/x/ - /x/

I would like a blessing.

Please let me be happy and reclaim and surpass what's happened to me into a healthier, successful life. I want to move on from this and what it's done. I am a better person than I was back then, and my intentions were good, but I can't live with this forever. I want to live, to love, and to smile again. Thank you.

I would like a blessing

I would like to get a job, soon
I would like to find love
I would like to get out of here

>>8311
i would like to be blessed with a man i find attractive who loves me so much he skins me alive and wears me so i don't have to feel the pain of existing anymore.

Please bless me with a rhinoplasty soon. I really want one but I can't afford it right now

I would like to get a blessing for my summer work trip, so it would interesting, enjoyable and memorable (and so I would have to eat during it, it is important for as for genetically sick person)

>>10427
i dont know all the lore but i think its some troon that would schitzophrenically post on lolcow and would post poop?

>>10427
>>10428
Blaine is some tranny discordfag who constantly shits up 4chan particularly r9k by constantly posting racebait fetish porn threads I'm not even sure if he comes to CC but he's a severely mentally ill degenerate. I don't think the tranny posting shit is him but who knows.

>>10426
lmao i almost forgot about blaine

>>10429
i remember like last year a lot of girls on here were calling him out? like every time somebody posted something mildly male-like it would get at least three replies saying things like "kys blaine ywnbaw"… a truly paranoid time, haha

>>10429
Blaine posts on CC too or at least used to, he used to namefag when he first posted.

>>1937
>Why is true Crime so popular, especially with the woman audience?
Morbid curiosity. I also find it makes me feel grateful for being at least not murdered/raped etc. Also I like knowing the depths of depravity humans are capable of. I used to think it was exclusively males but I'm getting more into forms of crime by women (and not just ones you'd obviously be sympathetic to if you weren't a massive sexist - e.g. Aileen Wuornos). These forms of crime have much more complex but equally sinister nature (think women with Munchausens by proxy, cluster B personality disorders etc.).
>How do non-Americans feel about the subject?
idk if Canadians really count as non-Americans, but I think the Canadian justice system treats them too lightly. I think Singapore deals with criminals the best, which is why I felt the most safe and free when I lived there out of anywhere.
>Do you have a favorite killer?
Aileen Wuornos and Jodi Arias
>Who do you think is a handsome killer?
Ed Kemper
>Why would you be attracted to a serial killer?
I wouldn't - I'm not even attracted to non-vegans, let alone serial killers of humans.

>>9626
god these guys were the absolute worst. that was probably the only internet shock video involving not animals that really disturbed me.
i swear you can see how low iq and psychopathic this guy is just by the shape of his tiny beady eyes. what a creep.

>>1937
Am I the only one that thinks one of the toolbox killers look like a reptilian?

>Any anons in the tcc?
I lurk .. to me the tcc is interesting enough as a community to be its own hyperfixation. I'd never admit to knowing about it irl though
>Any outsiders willing to voice their pinions?
I can see why people hate it but I think it's human nature to be curious
>Why is true Crime so popular, especially with the woman audience?
As a previous anon said, women aren't a hive mind. Everyone has their own reason, but if say living in a terrifying violent world can make a person curious about crime
>How do non-Americans feel about the subject
Crime happens everywhere
>Do you have a favorite killer?
I would never tell you
>Who do you think is a handsome killer?
Eh I can see why some ladies are obsessed with Ted Bundy & Richard Ramirez, they are very stereotypically handsome. Once again I will never tell you my own opinion.
>Why would you be attracted to a serial killer?
Unfortunate brain

Israel Keyes is fascinating and scary to me. He's an extremely intelligent psychopath, he hid a bunch of random kill kits all over the U.S. and killed indiscriminately. Despite that, he did seem to love or at the very least have some affection for his daughter.

>>10190
DID isn't real you just talk to yourself

>>10383
I believe they believe it, but it's peak delusion and it seems to only happen in extreme cases of child issues though more often now due to media making it "known" through movies and books where the kid hears about it then probably uses it as a cope for their outbursts and whatnot (or takes on the persona of their imaginary friend to fight those harming them and suddenly the friend is "real") then the delusion gets more and more "real" to them as time goes on and into adulthood they're essentially a skitzo with their beliefs and need extreme therapy to snap out of it. Whatever anti delusional therapy entails plus whatever issues caused them to feel the need to put on certain personas in the first place

>>10385
Double posting but I should add, I'm not trying to talk from any point of malice, just my observations from knowing someone who definitely has it as opposed to a faker. Also I'm not exactly totally fine myself in the head so I'm not looking down on anyone who believes they've got a split personality.

>>10383
>implying carrey anon is "DID" when she has repeatedly stated she's bipolar bpd and has neurodivergent tendencies
>carrey anon has also repeatedly stated she does not have schizophrenia either
you respond to the wrong post number?

>>10385
Agreed anon. When the movie Sybil came out in the 70s, there was a huge influx of DID cases, and the same thing happened in the 80s during the Satanic Panic, where one woman claimed "satanic ritual abuse" and suddenly the phone lines all over the country were lighting up with the same claims.
I don't know what spurred the Tumblr DID hysteria in the 2010s (they also tried to bring back satanic ritual abuse victim for bonus points), but TikTok kids are definitely carrying the torch for this cultural disorder.
If it does exist, it's definitely not the way these internet munchies portray it (advanced roleplay/kinning or what the fuck ever).

Tulpas aren't real.

Kek, what's your tulpa like and what do you mean by feeling strange, nona?

>>10308
a bit of both. study by reading books or having a teacher can help to open the door by making it easier to see patterns. Divinity is all around us at all times but we are blinded to it. We were raised by forces jealous of truth and jealous of the spirit placed within all of us by the mother divinity. It instilled a set of false axioms meant to break the tie between our body and our spirit. Once the door has been opened (or inner eye, veil parted, whichever vocabulary you use to describe this) you will be able to see and hear the divinity in the world. It may appear in dreams, coincidences or synchronicities, or omens. Occasionally you may even receive a visit from a divine emanation in one of her many forms. You can also encounter divinity through logic such as mathematics or through art.
I would recommend most of the books in the OP. most things are tainted with some falsehood, so allow your heart to lead you to truth and follow whichever path the divinity sets before you.

>>10309
Thank you for your reply. Is there a good book that resonates with you especially? One that has emphasis on mother divinity? A lot of books I come across are very masculine.

>>10310
i liked the book by zuzana budapest in the OP under dianic wicca. You'll see I took a lot of inspiration from her. Mary Daly is good too.
The one that most resonated with me and broke me out of the spell of lies was reading the gnostic version of genesis. I had been raised catholic but since very early realized that the god of the bible was evil. It is especially obvious in genesis: the lie that women were borne from man's rib (and not the other way around), the curses the male god places on humanity like flooding the earth or killing innocents in egypt. He is jealous and vengeful. very unlike a creator and more like a usurper trying to control a creation that is not his. Even from a young age it felt like a trick. Reading the gnosic version is much closer to the truth, though i think their conception of material reality as evil is an oversimplification. the thunder perfect mind is a poem from the nag hammadi library, i think, which has a lot of hidden truths.
Unfortunately lots of traditions about the mother divinity were passed down orally, suppressed, eliminated, or assimilated. If you look, youll find fragments of her in your own culture. Take these fragments and follow them. She is not a vengeful goddess, don't worry too much about doing things the perfect way, just do what you can and she will show you the rest. Ask the women in your family, look at the female figures in your religion, or even look to history or mathematics and philosophy. You'll find her.

About the flooding, according to Plato's work Timaeus in ancient times there where many floodings that actually destroyed civilisations and their accumulated knowledge which they where desparate to pass on to the future generations to the point that underground libraries where built like the ones in Egypt.

Can someone recommend me an introductory book?

>>10144
I joined it :)

>>10144
Aliens aren't real

>>10326
what does it have to do with aliens?

>>10144
That YouTube channel has an email in their bio. I will contact them and report back.

>>10362
what happened?

>>10357
It works very well on me but never on the men I've dated. I think the most effective thing is to rotation date and select someone who 1) you like and 2) shows the least signs of avoidance. The latter requires a lot of restraint and self discipline at the beginning (well before you go exclusive or committed) - don't initiate things or make what you want totally transparent and just see how they naturally behave. Whoever compliments you the most, does you the most favours, initiates contact with you the most, and seems to have their life the most together is the one to spring for. They won't make you feel insecure enough that you'd feel the need to do the hot and cold thing.

>>10358
i already have a bf i'm happy with, i just want more kek

>>>/x/8858
Linked wrong originally but this thread already exists

>>10115
The lack of self awareness with this fugly moid. "Being a manslut isn't bad guize"
https://twitter.com/JFGariepy/status/1778709144981131651?t=YkuL6scFBzJt7ey-Q37lxg&s=19

>>10339
Gariepy has alluded to having children with random women and calling them 'projects'. He's not capable of seeing anyone as a human besides himself.

Reposting here for Gariepyfags

Has anyone else listened to any of the interviews JF gave after Élora went missing? I'm aware of three, but I 'll post with links and timestamps to events I found interesting.
First of all, this is his interview with The Crucible. He mentions some beef with Ramzpaul betraying him by implying he is guilty of murdering his wife, but I'm not sure if that was an interview too or if Ramz was just talking about JF on his show. Either way, the host on The Crucible was acting in a way that made JF feel like he was being believed and he was comfortable talking about some of the details of Élora's disappearance. Comments have been disabled.

[3:59] JF says that Élora could be dead, or she could be having so much fun at parties that she doesn't know anyone is looking for her
[6:30] JF talks about how his wife did something similar (leaving for a trip/hitch hiking) in 2021 from "our current location" to Quebec "which is more than ten hours of driving".
[8:00] He talks about how on June 17th in the early afternoon, Élora asked him to drop her off at a gas station close to a bridge that a lot of truck drivers go to. He mentions she had done this in the past. He keeps talking about how he dropped her off in front of cameras and that was the last time he personally saw her. He says he knew she was alive on the 18th and 19th of June because they tried to call each other and also texted, but that the last contact was via text on June 19th before he says she decided to get rid of her cellphone. He says she was spotted by other people on June 19th in New Brunswick.
[11:26] JF says he informed her family on June 17th "that she was going toward them" because "she was probably heading west".
[11:49] He says that her family's position on the matter "is that you cannot retain a woman against her will" and then goes on to say, "They have always been clear to me that they don't want me to beat Mama JF, they don't want me to intimidate Mama JF"
[12:50] He says that as of June 19th, her family is also looking for her
[13:48] JF says that Élora had been collecting survival gear but he didn't think she had packed it with her when she left because she had packed so lightly, said that he "wouldn't think that she was going for extended survival in nature".
[15:20] JF says that he wouldn't be worried about her being able to pass over the border through "networks of smuggling" and then states Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>10347
Lauren DeLaguna's interview follows. It is very apparent that JF didn't know who she was and that he only came on the interview to speak to an attractive young lady. He was able to be comfortable for the first half because he really wanted to be able to talk about himself to a woman. He gets pissed off at her eventually once they start discussing Élora and then he rage quits.

[13:36] JF talks about how he worked in a psychiatric clinic and the women he would meet there
[17:32] JF asking Lauren what kind of men she is attracted to
[22:06] superchatter asks JF about if his children are safe, he just says “yeah”.
[25:29] Lauren asks JF if Élora was the only woman he had children with and says he already told her he wouldn’t answer any questions about children, then implies he has a lot of children and calls them “projects”.
[28:45] Lauren asks JF how he has been getting on after his wife’s disappearance, mentions she heard his fridge was empty and then JF gets mad about his fridge, does damage control about the contents of his fridge
[33:14] JF describes what Élora was wearing when she went missing
[35:28] Lauren asks JF if he can show his final texts with Élora and he refuses because the police would have his texts if they wanted them
[39:58] superchatter asks why JF’s wife would leave the children. Lauren says his wife committed a crime by leaving the kids, JF blows up and insults her intelligence, then rage quits
[41:40] Lauren’s friends were listening in the background the whole time and start making fun of him for being guilty

>>10348
The last interview I'm aware of is the one on The Dick Show. JF starts out pretty uncomfortable but Dick seems to get JF comfortable by acting shockjocky and disparaging Lauren's interview. He seems the most comfortable in this interview out of the three and says some pretty weird things. One of the comments under this video that I found interesting:
>The two weeks she left last year she went to her family and stayed in contact, and JF's streaming revolved around publicly looking for a replacement wife to try to make his wife jealous, complete with a countdown until she returned.

[6:33] “It was happiness for four months” after Élora disappeared
[8:20] JF talks about how he had to have the house sterilized because women leave an imprint on the house
[8:52] JF brags about how he has so much technical knowledge of the way police investigate crimes
[12:02] JF says he doesn’t have an opinion on whether or not he would like his wife to come back home because he is a libertarian, then says he is getting lots of attention from women after having been suspected of killing his wife
[26:53] Dick asks JF what he should do if he wanted to kill his own wife and get away with it, further emboldening JF to talk about himself and his perceived knowledge about getting away with crimes
[32:07] Dick tries to make JF more comfortable talking about Élora by telling his chat that JF is not incriminating himself, then JF talks about how sure he is he won’t go to jail
[33:23] JF expresses he was angry at Lauren during the interview because she accused him of not having any food in his fridge (lol)
[34:53]“There are grief periods that you have. Not necessarily the grief of knowing that she is dead, but the grief of having control over your wife, the grief of, yeah, you’re gonna have to keep living without knowing.”
[35:45] JF expresses that he is afraid of a future where someone will replicate his DNA and have it “spread all over a murder scene”, then says he has 24/7 tracking and filming of himself and keeps a camera above himself while he sleeps