'baby trap' my husband Anonymous 318970
s i literally have nowhere else to post this i feel crazy i know this is controversial as hell
my husband and i are doing well. we own a house and make over 150k a year. outside of our mortgage our debts are smaller. i have a pretty serious chronic illness but i am in remission for the time being and my medications are working great. his family adores me. my family adores him. we have a great support system. we want to have a kid but we both want to wait until next year before starting to try.
sadly my fucking BRAIN can't get out the idea of just stopping my birth control and getting pregnant. i am already in my mid thirties and i get fucking anxious about the fact that i might not be able to have a baby. the kicker is that my medication i take leaves it so my specialist suggests that i only try after the half life of my specialized medicine pretty much lowers it to an acceptable level… so i only get six months out of the year. between the smaller window and my age i find myself freaking out that each year we don't feel 'ready' yet means i am letting my clock tick so to say.
i feel like an awful person for even considering it.
Anonymous 318973
Man just adopt if you're ever infertile. Don't deceive your husband.
