confessions thread Anonymous 51270
i tell my dentist that i floss regularly even though i dont
they can tell, you should just floss.
I tell my parents everything is going fine in college even though I have no idea what I'm doing
I only brush my teeth at night because daytime brushing gives me dry mouth.
I want to date an incel, marry him, and be his first time. I want him to worship me like a fucking goddess, that's my ultimate desire for a partner.
incels are chads in ugly bodies. they still think they are better than us and they do everything they can to upgrade for stacy. when they can’t achieve the social status or success to attain a stacy, they either withdraw entirely and cope or shoot people. incels would never date a femcel. they are fakecels. they are the same dirty animalistic creatures as other moids in their minds. they like to pretend that their physical inferiority grants them desirable mental qualities (they see themselves as more moral for not having sex, and more forgiving for not having the power to reject.) in fact they are mentally deficient for calling themselves incels in the first place, and their cultlike mentality makes them intolerable to even the most patient spinsister. they are sleazy, entitled, sociopathic monsters and if you ever talk to them you will realize this. if you desire someone who will think of you as special, you are looking in the wrong place because they likely won’t even see you as human.
lolno, they are harmless subhumans with zero self esteem and would melt if any woman were nice to them irl.
My bf wants to sleep with other women but I’m not allowed to sleep with men. Idk what to do.
dump the fucking rubbish if he's this hypocritical
Most Incels look down on women.
Get a shy sub instead.
Where does he live and does he lock his doors at night? His windows? Just for research
Reminds me of the beginning of that one green text when the gf leaves the guy for her lesbian friend lol
I've never had a job before but I really want to work in an office and look forward to doing it after the pandemic finishes. It feels pathetic to be excited to work in an office and once I start I'll probably hate it like most people, but I can't help it. I even feel jealous watching those workplace drama TV shows.
I was like this too. The job worked and co-workers were all really bad so I left soon after.
Since my mother isn't working because if covid, I am paying the bills. In exchange, she does some of my uni work.
You are absolutely wrong, I'm sorry. If given a chance, the incel would first tear you down and ruin your self esteem to get below his level before he even thinks about improving himself and making you happy.
A maladjusted chad is 100x better than a maladjusted beta because the chad doesn't need to cut you down that
much, and on top of that he has other women he could run off with and forget about you when you finally break things off. The incel will cut you down to the lowest of the low to make you feel like you need him, and if you manage to escape he'll obsess over you for years because he can't get other women.
Please, please, I'm begging you to stay the fuck away.
This. There's a difference between a well-adjusted virgin male and someone who aligns themselves with a group of people that feel entitled to womens' bodies. These people believe that we shouldn't have freedoms at all. Do you think that these moids want love in the same way you do? They want easy access to sex and revenge on women who they perceive as being unjust arbiters over their inability to get it. Are they insecure? Probably. That doesn't make them any less monsters. Don't take for granted the peace that you have being alone. If you carry on and seek this out you will long for these solitary moments down the line.
The problem is claiming every virgin believes in some ideology or that everyone calling themselves incels do. It's unhealthy and weird to hate some stranger you'll never interact with on the basis of assuming he thinks or believes something.
>>51389>The problem is claiming every virgin believes in some ideology
No one has done that. There is a difference between regular virgins and incels. By self identifying as an involuntary celibate, they are already agreeing themselves with an ideology that they cannot obtain sex against their own will - thereby it is by the will of other people that they are doomed to their "inceldom." Incel is a term that exists solely on the internet. If they are calling themselves one, it means they identify with those online spaces for that subset of people. Now look honestly at those spaces. They are filled with evil people who hate women.>It's unhealthy and weird to hate some stranger you'll never interact with on the basis of assuming he thinks or believes something.
We aren't talking about hate. We are talking about entering relationships with people who themselves will admit they do not believe women should have rights and fantasize about hurting women. No woman should chase a relationship with such a person. The only possible reason you could be defending them is because you believe this is not the case, and that vulnerable women should be chasing these men, and I have to question your motive in doing so, because you either are a moid acting in your own self-interest, or you are also a naive woman who thinks that they are just "harmless subhumans" and is desperate for affection from someone you perceive as being less likely to reject you, which is not the case.
I like to chew up saltine crackers, spit them out, then eat them.
What the actual fuck?
It's not even that gross but it's incredibly weird.
I have a confession to make: I am a good person. Today while scrolling through tumblr I came across an art blog that I was thoroughly enjoying. I was looking through her posts to see what commissions she offered. Then I saw that she had posted a cute selfie with her boyfriend at a coffee shop. This enraged me. How could a fat woman have a boyfriend who was happy to be in her company while I was alone? I was tempted to send her anonymous mail calling her art shit and her a fat slob with no sense of fashion, but I resisted the urge. The devil cannot coax me.
I was like you too once but now I direct anger towards males where it belongs
Don’t get me wrong, I am angry at men too. Then I don’t hold back and really do insult them, but then again they usually deserve it. Just something about women flaunting their boyfriends gets to me in a way male antics don’t (it is not surprising when men are terrible.) I wish I could be less bitter and accept the world for what it is.
Monogamy is the way, stop being a degenerate and reconsider your life
Do not live your life with the sour grapes mentality ok
>>51391>all incels are evil because they all think all women are evil
She’s not wrong anon. An incel doesn’t need pussy, he needs a slap across the face and a reason to self-improve (preferably from a man that he actually respects). An incel (even if he is a victim) cannot be fixed by you and is an enemy to women until he quits his bullshit.
I recommend you try to get picked somewhere else. You could try Twitter
I love my boyfriend, but sometimes he has a problem of getting apathetic towards me because of his past drug problems have fucked with his brain. When he gets apathetic towards me, I stop listening to him. I go on /k/ (I like guns), I watch hentai, read doujins, even look at 3D porn (only the good animators, not the cringy shit)(and no irl porn, I don't want to look at other people naked) just to self insert me and bf into the scenarios. I eat more food than I should, and I do all of this to try to make myself temporarily feel better, even though he has told me not to go on 4chan, and not to look at any kind of porn. Although I plan to stop doing all of this when I move in with him in a month because I will be so happy to get to see him every day and I won't need to imagine us having sex, we just WILL have sex, I feel guilty about what I have done to him because I know how bad he would feel if he knew my secrets.
>>51969>even though he has told me not to go on 4chan, and not to look at any kind of porn.
you like men telling you what to do?
unironically yes, not men in general, only specifically my bf, he's very smart and I fully trust him. His decisions aren't without reason, 4chan is a mostly degenerate site and even has a bunch of porn ads in a lot of places that I don't want to see
Nobody would mind being told what is wise to do by somebody they love unless they lead to self harm, and fucked up shit you just cannot be into, etc, etc.
I get her. I have told the bfs I have had what to do as well since idk motherly instinct I guess, I don't want people to do badly in life.
it should be expected for someone in a relationship not to watch porn or masturbate. it only rots your mind and makes you doubt your partners ability to please you, remember, porn is not real life. I wouldn't allow my boyfriend to watch porn either.
Do you expect that in a relationship your boyfriend will never tell you to do anything?
based, but looking at the stats, women in relationships actually watch more porn the longer they are into a relationship. no idea why though>>51972
i hate all alcohol except wine. i'll probably be the cool wine aunt if i don't kill myself by the time my little retarded brother has a child
Het focused, but my theory: A lot of males probably get their partner to watch their preferred pornography (or lesser degenerate shit) to get them into it as a gateway or the mood. A lot of moids also have no idea how to turn on women, so they probably have to find their own pornography as well - furthermore I would also assume some women could feel pressured by their moid to find stuff he likes too.
I've been unhappy with my online relationship, something I struggle to even confess to myself since I do love him and I guess I'm scared of losing him. I've been toying with the idea of getting tinder again, which I had just started trying out before corona hit, and flirting with girls. But I wouldn't do it without telling him and I couldn't tell him without losing him.
I'm not even sure if I'm capable of loving someone the way others are. Maybe I am autistic or something.
>>51983>moid exposure causes pornography use
Compelling theory. International crystal.cafe sex-based research think tank when?
I'm dumb as shit. I just downloaded an anki deck with single digit multiplication problems and I got some wrong… I also downloaded an anki deck with double digit addition and the problems definitely took me longer than they should have.
Multiplication is just memorising things, it's not about being smart anon.
My dad can quickly multiple things like 18x46 in his head. When I asked him how he does it, he told me his secret. You don't need to know how to multiple all the numbers. Just multiple the closest easy number and then subtract or add the difference. It sounds complicated but once you know the trick and have some practice it's super easy. I don't know why they don't teach this in schools.
You can use it for single digit multiplication too. Instead of 8x9, do (8x10)-8.
For addition, it's even easier: 36+47 becomes (36+50)-3.
If you're wondering about 18x46, do 20x46. This is easily calculated using (10x46)x2, then subtract 2x46, calculated by (2x50)-8.
Hope this helps.
Thanks, anon! I use that technique sometimes! I think it's called "new match"? Maybe that's something different. I want to be able to do mental math, but I'mnot good at memorizing things or doing things that require you to mentally view things.
You just said multiplication is all about memorizing things and then described how multiplication isn't about memorizing things
I like to pretend that I'm a Vtuber and talk to the audience inside my head
For the tables under ten, you should memorise them so you don’t need to calculate them. You don’t need to be smart for that, just repeat them enough times.
The trick I explained is more for double digit multiplication. If the anon is struggling with single digits, they can use the same trick but it’s not as efficient.
For double digits, you still need to be able to use single digit multiplication easily and quickly, otherwise you will end up with more and more sums to do in your head.
Same, if there's no one around I'll talk to an imaginary audience while playing games.
I want to sing a special song for my friend but I genuinely can't hit one of the low notes with my vocal range and it makes me sad as fuck. It's right there too, I can just barely hit the note before it with some struggling but then my vocal chords just turn retarded if I try any lower.
I want to deepen my range slightly but it feels almost physically impossible. Don't want hormones, just want to hit those alto tones.
Can you sing in an octave higher than normal? Might sound a bit too squeaky, but if the low notes are that difficult to hit it's better than messing up your voice.
Yeah, my regular range is actually fairly high but I wish I could hit that low note without having to cheese it as an octave higher or skipping it. Damn.
Maybe I could transpose the scale of the song to fit my range without it sounding too weird…? That's an idea….
I used my main tumblr account to search key words on a childhood friend's personal tumblr and I looked up the most embarrassing shit and I didn't realize they could view what people searched and their account was private or something and I regularly cringe when I think about it. To this day idk if they knew it was me or not
sometimes when my friend sends me vent posts out of the blue, or tries to get my attention because they're lonely and need validation, i'll deliberately ignore them in the hopes that they'll delete the messages so i don't have to reassure them. they have bpd so i spent a long time trying to respond to every emotional message they sent me because i felt guilty ignoring them, but i grew up and realized literally no one is entitled to my attention, not even other mentally ill people lol
>>52051>be me>zero social skills>talking to bpd-chan (only fucking friend in high school)>everything good, we're having fun>suddenly she's venting about her childhood and stuff
just what the fuck are we supposed to do in these situations
It's fucked up but in my opinion those people just need to be ignored and should not be befriended. BPD just comes with way too much baggage.
Listen. That's it. Ask her how she's doing and what she feels about it.
I still creep on the social media profiles of every man I’ve dated longer than a month. I also still keep tabs on a guy I met on club penguin who rejected me. It’s been over 7 years since I actually spoke to him.
ok cool, but could they, like, stop bringing that emotionally heavy shit up while we're talking about lighthearted and enjoyable stuff?
when i tried to "relate" by sharing my own bad experiences she didn't care btw, i feel like i'm talking to a moid using me as his emotional dumpster only this time it's a cluster b woman.
you can tell i initially tried to not generalize all borderlines, especially since she told me that she's working on herself, going to therapy and other stuff but what you see is what you get.>>52054
i've met at least 3 borderlines (probably more but those are people with a diagnosis that i'm aware of) in my life and they all were extremely hard to deal with so i guess you're kinda right.
I still like to go on 4chan.
How can you enjoy 4chan it is ok for nostalgia but it is way too fast and full of idiots.
It is only good for shitposting garbage.
Deleting people you are angry with sounds healthy anon.
whenever i find an interesting person online i stalk them and add them to my "mental catalogue"; my "mental catalogue" is a collection of people that i want to be friends with, but never will.
once they're in there i always daydream about us hanging out. e.g. if i'm watching a movie i pretend we're watching it together via rabb.it or something, if i'm playing a game i pretend they're playing it with me, and i construct elaborate scenarios that place them within my life in a positive way.
i actually have an entire discord server where i talk to "them" but of course it's just me typing at myself and sometimes switching to a different typing style to emulate another person.
going to add that i have one "person" i've been "friends" with since early highschool, so since 2015 (?0 or so. his life is pretty elaborately thought out, and i'm learning how to draw so i can visualize him better. there are others too that i've had around for a similar length of time, but none of them are like him (my first friend), so.
also i'll sometimes swap people out if i'm no longer feeling them. e.g. one of these "friends" revealed herself to be a pretty flagrant racist, and it killed the image of her in my mind – so i had to ditch.
this is honestly fascinating>i actually have an entire discord server where i talk to "them" but of course it's just me typing at myself and sometimes switching to a different typing style to emulate another person.
can i see a screenshot of this?
Anon this is super interesting and I too want to see some of it but I also wanted to say that it really reminds me of the Tumblrinas who think they have split personalities they absorbed from actual people aka "factives" and I'm loling irl
i know they're not actual people. >>52357
*not actual people or alternate personalities. i'm just lonely and sad >>52379
What stops you from talking to one of them or something?
OR due to the relationship going on longer people feel like they need to explore. Whether that be with porn or other people
i'm boring as hell with 0 actual talents/skills and the few times i've nutted up to approach people i want to befriend, i've failed miserably.
i'm not so socially dead that i can't sense when someone just isn't interested in befriending me, or is only doing it out of pity.
Sorry, I didn't mean to insinuate that you're deluded Anon. I know you know <3
>>52402>i'm not so socially dead that i can't sense when someone just isn't interested in befriending me, or is only doing it out of pity.
I feel this. Wish we could chat more or be friends, nonny.
9/10 times me and my boyfriend have sex I have to visualize other women having sex to get off.
I relate a ton to transwomen because I have PCOS and have a lot of masculine features. I'm mildly addicted to /lgbt/ even thought the mask off misogyny there is pretty crazy from both the FTMs and the MTFs.
How does that relate to the vtuber/audience post?
You might just be a lesbian.
meant to be a separate addition>>52463
You could have been a really good athlete
one more thing: if i find an interesting server with a fun community i'll lurk the chats and imagine myself speaking with them. i get pretty excited about it, but of course when the excitement fades it's just me in my room giggling at my laptop screen about shit that does and will never concern me
My younger sister came out as bi/pan to me and I answered "ok".
Inside I had to stop myself from asking her if this was her college lesbian phase.
Sorry, anon. Hope it's a phase or they don't go down the pan road.>>52484
You kinda sound like a maladaptive daydreamer, anon, maybe or with an anxiety disorder. You should seek out a therapist if it's causing you issues with your day to day life. No shame though, I sort of do something similar myself. Cluster C.
Tell her that the term pan is hella stupid.
>>52439>have a lot of masculine features
Me too Anon, but at least we don't have to dilate.
IKTF, I made a thread about it but it wasn't well received because I phrased it like an idiot. >>>/feels/44540
But I too live in fear of female-only communities asking for hand pics. I've posted a photo of my hand for different reasons on different websites and got a bunch of comments saying they didn't realize I was a woman until they noticed my nail polish in the far corner of the image.
How do you ever get used to this being up your ass all day. Feels like I'm back in middle school getting wedgies.
My boyfriend likes them so I try wearing them but it's just not comfortable. Would it be a bitch thing to do if I told him I'll only wear them if he wears a man thong?
Do you actually want him to wear one or do you just want to communicate that they're as uncomfortable for you as it would be for him? If so, just tell him directly that they're uncomfortable.
Just tell him it's uncomfortable to wear normally and put it on it if sex is imminent or something.
I hate society and save a few people, most people have brought me tons of headache. I can not be happy with the way society is. I really dont understand humanitarianism. People are like vampires, they suck you dry, they're ruthless and they intentionally destroy anything in their path. I dont know why I'm supposed to be sympathetic. I'm not really in your face angry but I'm silently tired of it all. It's so confusing for me psychologically. I want to break every rule in the universe that's put there by the patriarchy. Idgaf.
she shouldnt wear it if it makes her uncomfortable
I firmly believe I committed emotional infidelity for months with my last relationship. Not real life ones, but with fiction and games. I stopped loving them and to get that fix of lust or love I turned to a screen or a page. I avoided them, I didn't do what they needed me to do as a partner. I feel bad, but also I understand why I did. It was ending long before it was officially over due to arguing. I was checking out and trying to get my needs met in a safe way.
I don't know, I'd never put myself through that again and refuse to date anybody with certain mental disorders ever again.
No, that wouldn't be a bitch thing to do.
You shouldn't be wearing something uncomfortable to you just to please him unless he's also wearing something uncomfortable to him just to please you.
But this is how the real world is usually. Even if a woman isn't innocent she's rarely capable of being as evil as a moid
You ditched a real person for video game people? But it was your partner with the mental disorders?
You avoided and ignored your partner, in favour for video games.
You should feel bad, you probably made the relationship just as bad for them as they did for you. they're probably going to avoid people like you like the plague now.
I mean anon didn't elaborate, the other person could have sucked too.
I grew up in an abusive household.
>once threw a banana in the trash when I was 5. didn't want to eat it because the peel was completely off and I liked eating it like a monkey with some partial peel. psycho mom ran upstairs with trash banana in hand (hid it in little sister's diaper so she wouldn't find it but somehow she did). psycho mom rammed my face to the floor and stuffed my face on the banana, repeatedly bashing my head in the banana mush. I, of course, did not open my mouth throughout this beating but got a nose bleed from this.
>whenever I cried, dirty socks were stuffed in my mouth.
>got kicked out in the middle of winter. hid in a doghouse and treehouse seeking warmth instead of seeking help from neighbours because I was too shy and felt ashamed.
>forced to wash mouth out with soap if I said a bad word that I didn't know was a bad word. I was just mimicking what I heard at school.
>got locked in closets if I misbehaved.
>verbally abused - was told to stop fingering myself as a teenager in front of my entire family even though I never masturbated. I was ashamed of my sexuality because I was mortified of my changing body going through puberty.
>occasional slaps if I spoke out of line.
>verbal abuse if I made the tiniest mistake.
>blatant gossip behind my back.
>hot frying pan food contents poured over my head.
>the usual explosive rampaging rants on a consistent basis which has made me scared of loud noises.
>my siblings learned this toxic behaviour and also abused me
>hot mug of tea whipped at my chest - got burned and broken shards of glass cuts all over my feet.
>chased by a broomstick with shrieks of rage.
>tried to play the piano. older sister hated the racket and would always smash the piano lid over my hands.
>hair pulled multiple times.
I still live with my parents. I don't know how to escape out of this hellhole because I have dependency on them. I never learned how to grow into an independent person. I'm afraid I might rot and die inside these walls…
ive masturbated to my crush several times even tho its been a month since i stopped talking to him
Sorry that happened to you anon. Have you ever read r/raisedbynarcissits on Reddit? They have a lot of stories about how people have managed to escape. There are also some spin off subreddits that help with teaching you how to be a grown up.
Oh, and if you search “mumsnet stately homes” they have a threads too where you can post and get personal advice (the subreddits are sometimes a bit overwhelmed and not every post gets answers).
literally what the fuck. do you have a chance of earning money, even just a little bit?>>54980
that's very normal i do the same lmfao
I've decided I'm a virgin. Almost every girl who started having sex before their 20's was manipulated into it by the mainstream pedo media and by porn addicted men, myself included. Although I take my share of the blame, I feel like I have been raped. Raped by media, raped by porn culture, raped by the men I was involved with, and raped by my self. I don't want to act like this is the same level of trauma as women who were literally raped, but the negative emotions I have about my true virginity status are so great that it makes me suicidal.
This got me thinking about Christian women who have been chaste their whole lives, who use their virginity as a way to get men to like them. The pickme girls of the Christian faith, if you will. This kind of behavior is like emotional prostitution. It taints their purity much in the same way performing a sexual favor would, because they are giving parts of themselves away shamelessly to people who do not deserve it.
So I've decided I'm a virgin now. I will not give my body to anyone, nor simp for anyone, nor treat any man as if he's already my husband. I've repented and am pure in the eyes of God. And I'm a better virgin than the pickme's, damn it.
I love you and this is so true bestie
Being voluntarily celibate and being a virgin are not the same thing at all. Don't conflate the too.
Face the trauma I have faced and get back with me on that.
I'm sorry for your trauma but I had sex as a teenager (wasn't groomed or anything tho) and I enjoyed it and don't feel bad about it. It confuses me and makes me feel like I'm weird when other women act like sexual desire isn't natural for us or only forced onto us by moids.
based. hope you find peace anonette
I'm a 26 year old virgin and just letting you know there's literally nothing wrong with sex or having desires. It is okay for women to want things.
I'm not waiting for marriage nor do I plan on just giving myself away. Everyone is different and all but there's really nothing special about being a virgin other than moids putting it on a pedestal. It's one thing to regret having sex with a certain person cause they're a shithead and another thing to idolize something that is in all honesty really meaningless. Being a virgin or not doesn't change anything about you. The fact that you've arbitrarily decided you're a virgin despite having had sex before is proof of that. You don't need to pretend you're a virgin to be pure of heart cause sex isn't inherently dirty.
Just curious, have you ever had good sex? I wouldn't take back my virginity. I enjoy sex. It feels good. There's definitely drawbacks with the wrong person but I want my bf to fuck me and do not feel "raped". This is coming from someone who was legitimately raped too so.. idk. Your use of the word is kinda iffy.
You feel however you want about it but telling others to wait because you wish you had ain't it.
evaluate why that makes you mad, if its because you really want to be in a relationship then you should stop holding relationships in such high regard. Your life value doesnt come from being in a relationship it comes from pursuing your interests. finding somebody that will do you good will come naturally as a result, but only if you make yourself available.
but always remember not to relationship trap yourself into thinking you can change people that dont want to change.
healthy relationships have lots of get, give, and compromise. The less you like doing something the more you can get for doing it btw
I don't think you're wrong but I wonder if relabeling yourself as a virgin isn't the right way to do it as that attracts moids too, some who will just want your specifically for your virginity.
I think being celibate (which is also a religious thing) is a better way to go as it removes you completely from the sex thing. However, if you want to find a husband, this might make things difficult.
Maybe just say that you are saving yourself for marriage but don't mention the virginity thing. If someone probes, say you had some bad experiences and don't want to talk about it.
Saying that, I don't think waiting until marriage is a good idea as you could be stuck with someone with weird tastes or keep trying to be too rough. Best to tell them you are waiting for marriage but then have sex a few times before the actual ceremony is organised.
Alright done, that doesn't make you a virgin, that makes you voluntarily celibate. Stop confusing the two.
Hell, if you were actually religious as opposed to mentally ill you could become a "nun" instead because that noun would also describe what you're doing. Go become a bhikku or something.
What don't they get?
I knew a girl as a kid who used to like doriots, like the dust off them completely, then smell it, then eat it, was gross as fuck
Anyone else had a crush on someone while in a relationship? It makes you feel like a piece of shit.
Why? It’s natural and beyond your control. As long as it stays in your head then it shouldn’t be an issue. They can be good things sometimes as they can indicate what you might be lacking in your relationship.
I guess you’re right. Bf and I are LDR due to the pandemic and the crush is a coworker in close proximity (who I barely speak to because autism). I’d never cheat. I guess it’s just loneliness.
i used to do this with hot cheetoes in private of course. i would smear the chewed up mixture onto another cheeto, and eat it.
I do this minus the sniff part
>>55025>almost every girl who started having sex before their 20s was manipulated into it by mainstream pedo media and by porn addicted men
this. i absolutely detest our society. its up to us to guide young girls considering no one else will do it
After around 2yrs in a relationship, I start to get wandering thoughts. I just start thinking of other guys (coworkers, strangers in public, etc). I get that craving for that magical, euphoric “new relationship feeling.” I feel like I don’t want to be tied down and I want to try every cute guy the world has to offer. I know it’s fucking awful. I would NEVER cheat or leave someone over this stupid feeling.
It’s actually been shown in studies that most people are like this. They call it the “honeymoon period”.
Normal people are gross then.
t. virgin who has never been in a long-term relationship
nta but I'm in an LTR and I haven't felt like this. Yeah the honeymoon period tapers off but it's not like all excitement about the other person dies forever, it just settles into being more comfy most of the time. I don't have that new relationship excitement anymore but it doesn't make me think about every moid I see. If you actually can't stop thinking about other people I think it's a sign of relationship dissatisfaction and feeling disconnected from your partner. Again, not the same thing as the honeymoon phase ending, although it can be brought on by it if the relationship had cracks already. Anon probably just needs to evaluate her relationship and maybe talk to her bf.
Anon it’s me >>55180
I’m sorry for calling you a virgin, I’m literally a virgin myself. I know the thoughts are disgusting, but I’d absolutely never act on them. :/>>55210>I think it's a sign of relationship dissatisfaction
I love my boyfriend so much and I wouldn’t change a thing about him. The thing is, we are LDR and have been unable to meet up for over a year because of the border lockdown. I would never cheat on him or leave him because of this and consider myself a very committed person. I guess I’m just unhappy that we can’t have physical touch. I feel terrible for the things I’ve thought.
I kind of want to create a thread asking the lurking moids if they want to be my bf just so they'll out themselves and report them so they get banned but I realize that probably counts as encouraging moids according to site policy
Yeah it's definitely the LDR. I'm too autistic to relate but physical touch is a valid need. Do you have any ideas when you can close the distance? I get it's hard with covid to plan anything, but having a solid timeline to look forward to would probably help. Other than this be open with your boyfriend (I don't mean saying "I want to fuck other people" but just that you need intimacy) and see how you can increase the sense of intimacy in your relationship even without touch. It's definitely not an ideal situation but I wish you the best anon.
Thank you for not judging me or calling me gross anon.
I actually wasn’t even thinking about sex. When I think about other guys, it’s usually romance or cuddling. I’m basically asexual. I wasn’t even thinking about any of that though. I was just thinking about how so many guys are attractive (I was kind of in a mood
) and how my coworker was kind of cute (feels awful even typing that). I don’t really know how to describe it now that I’m typing it ugh. It feels horrible. I don’t know if it could be described as an “intrusive thought” because there was a feeling of desire and it sickens me. I haven’t had this emotion in a few days now though. It isn’t often at all.
Hopefully the border will open sometime this year since people are getting vaccinated.
Yeah you're fine and not gross st all anon, It's natural to find people attractive and desire closeness and touch, and it sounds like you're only obsessing so much because you feel so guilty about it. I've gotten similar obsessive thoughts to you and the way to deal with it is just to let it roll off your back and not think too hard about it or attack yourself every time you have a feeling that you feel guilty over. Actions can be bad, but not feelings. You said yourself that just because you have these feelings doesn't mean you want to act on them. It's easier said than done, but you'll probably feel more at ease if you can stop fixating on them.
I'm still together with the man who groomed me when I was a teenager and I'm happy about it.
This is why I don't tell people lol
It’s a confession thread.. anons here shouldn’t be judgy imo.. I met by bf when I was 17 and he was 25. We’re still together almost 3yrs later. I don’t feel that I was “groomed” though but so many people are judgmental, assumptuous assholes.
She probably will when he eventually leaves her for another young teen once she gets too old for his taste.
Please keep in mind that femcels and radfems are the primary users on here. They're not exactly paragons of proper functioning humans.
Right? We're literally worse than groomers, rapists, domestic abusers, porn producers, and sex traffickers combined. Radfems never ever have sex or sexual thoughts before adulthood and that anon totally does not
have a personal, hypocritical, but understandable virginity complex
I don't think that's what that anon said.
The only way to practice independence is to just start doing it. If you're scared you should be, taking responsibility for yourself is fucking terrifying, the choice is yours if the fear of the unknown or the tortures of the known are worse. As someone who has ghosted my family before, there is nothing compared to getting out of a shitty situation.
There's this girl who was at the same university as me and then within the same circle of friends who spent over four years skinwalking, abusing and being obsessive about me even when I distanced from her, but because we both share the same best friend she'd glue to her very aggressively whenever she knew we were together. Since the start she would have these horrible abusive outbursts and there's a lot of fucked up shit she did to me and others.
The other day she had a big look at me and feel sorry for me rant on Insta about how she's losing friends and romanticising being a piece of shit, the week before this she ruined a friend's birthday by being a bitch as always and you know what? It's satisfying to see someone who's tried to get away with being a horrible person for years finally get called out and lose all friends who were kind in the process. She would abuse their kindness and it actually does bring me a tinge of satisfaction seeing her realize in her mid twenties that facades only get you so far and at the end of the day, if you choose to remain rotten and shitty, you can't expect people to take your abuse forever
For the record, it was also funny when people saw through her long dated attempts to ostracise me from whatever weird obsession she had and I used to be in one of the earlier vent threads back when she was heavily being Dasha-like towards me but I distanced and stopped posting as much during the pandemic so she had less to work with anyway
anon, have you thought that maybe you could be a lesbian? don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with lack of sexual desire, but your post seems a bit similar to how some lesbians describe their relationship with sex before they realize they're lesbians.
also, that was the case for many of the religious women of the past.
I really can't bring myself to want to be friends with others of my same gender (not a moid). I have had short-lived friendships. Although most of the time it was due to sharing common friends, befriended me so I can benefit their business (buy stuff from their parents local business), or because we were both loners (not having anything in common). Add in the mix of having trauma from my mom, sister,managers/co-workers, bullying. I don't feel comfortable at all and feel like a it's a lie. The closest thing to having a genuine female friendship is literally this image board.
I feel like most of the time, male “friends” always develop feelings for you though. It’s so common for them to have ulterior motives. I have a gay male friend and it’s great because I don’t have to worry about that shit.
i go on and on about hating men and trannies online but irl i'm totally different. and by "totally different", i mean normal.
it makes me wonder how many other people espouse opinions online that they'd never bring up irl
I think most people are this way, because they don’t want to get cancelled. Hell world
I'm sort of the same. I speak to my partner about it because he believes the same as me. I wouldn't bring it up with anyone else and would never say anything at work. If someone else brings it up (outside of work) I'd probably concern troll unless it was obvious they are a terf too.
Yea, usually I'm fine with it because I want to date as well. I love guys <3
this is really shameful for me to admit, but i posted on lolcow a while ago about how i had this weird sexual savior complex where i'd be sexually attracted to men who i pitied and felt sorry for. someone said it might be a codependency thing and i agreed and then never thought about it again. recently i started working at a place where i assist a lot of men who are currently struggling (don't want to be too specific because i'm paranoid lol). i've started realizing that i really enjoy the feeling of having men completely vulnerable around me and in a position where they rely on me to help them… like i really enjoy it. sometimes i've even imagined hypothetically ""saving"" someone from there and having them fall in love with me, which is really gross i know.
i didn't get this job because of my weird savior complex, i hadn't thought about it at all, but now i can't help but question myself about everything. obviously i would never ever do anything because i can distinguish fantasy from reality and it doesn't get in the way of me doing my job- it just makes me feel guilty and predatory like i'm in the same boat as those men who admit to being high school teachers because they're attracted to teenaged girls.
Alright, here's my confession: I only floss and brush my teeth once a day instead of twice or more.
Oh no, you feel good when you help vulnerable people in bad position? How terrible of you.
This is fine, stuff like this is how you realise things like that about yourself. Just be professional about it at work and pursue it more personally if you want to be unprofessional about it.
I used to be like that when I was a kid. My disgusting confession is that at home I rarely wash my hands after peeing. Only at home though, always in public bathrooms. I've been doing it at home more often now though.
that is genuinely fucking based
i do that a lot too, but i dont make any servers or tell anyone about it. i just instinctively think about it
what in retardatio…
I write fanfiction on physical pieces of paper and I think it's excellent but I don't want people to read it bc cringe
but my sister found the fanfiction stash ahhhhhhhhh
kek yeah i know i’m being a baby and overreacting. it just makes me feel like a gross moid to essentially fetishize people who are going through a rough time and inherently want them to put me on a pedestal. probably not a big deal to other people, but i guess i just wanted to think i was being altruistic lol. >>56899
thanks nonnie! i’ll just be professional about it because i want to do this kind of stuff long term and don’t want to fuck up my career lol. i also don’t trust men enough to actually pursue anything with them so we’re good.
I told a man I wouldn't LDR date him a year ago but after a year of getting to know him better I feel a lot differently now and would pursue something with him in a heartbeart right now.
I can't form bonds with people who aren't already in my established "safe" zone (siblings, fiance) anymore but I don't tell them that because I don't want people think I'm a psychopath or something so once people get attached to me I usually just resent them and become so paranoid towards them I ghost them which is so much more stupid than just telling people the truth and letting them assume something shitty about me
Tell him circumstances have changed and you're willing to now.
>>56949>I can't form bonds with people who aren't already in my established "safe" zone (siblings, fiance) anymore but I don't tell them that because I don't want people think I'm a psychopath or something
That isn't psychopathic behavior. It's histrionic if anything.
I got banned for posting guro on a blue board as a prank. I just wanted some self righteous poster to shut up and get a one up over Croc (which I epically did) Now I'm afraid she's going to get really hurt. I hate being corrected. It reminds me too much of the smug adults in my childhood who gaslighted me.
That could be more to do with trauma. You're afraid of getting hurt, I get it.
Sounds more like ASPD or BPD to me.
I'm not histrionic>>56982
Half correct, I have BPD>>56967
It's definitely trauma, I haven't always been like this and used to actually be very social and like making friends. I have a deep resentment towards other people that boils down to fear. I have been abused for a long time and I have also been tortured. I don't think I will ever be able to form friendships again.
oops meant to respond to you with the last paragraph, accidentally responded to the same anon twice.
It's ok and that explains it. I hope you can get help and heal.
Ghost in the Shell…
“When you stare into the abyss, the abyss stares back.”
Iktf. Luckily I can make myself incredibly unpleasant to be around so it’s not too often that someone stays enraptured by me, but I’ve been told by a few people that I’m very (superficially) charming and interesting at least during the first impression. So occasionally I’ll unintentionally lure in a few poor souls who fall for my glib exterior. And for some reason this makes me feel so suffocated, and resentful at having to feel like I must entertain them or include them in my life. It also happens with friends, bfs or pets too. I’ve had numerous pets and a couple bfs and have a few friends, but never really truly cared about or loved any of them, even though I really want to, but everyone would think I was a psychopath if I admitted that. My brain just wont allow me to love certain things or people even when I desperately want to. I don’t know if you feel similarly or if I’m just projecting but your post reminded me of my own issues.
he's already trying to date women in college. maybe he's trying to make me jealous or get my attention by telling me about it but it feels like he's over it.
I'm about to graduate college but I can barely remember the past few years of my life because I basically lived like a NEET the entire time after classes. I'm happy that I went to college but also sad because I didn't take advantage of anything.
if it helps, i'm in the same boat as you
I am very socially dependent on my boyfriend and every day my feelings on this change. I am ashamed that I have so few female friends but I am also too introverted to want to talk to others.
I've been part of a game group of friends for 6 or so years and only recently have people started to use voice chat the past year and I don't want them to know I'm a girl. So I just pretend to not have a microphone. The past year has been making stupid excuses and dumb lies. The anxiety is getting to me.
Won't that just make my lie hole even deeper?
Learn to talk like a man. Or just use a voice changer.
I don’t want a boyfriend. I want a boy to feel pain. Not in a physical manner which could be enjoyed as a temporary relief from the monotony of life by the sensually confused, but a pain that wears the soul until he can no longer be dispirited, having no spirit left to lose. I want to see his eyes blank and vaguely aware. Yet retaining the capacity for thought, he will be silent as a doll, which he will be. When his voice ceases to yield a response, he will learn to be. Meals will be tasteless. Sight will be an obstacle rather than a tool, when you’ve been made a fool. You can’t trust an alarm which signals nothing.There is one thing he will retain from his old life. What was that like? He doesn’t remember. There is some comfort in moving. It’s difficult to sit totally still, until you do. Then he can be perfect and hollow. A body without feeling, awaiting nothing.
Tell them you are a trans man.
Are all of them male? Do you think they'd treat you differently if you revealed your gender or why is it that you don't want them to know?
Maybe I'm just naive but if you've been friends for 6 years, I don't think gender matters.
Yeah it's a bunch of dudes. I'm worried they might treat me differently. I just want to have fun playing games. I don't wanna deal with anything else.
I'm starting to enjoy my reverse mind games. I need to be more cautious …
Unless they happen to have figured it out ages ago and not said anything, revealing her gender will almost certainly change their attitude towards/around her. In the unlikely event that none of these 20-something nerds develop feelings for her, the will at minimum change their behavior on an unconscious level.
That said, they likely won't care about the deception, but that's because they're coomers.
I have no mouth and I must scream.
How old are you like 12?
This is queen shit, everyone else is a coward.
it's definitely not. i do not say this because i care about men or about their feelings at all, rather that it's pretty lame for a few reasons.
A lot of monarchs were psychopaths.
Or do you think Louis XIV was a sane person?
suicidal thoughts have become comfy. even though there are moments where i'm like "fuck, why do i think this way, this is miserable" overall it's just nice to know i do have an out. i can take it any time i want. if things get too hard, i can kill myself, and that's that
i can't enjoy any music anymore except the shittiest trap music
Update for >>57242
I ended up just getting on voice with them and it ruined everything. They all treat me differently and pretend like they don't. Any time I join to talk they all stop talking and change the conversation. I've started getting weird pervy messages from one of them asking super personal questions like my cup size, if I was a virgin and if I have a boyfriend. I fucking hate everything. I just want to crawl in a hole and die.
don't feel bad, you found out that these aren't people worth your time
Too bad, so sad. Turns out that gender does for some reason effect social dynamics. Though now that the dust has settled it does make me wonder why you kept making excuses for not being able to talk over mic and not just firmly state you refused to use mic. If anything this would be a very moid statement to make and they wouldn't care. Why did you constantly make excuses instead of outright refusing? These are all men you only know over the internet right?
This, never make excuses for moids.
They never care about you anyway.
I dunno. I kinda hoped I could just keep having fun without having to worry about it.
I think I might have peaked in high school and I'm the person who people laugh at for having a crappy life after graduation.
What were you like in high school?
I got turned on by (probably fake as hell) insta dms sent by one of my celebrity crushes to a (so called) model. Pull the plug already
I will only say he's an athlete, not an actor
Anon pls, it can't be that bad. At least you weren't turned on by Olivia Munn's weird PowerPoint tier sexts about anal to Chris Pine. Nothing tops that
kek those pictures were hilarious
It's not that I didn't love him, but relationship is a script for me.I was playing roles all my life. It's lonely exiting stage left, but that's the better choice now.
I like to daydream about my OTP museum. I spend hours imagining all the different exhibits dedicated to all my ships. There's even a little museum shop.
I like to use guys. Not for money, not for sex, not for gifts or anything like that. I like to use them to vent and feel how they care about me. Every few months I found some orbiter to vent and they try their best to make me feel good, but for me they're just like a toy.
Right now I have the guy I've used for the most time. He has been the best at making me feel good, because he doesn't have any self-steem and does anything for me. Sometimes I call him while he's sleeping at he just answers, and I start talking about my problems. This one has a lot of problems too, he's suicidal, is scared of people in general and stuff like that, but everytime he tries to vent with me, I change the topic. He usually tell me he's sorry for trying to vent with me and a few hours later I'm the one who's venting and he does everything to make me feel good. Sometimes I fake stuff, like I was raped or shit like that, just to get more attention.
I know I'm a shitty person, but it's the only way I know to deal with my lack of affection and I don't want to get attached to anyone.
Is he a creepy coomer, racist, doesn't care about the vulnerable, or a misogynist? If none of the above, then that's just sad. It's only okay to do this to people who you think are kind of shit, imo.
Usually they're coomers who are looking for pics. This one isn't anything like that. I think he genuinely cares about me and has actually gave me good advice in all kind of things. He's very mature for most things, but he doesn't have any self-steem at all, sometimes he says something serious and if I laugh about it or tell him he's wrong, that's enough for him to delete it or say he's sorry.
I've tried to tease him with selfies to see if he drop his nice guy act and ask for nudes, but he never does, he just tell me I look cute or something like that. Sometimes I think he's gay, but he told he has been in a few relationships (he's kinda cute tbh). I guess he's a real nice guy and life has treated him like shit, but I don't want to get attached. I've thinking about asking if he imagines himself as my bf, but I don't want him to start treating me different because he has been the best one I've found for this.
In my defence, with this one I haven't been rude and I didn't try to make him feel bad (like I did before), I just stop him when he starts talking about his problems or anything like that.
That's really cruel, then. He sounds cute. You literally can do this bit with any guy, why continue to make this poor kid feel like shit by not even letting him vent? If you "don't want to get attached" but continue to speak to him, I don't see how you're not getting attached. It just sounds like justification to be selfish. Attempt to exploit someone that deserves to be exploited. Give him to literally any of the anons on here that are wishing for a partner that won't treat them like shit instead of continuing to knock down this suicidal person's self esteem when you could pull this act with tons of men who deserve it.
Fuck me, you're probably right. I know I've been very selfish, but I like how it feels. I'm probably attached already but I'm just like "lolno I'm not going to get attached".>You literally can do this bit with any guy
Yes, but it always get weird. This one can be ankward when I tease him, but never gets creepy or anything, he just keep being the same nice guy.>Give him to literally any of the anons on here that are wishing for a partner
That would be better for him, that's for sure.>won't treat them like shit instead of continuing to knock down this suicidal person's self esteem when you could pull this act with tons of men who deserve it.
Now I feel like shit. I don't think I can treat him different and be nice to him, because honestly, at this point I don't know how, but I guess I can leave him alone and just find another guy. I wonder how he will react, because it seems like he's really lonely, it wouldn't surprise me if I'm the only person who currently talks to him.
I can't make any promise, but I'll try to leave him alone. I'll probably come here with an update. Thanks
Give me his addy so I can date him when you’re done with him lol
The only guys I can find are sociopathic dickheads, I need a nice guy.
If he's actually a legitimately nice person without stupid views, and you're not capable of treating him with kindness, hook anon >>58767
It's not like nice guys are easy to come by. May as well make the lives of two people better.
I haev no problem with that, but we both are from a shithole country and I don't know if that would be a problem. If that's not a problem, I can give you his Discord tag
Relatable. I wish I could stop.
I heard my narc ex is suicidal. Good.
use the patches, they're pretty great
I'm acting like I'm not in mental and physical pain but really I am. It's like ur body recovering from shock when something bad happens, you just keep moving around as usual, as if nothing happened at all, but you're hurting, you don't know how to deal. I hate mania.
Well, I ghosted him until I finally blocked him yesterday. In the night he sent me a short message to my email saying he's sorry if he said something wrong and hoping I'm okay.
I still don't feel bad about what I've been doing, but I know I'm a shitty person who doesn't know how to deal with people.
Ok. If I have to be a dried up old hag, play caregiver to a manchild, or stay in bumfuck nowhere, I'm considering an exit bag, or a suicide that's looks like an accident.
Be a happy old hag. Older women are the happiest people I've met.
You’re not using guys you’re looking for a friend. This is a normal psychological need. And your story is a great example of how the internet fucks us all over and stops people from forming relationships
Better than in North America?
They're still old and will die alone anyways.
How was your life before you met him? What do you mean he "groomed" you? If you like it so much, probably you just started a relationship with an "age gap" and you're just throwing that word around without knowing what it means, anf the pain it causes to others.
i took a selfie (rare) today with my family because i wanted to savor the moment we had outside. I looked at the photo, i just stared in the distance in pure grief and disappointment. My sister asked me what was wrong and i just stared out and said, "im staring at a squirrel. hold up". I continued staring. i lied, in reality i was so disappointed by my disgusting face being in the lower right corner that i just felt my joy went away and by staring out i was hoping i can recover it. after 18 seconds, i recovered and ignored it. I am hoping i can look back 10 years from now and laugh at my ugly face, but for now i will try to keep on smiling, despite how fugly i am.
You're probably right, I don't know. So much time alone has fucked the way I treat others. And it's not just guys, because with other girls it's even harder
I have no group or family pictures from age 14-24 because I wouldn’t allow anyone to take them. I regret that a lot. Just capture the moment and enjoy it. One day when you are old you will look back on it and wish you realized how pretty and young you were then.
I think I might actually be a lesbian or bisexual.
Nevermind, I feel better and can accept myself. Thanks.
Lately I've been fantasizing about an guy I had a fling with five years ago before I got with my fiance. He was really good in bed, not that my fiance isn't good in bed it's just different. The other guy was just so …primal I guess?
So I looked him up again and found out that he's been writing and publishing poetry and I know there's definitely nothing in his writing that would ever be about me but I just want to know what's going on in his brain bc I'm nosey so I'm thinking of purchasing some of the publications his work was published in but I really just don't quiet "get" this type of avant garde poetry.
I haven't talked to this man in five years idk why I'm so interested in what's going on with him now.
David Sedaris sucks as a person, and a writer, and I think about his mentally ill and abused sister that he mocked, often
I tried listening to one his story collections on audiobook. I could tell a lot of it was embellished or straight up fake, the stories felt too good to be true. I haven't heard anything about his sister though.
Thank you. I tried to have that mindset when I saw my picture, but for now I can't even look at it. I will still continue to try and take more pics of myself, but I hope I can start being more content with what I see in pictures.
Think I got caught stalking my old classmates on social media. I feel like an idiot now but I can't stop stalking.
that's cold as ice. I hope that when the emotion of what you've been doing finally hits you, it won't destroy you. Or maybe I do..
I would suggest seeing a psychologist, and if you can't you need to be honest about this with your next emotional tampon. If you're gonna use someone at the very least use them to actually make progress because what you're doing now is degenerate and honestly I don't even know why I'm even trying. You may be too far gone and it might be best someone puts you down like the dog you are.
I don't think that doing this is so bad anon. I do it too. But I understand the feeling.
are you a literal autist? you couldn't just tell him you're a retard that doesn't know how to give and take in a friendship? literally the least you could do was make it clear that it's actually you and not him. fml, you didn't give anyone his addy either.
I caught feelings for a close friend who's in a relationship. I liked him before he ever started up with someone else, we've known each other for years and I've always had lingering feelings, but I was too shy and too slow to bring it up before she did. That's on me. Obviously I've kept my feelings to myself now that he's taken. I don't want to make things difficult for them. That isn't really what this is about.
I just needed to vent about it, because she's been an uncommunicative/selfish partner and he keeps venting about her to me and I really don't want to hear it. The part of me that gives good advice and wants to be a good friend to him and see him happy is at odds with a really terrible side of me that wants to tell him to stop giving her second chances and dump her already. I've tried really hard to be unbiased, because I do want to see him be happy and their relationship doesn't seem impossible to salvage and he's said that he wants to try and make it work. When he told me that my suggestions worked really well and helped him communicate with her better, I was truly happy for him but also kind of felt like someone was twisting a knife in my stomach.
To top things off, I've kind of walled myself off after a bad relationship a while back. It's really difficult for me to open up to other people and I don't feel good about being in a relationship right now with anyone. So I wish these feelings I'm having would disappear, because I'm not in a place where I can follow up on them, and they're making it hard to spend time with a friend I've known for years. I wish I could drink something that would kill these unwanted feelings. I've started taking small efforts to distance myself from him, and it fucking sucks. No matter how much progress I make in this, it's so easy to relapse and let those old feelings open up again and I feel so pathetic and like a shitty friend.
You sound like an edgy, ruthless person and like you enjoy the drama. Or maybe you genuinely lack empathy and have your reasons.
You have been very emotionally abusive to someone whose character you obviously appreciate even if you can't respect them. The least you could do is apologize and fess up and tell him you have been playing with him and that it's not his fault (except for perhaps being vulnerable and overly open to being exploited this way). I hope the guy recovers, learns to love himself and sees you for what you are, a shallow, empty person incapable of love.>>58752>>58758
How about not exploiting anyone which has to be miserable one way or the other? I like the laundry list of unrelated horrible stereotypes eagerly warranting this behaviour.
I haven't brushed my teeth or washed my face since thursday and its been longer since my last shower
this is basic decency though, it takes more than that to be a good person
>>59198>>59198>How about not exploiting anyone which has to be miserable one way or the other? I like the laundry list of unrelated horrible stereotypes eagerly warranting this behaviour.
some people deserve to be exploited before/while they exploit others.
Idk Bytory#5053 that's the guy, he changes his tag from time to time>>59198
I used to be nice to others, but I guess loneliness has fucked me.
the more I see it the more my weebshit hatred deepens and I wonder why I wasted 10 years watching anime when I could've been normal
can I go back to myself ten years ago and tell her to be a celebrityfag instead
Then I guess I'll go back to being as abnormal as I ever was
this is going to be such a weird confession but as someone with rather weird/niche tastes in fiction (i have an incest kink, i'm a shotacon, i don't care about rape fantasies, etc.) it's interesting how much my real life tastes differ. i mean i'm like twenty-two and the way i can clock a dumbass 16 y/o is insane.
it makes me wonder how men are even attracted to 16 y/o girls (or even 16 y/o's in general, idk if gay dudes creep on underage boys the same way men do to girls) or mistake them for being older. idk why i'm even confessing this here right now
>>51292>Thinking a moid is ever going to genuinely worship a woman
Lol why are women dating moids after this
Like the pretense of love is gone, no more serotonin or whatever bullshit that gets released when a moid pretends to love you. Just leave after the fun chemicals stop producing
Same but I do that with irl people
Most moids are like that
And if you have pinkpilled or even jsut radfem opinions, if you voice them around a moid prepare for the unexpectable
i bring it up when appropriate but yes, which is why it's so dumb that people act like the women who believe these things especially on cc or female imageboards are so completely socially fucked that users don't understand that there's a time and a place
It either turns them on or after realizing dating a young girl is rather a nuisance they leave.
i'm really not seeing how you can critique the 16 year old thing when you're a shotacon. i mean, i agree, but like i don't understand how you're saying this when you're attracted to children
I have adhd and can manage the majority of it pretty well, but I am so bad at laundry. Specifically doing socks. I just filled 5 pillow cases with socks to wash from my huge laundry basket. It's so much easier for me to buy more when I'm out at the shops because they're so cheap, and so they pile up quickly. I'm so ashamed of this I cried, but am finally going to deal with it tomorrow.
Sounds like moid propaganda to me, honestly.
It's not her job to be his therapist / mommy. Wanting a girlfriend for the sole purpose of having someone to vomit their mental problems at is quite typical of incels.
It's normal to want to date a stable, composed man, rather than an emotional wreck. Maybe it's him who should get his mental issues dealt with, rather than her having to adapt to his bullshit. Why is it always the woman's responsibility to coddle moids and cater to their feefees?
I've seen so much self-victimizing incel rhetoric that I can't help but roll my eyes when men whine about their non-problems. The world hands them everything on a platter, all the privilege in the world, and they still manage to act like victims over how "traumatized" they are.
So much for the "stronger sex". lol.
He loves you and opened up to you. He's still the same person. Don't hate him for that. >>59771>i want to have only good things in a relationship, but won't give an ounce of support for my partner. I hate emotional moids
It's called being in a relationship
Not something femcels like you would understand
Um, why are there so many cruel sociopaths here? It's kind of creepy.
Really not helping all those incel stereotypes about girls, and our self image as better and more well adjusted than the freaks over at scrotechan.
It’s incels larping too hard and people venting. Neither should be taken too seriously.
That, and this is a confession thread. People usually confess to things that would not be socially acceptable when given the opportunity to anonymously confess, but it also means that most people who either feel they've nothing to confess or nothing relevant, won't confess. Thus, the confessions here and in every other space of the sort are weighted rather than representative of how women are.
I do this too, also with Cheez-its and McDonald's fries. I like to chew them into semi-solid cud basically, form it into a solid ball, and then absent-mindedly gnaw it throughout the day. It's really fucking soothing
>>51853>I have a confession to make: I am a good person.
You sound like a fucking faggot middle school moid, holy shit. I'm sorry, I just can't take that seriously
Her bf definitely has a fat fetish. That’s almost always the case when a thin/fit guy is with a fat girl
a ftm that acted genuinely like an edgy and skeevy incel told me she wanted to cut off, cook, and eat my breasts when i was 13. i still think about my breasts being cut off, frozen, and cooked and eaten by this girl. i just think about it too much, it feels like when you stick your finger in your bellybutton, just nauseating and uncomfortable
I have felt this way before.
I remember at the fair walking with my friend, and I saw a fat girl with a cute guy and I said "How did that fat fuck get a guy like that?!" My friend didn't have the courage to call me a bitch but she should have.
Maybe she has a nice personality unlike you kek
if i were to even agree with that, it says nothing but negative things to me, to be attracted to 2D that are drawn to represent stylized children and act as children
late but, i can criticize in the same way fps fans can criticize real world murderers/soldiers. fiction =/= reality
Sometimes when I go outside I have this irrational feeling that everyone is secretly evil, and things are watching me, like there's a spirit hanging onto my feet. I used to hear mumbling from inside my head and feel spiders all over me that weren't there, or see shadowy people in the corners of my eyes. But I don't think it's real. I hope it doesn't come back or get worse lol
sorry but your picture is amazing. imagine sipping from that
Last night I needed to pee but someone was taking forever in the bathroom so I peed in a plastic bowl of soil in my bedroom from repotting a houseplant earlier like it was a litter tray
My sister and I used to dress our kid brother up in drag. With everything that's been going on with trannies recently, I feel relieved we didn't end up fucking him up mentally, and he grew up to be a normal, masculine boy.
Sometimes when no one is looking, I like to grope my own boobs and play with them while watching tv or something in bed. It’s comforting.
sometimes I think people are talking to me through the anime I am watching and that there is a massive conspiracy against me but I know I am just being crazy so ignore it and do not tell my Doc as I do not want to get forced to take antipsychotics again.
When I walk downstairs with no bra on, I put my hands under my boobs and hop down each step so my boobs make a clapping noise as they impact my palms
how big are your boobs to make an audible sound against your palms, much less a clap? i couldn't do this even if i tried. i hold them against my body when i walk down stairs. it's so uncomfortable feeling them move at all.
I hold them to stop the clapping, they clap against my chest.
Starting to think maybe I'm bi and not a lesbian and it feels really bad.
That was a hard adjustment for me, too. It's okay. Your sexuality doesn't define you.
You don't suddenly have to fuck and marry men just because you're bi, don't worry.
The myths aren't true. Identifying as bisexual will not force males upon you and febfem is indeed possible.
There's nothing wrong with being bi. It's not like you're forced to date men if you don't want to. Most bisexual people have a preference. All that being bisexual means is that you have potential to be attracted to men as well, even if you prefer women. It's just as >>60336
said. The reason most bisexuals end up dating people of the opposite sex at higher rates is the sheer amount of straight and bisexual people of the opposite sex compared to homosexual and bisexual people of the same sex, thus, if you simply decide no man can meet your standards, you won't magically be forced to date one. In short, if you are bisexual, that only means what you want it to mean.
An ex has told me that if she found out her partner was bi she would break up on the spot. It just feels bad.
anon, you're not alone. i just very recently realized that i'm bi after struggling for several months trying to suppress the thought and not think about it because bi women have such a bad image in the community and i didn't wanted to be lumped in with the stereotypes that come with being one, especially when i had been a lesbian for several years. but then i realized that i'm my own person and that other people don't represent me. there are lesbians who don't want to date bi women, and that's their choice. i personally admit it does hurt especially when you have only preferred women and have only dated women, but im sure there are lesbians out there do date bi women/febfems and bi women that are also febfem that are the same
>>59193>I feel so pathetic and like a shitty friend
tell him the truth, nothing else and walk away. Just do it.
(Sorry if I’ve posted this before)
I’m butch, despite liking feminine clothes and being shy and meek, because:
>aging makes me incredibly insecure, I’ve had this since 13 and now I’m 25
> I 1000% don’t want to look like an old feminine woman one day, would rather look like an old masculine woman
>if I dress femme, I’m just an ugly femme whom straight girls stomp over, and scrotes ”compliment”, and who is invisible to other lesbians
>now that I’m butch, straight girls worship me, and my mere presence enrages scrotes, and other lesbians recognize me, which makes me feel much better
I've established contact with my therapist again because I'm extremely sexually frustrated and I know he's down to fuck because he's a gross pervert attracted to cluster b's with a history of sa. Yes I know this is completely disgusting but my chances of having loving sex with a normal scrote are 0 so I'm unfortunately relegated to this
i don't think you're relegated to this. the part that's the worst about the therapist is that he can probably really fuck you up mentally being that he… was your therapist. it's not like men in this field are normal, and he certainly sounds awful. at least a new guy wouldn't know everything about you and you would have the opportunity to hide shit about yourself that might make it easier for him to fuck with you
Not to be a massive sadsack but this is the first time anyone's ever tried to be empathetic towards me and tell me I don't need to debase myself like this like I'm about to start crying fr
i'm sorry, anon. you absolutely are better than that and you don't need to potentially harm yourself with someone like this. definitely does not seem mentally safe (obviously potentially physically unsafe as well). have you considered just like, buying yourself an effective toy or something?
girl, therapists are supposed to be therapists not "the rapists"
i've heard about bpd and hpd women getting attracted to a male therapist but i think it's going nowhere since sex is not therapy and just makes things more complicated and dangerous (for the girl ofc)>>61177
based, a small and effective vibrator >>> hairy sweaty abusive male
If your therapist is down to fuck you, then you need a different therapist. I'm not even gonna get started on him being a gross pervert, but he's a god damn disgrace to the profession if he screws his patients. You know how doctors and nurses worth their salt are forbidden from screwing the people they're healing and taking care of? Same principle, but much worse because they can easily abuse their power over your psyche to coerce you. You should be as far away from a man like that as possible, not shagging him.
this don't throw yourself at a guy, because you are emotionally unwell you will only regret it later
When I was 7 or 8 I had a close encounter
with a male friend of my age. Now, after more than a year of masturbation + porn, I find irl kids cute
Seek therapy. Don't let your trauma manifest itself as a damaging fetish. Process it in a healthy way.
I want to stalk a guy that moved into my apartment block 2 years ago and he's basically in my hand's reach in terms of distance.
I see him rarely but that's because of schedule difference.
I want to buy a monocular so i can find which apt belongs to him and spy on him.
Pic kind of related, he's a metalhead.
My confession is that I want another world war to start so that millions of men end up murdering each other.
what about their mothers, wives, sisters, girlfriends and daughters anonthink of the children
>>61450>WWIII starts>just in time for the female draft to begin
Oh, so sorry fellow miner, you're off to the trenches.
more like >wwIII starts>everyone dies in nuclear holocaust
Nah, someone with nukes will have to be close to losing first before the nukes get used. The nuclear holocaust happens at the very end of the war.
Sounds pretty metal to me, can we make this happen?
It is generally said that about 20% of the population
is the perfect amount of moids.
So the best thing would probably be, if about 70% of moids
would kill each other in a great war.
That way they would make up 20% of the remaining population.
Supposedly the tallest moids will survive.
The shotacons better watch their mouths with this one…
I'm going to a therapist in a few days actually so that should help. I don't know what processing is but that's what a therapist is for I suppose
That would just lead to harems and shit. No woman wants to share their partner unless shes a pathetic pick me or lives in a shithole country.
But it will also kill of a lot of the undesireable males.
Plus, at least 60% of women will be lesbian anyway, by the time WW3 starts,
so there will be plenty of moids for you.
That trend will die out like literally every other one that young women are into.
(The epidemic of trans men for example)
How will the trend die out?
25% of women in the USA identify as lesbian or bisexual.
>>61520>25% of women in the USA identify as lesbian or bisexual.
no way this can be true
90%+ of women have same sex attraction or masturbate to lesbian porn
Just because they identify as bi or les doesn't mean they are. I know that's not a very acceptable thing to say, but with the whole romanticising of 'wlw' relationships as cute, 'cottagecore', or slightly rebellious, I think a lot of these women just spend too much time on TikTok. Plus, media grooming, with 'doing this basic thing=bi' and basic straight girl=bad, I don't think a lot of it's genuine.>>61533
straight women don't usually watch erotica, but read it instead, so although i understand that it may look gay, i don't trust the stat
Sorry, I forgot to say that the number is only among "young" women.
It is mainly because "bi-curiousity" has been exploding in popularity among young liberal women in the past years, kind of like >>61541
However, the number of lesbians among young women is also higher than anybody in the 80s/90s would have thought to be possible.
In the past it was generally thought that there were more gay men than lesbian women, but in the past 15 years this trend has completely reversed.
Liberal zoomers are truly the gayest generation in history, and that to an impressive degree.
It is hard to say if this trend will continue indefinitely, but I currently see no reason for it to stop.
25% of women below the age of 30 are, somehow the vast majority of them changes their mind after some point. Most "bisexual" girls i know have been in relationships with women but are now in comitted relationships with men. Even the lesbians are "changing their mind".
90% of women get arroused while watching animals fuck. Are we all zoophiles? Women get aroused to the idea of sex, especially if something is relatable (for example another woman).
It will. People can only be satisfied with lies for some time. Im pretty sure the fake social media shit will become very unattractive at some point too.
I've seen a lot of sanitization of gay women by young adult zoomers, too. A couple of weeks ago I ran into a Tiktok with a girl saying "you can have no visual sexual attraction to women and still be a valid lesbian teehee women just experience attraction in a pure uwu true love way and anything else is objectification <3"
Shit like that likely convinced some straight women they're homo for their friends even if they have 0 attraction. Plus the extra woke points for identifying as gay.
And yes my ass is burnt because guilt over being horny for women has been some bullshit torture to get over just to be shamed for it by alleged fellow lady lovers. Not to deny low sex-drive women the right to be bi or lesbian but, man…
It would be nice if the dating pool was actually 1/4 of women though. A fantasy.
Well, at least on this site, it seems like most women are either bisexual or lesbians.
But of course this is sadly not an accurate representation of the general population.
Yeah, I feel like they are trying it on like a costume or identity. It makes it harder to find real girls like us. Like I was so happy when I found a girl with the same OOGA BOOGA I WANT WOMAN attitude that I have, and because it was less acceptable where we were, I knew she meant it. It's so hard to find us irl, the grifters just make it harder.
It's harder to know now if it's genuine or part of their aesthetic, like music, hobbies, way of talking. Idk, zoomers seem kind of fake and image obsessed, although I am one too. It sucks how one day it's unacceptable, and the other it's flavour of the week.>>61570
Tbh this kind of gives me hope for myself. I only look at women and OOGA BOOGA and want to do things, yet feel nothing from men, but maybe with age I can learn to like men too (I can't yet). I heard sexuality changes, and lesbians often change their mind, and for me it hasn't, but I have hope I can still become at least bi so I can fit in and make my family happy.
i want to ditch everything – return to my homeland and become a hermit shepherdess
I recognize an artist that posted on here, but no worries I will keep this little secret forever.
>Homosexuality is a genetic predisposition towards the same genitalia.
As has been stated on this board, woman are flexible as times goes by as far as being exclusively homo/bi/hetero. Unless you're arguing their genes are are changing over time that argument doesn't hold water.
>I think she'd feel much different if she confessed to the manager and the manager said, "Sorry I don't people of your race."
I'd be really happy if someone did that me and made it explicit from the start, I would hate to god if the manager "hid their racism" by dating me even though they didn't like me.
>you're not allowed to have preferences for height or body parts
Okay, thought you were arguing in good faith, this is fucking troon logic. Take your bleeding wound and fuck off, none of the lesbians will date you.
Curious to know how you feel about minorities who aren't into white people?
I kind of agree though. It's best to analyze why you possibly prefer certain features before declaring your tastes in finality. Self reflection is always a good thing. You are not immune to propaganda and all that.
That said if someone finds non-white people ugly then they shouldn't date us. Idk about you but I'd hate that.
Some NA/SA Hispanics have very Spanish ancestry though, and so are "white." By race I assume anons mean the commonly used racial categories in the Americas of White, Indigenous, "Mestizo" (Hispanic Mixed Indigenous), or Black. Most of the time with white Non-Latin Americans I find they're referring to Mestizos. Visibly brown but not IDing with being Native.
The potential "issue" I assume miners then have with anon is that she finds his brown features ugly, but that's her business. Dating him would suck for them both if she finds his face/skin a turn-off.
But OP may be brown herself for all we know.
>>62131>Some NA/SA Hispanics have very Spanish ancestry though, and so are "white."
According to the US government they're not.
In this thread or on CC in general?
lol i didn't know we had tumblrinas on this site
Reminder that topics about race are not allowed on any board, don't let this thread devolve into a shitshow.
>order phone case for mom off ebay
>tracking says delivered but package hasn't arrived yet
>wait a couple days longer
>still hasn't shown up
>contact seller for refund
>got my refund
>phone case arrives a day later
>got free phone case
I still feel kind of shitty.
You're not talking about me do you now?..
>>62333Oh no, SHE'S HOT.
I was talking about an anon in one of the terf threads, sowwy.. :(
What if the help doesn't want me to seek it? What if it's too late?
i'm urine incontinent and it ruins my self esteem
how are you incontinent? did you have a child?
No, I don't have kids.
I really don't know how it happened, but ever since I was a kid i've had some urine problems (urge incontinence and some rare bedwetting).
As I grew older things got a little better, but lately it's getting worse again, this year i've had situations where urine just suddenly leaks when i'm walking in public and it's so damn scary. Luckily it's usually a few drops, but i've had some episodes where my bladder just empties.
Been doing some kegels to see if it helps my situation.
Don't be sorry, I'm, relieved it's not me :D
Holy shit, same. I'm too embarrassed to tell anyone about it because even the most tolerant all-inclusive liberals will make fun of you.
I also peed the bed regularly for no reason til my period started think, then it gradually became better. but now that I drink a lot of energy drink and sometimes coffee, I pissed myself for the first time in the few years because of it, and keep leaking piss even when my bladder isn't full.
Thread for pissbabies when?