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Used to use subliminals a lot with breaks here and there. Honestly they didn't work, but you can certainly gaslight yourself into thinking they do. I was listening to this one to get wider shoulders and was doing a manual labor job at the time so, duh they got bigger. My beliefs around them are that you can gaslight yourself for appearance stuff. They can definitely aid you for mindset related things however.

been doing subliminals for over 10 years now, they work, it just takes a really long time.

Ive been listening to sublminals for 2-3 years now, honestly i think they do work, however the ones that supposed to change your appeareance seem to be useless on me kek

no that shits retarded

>>10623
came to this thread because i was curious to see if any other nonas were into subliminals kek.
ive been listening to them for maybe 3-4 years now off and on, i used to listen to them absolutely religiously like in my headphones all day on loop overnight etc etc.
while i feel like the appearance changing ones obviously dont work instantly, i really like using them anyways because i can atleast believe somethings changing (?) and i feel like they help to improve my mindset.
i also just like browsing through them and creating playlists and whatnot, i dunno

>>482
Countries where euthanasia is legal do not apply it to people with only depression. Euthanasia is for patients that will 100% die due to an illness and are suffering because of it

>>573
Could be potentially easier and cheaper by setting a controlled fire inside your car and locking everything, but dont do it

>>9856
>>6598
Back on this thread 3 years after my initial post. Relationship fell apart after 2 and a half years and I'm living alone in a city with not a single friend or support system. I'm doing uni and even started an antidepressant in hopes of improving my mood but I'm still suffering from the same issues, unable to perform most tasks, can't engage with hobbies and interests etc. I am not really alive, just here.

Suicide is such a beautiful dream to escape into. Dreaming about waking up dead, being hit by a car, dying of disease and finally having some physical manifestation of what's going on inside. I'm craving an end to pain. I'm not fully committed to the idea as I don't think I've hit rock bottom just yet. I still crave love and conncetion though it's extremely far out of reach. Do you guys feel like it was doomed from the start? When I recall my memories it seems there was always a veil of tragedy and quiet alienation over my life. I'm going to keep trying for now but I'm researching methods in the background for when I inevitably give up again.

>>11758
i recommend sasu forum. i hope you find the peace you are looking for.

every now and then I hear about a bunch of dumbasses die because they ran their car in a garage for warmth
makes me wonder is it really that easy to die sometimes

soon it will be two years of me [cyber]stalking the same person. before i had to charge my phone i was adding a couple of pictures to the pinterest board i made with things that remind me of them before i realized i had even forgotten some of the pictures at the very bottom. over time the board has shifted from pictures of their favorite manga characters, paintings and nature, to slice-of-life type of stuff which are related to the stories i daydream about.

sometimes when i'm in public i get scared that someone (be it a friend i'm hanging out with, or a stranger in public) will see i have notifications for their x profile and somehow figure everything out, but I can't turn them off because i get too anxious that i'm going to "miss out" on something and then I keep checking their profile. not that the notifications help, either. i keep checking anyway. i don't think they know about me which i feel ambivalent about

>>11737
it is creepy but i guess this truly is the only place (afaik) online (or in general) to talk about this kind of stuff
i feel like there's not a lot to reply to without going on and on about how your experience resonates with mine, specially the bits about feeling a heightened state when seeing their photos, posts, etc. a while ago the person i'm stalking/obsessed with posted a selfie which they do maybe every couple of months, and while i've tried to lead a more active/exciting/eventful life, i felt incredibly overwhelmed from a blurry picture. but then the people i'm around, new people i've met, i just feel indiferent towards and i wish i wasn't. like you said, it's fun until it isn't.

During my teenage years (from 14 to 17), I had a HUGE crush on Pedro Aznar. I did anything an average teenage girl would do when she has a crush with a celebrity.
Now, the way I liked him changed DRASTICALLY after coming across his picture. I literally thought "I wish I looked like that". Now I try to resemble his appearance in this picture as much as I can. I've always liked dressing up androgynously, but this picture just changed my entire wardrobe.
All my life I hated having long hair, ¿Who could have guessed I've had long hair since I was 18 just because of this picture?

>>11808
lmao, I think the feeling is more normal than society cares to admit. It is hard to just switch off and forget someone, regardless of what type of relationship you had, when your forged a connection with them.

Sometimes I do forget about my old friend, but I have so many memories with her. We were actual childhood best friends and grew up together. Often times a memory will be triggered from random things, then it slips into all the ways she hurt me. Then I remember all the ways I failed to protect myself or stand up to her, and I am left with these feelings of bitterness. Feelings that I can never have closure to.

I am sure it is something similar for you as well, but you chose the healthier road lol!

they have a radio show on my birthday. i love to hear their voice. i’ve decided, i’ll make that the last time. then i’ll delete everything, forget, move on with my life, and if they ever show up in my life again, i want to be so, so normal. or maybe i never want to see them ever again. i really don’t know. it feels like a pandora’s box. i chant their name in my head when i’m stressed. they’re like my angel. but if i believed in spirituality i would absolutely know someone cursed my perception of them and i will never be normal so long as i am interacting with their existence.

i’m scared, it’s so soon, and i know i’ll miss them. but it’s probably a good time to be serious about stuff, anyway.

>i felt incredibly overwhelmed from a blurry picture
me too. it’s awful, how do i reset? to be honest, i’m almost glad i’m indifferent to most people, if this is what it’s like when i care. the issue is the huge gap between most people and them, to my mind. it’s like i come undone, like what others see as a normal human falls apart and i’m afraid others will see it

>>11882
(last paragraph is a reply to >>11842)

New scary fact.

>>11672
>>11714
>>11714
Googled it up, it’s false

>>11746
this post has been brought to you by true maga patriots™ fact check division®

Psychopathic men are better able to mimic prosocial personality traits in order to appear appealing to women

>>11672
No. You are inside a skeleton. Look again.

Portal to what? I felt like taking an edible, so I did.

>>11739 based Nona

Its a portal for spiritual awakening and setting Intentions via manifestation. Due to 11 being a "master number" that represents intuition ans manifestation, the fact that it shows up today doubled amplifies this energy to create a portal between the physical and spiritual realms. It also doubles as a cosmic reset button for change and transformation due to the celestial alignments, but I personally dont know too much about that.

>>11740
Hmm. Well as it happens, I felt driven to stop procrastinating and waiting for conditionals before doing a bunch of stuff

my dad SA-ing me. all my teeth falling out

>>10880
I had some scary nightmares about holes appearing in my body that were making me disappear, faceless family members dying in a car accident one by one, my grandpa raping me (he's sweet irl, never hurt me nor been creepy in any way), seeing an uncanny dog with human eyes and being so frightened and confused about it, getting lost in a world consisting of nothing but light and shadow, no objects or anything but horrible music playing and the shadow half of the world creeping up on me, beating a young child with a stick and not being able to stop, and so on…
But the worst one was one where I felt really dizzy and was convinced that I was going crazy. I got really sick and had to throw up and I felt like I was going to pass out, people brought me to the doctor and said I had psychosis and mental problems, I thought I was hallucinating and I was put in some room that was just really metallic for sanitary reasons and I threw up more and I really believed I was actively losing my sanity and sense of reality and that meant I was actually dying and it just felt extremely real and even after I woke up, I still had the lingering fear that I was going crazy and couldn't tell dream from reality and what if I was really sick and going to die?? Luckily, that feeling went away after a bit, but I was still kinda spooked all day, that nightmare really shook me.
…I've also had a couple of dreams where people tried to kill me, but I killed them first, so it was fine and I wouldn't count them as nightmares. I've heard somewhere that playing video games helps with nightmares and I do kill people in video games so maybe that's why murderers in dreams don't scare me as much? I've also dreamt about the world ending and then me luckily being able to turn back time to stop it and similar dreams, so maybe it's also my childish fantasising about having magic powers that helps me with stopping some of my nightmares from getting worse. Idk, who knows.

>>10904
Fuck. me too. It just never stops, every week they are in my dreams. And I end up waking up irritated and overwhelmed that I can't be bothered to get out of bed. How does one stop this?

>>10880
I've had so many of the same nature. Where my boyfriend is watching cp/making cp of me when I was younger or talking about cp. It's fucking disgusting everytime. It's corrupted my impression of him and I can't stand being around him without feeling disgusted. It's so over.

>Surrounded by colleagues and strangers in a public environment
>Brother tries to make me happy by being annoying
>Suddenly were alone
>Brother creates a dangerous situation by accident
>I try to save us both, situation increasingly gets worse
>When we're about to lose hope the dream transitions to me being isolated and brother being implied dead
>Always have to suicide by whichever means to end dream
When i was in high school there was a period of time where i had a variation of this nightmare every night for a month straight, i am not suicidal, nor even like him that much.

>>11656
To be fair it gets posted on Lolcow too but mods are quicker to delete it and Junkuchan has multiple posts of it that stay up for weeks

i remember one that was instructions for some type of craft where you wrapped duct tape around a spoon handle, held the spoon over a lighter to heat it up, then held the spoon under tap water. because of something something pressure the spoon would explode and a bunch of ppl replied with their hands all fucked up

>>11635
>Is there even any non-disturbing side to 4Chan?
If you consider trannies shitting every board with racebait bs, MAP pedophile supporters bragging about le so called “c#nny” and immediately get mad at you with a “are you lost?” type of shit parroted message if you dare to double with them, right wing supremacists not being able to stfu about le 104th low IQ conspiracy theory about shit nobody cares about things & people isn every board being a hugbox and posting the same shit thread for a whole of 10 years straight… and someone people are fine with this and consider it a great “anonymous forum”.
Then yeah you could consider said website to be creepy and disturbing by how obnoxious the people are there!

Weird ramble but I used to lurk /wsr/ and there were constant random threads with a photo of a girl, often wearing say a mortar board/obviously a uni student, with the single request "who is she/what's her name/what's her social media".

>>11724
Creepy.
I used to post on /wsr/ because I just like helping people and I also filled draw requests on some boards, but I stopped because that moid community is garbage, perpetuates violence against women and well, everything that >>11695 already said, it's shit and I don't want to contribute to a place like that getting any traction.
I sifted through alternatives and I'm really glad I found this place and other, more positive altchans, especially since most altchans seem to be even worse than 4chan.

>>11708
Ewww

>>11703
How'd you go nona?

praying 4 you

>>11719
little bit of money gained not 8k though
>>11721
Thank you :)

Cant, im manifesting my 10th grade crush stalking me.

In order to get away from him, yes

>>11498
Definitely not. The people I truly despise aren't the kind of people that'd truly care if I died. Sure, they'd "mourn", but they don't even see me as a full human being, they'd just be sad in the way they'd be if they lost some figurine and then masturbate over my photos or something. No, I'd rather terrorise them, make them come to harm or simply expose them for the vile people they are. Or curse them to make myself feel better ig, no way to terrorise them if I haven't bothered with finding out where they are now. I like to read Uramiya Honpo when I need some release for my feelings of vengeance. It's a rather gross and brutal read tbh, can't really recommend it because of that, but idk any other episodic series of women protagonists destroying people's lives on purpose in that way

i wouldn't do it to get back at someone but for years i've fantasized about faking my own death, changing my identity and starting a new life. i've even thought about taking a trip to a far enough city (but familiar enough that i'm not read as a tourist) and striking up conversations with random people inhabiting a different persona, complaining about made up problems, things like that

>>11715
When you say something silly and people think you're a child, they are giving you the benefit of a doubt, because the alternative is you're retarded or heavily melanated, in which case calling you retarded would be wrong, because we don't call dogs retarded just because they can't function on par with humans.

>>11715
Not that nona but that sounded like such a 13 year old social media addict thing to do, on par with "This is [your name]'s parent, I just walked in her room and she's dead, how do you feel now?"

Nobody believes online suicides or takes them seriously without hard evidence because, as >>11507 said, it's so easy to fake, and being melodramatic only makes it look faker. Plus if you did it to make a bully feel bad, they're just going to feel accomplished, they will never feel concerned or regret it. Embarrassing and pointless behaviour.

>>9591
It's human trafficking shit for sure.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tXIrNTBc4A0
This one's not creepy, just an awkward music video some woman made that I stumbled upon. It has 1.4k views right now. I feel like someone here might appreciate it.

>>538
This website has a lot

>https://icebergdb.com/iceberg-collection/#

The entire Gophersphere is fun to check out.

>>9974
This is such a good website that has such cool stuff.