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>>15737
You should like the male gaze porn if you want to be a moid kek

Watch this channel until your autoandro urges go away

>>15737
Visual porn is made for men and smut for women. There must be some lesbian smut that get close to what you want, somewhere.

>>15740
>>15742
This.

>>15737
Why is it a problem if you have autoandrophiliac urges? Let yourself have them, it doesn't make you a man. I've had them too and they sorta went away again. Doesn't have to be a big deal. I sorta felt very self-conscious as a woman because of some experiences I've had and I hated the thought of being sexually submissive because I couldn't separate it from the shame and degradation I'd experienced via misogyny from my father and brothers. Imagining myself as a man allowed me to be free of those gender insecurities and just focus on the sex. It's also why I used to read lots of yaoi. I've since overcome a lot of the internalised misogyny and generally improved my self image apart from that too. I like myself as a person now and even as a woman in a sexual context. I'm not ashamed of myself anymore. Just be yourself, noona, build sexual confidence and if some autoandrophilia gives you comfort in the meantime, just do that. It doesn't suddenly turn you into a man, it's just about feeling good about yourself as a person first, then good about yourself as a woman and finally feel secure as a woman in a sexual way.
>I accept my body
>I don't want to be trans
Then you're probably not. I'm friends with some trans people, they seem pretty secure in their identity. I wasn't for a while, but I am now. If you're really not trans, you have nothing to worry about. Last time I checked, the consensus was that people are born trans and figure things out along the way. If you're actually binary trans and not just in-between with gender confusion or simply insecure about your birth gender, you'd figure that out soon enough. If you can picture yourself being happy as a woman in a space removed from misogyny, you have nothing to worry about, I promise.
>b-but my fetish
A fetish isn't a gender, anyone can get off on putting on costumes during sex.

watch sissy hipno or something

OP here:
I've been meditating this a little bit more.
Im positive that I am not a pooner. I accept my reality as a masculine woman. I think what does concern me is that i in fact find "the male gaze" (or at least what i think it is the male gaze) as an attractive fantasy of mine. Am i no better than a moid?.

This is purely a fantasy, even if i went all into pooning out because no matter what i do, what surgeries i could get, how much testosterone i inject myself, or get the rotdog, that is not gonna make me a man in any meaningful way that would fulfill that fantasy.

This also conflicts a little with my self perception. As I mentioned before i've always been masculine in my presentation. Im concerned if my fetish is an extension of that or if my whole being was all influenced by a dormant fetish. I mean how can someone end like this?

>>15786
I think your post describes things best. Might be an issue with internalized misoginy, although not from a place of opression, more like admiration? I had really good male influences in my life, my dad is probably one of the most awesome people i know. Maybe Im feeling guilty because i dont want to be a misoginyst, which I admit i very well could be in my sexual fantasies

>>15790
I am not watching tranny porn.
Worst fate than being a pooner is becoming a Kikomi

>>15801
Just imagine you're a correctional officer in some jail in Las Vegas and you have to do all the strip searches until 2030
You'd get bored after seeing all those pussies and assholes and butt cheeks bent over and spread

>>15801
This just makes you horny in a masculine way. It in no way affirms a masculine gender. The male gaze is not so subtle as male sexuality.

>>15737
>>15801
Ask yourself this: if you were blissfully unaware of the existence of pooners, how would you feel about your preferences?

People of both sexes can be atypically masculine or feminine in any number of ways and none of that means they're a latent troon. Have some self-confidence and ignore whatever sociological drivel is giving you angst - watch the porn you like and sex the women you like in the way you like while fantasizing about what you like and stop caring about what it "means".