>>5279Thats not true actually, the closer you get to feeling aligned, the calmer, and more at peace you feel. For me its like a place I am supposed to go and I incrementally get closer to the thing everyday, especially with the help of a journal.
For me it is mostly this fascination with creative process and using automatic writing, to get better alignments than I had before. It is a gradual process though and you will forget the kind of "wishing for it" you used to know, that drove you crazy, which is a good thing. But at the same time, its wierd when you get there in a gradual way. Because in a way you can't appreciate it the way you used to have. Old you would have lost her mind over it and present you will be like "hmmmm yup I'm not really surprised i did this at this point though"
