>>10846You may have a quirk that I suspect a small but persistent portion of people who get hung up on one internet celeb or another tend to have; they are enough like you for you to relate to them and their decision making process more intimately than someone who isn’t like you. This means that your reflective ‘empathy’ for them is stronger, for better or for worse. You take their headass decisions much more personally than someone who is nothing like you because you relate to them, and you’re less likely to ‘cut the cord’ and brush them off because the traits in both of you persist. This can cause a kind of lingering, distressed obsession that’s hard to let go of. You want to be around people who validate this oddly strong feeling so you hop online, but then you see people ripping down someone who you feel close enough to to be distressed by, and the loop takes you down with it.
As an aside, I find that some people on gossip websites have the most un-generous interpretation of peoples motivations at any given moment, and can be kind of… bad at empathy/reading people in general. Try to not take their interpretations as the ‘hard truth’ just because they hurt the most, because some ‘readings’ of people seem to be very detached from common cognition and overly harsh.
