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> How do you cope with death?

Not too well.

> Have you lost someone close to you?

I lost both of my grandparents in the same year of 2015. My grandpa died three days before my birthday and was buried on my birthday. Months later, my grandma died. I was very close to them so them passing was hard for me.

> How do you feel about dying?

Well I have been suicidal throughout most of my teen years, but I’m now kind of just floating. If I were to be in a life threatening situation I wouldn’t mind if I died. I feel pretty awful saying that since I love my parents and I have a loving boyfriend.

> Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?

Um, I’m not sure.

How do you cop with Death?
For the first few days, I don't feel anything because I'm still in denial and that gets me through the removal, wake, funeral etc. Especially if it was someone I didn't see every often. It only hits me when I haven't seen them in a while and I remember they're not coming back. Like when I just want to visit them and I remember I can't. That's really hard. In the case of my pets who I would see every day, it hit me faster than usual. I'd come home and there would be no wagging tail to greet me or I'd see an empty food bowl in the corner of the kitchen and just break the fuck down crying. The thing that ultimately helps me get over the pain is knowing that the person was old and had a good life or if they were sick for a long time, knowing that they'd be in a lot of pain and discomfort right now so passing away peacefully was what they would have preferred.

Have you lost someone close to you?
I've lost grandparents, aunts/uncles and pets but nobody in my immediate family, thankfully.

How do you feel about dying?
I'm not really worried about dying itself because I know everyone has to go through it eventually but I do feel sad that our time on earth is finite. It makes me want to learn as many languages, travel to as many places and watch as many films as I possibly can. I wonder sometimes if I can even do all of that. I always wonder what moments I'll look back on when I'm older and if I have problems walking. Will I be satisfied with what I have achieved? I think I can die peacefully if I am.

Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?
I'm not religious. I was raised Catholic so I'm used to telling people that their loved one who passed is "looking down" on them but I don't really believe in this very specific idea of heaven and eternal life and pearly gates. It's too far-fetched to me. I do like to believe that your energy exists elsewhere and some semblance of you is floating around but I'm not going to let someone else tell me what an afterlife is and just blindly believe it. That doesn't bring me comfort.

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>How do you cop with Death?
I try to learn from the stoics.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ABRN0E_mI0U
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dBwH2iYC-8c
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d5E2AQKuCyU

>Have you lost someone close to you?
Not really, aunts, uncles and grandparents, but I was never close to any of them.

>How do you feel about dying?
Sometimes indifferent, sometimes I visualize the eternal nothingness and it drives me crazy and force myself to think about something else.

>Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?
No, its ridiculous.

>>1432
I nearly died after contemplating suicide. Long story I won’t get in to. The thing that stopped was a sudden conviction that Hell is a real place, and I was about to spend eternity there. I felt myself recoiling from it like one does standing too close to a cliff.
After I got out of the hospital, I was a physical and emotional wreck, and people abandoned me. In that place of absence, I starting looking for the one who showed Hell to me as a warning and saved my life.
I began researching the resurrection of Christ, and I am convinced He is who he said he is.
I’m only less sad now because I know Him a little. I know I have to do His will, even though I’m a fuck up. That’s okay though, Saint Peter was too, in his own way, and he was the one Christ used to build His church. I pray the rosary daily, and I don’t miss mass now. You may not be happy if you convert, but you’ll put the world’s vanity behind you. Peace be with you.

>How do you cope with Death?

Terribly. It's one of my more troubling anxieties.

>Have you lost someone close to you?

Four years ago I lost a dear friend in a traffic accident.

>How do you feel about dying?

Terrified, but I have a strange relationship with death. On the one hand, I love visiting cemeteries and looking at fossils, yet I'm petrified of my own mortality. The closest I've come to it was a suicide attempt last year. Funny how the mind works.

>Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?

I'm neither.