/b/ - trans man, ex gf cheated on me

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trans man, ex gf cheated on me Anonymous 07/10/26 (Fri) 11:30:54 PM326225

yeah basically. I fucking hate all these women larping as "lesbians" and "loyal". She was secretly craving cock and cheated on me with a man. All that time she made me believe I was all she ever wanted she was seeking male attention and validation behind my back. Ended up making me feel like shit, hurting my ego and self image. Things changed drastically for me after it happened, now I feel much more dysphoric and weird about my identity, although I look very decently masculine. Nothing is good enough.
When will this despair ever end. Can I ever be fucking satisfactory for a woman. It just gets to me now whenever a woman is drawn to my masculinity because guess who's masculine but with extra gadgets? a fucking CIS MALE, and i'll likely get cheated on with that when they realize it's a better deal.

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Anonymous 07/11/26 (Sat) 12:25:04 AM326227

One of the more confusing aspects of transgenderism is the desire to embody the illusion of sexuality. Even with surgery, your genitalia will never function as naturally as those of a born male and thus any potential partner who is presumably attracted to your masculinity will always view you as less than.

Anonymous 07/11/26 (Sat) 12:28:10 AM326228

Can love exist beyond platonic fondness or fleeting fascination in the absence of sexual desire?

Anonymous 07/11/26 (Sat) 12:43:50 AM326229

>>326227
truth. This is why I can't get myself to date bisexual women. If I date a straight woman, I'll never be good enough for her and chances are she wouldn't be into me to begin with, and if I date a lesbian then I'm just a masculine woman to her. I guess that's my best option and it's what I go with, but I believe feminine women are hardly ever lesbians. They all have an inclination towards being with men, at least sexually, but can't get themselves to do it or accept it because of trauma in most cases.
I hardly can see myself as a man because it feels like I'm fooling myself. But I don't view myself as a woman either, so I just go with trying to forget about my genitals and present myself the way I feel most comfortable.

Anonymous 07/11/26 (Sat) 12:44:30 AM326230

>>326228
idk define love

Anonymous 07/11/26 (Sat) 12:50:07 AM326231

>>326230
It's a rhetorical question for you to consider. Do you truly believe someone can love you beyond a simple friendship or casual interest if they don't find you sexually attractive on account of you not being feminine or masculine enough?

Anonymous 07/11/26 (Sat) 01:05:05 AM326232

>>326231
the only way this makes sense in regards to my situation is if you're saying that nobody will be sexually attracted to me as is, which I don't think is entirely true
It would be hard to find, and I might never be 100% sexually fulfilling in practice, but I don't think anybody can really be either.
Here it would come to love, you might not like all sexual aspects about your partner, but you like other things enough to make you stay. You might not like their entire personality, but other things make you stay.