Anonymous    125983
>be me
>be 21
>former drug addict
>get healthy
>become giga-stacy
>finally go to uni 
>tfw socially awkward
>tfw people interpret my inability to talk as standoffishness 
>mfw i have close to zero friends and im halfway through my major 
i go to a very small private uni as well - everyone knows and talks to each other. its a very isolating experience.
i was gonna talk to some people about my new rice cooker today but i got so scared to do it in front of everyone else in class i just didnt. 
>aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
should i just go to therapy? wtf is this complete inability to talk to people ive been around for a year and a half?
Anonymous        125984
>>125983im devising 12 step machiavellian strategies just to ask a guy what music he likes listening to
 Anonymous        125986
>wtf is this complete inability to talk to people ive been around for a year and a half?
I don't know you nona but I've known people who are like this (including myself). Often it's trauma that's impacted one's development. You're saying you're a former drug addict? That's associated with unsafe environments, which again might not be true for you, but unsafe environments lead to trauma, trauma leads to having a hard time connecting to others who aren't traumatized. (broadly speaking) You being scared to talk about your rice cooker is indicative of it, too.
>should i just go to therapy?
maybe, idk, could be worth trying. You need a safe encouraging environment to overcome this and a therapist may provide that. They're not as good as having an actual free support network, but maybe they can provide some help.
Anonymous        126040
>>125983update: ive made a pact with a fren to not overthink for all of october and just do things. 
i call it "omit overthinking october"
so far i have talked to at least 5 people i have barely spoken to in the past year and it turns out they do not in fact bite 
will see how the rest of the month goes 
i recommend everyone tries this challenge