Anonymous 133377
I feel pathetic.
I broke up with my gf of couple years earlier this year and tried dating guys, and found one who fits me well. We have same hobbies, get each others humor, always a gentleman, treats me well, he has a stable well paying job, is not weird pervert or gambling addict, plays lots of same games as me, and likes the type of music that i do. The only thing is that i don't find him attractive, i am gay and knew this before getting with him, but i wanted to be the one taken care of for once and not have to be the "top". I broke up with him couple months ago when i was sure that i cannot be with him despite him being exactly the partner i like. I still talk with him online and we watch anime often, neither of us have many friends around, he moved to the area couple months ago and hasn't found a local friend group yet. I only really talk and hang out with my best friend but she is crazy busy all the time and we only see each other like once or twice a month, which i appreciate greatly her making time for me. I went on a couple dates recently with a girl but we did not really get along well so we broke it off, she was the only person who held me in a very long time and i miss having physical contact. I told my friend that im gonna see the guy this weekend and she said that its a bad idea, and one of our friends that was with her told me i need to stop fucking around and seriously get myself in order. I know it is, but i am lonely and want to be wanted and i have someone trusted who i can see and spend time with. I know he won't do anything to me, he's harmless, but i feel disgusted at myself doing this. I felt so jaded and callous lately that i think im expressing that by doing problematic things and not caring that its wrong or hurtful to others or myself, i just want to feel something. I need to work on my career and get more out of the house but i need to feel alright before i can take on the world. I'm disgusting for using a good guy like him who truly cares about me but its this or spiraling mentally alone in my room.
I know the answer is simple, get a girl that loves you like he does, but the way i am right now, i do not have anything good to offer to a partner. I guess i could cook a bit, and be supportive and offer advice, but i don't have a stable job or could provide anything substantial. So even if i found a girl like me, i cannot do anything for her.
I don't know why i made this thread, i guess to vent. Please, if you have any advice i'd love to hear it and thank you for reading
Anonymous 133378
Wait… yall actually have boyfriends and stuff… wow
Anonymous 133379
> gay bitch who intentional takes one of the few decent moids out of the dating scene
> expects sympathy because she can't get her life together and attract a capable woman
you know we all hate you right? does this moid even know you're gay or did you offer him some excuse to keep him around while you keep him from the rest of us?
Anonymous 133380
>>133379> you know we all hate you right?It’s just you. I don’t care.
Anonymous 133381
I'm saying this with all the kindness possible but you've got issues. Seeking men out for validation despite being out for multiple years is such an enormous red flag.
You seem to have this idea that those of us in the WLW scene only care about what you can do for them but that's not true. What is true is that no one wants to give a girl who can't keep her sexuality consistent a chance. It's too risky dating someone who has that mentality.
Nona work on yourself. Become someone who loves themself and feels comfortable and happy being alone. You know this is true. You admitted it. Get out of the house more, work on your career, focus on yourself and the girlfriend will come later.
Anonymous 133383
>>133382Nona, I think your reply has caused me to lose faith.
It's not that simple, you're going to have to work hard at this. You understand that right or was this just a post asking for more validation?
Anonymous 133384
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>>133383I do know it will be hard work, and i know what the correct path is, i think i just wanted to vent my feelings so i came here to just get it out and well, not feel as lonely for the moment. I appreciate your replies
Anonymous 133387
>>133380It's not just them. I get such bad vibes from you. Girl you sound like a parasite.
Other women aren't going to tolerate this nonsense so you go after the moids only to realize you don't like them and that you can't hide the fact that you're not willing to have sex with them forever. You want someone to do everything for you.
And then you turn around and cry because no one tolerates but you'll never do anything about these behaviors will you?
