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Tulpas aren't real.

Kek, what's your tulpa like and what do you mean by feeling strange, nona?

>>10390
>That being said I have a question. Are tulpas demons?
yes Tulpas are psychic entities which feed off the energy your brain is formed by, turn to God and banish it, ask politely first tho, maybe get a psychiatrist

>>10390
Whatever you feed into a tulpa is often whatever you get out of it. Though if it's doing something "evil" outside of what it was intended for, it may just be a reflection or manifestation of the subconscious. To some degree, all people are capable of horrible things and will find ways to "justify" it. Like nazis just "following orders" and "doing their job".

>>10391
Idk there’s lots of stories, this video by Hannah The Horrible gives a pretty good take on it all imo

Honestly I've considered doing it. The main way I can think of is slitting my wrists but I've heard that's pretty painful so I don't know if I would do that way. I think slitting your throat would be largely the same and falling from a high place or getting hit by a car has way too much time of you being aware you're gonna die for me to do it plus it's not guaranteed death. I wouldn't ingest anything because that would also likely be slow. Hanging isn't guaranteed death. Best way to do it would probably be to shoot myself but I don't have any access to firearms. Regardless I wouldn't go through with it unless stuff got really bad, like "the whole word is against me" bad. That and I'm scared of the afterlife and what happens after death and facing the idea of eternity

Two years ago, I tried to throw my life in the trash by locking myself in the restroom and taking (literally) 100 pills of Benadryl. I woke up in the hospital and lied to everyone saying it was an accident. I was sent home from college for a year, and the past couple years of my life have been getting worse since then.

I do not recommend trying to kill yourself. I instead recommend sterilization so no more children can be born in the first place. Getting your tubes tied isn't enough–ask for a full blown hysterectomy and burn your removed uterus.

Gun or high jump. No other way.

>>11586
Decapitation with an automatic chainsaw is a better way. Its prognosis is invariably fatal.

Please don't

OP here, I have lasting inability to move my fingertips but the antibiotics worked. It sure was scary, I was worried I would have to have my forearm amputated.

What country are these things in?

>>11597
idk but i've heard the only way to get there is to do a lot of meth

>>11598
Spider wasps are a real thing. But, I don't know how she got an infection from them.

>>11608
I think OP had dirt daubers in her gaming drawer. These are wasps that paralyze spiders to lay eggs in them.

>>10757
And this is what happened just this summer.
> decide I need to get out of this giant military town filled with intelligence agencies and private security companies on every corner
> husband agrees
> keep hearing about one particular city with a great punk scene
> my boss and therapist were both from there and made it sound like heaven
> husband and I visit and agree to move there,
> can transfer with my job and so can husband
> try finding apartment but keep getting rejected
> my credit score looks awful and was showing $40,000 in debt which was in no way accurate (I got it fixed)
> try apartment locators but they eventually quit calling my husband and me
> find tiny home for rent by owner through Airbnb
> is perfect and super cheap
> move in by husband needs to watch our niece while his sister is out of town for three weeks
> there's a few other tiny homes and RVs on the large property
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>>10460
>>10630
Update a creepy white van with tinted windows and no licence plate has been driving around my street with the driver looking directly at my house. Whoever's driving this vehicle has done this like 3 or 4 times in the past month.

So, this might interest you guys. I've never posted before, but I read this thread and I thought I might contribute my experiences. I've never been a TI, but I have met a handful of people who have invited me to participate in what is essentially gang stalking. Only one of them has been self aware about it though. It's never been a government employee or anything, though it's not unlikely that intelligence agencies use it as a tool. Rather, it's usually just really unhinged individuals or groups of individuals online. Weird friend circles on apps like Discord and Instagram, finding people they think are funny or "crazy" enough to justify monitoring, and doing it as a social activity or group. Most of them don't even realize it's technically stalking, and woe be upon anyone who ever suggests to them how insane and creepy it all is. I think the idea that it's the government harassing most of you schizos is, truthfully, very narcissistic. Nobody here is going to be the woman to overthrow her government or amount to much, odds are it's just a group of unhinged moids (and especially girlies) thinking you're funny to watch chimp out, or crazy enough to get a rise out of. Gang stalking certainly happens, it's a well documented phenomenon, but if you're worried about it, don't look to law enforcement or your government (unless you're a journalist or something, obviously). You should usually look at the online friend group you were ostracized by, or the girl who acts nervous whenever you catch her pointing her phone at you, or the moid watching all your social media stories that you don't interact with and that doesn't follow you. Keep yourselves in good health and informed, my favorite schizophrenics.

>>10758
I hope you’re doing okay

Here Nonas, this is a subliminal to make your enemies pay. Listen consistently. Hope everyone here thrives and succeeds in their goals. I love you

>>11588
I believe that drawn pornography or real life children is illegal in the USA. Federal law says that it does not have to be an identifiable person if it is a deepfake, and if it is drawn it becomes illegal if it beyond obviously portrays a real person.

Can we get the mods in this thread? I see lots of illegal sites.

>>11609
Like what?

>>11610
Saw a link to Motherless in this thread. It has incest videos and CSAM on it.

>>11615
It's a pretty infamous site

>>11616
Just go to the weird sites thread, it's a more SFW version of this one >>8858

>>11476
Supposedly they went downhill and started selling personal information.

>>11481
Can't say I'm surprised, they seemed to fall off. Almost every antivirus software has a built in site detector. You don't need the likes of wot anymore

http://www.insecam.org/ it's a site where you can watch live cameras from all across the world that don't have a password on them. most of them are just traffic cameras but it's still pretty scary

>>11554
yyyyyyy.info is an even weirder site. It is reasonably safe for work, and it is interesting too.

Ever been to Uncyclopedia? The humor there is rotton as a dead potato.

>>11460
Explain

>>11463
Someone in my family was asleep, I pulled my pants down and pressed my pussy against their foot. I didn't do anything else and I don't know why I did it and I feel bad for it, they were married too. I did shit like that a lot I used to finger myself while other people were in the same bed as me and I used to get naked when I was sleeping in the same bed as other people while they were fully clothed

When I was about 4 I spilled water on the kitchen floor. For some reason I refused to clean it up, I had a temper tantrum over something I don't quite remember. Next thing I remember my grandmother, who needed crutches to walk at the time, slipped on the water I spilt. She screamed. Next thing you know my uncle had driven to our home and took my grandma to the hospital, apparently her femur had shattered. It was replaced with a steel pipe. From then on she needed a walker or a wheelchair. When I was 6 and realized it was my fault I cried to my grandma one night and admitted it, she laughed and told me it was the maid's fault for not cleaning it up. I don't think she took me seriously.

>>11460
LMAO what's the situation

>>11568
It was already explained
>>11474

>>11560
This is the first time I've heard or thought of an ai-generated suicide note. I can't really comprehend thecfeeling behind making one despite disabilitating self-consciousness (which coukd reasobably lead to suicide, I guess)? Honestly I haven't thought anout this topic enough to have an opinion, but I can empathize with you.

>>11560
Does this even happen that much? Sounds like a really specific scenario

>>11563
>>11564
Like anything else AI genned, couldn't it just be fake?
It's a good concept for a black mirror ep or something, though: Say, after handing all social media presence off to an LLM to decompress after a shitstorm/doxxing, the heroine slowly discovers that the algo decided suicide guilting was the optimal next step in damage control and everyone thinks she's dead for real

>>11562
I think it goes deeper than just the lack of emotion or grieving though, towards the disdain or prejudice,(good riddance, etc) which if you had any power over such forum (or be anywhere near suicidals really) would be kinda not good.

Bump for porn

I’ve read recently that apparently Hinduism and Buddhism added stuff like reincarnation and Karma to their beliefs later on into their existence so now I’m curious. Are there any religions older than Gnosticism that speak on reincarnation or was Gnosticism the first? Hinduism and Buddhism seem to expand more on what Gnosticism speaks of which is why I’m asking so now I’m wondering was Gnosticisms origins are lowkey

For I am the first and the last. I am the honored one and the scorned one.
I am the whore and the holy one.
I am the wife and the virgin….
I am the barren one, and many are her sons….
I am the silence that is incomprehensible….
I am the utterance of my name.

http://www.gnosis.org/naghamm/Pagels-Gnostic-Gospels.html

>>9899
Ultimately it's a scam to make people feel smart and special and egotistical while checking out from doing anything useful or worthwhile in life. It's based on some true concepts and some distortions.

I don't believe in the Pleroma or the origin story of the demiurge, but I believe that God is a demiurge-like being. The problem of evil is too much for basic Christianity in my eyes. (I don't care that this topic has been debated for centuries, none of the Christian arguments are sufficient for me. I don't hate God though, I don't believe He is evil. But I think He is imperfect just like the rest of us. I agree with a lot of the rules Gnostics follow but a lot of them are too extreme for me. I like that men and women are spiritually equals in Gnosticism. I dislike that Gnosticism became popular on other boards like 4chan, It made it cringe in my eyes because I'd rather not be lumped in with those guys. They call anyone they disagree with a hylic. (I don't even think hylics exist, it's just another excuse to treat others as less than yourself.)

Gnosticism is really a modern invention anyways, groups of people lumped into on e category. It makes sense to sort them together but none of these historical groups would have recognized themselves as "Gnostic".

I also believe in things from other religions, like Holy Guardian Angels. I have no cohesive set of beliefs and it greatly distresses me.

Forgive my ramblings I am schizophrenic.

I don't believe in it but if it is true and there truly is no way out that's horrifying. Reincarnation isn't a bad concept but here it's probably the scariest possibility, at least in Hell you would know you're absolutely hopeless, Gnostic Reincarnation teases you with hope before devastating you endlessly and it genuinely gets me panicking. I agree with >>11571 chances are that God's probably just not perfect and religious people really badly try to convince themselves that it is so they don't have to think too hard

>>11248
I just think it’s funny this Nonas other message got deleted for spam lol. I don’t see how any of this really debunks it. The CIA was very shady and dodgy with their documents about telepathy and parapsychology and has been trying to cover it up desperately by shoving materialism in everyone’s faces. I also doubt Joe Rogan is shilling for the CIA as he’s platformed those who have called out their shit (such as Thomas Campbell) but maybe he’s controlled opposition. I will say him going hyper new age as of late with all this talk of collective consciousness and the Akashic Records is side eye worthy though. Telepathy is a long standing thing but I don’t think you realized this thread is about this specific podcast by Ky Dickens (spelt her name wrong in the OP)

>>11259, >>11260
I may be biased (as I used to spend a lot of time in near death experience / parapsychology circles) but I don’t think Ky is necessarily a grifter. Sure her paywalling her stuff is suspicious and the constant interviews on these big podcasts (including the Jay Shetty Podcast which literally has had Selena Gomez, Will Smith, and fucking Michelle Obama on it) is suspicious and does make me question her authenticity but she seems to be pretty open to just telling everyone about the experiments if they ask (such as in this video). The blocked and reported episode has some comments completely ratioing the episode and truthfully I can’t blame the skeptics as I am one of (plus we live in a majority atheist/materialist/physicalist/nihilist society). The best argument I could think of against this (assuming it’s real) is maybe a cellular memory / DNA Memory of sorts but I’m unsure of how real that whole idea even is (the only real evidence I’ve heard for it is some urban legends and the NDE of a Trump supporting, pro-patriarchy, Mormon grifter named Betty Eadie who sounds way faker than Ky to me). I think it’s too soon to say anything for sure, none of us are even sure of if consciousness goes on past death and which afterlife is true and I see no harm with investigating or asking questions. She wasn’t locking these kids in chambers or anything and honestly if the atheist crowd is so sure that this is fake then they should feel Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

Mayim Bialik (Yes the one from the Big Bang Theory) did a podcast talking about the Telepathy Tapes. She’s been having a lot of people on her podcast to talk about the paranormal it’s honestly crazy seeing this stuff go so mainstream even if it’s a hoax. I hope this actually goes somewhere but maybe that’s just because I’m scared of death and want it to be proven that Consciousness isn’t just the brain

Some more skeptics who I’ve found (just for posterity because I just know there’s gonna be some kind of retrospective on this stuff one day and they’re gonna be scouring forums for stuff about it)
https://www.knowrogan.com/0012-ky-dickens-telepathy-tapes/
https://www.reddit.com/r/JoeRogan/comments/1iyugtm/joe_rogan_experience_2279_ky_dickens/

telepathy is real, vibes are real, you can literally feel it. lets stop pretending

Do you think this was faked or is it real? I'm somewhat conflicted, have any of you tried it for yourself?

This is more adjacent to the thread topic but any thoughts on this neuroscientist who's talking about communicating with the afterlife?