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This site might help you start researching what's available and safe usage: https://psychonautwiki.org/wiki/Main_Page

i still stalk my bf's ex on 1000kitap (our country's version of goodreads basically). they broke up 1,5 years ago but it's become a habit for me -i may be kinda obsessed too tbh. she doesn't use other social media except instagram, which i can't see since she didn't accept my friend request (sent by my fake account ofc). funnily enough that doesn't really bother me, keeping track of what books she has read/is reading is way more fullfilling for me.

>>2475
YES especially an e-celeb

honestly, i feel like the creepiest one here. basically for anyone that triggers my limerence, i have g00gled and likely found their address, contact info, work, even divorce / arrests / voting info, etc …. if it’s public data, i’ve most likely seen it

I keep a document with the personal information of each (3) moid I've dated (2 IRL 1 long distance discord groomer "relationship")
All known account usernames, emails, phone #s, addresses, etc. All 3 were sexually abusive and emotionally manipulative to varying degrees, so I don't feel bad about it at all. I like to check up on the discord groomer's info every once in a while to see if his bpd failmale status drove him to suicide yet. Definitely celebrating the day his obituary pops up.
As for #3, a messy situationship w/ a compulsive sex addict that strung me along, attempted to rape me while I was blackout, etc…I found myself near his old place of work a few months ago and felt possessed, like I needed to cross the street and search the whole parking lot for his car. So I did, and I found a champagne car that looked like his. I looked in the backseat for blankets that resembled his, took multiple pics of the license plate. I almost paid $20 to run the plates and confirm if it was his vehicle or not…I haven't yet, but I still have the plate number…I feel like he might have moved to a different city and I want to know for sure. He gives me serial date rapist vibes, I know I'm not the only woman he's assaulted and he loves EDM festivals (probably full of victims). I want to prevent him from ever having a serious relationship with a woman by messaging any girls he posts and telling them the things he's admitted to me. Unfortunately I unfollowed his private IG a long time ago and don't have a facebook/am too lazy to make a fake one to stalk him, but if I pretended to be some sexy fake chick I could probably get access to his profile again easily. I think part of my obsession is also because he was the only moid I've ever been sexually involved with who was actually attractive and fit (below the chin).

>>10377
This is the push I needed to never use Discord or participate in social media ever again.

I have a copy of the Spells of Going Forth by Day and it has the hieroglyphs, transliteration and translation out together for each line.

So I read the translation out loud one year and was granted the opportunity to stare at the sun and chant for several hours a day for a month or so. Last year, I read the transliteration out loud. I wonder if something similar is going to happen soon.

So if you're into Egypt, and especially if you're into sun worship, I heartily recommend this:
https://www.amazon.com/Egyptian-Book-Dead-Complete-Papyrus/dp/1945186658/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?crid=2X1KSUB5O78N&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.digEZ7cMhn1FdPOr1MpvnfPhvMuMYiKJnNvFG3buO0mggmR7GwLXPQ9M_oAY0whpbnJFVgfZbYXDHkIYd1gVFuXc_mUWKanY1VfKlKUC1QZX90dnqcHb0yw7TjMaEVPIGooEVaNa52m4kT0miX5Hekk_OkxHJXW2mWcms6VTYqipvLFAncJf5C6__PbjHzwctuuXVomAl-BIXCnEM8V7iA.sQnh9T3n7n_D4DKByxxIrNQ3hxGXdJKNfYNPdHCfBWw&dib_tag=se&keywords=e+a+wallis+budge&qid=1723895915&sprefix=e+a+wall%2Caps%2C239&sr=8-1
This one has no transliteration but pictures of some of the original papyri are there: https://www.amazon.com/Egyptian-Book-Dead-Integrated-Full-Color/dp/1452144389/ref=mp_s_a_1_5?crid=2EGON4C1C8YNE&dib=eyJ2IjoiMSJ9.e6k4X6X1CUMAHQEHNp7KulabRzwAB3IFExXkCZ5xE7BXPsHGl0eMSVUbAaUERUhQCEmq2qQSTR2pWL2FwIOouTWUItl7aSZqXHYKuwaxaG-H_UpVSCWO07Kc5Xsd7mO0fVhFBTTMRpsZKumIMwVv2zBAB5zmPCPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

thank you so much nona! I'll bookmark these and look into reading them. Religiously I am celtic pagan but I am interested/use ancient near eastern pagan magick. What were your intentions with the readings?

>>10714
Just scrolling by but man I'd kill for a friend that is a fellow Celtic pagan + browses CC. Wishing you well, Nona.

>>10697
Thanks for the links anon!

>>10732
>eating salt and then being assalted
what do you mean

>>10733
Eating salt and being assalted affects reality anon.

That's just the guy from lsd dream emulator, i saw him on my dreams before

>>10540
what the fuck I've absolutely had nightmares about this guy when I was like 4-5 years old. Never again after that.

would

my older brother saw him on the preschool playground when he was 4. He never saw him again. He is a careerman now, he still swears to have seen him.

I often saw him in the hallway in the dark when I was a kid. I wonder if he is on the autism spectrum like me and that is why he stands around awkwardly. I would fuck him.

>>10713
then you're not pretending

>>10720
meds. now.

I genuinely don't love my mentally disabled older brother at all. He has been nothing but cruel and violent to me and everyone around him his entire life, which I can't really blame him for because noone in my family ever treated him as a human, only an innocent animal that can't really be blamed for the wrong he does because he doesn't know. But I know what he really is, he is a malicious, angry, hateful man who is jealous of normal people for our intelligence, violently so. After he tried to kill me and was sent to the insane asylum he should've stayed there, but we couldn't afford it so now he's a ward of the state. I know that they're abusing him there, he's super thin now because they don't feed him right and he sometimes has bruises when my parents make me visit him. I feel some pity for him, but then when I remember all of the horrible things he did to me, to my mom, to my other brothers, one of whom is quadraplegic and can't even run away, I don't feel that sorry for him. I can't tell anyone in my life about this because they will think I'm a horrible ableist, even though I have autism myself and don't mind physically disabled people like my other brother at all. I wish that America would put more people like my brother in insane asylums for the rest of their lives so that they didn't hurt anyone.

>>10735
I'm in a similar situation to you and it does fucking suck. My older brother is autistic and he can still function normally to an extent, but his meltdowns and violent tendencies have been getting more frequent and worse. He's pretty much ruined the quality of life for my entire family and we've had to call the cops on him numerous times after he attacked someone. I do wish he could also get institutionalized forever because it's obvious that he can't ever get a job or function normally as an adult in society. He's just a burden on those around him. But just know you aren't a bad person for thinking this because a lot of people don't understand how hard it is to go through this and having a family member with a disability or mental issue

>>5799
Same. I never found tall, muscular bearded men attractive. I like shota too and I read straight shota doujins. I like whenever I catch shotas staring at me, but it's gross if it's an old fart.

i don’t know about eye color thing but that’s how it got me into subliminals and one time i was meditating on the love subliminal by quadible integrity and i ended up having a full blown kundalini awakening. apparently i was meditating for four hours and it was intense

Used to use subliminals a lot with breaks here and there. Honestly they didn't work, but you can certainly gaslight yourself into thinking they do. I was listening to this one to get wider shoulders and was doing a manual labor job at the time so, duh they got bigger. My beliefs around them are that you can gaslight yourself for appearance stuff. They can definitely aid you for mindset related things however.

been doing subliminals for over 10 years now, they work, it just takes a really long time.

Ive been listening to sublminals for 2-3 years now, honestly i think they do work, however the ones that supposed to change your appeareance seem to be useless on me kek

no that shits retarded

>>10611
kys polfag

>>10611
Why jews?

>>10638
Go back to pol

>>10616
You have a lot to learn.

go and watch Inside Job in netflix so we can storm conspiracy ideas based on it