I feel so fucking cringe constantly and don't know what to do about it. Anonymous 127657
We had a work social today, and the goal was simply to relax and connect with people. Still, it left me with the familiar feeling that my presence somehow makes things more awkward rather than better. Being one of only a handful of women in my IT internship and classes seems to amplify that insecurity. The other women appear confident, approachable, and well-liked, even when they’re shy or socially awkward themselves, and they don’t seem to struggle in the same way.
I can’t help wondering what I’m missing or doing incorrectly. I know I’m not conventionally attractive, and while I try not to dwell on that, it’s hard not to feel as though it puts me at a disadvantage. I’m not seeking romance or attention. Just genuine, low-pressure friendships.
I make an effort to reach out, especially to my female coworkers, but plans rarely materialize on their end, even though they seem close with each other. I’m respectful and well-meaning, even if I come across as a little odd at times. Despite that, it often feels like I’m standing just outside of a group I’m trying to be part of.
Anonymous 127660
honestly I just wanna say I sympathize while offering no real advice
I used to be like this but I can't put a finger on why I got better
probably the exposure effect plus people I feel comfortable with.
so are you lonely nona? do the people in your life uplift you or not?
Anonymous 127662
>>127660Not particularly no. Most of my female influence came from my grandmother and then she passed when I was young. My mom and sisters never provided me any emotional or positive female support. So I just think lesser of myself more often than not.
I'm a bit lonely, I mean people talk to me but it's more last resort/floaterfriendy. So I don't feel a genuine connection.
