/feels/ - Advice & Venting

title. basically all of my life ive been making shit up about myself and there hasnt been a single person in my life to whom i havent lied to excessively. i do this because i really hate myself and my life so i dissociate by inventing new lives and personas for myself. nobody knows the real me because ive lied so much. there are countless chunks of my identity that are entirely made up and it doesnt help that i tell everyone a different story. im too deep into these personas to stop or fess up. i compulsively lie about even the smallest things like what i had for dinner for example. its a lifelong pattern and i abandon everyone before they can figure out that i am full of shit