Anonymous 123119
how do you come to terms with being too ugly to be loved? how do you accept that you're never going to experience the rush of a passionate relationship? how do you accept that no man will ever be able to look you in the eyes and tell you you're beautiful? how do you live with the fact that even if you found someone its better to leave it at that so you don't have children that will suffer just as you have? i feel so stuck and isolated, ive been isolated my entire life. i dont have the social skills neccessary to be a "personality" "as long as youre happy" girl, so even if i could be seen past that it would amount to nothing. there is nothing i could offer someone past the looks i dont have.
oh and before anyone says some "just improooooove" i starved myself and gymratted to the lowest weight ive ever been, to my peak physique, nothing changed. nothing improved. my bones are completely wrong. this is not a problem i can fix and its getting harder and harder to live with. without love there is no future, our purpose is boiled down to reproducing, continuing our bloodline, finding love. its not something i'll ever be able to do. it's over and done.
Anonymous 123122
>our purpose is boiled down to reproducing, continuing our bloodline, finding love. its not something i'll ever be able to do.
well… that's just not really true. I've seen some monkey looking people with kids in subways. Like no offense to them or anything, of course.
I know that me saying this probably doesn't help, though. I'm sorry, nona. I would love to say something that would restore your faith in yourself, but I don't know what that is.
Anonymous 123125
>>123122i dont want to have children because i can't have them suffering the same way i did. i couldn't do that to my child
Anonymous 123149
I don’t think there is any getting past it. I’ve just learned to live with the pain, disappointment , and rejection.
