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i shot jfk

That pic is triggering me.

I successfully bullied someone off social media. She's an internet-addicted NEET, so it's extra bad. It's been 8 years and she still doesn't have any remotely public social media presence, only a more or less anonymous Tumblr.

When I was an obnoxious teenager I saw a kid being carried around by his classmates at a water park. I shouted, "why are you being carried, can't you walk?" They looked at me in shock.

They then lowered him into his wheelchair.

I feel so much guilt because I don't like autistic people. I personally have known so many in my life and they share a lot of similar negative characteristics that I can't help but judge a person when I either know they are or if I suspect they are autistic. I hate it so much, I'm disgusting for being a prejudiced piece of shit. I hate how other people act like we have to baby them and have a different set of morals for them because they're so inept at realizing what reality is. Yuck, there I go again.

>>479
don't beat yourself up anon. i think you just need a little change in perspective about it. their whole thing is that they dont understand the social mores that keep people from being jerks to each other, so if they come off as jerks to you it's only reasonable. You can have compassion for them and realize they mostly can't help it and still find their behavior obnoxious. Kind of like you don't have to pretend an ugly person is attractive just to have basic compassion for them. It's not like you're aspiring to be a special ed teacher or something. I think the real jerks are the ones who not only find autistic people annoying but act like they have full control over it and are doing it on purpose.

>>479
>>488
both have it right. my dad is somewhere on the spectrum and…while he is intensely caring about his family, he doesn't understand our feelings most of the time until they are spelled out for him, he gets easily frustrated, and he also has these atypical 'conspiracy theories' that he ascribes to. if you challenge his beliefs, he thinks you're calling him insane–and he's incredibly intelligent, a computer engineer who's worked in his field for 30+ years, played the stock market, profited from it, had the opportunity to become a literal rocket scientist for NASA and turned it down because he decided to work for Texas Instruments instead.
It really makes me sad when I tell my friends about the type of person my dad is and they say, 'well he's a paranoid idiot' or something along those lines…
But then I've also met autists who were way worse than he is, and didn't even realize it. I think they need guidance from people who are more socially adept than they are. I want to believe these people can change and adapt. I know my mom is way more socially intelligent than my dad is, and that's part of the reason why he hasn't ended up totally isolated from society–or at least, society outside of his work-place– at this point in his life.

>>518
at the same time i have to admit that his ideas of morality are totally off the wall. sorry, should have mentioned that in the og post.
but i've never met anyone who has as much issue with white lies or the federal government as he does.

>Flashback to 8th grade
>Elementary school is right behind middle school, so the younger kids all rode the same bus as the older kids
>Used to play Pokemon HeartGold to pass the time during bus rides
>Would battle and trade with random kids every now and then
>One day, notice pudgy elementary school kid boasting about the Shiny Giratina he just got in Platinum
>Shit son I need that
>Talk him into thinking that shitty red Gyarados that you catch at the Lake of Rage is way stronger than his Giratina
>Agrees to trade with me
>Once the transaction is made he sort of starts to come to his senses
>"H-hey anon, could we trade back please?"
>Haha nope

Looking back, I do feel pretty bad about it tbh. I remember him being devastated. And to this day, that very same Giratina is in my PC gathering dust in Sun.

It's not exactly a creepy thing but sad…? When I was like 17 or so I created a fake profile (a guy) and made my best friend/classmate talk to "him" and she crushed really hard on "him". I was just trying to make her feel a bit more positive about herself and the opposite sex and make her feel beautiful lol. Idk how I thought it was a good idea but I did. Thank God it didn't end bad or anything but it's been 7 years or so and I've never told her she was in love with someone who doesn't exist. I disappeared by saying I had to study harder and couldn't be wasting much time online anymore. We're still friends so I feel bad lol.

I don't think I did anything really bad but I did find out a few years ago that I bullied a guy from school for years. I thought we were just joking but it turns out that it really badly effected him and he still feels shit over it. Even though I'm really salty that he got my dream job and rubs it in my face a lot, I'm also simultaneously glad because he probably deserves it and deserves to brag after the shitty childhood I caused him.

I made my mom cry on purpose a couple of times. She bullied me a lot growing up so I wanted her to feel my pain too.

>>553
I did something similar to this. It was with my best friend in sixth grade and I ended up trading my shitty original nintendo ds for her ds lite by talking up about how much better my ds was even though I knew it wasn't. My plan worked and she totally switched consoles with me and I still play on that ds lite to this day.

>>563
Fucking same. There's no way I can say the worst things I've done, not even on here.

>>563
>>574
I literally don't get this. If you didn't murder someone, produce/post cp of another child, or rape someone (mind you, currently, if you molested someone, there's nothing anyone can do about it), I doubt anyone would care.

>>575
You don't get it because those are the only 3 things you can list out of a billion different situations and actions people go through and commit.

>>575
>did cocaine on several occasions
>stole a loottt, mostly from stores, probably stole over 5k worth of stuff in total, starting from when I was 15
>hit and run
>friend borrowed a bunch of money from the mafia, negotiated them out of it so they don't go looking for her
>drove a group of people to someone they were feuding with's house so they can beat them up, although I didn't have any part in it I still felt guilty for driving them and giving them tools, but the whole reason they were feuding is because the sold one of our friends in sex trafficking, choked her if she didn't make money, then he sent other girls to go look for my friend, when I finally got her out of it, we found bricks, guns, pepper spray, bats, etc, they fucked up their house, no one was hurt badly though or killed
>threatened people with a gun before, but never actually hurt anyone physically
>vandalized before

I feel bad reading these tbh, the worst most people's ever done is bullying, I wish I was innocent again and didn't get involved with all this

I told my little sister she was adopted (it's true)

Not sure if this belongs here or in the catfishing thread but…

When I was about 13-15 I used to make fake AIM screen names and Myspace profiles pretending to be popular Disney Stars from when I was a kid (Miley Cyrus, Nick Jonas, etc.) and so many people believed me. I even became close friends with a girl my age who was convinced I was a Jonas brother that she had a huge crush on.

Thankfully, she found out eventually and I was hugely embarrassed but she forgave me and we're still Facebook friends now in our 20's. She ended up getting a job following around celebrities like Ellie Goulding and doing personal work for them, which made me extremely happy that she finally got to (sort of) befriend actual celebrities instead of some dumb insecure teenager who was lying to her.

I believe my reason for doing that is because I was a lonely, friendless, mentally ill loser looking for an excuse to be well-liked and popular with kids my age. And it worked out for me temporarily, but crushed some of the people I took advantage of. It still haunts me to this day.

>>420
I've done plenty of horrible, manipulative shit to others but the one thing that makes me feel bad about myself happened in real life. I was shopping and trying on some clothes, and I made a comment which I don't remember but it was snobbish and made me sound like a rich bitch. I made that comment around a lady that obviously looked poor, and I felt awful because I was poor, and still am poor, it's just that my mom and I are better at dressing than other poor people.

>>939
do you have any tips fellow poorfag

>>479
Babying them is demeaning, unless they are stuck spasming, drooling in a wheelchair don't let them get away with retard behaviour. Be straight forward and upfront with them. For the lower end of the spectrum one of the few things they do understand is pain. I should know, I have worked with an autistic person within my family for most of my life. My family is quite different we didn't believe the mainstream medical system when they said there is little we can do. Instead we went to as many different alternative therapies as we could find. Hyperbaric oxygen treatment, cranial sacral, tomatus, PEM, electromagnetic brain entrainment, speech therapies, detoxification therapies to mention just a few. When one wasn't producing any visible results we simply moved on to the next we could find. By far the most effective therapy was neurobiofeedback in combination with a specialized organic diet and juice fasts. Now after many years of therapy he's pretty much a completely normal person aside from a slight lack of social development. Compare this to before where he would run around and bite people.

>>583
It's not that bad tbh. You see, society has a fail-safe for all of that so I would argue that, even if they are shitty, bulling someone is worst.
Also, what kind of friends do you have?

I think I may have significantly contributed to someone's decision to commit suicide.

>>571
Ow. I'm sorry to hear that, anon.
How's yoyr relationship with her nowadays? How are you holding up?

>>1107
Details?

>>1107
Would you mind giving some details?

>>1107
you bully him/her?

>>1174
>>1175
>>1177
I didn't bully, but I forced them to come out and apologize for scamming and manipulating extensively. Though they already attempted suicide a few times prior to that, so I think it would have happened anyway regardless of my actions.

Is it worse to break a guy's femur in wood-shop by hitting him with a D-clamp, or to sabotage your friend's engagement because it's already falling apart at the seams and you just want them to stop pissing about and end it?

>>1217
The former.

Did you do both of those things? Was the first one an accident?

Sometimes I go into my roommate's rooms when they're out of town. I don't take anything valuable or touch too much, but I've read left-open diaries and opened drawers just to look, without rifling through. Mostly I just like to stand and experience what it's like in someone else's space. There's something addicting about standing in someone else's room, in someone else's space. I never try to use any of the stuff I find out for like, evil purposes, nor do I take things from their rooms. I know I probably should stop but I won't. It also makes me a little paranoid, I leave my door locked all the time to avoid it happening to me.

During the 4th grade there was this one girl who tired her hardest to be my friend, always trying to hang out with me. I didn't have any friends at the time so I was incredibly lonely and ended up being her "friend" because I didn't want to be seen as a friendless loser. Half of our time spent together would always up end in me making fun of her or telling her to fuck off. I don't even know why I did it, I guess I just found her annoying at the time.

I ghosted a girl who was really really into me and also very sucidal several times just cause I had no idea how to tell her I was not interested. I kept leading her on with maybes when there was no chance since I am straight (and even if I weren't she would definitely not be my type). Apparently she tried to commit suicide a few days back and is now in a mental hospital, ouchie.

Also when I was on a school trip some years back I got really angry at this guy for always changing every conversation to be about video games and I yelled at him such mean things that he had a breakdown, called his parents and went home. This would be fine-ish if we weren't a literal 7 hour drive (via a highway) from home. Hadn't seen the guy since.

Also I am a huge kleptomaniac and have a side-job of giving out fliers and when I see a lettter in the mailbox, I often take it. Haven't been found out yet

>>1728
have you ever found anything good in the letters? or is it mostly junk?

>>1729
just pointless bills so far, no juicy personal letters or anything but i did once nab a package that had an adult inflatable vest in it for some reason, hope the poor fella managed without it lol. I once saw a really big package from a local clothes company and I was about to take it but the owner was just pulling into the driveway so I had to leave it. Am going for another round tomorrow, will update you if I find anything noteworthy

>>1732
so thats where i keep having missing mail

>>448
I've been dreaming of this person recently after moving to the city she used to live in. I can't help but feel a bit bad even though she really was a terrible person. Wonder what she's up to.

>>448
>>1828
don't feel bad. i've done that to people who pissed me off irl as revenge. it's actually really helpful for letting going of the past.

Followed in this girl’s footsteps cause I’d given up on life and on ever finding a partner.

I’m in a better place now mentally and emotionally, and I deeply regret doing it. I feel a lot like I’ve ruined myself.

>>1843
you went to or worked in a brothel?

>>1844
Went to, didn't work in.

>>1847
you didn't ruin yourself anon

>>1847
Did you actually use their services or did you just browse?

>>1851
Anon, who would feel like they’ve ruined themselves just from browsing?

>>420
Me and my current bf of 2 years fight a lot. Mostly I get hurt by something he said and then I cry for hours and act real passive-aggressively or openly disrespectfully or bitchy because I don't know how to communicate better.
He says he'd never leave me and that I'm his reason to live. He's very autistic and adorable, but doesn't have many friends because he's afraid of emotional intimacy. We've talked about this and I promised him I'll fix it, because it makes me feel pretty shitty too.
In our first year of being in love, we resolved everything constructively and peacefully, but ever since march of 2020, my mental state has been detiriorating and him being recruited for mandatory military service isn't doing any of us a favour. I know it doesn't seem that bad but I feel like shit about it. Nothing worse than hurting a person you love so much.
I've been trying to fix it but today I really dun hurt both him and me. :c

I love to manipulate people to get what I want or simply to fuck with them. I used to dislike myself for it but ever since I got out of a relationship in which my ex didn't let me manipulate him, I stopped caring about it being a morally not so great thing to do.
My most recent and favourite thing is easily how after a guy had a retarded shitfit and left a smaller community I'm a part of in a vidya game for a couple of days, then came back and begged the main guys, they decided to cast a vote. I don't know him whatsoever and we never had any kind of contact, but I heard that he likes to argue and never stops complaining, so I voted multiple times against letting him back by abusing vpns and incog mode. Without those extra votes, they'd let him back in, but no, fuck that lmao.
I love doing this kind of shit, especially to men, while pretending that I'm so nice and completely uninterested in starting drama. I really hope that I managed to cause some with this.

>>1981
that's stupid

>>1981
Lol keep it up queen

>>1874
that's very sweet
best of luck to you both

Once I had a co-worker who never did much of anything right. It used to drive me insane because I was always the one who ended up having to fix it, and as a result my own work was being postponed. One night I was venting to another co-worker about it. "I am sick and tired of doing all this shit for her. What is she, fucking retarded?"

… She was legitimately mentally handicapped. I had no idea and
I felt awful.

>>1981
lmao based

>>2029
That's your work's fault, not yours. They should have told you from the start and balanced your workload better.

i stabbed someone when i was a preteen.
idk other than that. i do a lot of bad shit, nothing super notable.

>>2158
Me too, i stabbed my friend, he was really asking for it though, we still were friends years after that, but recently i started ghosting him, because he went somewhat insane, started building his life around all sorts of esoteric beliefs, started having ridiculous business ideas that would never work, just plane unstable, felt like he could explode at any moment, perhaps he was always like that and i just didn't notice, well, whatever.

Lie to my mother for drug money.

>>1847
how did that ruin you? youre ok anon, dont overthink. great taste in comics btw.

I posted guro on a 4chan blue boards for the shock value and the rush. I'm not going back … the temptation is too great.

>>479
I feel that way about Cluster Bs. I secretly wish they would off themselves so I'm not obligated to interact with them. I seen too much. I don't believe they can change or be helped, because it's not what they want. I'm sorry for feeling this way.

>>1217
The femur. The couple weren't risk for inner hemorrhaging.

>>3424
I hate Cluster Bs too but I'm not sorry for feeling this way, kek.

>>1692
You deserved each other

>>3426
Right, 👌

>>479
It’s ok anon, at least you know you’re a disgusting piece of shit (you are)

>>3434
Don't be so sensitive, snowflake.

>>3434
How? I have assburgers and op's feelings are totally understandable. I ended up disliking most fellow autists I've encountered irl, they're exhausting and hard to get along with for several reasons. I'm a hypocrite sure, but let it be known that I hate myself too kek.
Everyone harbors some kind of prejudice in their mind, whether they realize it or not. It doesn't make you a horrible person unless you actively treat people like shit. I highly doubt OP does given how bad she feels about simply having thoughts.

>>1024
Left picture looks more like Mr. Bean.

this isnt the worse- but its the funniest and kinda bad.
when i was in kindergarten my dad told me about segregation in america. im a white kid who goes to a 99% white school.
I remember skipping around the playground and then I go up to my black friend, we spin in circles together and I go,
¨Just because you´re black doesn´t mean we can´t be friends!¨ and then I skip off.
Its so fucking funny to me now.

I manipulated and used someone and was gonna leech energy off them as well. It was this guy who I thought was quite pathetic and a "loser". They have a sad life as an unemployed pothead and they were fairly easy to manipulate. It fell apart in the end though, as I didn't really want to do that to someone. I simply was acting out unconsciously due to anger and hatred from having had that done to me in the past by a similar person to the guy I was doing that to(they were not a pothead though) and I was not aware of how bad the emotional damage was that had been done to me nor how angry and hurt I felt from it. Thankfully this guy I saw is okay and I did no real harm, as the other person did to me, as I stopped very soon in. I'm not really a narcissist but was acting that way due to my unresolved shadow, but this person I dated in the past does have a lot of those narcissistic traits and caused me a lot of harm. I did not know they were a narcissistic when I dated them, as they have another condition which is said to be confused for narcissism (the pothead guy also has this condition) and that the two cannot go together but in his case, they did.

>>3464
>unresolved shadow
What does it mean?

- Stole a bunch of people's keyrings from off their backpacks in 1st grade (got caught)
- Spent an unsettling number of hours torturing Norns in the 'Creatures' games
- Stalked someone for years until he told me to stop
- Wrote cringy DDLG abuse fanfic and drew furry porn
- Had an acute psychotic episode, while in ambulance started masturbating and told my mother I wanted to kill her (I have no memory of this, she told me afterwards, and the thought of doing it horrifies me)
- Cyberbullied transgender people
- Seriously considered committing a political assassination

That's about it O_____O

>>3531
>Spent an unsettling number of hours torturing Norns in the 'Creatures' games

Anon, are you anti-norn?

Anon, are you the fucking source of the norm abuse controversy a few years back?

>>3555
No, but I downloaded Norns from his website (cringe I know.) I-I'm not that evil!