how do u cope with emptiness Anonymous 317876
i'm in constant need of something that would make me feel like anything at all. Drinking, smoking, binge eating/consuming media/gooning/having sex/finding more bitches/playing video games.. just binge anything
Luv attention and validation, I wanna feeling like I'm wanted, I can't survive without human contact although i hate being around people but I just love being seen in a way i think.
I can't focus on multiple things simultaneously and it's exhausting as fuck. Like if i'm trying to focus on improving my career i feel the need to start cutting people off, and if i'm trying to focus on the gym i'll completely abandon everything academic
I can't find balance in anything. And I also can't feel anything. Honestly the only things i feel are anger and shame, and they keep me in line.
I don't hurt people because I want to be seen as a kind and decent human, I would be ashamed if people saw me in a negative way, but i also have so much rage inside me and little empathy. i tried to feel love towards people who actually cared about me and wanted to be with me but it didn't work.
Can't love anyone and can't feel sad or upset either, even about things that used to really hurt me at one point.
Just existing, trying to make the most of it, having fun and doing whatever, and i feel very disconnected from reality.
no regrets, just feeling off sumtimes
Anonymous 317877
>>317876i don’t know.in my opinion making an impact in society counts, such as volunteering, internships, creating art. humans aren’t meant to only be consumers, it will only make you feel worse if you only consume content as your main hobby.
