommend me an introductory book?

>>10144
I joined it :)

>>10144
Aliens aren't real

>>10326
what does it have to do with aliens?

>>10144
That YouTube channel has an email in their bio. I will contact them and report back.

>>10362
what happened?

>>10357
It works very well on me but never on the men I've dated. I think the most effective thing is to rotation date and select someone who 1) you like and 2) shows the least signs of avoidance. The latter requires a lot of restraint and self discipline at the beginning (well before you go exclusive or committed) - don't initiate things or make what you want totally transparent and just see how they naturally behave. Whoever compliments you the most, does you the most favours, initiates contact with you the most, and seems to have their life the most together is the one to spring for. They won't make you feel insecure enough that you'd feel the need to do the hot and cold thing.

>>10358
i already have a bf i'm happy with, i just want more kek