how to date when you're a chud? Anonymous 133372
genuinely i feel like i got nothing to offer. i have a job but it's minimum wage and i'm struggling to find work elsewhere. i can't drive even though i'm in grad school. and i'm chopped af (even though whenever i say this people are like "nooo you're so pretty ahaha to make me feel better. like bruh if wasn't ugly i wouldn't be here).
i usually end up third wheeling while my pretty friends get hit on or listening to their woes of people thinking they're hot and it just makes me feel weirdly uncomfortable because thats rarely happened to me. and obviously i don't think they should get attention they don't want! but i guess i feel a terrible sense of jealously over being desired even if i know it's wrong. it's weird and makes me feel guilty.
it's gotten to the point where my online friend made a weirdly nsfw comment to me but i wasn't even bothered by it because it made me feel wanted for once? i know it was bad and i should call him out, but it's been the only think to make my heart skip a beat in so long.
idk mostly a vent but if anyone has any advice on how to not be a total loser i would like to hear it ^^ hoping whoever is reading this is doing better than i am
