>>98520Yes, I've had a very turbulent relationship with my mother growing up - constantly yelling at eachother and swearing at eachother. I hated her so much when I was younger I constantly hit her, screamed shit like "I hope you die!" at her, and there came a point where we even tried to strangle eachother. In my defense, my mother is a narcissist who always called me stupid, worthless, and god knows what else you should never even think of calling your own child. I never did it unprovoked and simply used it as a defense mechanism, because with how much nicer other people like my stepmother treated me in comparison (even if it is disingenuine) I never dared to do those things at them. My mother is the only one I was so aggressive with and it is because of how much I couldn't stand how she was treating me.
It is not nearly as bad these days because I don't live with her anymore, so the physical distance has helped deter alot. However it is still annoying and disheartening talking to her even over the phone because she still never shows any real interest in my successes (Gives one or two word responses and then changes the topic, or doesn't respond at all. Even when I told her I won a scholarship.) , tries to talk me down and discourage me from my goals (The moment I show any weakness or insecurity about a decision, she will say "See, I told you you shouldn't have done X!"). I currently share a bunch of pictures of my travels with her, but I'm wearing a mask in all of them and all she can respond with is how terrible I look with the mask on and that I should take it off. Her anti-mask rotted brain is too fucking annoying. On top of that, I think she is genuinely getting hear loss so that couple with her narcissistic self-selective hearing makes her even more difficult to talk with. She's also gone more crazy. She behaves and says some really weird fucking shit now. Despite all that, I still talk with her because in 10-15 years, as far as I'm concerned, she will literally be the only person I have in my life that I may still have any kind of relationship with at all.
