I've been doing this sometimes but I feel nothing. I danced, I prayed and I layed naked in the woods for hours but there's just nothing. I fail to connect to anything.>>3552
I did drugs in the past and I really miss LSD. It gave me a sense of purpose. I did not take it for partying etc, like you said I only used it for spirituality (and coming to terms with myself) in small doses. However my parents found out about my "drug abuse" (cough) and forced me to flush my stock into the toilette. It's been so long that I don't know any dealers anymore so it's hard to get. Also my bf won't accept me taking any drugs. I made alcohol my habbit because it's legal, accepted and makes me numb. Weed ain't an option either, it's still illegal here and I get sick from smoking it.
BTW: I'v been in therapy because of suicidal tendencies and depression all my life. I'm kind of stable now and I fear that psychedelics will fuck up my education. Then again, I hate my life already. Still I got no dealers and I don't want to associate with junkie trash (420 blaze it moids, let me grab your tits for some free stuff).