/hb/ - Health & Beauty

On the left is a messy edit of the features I want to work on for me, in plastic surgery. Ideally, that is, because there is no way I can afford it. Beauty is a key factor of my life and my self perception. The first time I saw my side profile when I was 12 it was like my whole world view shattered. I can hardly keep up with other beauty facets like skin cair and hair care because ultimately my biggest problem will be my face, and I'm born that way and stuck with it until I can get plastic surgery, so I tell myself what's the point. I've lost all my confidence especially after starting college, I can't talk to anyone without feeling extremely self conscious and wanting to hide myself, I always feel like people are looking at me and judging me or pitying me for how hideous I am. I was I could go back to the blissful ignorance of not knowing what I look like, it's cheaper than plastic surgery and would improve my social skills. I hate having my pictures taken or especially appearing in videos, I'm incredibly non photogenic. And I as a person put a lot of emphasis on my self worth based on my looks, I essentially don't think I deserve being loved or befriended when I am this ugly, I pity the ppl who talk to me and try to show interest in me because I know they're ignoring the elephant in the room, and that's my looks.