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>>10027
I don't think we're in control of our thoughts or feelings generally (but I'm not sure to what extent anyone else is either). Have you ever actually watched your thoughts? They just come up from nowhere and disappear to nowhere. People flip their shit over what the "original cause" could be when it comes to god but that same problem shows up even in a domain as intimate and common as our own thoughts.

>>10027
I believe in it and feel i've been exposed to subtle attempts at it before. I've never heard a non-crazy person attempt to explain it at any serious depth tho.

>>10027
CIA MKUltra'd me years ago AMA

>>10028
You dont have to "lose" your own mind control to perform someone else's will. You are not immune to propaganda.

Really looking forward to celebrate the autumnal equinox this year. I always fail to make preparations and end up doing almost nothing. This year I am buying pumpkins grown in the area, actually, I will buy anything interesting enough I can use in my cooking. I also have to find a discrete place outdoors to spend the afternoon.
>>9083
>I asked her to teach me some stuff and she told me all women can make witchcraft because we are connected to nature and life (because we can create life) and that give us power and intuition that just needs to be acknowledged, when we learn this fact we can make witchcraft
based

>>8048
https://mega.nz/folder/jlEwhYyJ#iK4mVC4y5iwk_cr3eIpX4g/folder/34tkDYST
idk if your still here but this folder in the 4moids occultism library has lots of books.

It is a blue moon tonight, what magical ritual should I do?

>>9676
depends on what you want to accomplish. might be a good night to try astral projecting somewhere or at least tracking dreams. You could meditate on an entity or maybe a tarot card and see what it says to you in your sleep.

Happy Ostara/Spring Equinox! Coming back to this unactive thread still makes me sad. I wish I could share my festive plans for today but I really don't have any

>>2537
>it's just that women are more emotionally intelligent and thus have more options. Men will absolutely fuck you over emotionally
This. I would say that more than half of all men consciously try to "manipulate" people (by which I mean friends and gfs, not vendors at the flea market), and the only reason it doesn't go anywhere is that they suck it. They don't feel remotely bad about it, quite the opposite, they do it to try to live up to the power fantasies that society has encouraged in them. Unfortunately for them, they have no talent so these ploys usually just amount to more laborious ways to piss people off. There aren't that many that could manipulate others for meaningful gain.

>>3436
Pretty much this. So many people can only think of "manipulation" in this cringey abstract way, like they're a high ranking CIA member or a Game of Thrones character trying to protect themselves and further their tangible interests, but the reality is most people (particularly most people in places like this) don't have nearly an interesting enough life for there to be some manipulation worth doing. If you're reading this you're probably just a community college art student or something, there's not much to be gained by manipulating people. You'd be way better off if you just kept doing a reasonably good job at your occupation and try to be friendly and fun to be around.

what would you do (LEGAL and NON-SUPERNATURAL) to someone who you live with that would destroy their ego or cause them to begin to doubt themself/their ability to accurately perceive reality? urgent

>>787
oops. bump

i'm too socially retarded to even try to manipulate people so i don't bother. i've had scrotes accuse me of being manipulative because i was honest about my feelings and how they were treating me.

bless this to go faster?

>>9907
wtf who hexed me :(

I would like a blessing.

Please let me be happy and reclaim and surpass what's happened to me into a healthier, successful life. I want to move on from this and what it's done. I am a better person than I was back then, and my intentions were good, but I can't live with this forever. I want to live, to love, and to smile again. Thank you.

I would like a blessing

I would like to get a job, soon
I would like to find love
I would like to get out of here

>>8311
i would like to be blessed with a man i find attractive who loves me so much he skins me alive and wears me so i don't have to feel the pain of existing anymore.

>>2002
I find I can soothe my separation anxiety and loneliness by fantasizing about kidnapping my exes and just trapping them in my basement. I wouldn't do anything sexual really - it's just nice imagining I could talk to them an be near them whenever I want

>>8733
This does actually work. It took time but I was able to slowly disconnect from some thoughts.
But honestly I still engage with highly violent thoughts cause it's cathartic. Especially with the men in my city, my culture, the internet, etc. Plus it's funny cause the most violent stuff I imagine against one guy is literally just me wishing a dude larger than him would just do what he did to me. Or like imagining a group of guys beating him up and him having to deal with the terror of not knowing if he was going to survive that beating like he did to me and at least 2 other former girls he was with for his entire adult life. I don't want him dead I'd just want him to life with the haunting fears he gave women. It's probably not the healthiest long term but it's better than any self inflicted hatred

Making big cuts in my arms and make my father watch as I make them (he's hemophobic)

Flying to California, breaking into an empty Los Angeles mansion, and then shooting myself on some rich persons balcony or roof and dying there

Get a gun, shoot myself
Unfortunately it's not that easy here
Slit my wrist every time I hold a knife

that gooseworx troon has this fetish and adds it to all his cartoons.

>>10121
god. of course it wouldnt just be the drills..

What is the artists handle? Looks like some shit a middle aged schizo would draw.

> rule 34
There's your problem.

>>10117
i find it intriguing but knowing its rule34 is a bit strange? my curiosity is peaked about who the artist is though and tbh if i didnt know it was r34 i wouldve though it was vent art

I wish i could find a painless way to die. My mind is fucked up from meds and my life is looking bleak (jobless at 23) and my art is taking me no where. Dude i like rejected me too. I genuinely want to leave earth.

>>10156
jobless at 23 is honestly not that bad. you can find a job - ask around your neighborhood, see if anyone needs a babysitter, hell you could work at mcdonalds. jobless at like 30 or 40 is an issue but 23 ?? ur gonna be ok nona

>>480
do any nonas want to form a pact I'm scared of dying alone

i'd like to do it in a painless way like with a shotgun to the head, but i only have access to ineffective methods (pills) so i gave up.

>>10180
the meds deedee was giving her were legitimately making her weak and ill, though. they made most of her teeth fall out, too.

There is no escape from this situation, an abusive mother who beats you to near death for her own selfish motivations, unless a kind man takes enough pity on you to save you. Even that comes with its own problems; all scrotes are disgusting pedophiles, rapists, adulterers and murderera. At least she tried to escape.

>Was there any other way out for her?
Yes, she could have done what her mother did and made it look natural. Stab someone 20 times and you sealed your own fate. She's retarded, but she's pathetic enough for people to feel bad for her, meanwhile her ex-scrote is gonna rot for the rest of his life. As he should. He was a particularly vulgar, nasty scrote.

Do you guys really think that no medical professional would have responded to her saying like hey I am not sick? That is really bleak. I am not sure how to feel about that.

>>10215
and get herself life in prison for medical fraud? lol, no.

I still wish it was real. Wanted it to be real so badly as a kid and in my teenage years, especially when I started getting into anime and books about magic.

Still wishing I had magical powers

I had a wicca phase as a tween, and a magical girl phase as a teen. During my magical girl phase I would regularly dream that I was Sailor Jupiter or Sailor Uranus from Sailor Moon. They were some of the most fun, liberating dreams I've ever had.

>Does anyone else wish magic was real and or to be a magical girl?

Nice try kyubey

>>10211
being meguca is suffering