Anonymous 110840
>Smallest thing goes slightly wrong
>Intense desire to cut myself
Please help, how do I stop this?
I haven't self harmed in years and my scars are almost invisible but nowadays the stress has been pilling up and I'm thinking about slicing myself when I get minimally upset over anything.
I don't want to relapse, I'm trying to date around again and I don't want the first girl I get frisky with to think I'm a mentally ill attention whore (aside from desire to self harm I'm actually really healthy)
I sound so fuxking stupid, I'm just rambling
Please help
Anonymous 110841
When I was a young teenager I started cutting myself to cope with everything that was wrong with my life and as a result it became a habit to relief myself from negative feelings.
Years later and while I'm living a happy life but in my mind the self harm has fully solidified as a response to anger/sadness, so if I let myself be upset over anything the intrusive thoughts appear again
Not cutting is easy but this is so ingrained in my mind I don't know if it's fixable
Did I permanently full my brain up?
Anonymous 110842
I'm going to sleep, I can't handle this right now
Vent over
Anonymous 110856
>>110840 Mind over matter nona, if you're stressed rn then find more outlooks that's not selfharm. Maybe go join the gym to release stress or punch a pillow but don't let yourself fall back into self-harming because it'll be hard to breakout again.
Anonymous 110875
>>110840why don't you unironically try open awareness meditation? or journaling (but I've always found the latter's conducive to rumination while the former's conducive to real well-being)
Anonymous 110882
Mindfulness girl, you’re already on the path by recognizing it. Training your brain to think different is all about repetition. Reward yourself when you recognize a bad pattern and successfully avoid it — the only way to get better is self love.
unironically gaslight yourself into new behaviours. You’ll be okay <3
Anonymous 111087
My urges have returned too after being dormant for so long.
I either channel it into exercise (which also hurts and takes some energy away) or, if I really can't resist in the moment, I hit myself. Ideally there would be no self-harm at all but at least it doesn't scar.
