/feels/ - Advice & Venting

I am a black girl from da hood and I hate it so much. And no this is not self hating shit, I don't hate being black, I just hate that I was raised in a ghetto desolate city with no hope or future. It's just ghetto shit and I don't relate. I never did, when I was a kid I felt so alienated from everything in my real life so I retreated to the internet since it was the only way I could find non-normies. Everyone around me is obsessed with rap and gang culture shit so it's hard to find peoplel that admire classical and deep stuff with fucking meaning. I wish I was born in a small French town so bad. I want to learn French so I can join a nunnery there. I WILL fucking escape this life. I will make it out of here. A part of me dies every time I have to leave the house.