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I hope both you and Emily get the genuine help that you need.

off yourself

The Alfred Alfer movie is pure nightmare fuel

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omg you understand.
it helped me cope with some events.
but i'm also sorry - for both of us

Lame as dog put it down

Probably the most sovl newgrounds animation but I haven't watched a lot of those so I might be wrong

Alfred is literally me, too.
I truly relate to the animations, these were literally a call for help.

I love/hate the implications of the animations, like the popsicle flashback.

People don't notice that the tapes may be something else, there's a video camera too, which IMHO is that Alfred was filmed, making Alfred a victim from being forced to make CSAM along with the CSA, the tapes and the TV may have been used to groom Alfred, of course those tapes are porn, and the cherry POPsicle, of course a way to say "I'll pop that cherry" showing probably a moment where Alfred started getting SA.

Not only that, but Harlow experiment cameo meaning that Emily spent probably days or months looking for examples of experimental negligence to understand what was happening to her and cope a bit, Alfred saying the need to survival since no one will help him and come for rescue and even the mutilation in the second part which shows a way to escape reality and perhaps, a way to be injured/seem uglier with so Alfred perhaps doesn't get SA again, or a way to feel alive or even a way to show how much you hate yourself, since "whore Alfred" is all that he knows, the shame fades when you pity yourself sometimes.

I draw too, and all these animations are vent art and I feel it so much it hurts.
The years from being alone and having to go through so much stress, and people around that always saw you being mistreated, they don't even question it at all, coz that always been that way and they don't think about it, it is how it is.

Or probably Emily went to school and was a happy kid, a kid that whenever was outside the house was happy, so teachers didn't give an eye to the situation (as I'd done when I was a kid), and had to come back home where it wasn't a happy place. People can't understand that kids that come from REALLY abusive homes from the start, they don't fight it, if you were raised that way, you don't question it, and if you question it its when you learnt that what was happening was terrible, but at the same time you can't do anything about it, its the only place you know and you don't know if they're going to treat you the same way or even feel that you're worthless, and God just gave you that life coz you deserved it.

If you slap a kid from a normal home once, and they'll be sad all day and tell to anyone about it.
If you slap a kid that comes from a place that was abusive, they'll dissociate and won't show signs in school.

CPTSD surely is a hell of a ride.

the scene where he digs into his leg while being assailed by intrusive thoughts is l i t e r a l l y m e