>>8733This does actually work. It took time but I was able to slowly disconnect from some thoughts.
But honestly I still engage with highly
violent thoughts cause it's cathartic. Especially with the men in my city, my culture, the internet, etc. Plus it's funny cause the most violent stuff I imagine against one guy is literally just me wishing a dude larger than him would just do what he did to me. Or like imagining a group of guys beating him up and him having to deal with the terror of not knowing if he was going to survive that beating like he did to me and at least 2 other former girls he was with for his entire adult life. I don't want him dead I'd just want him to life with the haunting fears he gave women. It's probably not the healthiest long term but it's better than any self inflicted hatred