Anonymous 130287
I'm ugly. I'm overweight. I'm extremely socially anxious and autistic, which is why I haven't had a single friend in almost ten years. I lack hygiene, I'm incredibly insecure and feel the need to kill myself when I have to think of my pathetic existence. Nothing is fun to me because I cannot concentrate for the life of me. I have tried to change my life multiple times but I cannot stick with it. Instead, my body keeps being pulled in to bed and my fate is probably to rot here forever.
Only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because I'm still young, only 20, so I am hoping for a miracle… Advice would be very appreciated. If there is any at this point.
Anonymous 130288
I was similar to you, I got an ADHD diagnosis and got put on Ritalin
>feel much less urge to binge
>More focus
>Don't constantly doomscroll
Anonymous 130289
I was similar to you but I didn't change until I found someone worth living for.
I think people sometimes underestimate how important close relationships can be.
Anonymous 130290
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>I'm ugly.
You probably need a good haircut (very good for emotional release, even just a monthly trim), pluck your eyebrows, shave your face and find clothes that suit your colour season (this is literally the biggest hack to 'looking good' - the right colors make you look healthier which is a instant upgrade). Makes all the difference.
>I'm overweight.
Weight-lifting + cook everything from scratch. Get your thyroid + progesterone/estrogen checked as this can keep you fat/depressed.
>I'm extremely socially anxious and autistic, which is why I haven't had a single friend in almost ten years.
I'm still working on this, I make myself go out to events where I can at least say hi and join in with an activity in a group. Also using Wild Violet bach flower remedy actually helps me relax enough to make small talk.
>I lack hygiene
Mix any shower gel in a cup with lots of white sugar, shave/trim your pubic hair then scrub vigorously. Use a non-aluminium deodorant after. Put a specialised cleaner through your washing machine + clean the tray of any mold. Put your clothes on a hot wash with lots of detergent, sometimes it's just your clothes that smell bad and not you. Also, eat kefir/full-fat greek yoghurt as the final thing right before going to sleep - made a HUGE difference to my personal smell.
>I'm incredibly insecure and feel the need to kill myself when I have to think of my pathetic existence, Nothing is fun to me because I cannot concentrate for the life of me.
If you can't concentrate then you need to see a Doctor, could be ADHD or a nutritional deficiency of some kind (like iron). You sound like a younger me talking OP, it does get better if you try to change one thing. I thought I would need plastic surgery on my body to ever find a man, I was so wrong about what I thought about myself and the world opened up once I forced myself to be brave and try different things. Now I have a home, a husband and beautiful children. I'm rooting for you OP, please see a doctor about your health first.
