Being an ND, black woman is a curse Anonymous 132518
I've come to terms with the fact that I will forever be alone. Being forced to move as an expat and sheltered ruined all social skills (that I never even had) and detached me from my birthplace, breaking all connections I had. I'm not a likeable person, even online, and I don't even know why. In a group full of people, I always have a notion that I am hated and nobody likes me. I swing from being very proud to ashamed in interactions. My family doesn't like me either. I've been made a lolcow on several occasions. I haven't had a real friendship since I was 13. I'm about to go to university and I genuinely feel like ending it to save myself from the suffering ahead of me.
Anonymous 132519
>>132518Nah you're probably alright. People just like it when you say "Hi, how are you?" to them so you have to say that more. They really like that shit
Anonymous 132520
>>132518>NDNorth Dakota?
Naked Dancing?
Nanny Dependent?
Anonymous 132521
>>132519no matter how fucking friendly you are, engage in small talk and initiate convos where they can rant about themselves, it won't go anywhere when people don't like you
Anonymous 132523
>>132521Okay but what's not to like about you? You're not mean, are you? People don't like meanies you know
Anonymous 132524
>>132523i think over time ive become quite oppositionary and unaggreable, but when I was younger I was very bubbly and kind, and was still very alienated
Anonymous 132527
>>132524Well when you're different sometimes it can be hard to fit in but that just means it takes a little more effort to get people to understand you. You know people like it when you help them. Maybe try helping someone you see who looks like they need help
Anonymous 132528
>>132527in all honesty I still try to be kind to others, but I genuinely hate humans and that's never going to change.
Anonymous 132529
>>132528I can't blame you for being angry when you feel you've been wronged but you should remember there is light and kindness in humanity. There is strength in rage but there's even greater strength in hope. I hope one day you come to truly understand what that means
Anonymous 132530
>>132529there's no hope in humanity, from the time of our existence all we have done is committed evil. i say this as an objective viewpoint not from my experiences
Anonymous 132531
>>132530And yet we press on in hopes we will one day realize a better world. Always pushing forward always striving for something better
