I wish I knew how to stop being a loser NEET too.
Every time I ask for advice online, all I get is useless suggestions on how to get a job, like going to college, learning programming and applying for every job advertisement online, even those that wouldn't fit you. I don't want to do any of this.
I'm pretty much in the same position as yours, except I'm older and I've wasted my 20s as a loser with no job, no friends, and being terminally online. I wake up with a panic attack every day because I'm so scared of wasting it, and I think the hopelessness of my situation makes anything that I try to do feel stupid and I give up.
I spent a couple of years experimenting with online friends, and this is just my personal experience, but it really isn't worth the time that I invested in there. All I managed to attract were toxic people, and they had severe empathy issues that I ended up playing the role of having to take care of their emotional needs. Drug addictions, depression, self-harm, cheating their boyfriends, you name it. It's such a mess.>I don’t even know how to make internet friends.
Yeah, me too. I even ended up doing things that I didn't like just so I could find a "community" I could belong to, and make friends from there. Seems like that's one of the popular ways to make friends online these days, having similar interests. I hate anime.>I just want one friend, one single friend. I’ll tolerate any amount of toxicity, I don’t even care if they call me slurs and put me down
Someone who breaches your emotional boundaries by calling you slurs isn't a friend in the first place though. It's just my experience, but you're better off being alone than being with an asshole who treats you like shit, but I understand when you say this. Loneliness is extremely painful and makes me cry every time before I go to sleep.>>105154
I try to go out for walks, but I get scared of seeing people and I sometimes start comparing myself with people who I see out and start ruminating about how miserable my life is. Maybe it helps others, but walks only make me feel bad.