alone Anonymous 255129
I feel like I can't relate to anyone or find anyone I feel like truely gets me. I have a bf who I love and who understands me, he really is my best friend and only friend but without romance I doubt we would speak. Don't get me wrong I cherish him and wouldn't replace him but its just different.
I isolated a lot of my formative years so I never really grew up with my peers and related to them. I used to have spaces online I felt ok but now they are either shut down, died, or I feel like I have outgrown them. I can't make IRL friends due to many factors, being too retarded to communicate, not relating to them, and just being emotionally avoidant. I can't form close relationships with my family, my mom and dad because we fought a lot, the other relatives just because closeness makes me very uneasy and afraid.
I can't break past superficiality with anyone. I can't relate to anyone. My very few interests are boring and kinda niche, but even people who share my interests dont share my personality and I can't relate about anything else.
I feel like even thr weirdest of the weird have people, people online or something, that they relate to and can be themselves with. For them its just a matter of "finding the right people". Ffs even incels can congregate and make friends with eachother. But I can't do any of that, the right people don't exist bc something is wrong with ME. All I have is my bf, who lives 800 miles away, who wouldnt speak to me if we werent dating. Romance is the only way I can make it.
Idk I am so lonely amd feel so shitty about myself bc I know something is wrong with me. I just wanna feel normal. This is crippling. I am tired of feeling this way and being in my own head.
Anonymous 255136
Your experience sounds eerily similar to mine
Anonymous 255140
Same boat anon. Life feels so meaningless when there is no one you really feel gets you and you can't make new friends easily. I don't feel that embarrassed about it but it's so mindnumbing, I almost considered joining a religion to just feel like I belonged somewhere. Life sucks.
Anonymous 255158
>>255129maybe larp as a male and make male friends if you can stand moids
Anonymous 255188
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I deeply relate, though I would find complete comfort in being a NEET (I can’t atm I currently work to pay rent). I was very social when I was younger (16-20) but have found that I despise most everyone I had befriended during that time due to them being retards/moids/turning into troons. The public consistently disappoints & enrages me, I don’t want friends. My partner & pets are all I need, I hope you find peace in isolation or find a way to integrate yourself into a social life. Smoking weed earned me a lot of friends, but I do not suggest if you don’t already. Deeply suggest joining a discord associated with a topic you enjoy
Anonymous 255233
this is really relateable, youre not alone. i try to cope by engaging in hobbies and still talking to people despite feeling disconnected from them but it really sucks. that and spending time with my pets. in general its really hard to truly feel connected when your values dont allign and you constantly feel misunderstood, to the point where you lose the will to even get to know other people anymore since it all just feels pointless
