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my friend showed me this the other day

yeah im going into the rabbit hole right now

The rabbit hole that I'm interested in is the fact that a lot of these cults and secret societies are connected. They operate in a pyramid like hierarchy with the elitist cults/secret societies like the Shriners on top and the more lowly cults at the bottom. I figured that the lowly cults do the dirty work of the higher ups. I noticed this when I found at that Charles Manson had many connections to different cults like Scientology, ordo templi orientis and others.

>>9915
As a mercenary, I can say this is true

what is it about

Didn't know it had seasons, though it was just a website.

>>10009
Basically, it's a series about the conflict between nostalgia and innovation. I think thats what its about, what I got from the Wendigoon video. But it has this character called Ellis who basically looks like a hot Emo

Season 1 started with "Reefer Melody," season 2 starts with "Reciever"

I mean, I don't think that, but I'm interested in why you think so.

>>10013
>>10029
Jay Z has a history of allegedly sacrificing people, one of which being Kanye's Mom

>>10013
>>10031
Go on…

>>8072
i was friends with
>this ginger cunt who has some mental illness ( autism or something) who openly said to the entire friend group that she likes a 9 year old ( she was 14) also apparently she meets the 9 year old every wednesday and she thinks he loves her too because he blowed her a kiss ( he probably was joking) im scared if she's done something to him.

>A , yet again , a ginger cunt. She was always confessing to my gay best friend , her entire personality was the fact that she was Irish (yet she couldn't even speak it that well) , she embarrassingly sang a shitty irish song infront of the whole school. She faked multiple mental illnesses and she got my other good friend into trouble because she asked the ginger cunt if she had BPD and she asked what are the symptoms so she said them and the ginger cunt started to cry when she said `wanting to kill yourself` as a symptom , the ginger cunt then snitched on my friend to the teachers.

tdlr; I fucking hate gingers
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Not your average weirdos, these are legit degenerates ngl.

>>8072
Based. Wish I had a bunch of weirdo friends like this.

>>8072
The NSA was weird top left bottom up sideways.

>>9917
ik this is an old thread, but seconding as another person who has the did diagnosis it sounds dissociative, op, like a lot.

glad ur symptoms have cleared

Go see a professional, nona, we can't diagnose you.

>>9801
without really meaning to I ended up kind of making a tulpa of my cat after she died, idk if it's a full-fledged one but it's been over a decade and I can still visualize her perfectly at random times, being actively engaged in her typical activities or demanding my attention.

Been slowly training myself to solidly give myself a sort of tulpa. I've always had imaginary friends that felt super real so I'm hoping to do that again and have a bit of a pseudo romance partner while I'm in my current situation. I can't be in a real romantic situation and I'm feeling a lot of longing for some love and happiness but doing things for myself rings hollow. Imagining a tulpa encouraging me to do things for myself or doing them with me makes it nicer to treat myself to a meal or settle in for a movie. It's also nice because I'm using it to replace the associations I had with my ex (my first real relationship) so I can start liking the things I love again and not just associating dates and romantic things with my ex monster (and him ruining nights or it being obvious empty lovebombing) but without making a mistake with rebounding while I'm still weak and wanting love to fill the void he created. I know most of that void is also just codependency beat into me so I need to safely heal it away.
It's also really helped with living with my agoraphobia. Not really with it going away or helping on its own but imagining him with me on the bus feels safer and I can focus on him instead of anyone so I have managed to leave the house a bit on my own. When intrusive thoughts of my ex or flashbacks come in he can wipe them away and come try and sooth me instantly without having to communicate obviously which is nice. Hugging myself through a situation doesn't feel as nice as imagining him surrounding me with safety and love and comforting me with judgement-free words partners say to their loved ones. It helps the pain a lot honestly. It's much more productive than any other places my imagination would otherwise go during an episode, it's like the spot is taken up by the mental power to create him so the memories aren't quite as strong when it happens. I'm hoping he can help me get my way into therapy because I'm in a spot where I haven't been strong enough to mail the damn referral. He'll probably also be better experience for what I want and don't want in a relationship too than the monster lol.
It's been comforting at least. I'm hoping to keep developing and growing it, it's been some of the nicest warm feelings along with also helping me to be used to love at all and accept things like my family's love better too.
I'm just rambling at this point but I think this tulpa thing was a great decision and I'm so happy I found this thread

>>10005
Samefag but I guess the other thread was probably more appropriate but too late

>>9947
I think you just don't understand Fe, it's more than a people pleasing fear response (which you don't need Fe to do in all cases either). It's a pitfall that Fe valuers can fall into when they're in a poor mental space but it's not what Fe is. Awareness of community values and atunement towards the feelings of others can very much be a gift and is an important part of humanity. Becoming more healthily self focused doesn't switch you from Fe to Te, it's just not how it works.

You sound like you're projecting some stuff onto all INFJs/ Ni doms that might be part of another aspect of yourself.

I don't know about my MBTI atm, but my enneatype is 9w8 sp/so 95(?)
I try to understand everyone, and I am aware that each type has some bad apples and golden nuggets. That being said, INTPs and 5wx's always come off as assholey to me because of their whole "misanthrope" shtick lol
Though I do know some good ones that don't hiss at any semblance of human contact. The majority? Yeah, mostly unpleasant.

>>8113
>What’s your personality type?
INTJ…
>What’s your zodiac sign?
Scorpio
>What type/sign do u like and dislike the most?
I don’t really care for other scorpios but at the same time I tend to get along with them. I like Pisces, aquarius, and libras.
I feel torn when it comes to Tauruses. From a distance they are great to be around, but most tauruses I’ve become close to become disturbingly evil when they want something from you that they don’t have (when they get jealous) and therefore I am not close with anymore tauruses. I also dislike Cancers because they are too emotional (even though my husband and kids are all cancer, I am working on understanding this part of them and becoming more patient), and Sagittarius because they are either a high key bitch or a low key bitch. Either way, I feel that they are not for your best interest. I do have to respect that they don’t care if they’re a bitch, though.

I will say I don’t believe too strongly in this stuff and don’t care when people do me wrong and I don’t blame it on their sign, but it is interesting to notice the patterns (such as Taurus being really awesome and then becoming really evil). I like to play around with this stuff and learn about it, but at the end of the day I don’t hold that stuff against anyone.

>>9954
I can't believe that people on crystal dot cafe are trying to convince me that Fe does not belong in the ICD.

>Awareness of community values and atunement towards the feelings of others can very much be a gift and is an important part of humanity.
It's indeed a good thing in certain situations, but know where heightened levels of empathy come from. It's always in an organism's best interest to care for itself first and foremost. Healthy animals sacrifice even their own offspring to save their own asses (look up filial cannibalism). Once you start putting other people's (emotional) wellbeing over your own, you can be assured that your thinking is maladaptive.

>Becoming more healthily self focused doesn't switch you from Fe to Te, it's just not how it works.
Te is not self-focused either as it's also an extraverted function, but only Fe has you self-sacrifice for the benefit of others.

Besides that, MBTI puritans are annoying. It's been proven time and time again that the results are inconsistent, even when taking the professional test not an online one. What it helps is show you where the person roughly is RIGHT NOW. Want to know what sort of questions lead to a high ranking in Fe? The people-pleasing ones. Ones where you answer "I would give up a higher position for myself if I felt like my co-worker needed it more", "I feel uncomfortable rejecting someone or saying no", "I would rather take the blame for an accident to save my friend from getting in trouble". You eliminate your people-pleasing tendencies and you will be answering "No" to all of these questions, ergo not score high in Fe. And what will be waiting for you then? Te.

To bring this back to my original post, I'm convinced INFJ and INTJ are the same type as INTJs are highly empathetic, too, but it's more situational for them, which is healthier. Have you seen how common it is to describe INTJs as "the most feeling thinkers" and INFJs as "the most thinking feelers"? Yes, INTJs are healthier INFJs. If they struggle to gauge other people's emotional state, it means that they haven't ever come into contact with neurotics where they needed to learn how to navigate their internal turmoil before, which Ni would happily help them do anyway. INFJs got gifted that shit when they (very likely) needed to accommodate fPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>10001
some of these traits seem a bit incoherent. like, if you can't take criticism because you think it's a personal attack, then that seems pretty self absorbed in a way that's not conducive to empathy. if they also can't stand up to people then presumably they let vulnerable people get bullied, which doesn't seem very empathetic or reliable either.

baringtheaegis.blogspot.com
a highly useful resource, it's been inactive for a couple years, but still the best blog I know of on this subject. the author is a lesbian, apparently.

>>9680
Why do you want to worship the Greek gods?

>>9972
Literally no reason. It's a stupid impulse.

>>9983
Might I suggest just try sending love and appreciation towards a creator God? Or at least not the Greek/Roman gods cause they hate women and all stories are of them being assholes. No need for rituals or anything, just take a moment to send a thanks for life and your blessings and then wish for whatever you want from specific to general sending of help or easing of burdens. I find a personal connection is nicer than the rigid rituals of old and just freely asking for things has gotten them for me. Granted I haven't asked for anything too crazy but they happen from me finding a killer new phone deal the day mine broke (phone I wanted that's not even sold in my country), to consistently catching buses when normally I have shit bus luck now that I pray before leaving, and a freak situation happened which saved me from an ex I was too scared to leave making him leave for me while I kept everything after he'd done stuff to ensure I couldn't have rights to my things.
If you're looking to fill your worship hole and get things honestly I feel praying to the Creator is the best option and on the right track cause shit does happen. I got a friend to try and they're experiencing the same wave of good things and wishes granted so it's not just me being crazy from what I can tell. Meanwhile I know I ranted at Zeus and the others as a small child reading the stories and nothing happened so honestly I think they're a dead end spiritually. Plus they're all dicks

I'm sure you can get creative, seeing how these Gods are no longer a coherent religion, but romanticized relics of the past.

An idea would be to look into what other people who worship a certain god/dess do. If you'd like something handy and quick to orient yourself how to honor a god, here's a fantastic blog that has handy cheat sheet guides how to approach every Olympian god and more minor deities. It's got interesting details but is still concise.

https://screeching-0wl.tumblr.com/post/666952242338856960/hellenic-cheat-sheets

Picrel is an example sheet on Artemis from the same blog. Devotional acts are, I assume, the best way to show worship. Fortunately, this doubles as self-improvement in the name of your god or goddess, so you can't lose even if you abandon your interest in Greek deities. May you pick the most suited patron for what's best in your interest. Best of luck anon!

>>9964
Men create, women maintain. Women are traditionally the most devout and lifelong proclaimers of their religion. This point of view has existed for milennia. Read the Book of Ruth.(YOU CAN'T SIT WITH US)

>>9964
All teachings in the Christian church tradition (circumcision, crucifying the flesh, patience and love for the young) are taught to keep risk-taking and impulsive masculine vocation from reigning supreme– The time wherein the Antichrist will Arise. Paul's hermeneutics on women are the inverse of this, and teach women how to be faithful maintainers & wives in their Earthly dwelling.

>>9964
25 Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;

26 That he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word,

27 That he might present it to himself a glorious church, not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish.

The Church is made for Man, not Man for the church. The Church maintains Man. The Church is a woman. Christ is her bridegroom.

>>9965
>I don't know if I am justified in saying this, and it might sound a bit goofy, but I think that males are spiritually constipated, if not incapable of it altogether.

I think this sounds entirely plausible to me. Could you elaborate on what you mean by spiritually constipated? I often see an almost irrational, faith-based reluctance to engage seriously in spiritual pursuits (and by that I don't mean mechanistic religious rituals but stuff like meditation, for instance). They also seem to lack a kind of sensitivity to the sorts of experiences that spark curiosity and commitment to these pursuits in the first place - like I've never met a man who took a serious interest in just walking in nature or appreciating beauty for its own sake. I wonder to what extent they spend their time absorbed in their own delusional thoughts, rather than paying attention to the world, relative to women.

>>9977
I'd interpret to mean someone who's spirituality is only a tradition, just repeating whatever authoritative figures tell them to believe without any personal, subjective input.

Moids can feel everything we do, they just aren't likely to express feelings verbally

>>9564
not to play devils advocate too much, but those barn stars are very common in texas. If they were different colors like the link said it would be a different story, but pretty much everyone keeps one (or more) of these as yard and house decor. the house on the bottom right with the star inverted is definitely abnormal.
The aquarium thing is very scary though. TX is a bit of a hotbed for human trafficking.

>>9433
Holy crap, could they be secret locations for human trafficking or Illuminati hideouts?

>>9591
It's human trafficking shit for sure.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tXIrNTBc4A0
This one's not creepy, just an awkward music video some woman made that I stumbled upon. It has 1.4k views right now. I feel like someone here might appreciate it.

>>538
This website has a lot

>https://icebergdb.com/iceberg-collection/#

>>9839

Eh, most people do carry some kind of hypocriticism. For instance, I feel morally opposed to eating dog or horse, but refuse to quit eating beef or pork. Vegeterians probably find that hypocritical, and maybe it is, but it's a personal choice. So is consuming true crime. It's important to be aware of that to not cross boundaries beyond mere hypocriticism, though. Like having blatant disrespect. Even though I eat beef and pork, obviously I don't like the idea of killing animals inhumanely like supporting Chinese Dog Festivals. In the same light, I'm not going to support the Jeffrey Dahmer Netflix show that was made without even bothering to contact any victims for their consent in being portrayed in it and merely to sensationalize serial killers to a bunch of stupid TikTokers.

I may have some hypocriticisms, but I'm not completely unethical. For example, becoming one of those TCC fans that draws yaoi fanart of serial killers and tattoos them on their shoulder is crossing a line. Merely looking up information about them and discussing them isn't.

>How do non-Americans feel about the subject?
Being part of the UK tcc, I think im more of the wanting to "get in side of the mind" of the criminal than being infatuated.

>>1937
>Why is true Crime so popular, especially with the woman audience?
Morbid curiosity. I also find it makes me feel grateful for being at least not murdered/raped etc. Also I like knowing the depths of depravity humans are capable of. I used to think it was exclusively males but I'm getting more into forms of crime by women (and not just ones you'd obviously be sympathetic to if you weren't a massive sexist - e.g. Aileen Wuornos). These forms of crime have much more complex but equally sinister nature (think women with Munchausens by proxy, cluster B personality disorders etc.).
>How do non-Americans feel about the subject?
idk if Canadians really count as non-Americans, but I think the Canadian justice system treats them too lightly. I think Singapore deals with criminals the best, which is why I felt the most safe and free when I lived there out of anywhere.
>Do you have a favorite killer?
Aileen Wuornos and Jodi Arias
>Who do you think is a handsome killer?
Ed Kemper
>Why would you be attracted to a serial killer?
I wouldn't - I'm not even attracted to non-vegans, let alone serial killers of humans.

>>9626
god these guys were the absolute worst. that was probably the only internet shock video involving not animals that really disturbed me.
i swear you can see how low iq and psychopathic this guy is just by the shape of his tiny beady eyes. what a creep.

>>1937
Am I the only one that thinks one of the toolbox killers look like a reptilian?