>>8097I'm in your boat OP. Men are somewhat repulsive to me, not to the point where I hate them, but I try to avoid them if I can. But at the same time the thought of a well hung guy expecting me to give him pleasure and me getting to worship his huge dick makes me go totally crazy. I have this friend who has a kind of ugly boyfriend, and he's arrogant to boot, so I disliked him a lot and always told her that she should find someone else. Until one day she drunkenly told me and a couple of other friends that he's extremely big and knows how to use it, and since then my view of him completely changed. I can't help but steal glances at his crotch often and I even laugh at some of his stupid jokes. I hate myself for this, but when I imagine him making me worship his dick and blowing him I can cum so quickly it's ridiculous, makes me feel so disgusted with myself afterwards, I just hate it!!