>>123056Thank you nona, you are very kind. I have thought of just trying to be a lesbian, and I would definitely prefer it over just being with a man, however, I still think I would feel uncomfortable. You are still viewed as a woman, and your partner is attracted to your (female) body. I know a lot of women struggle with their womanhood but still choose to live as cis, but I truly feel uncomfortable with my identity beyond just presenting more masc or more fem. I am not even particularly pressured by my environment into being feminine and am fairly non-conforming already, but I just cannot shake this feeling of profound discomfort with being female. I was never bullied or abused in any way either so I do not know why I would feel this way either. Even sexually with women I am a little frustrated that I cannot do some things that a man could.
And on the flipside, I once met a guy who was a lot like me, both physically and mentally and I was actually genuinely interested in him, I think because it was so easy to see myself in him and project my feelings onto him, it's when I felt closest to actually being a man, it didn't work out in the end but if I men another guy like that and if he wasn't hypersexual I think I would actually prefer that over being with any woman.