/feels/ - Advice & Venting

So I need to get this off my chest and also I know it's totally my fault but idc I want to moan about it.

>I miss my ex (I'm retarded I'm sorry)
So I broke with him a year ago and rushed into a relationship afterwards, before we broke up we had been dating for 3 years! He hit a rough patch and honestly I didn't think he would get out of it (he was just depressed no abuse/addiction) and well I met my current boyfriend at my campus so basically I started knowing him and eventually decided to break up with my ex to be with my current boyfriend. And well now I regret it, my boyfriend got uggo and fat plus I think he is addicted to porn because he can't get it up anymore, plus we don't do anything outside of smoking weed and watching movies from time to time. And yesterday I got the urge to check up on ig how was my ex and he looks happy… plus he recently got a girlfriend and they look happy… He was a good boyfriend I know that now, he was just sad I didn't even try to be understanding. I feel bad

>looking back I miss him….
> I fucked it up so bad..