/feels/ - Advice & Venting

I Made A List Of Everything Your Doing Wrong and This Argument Seems Like A Great Time To Bring It Up

How would you react if a tranny who was more attractive than you stole your bf?

I'm sick of running into people who publicly masturbate.

Found another.

If only I could kill them in self-defense.
I'm sick of the laws and legal system.

I keep getting targeted by sex crimes.
I fucking hate these stupid people.

What do you hate and why?

While others are finishing their bachelor's,I'm learning pre-algebra and primary school biology.I was kept out of school and taught nadda,and I am reaping the consequences of such. I downloaded a plethora of books to study with. Despite embodying an autodidactic spirit with insatiable curiosity,I struggle immensely with self-teaching mathematics and hard science.
I live in an area with few options for adult learners, creating an obstacle in upgrading my education. The GED→community→college→>state school pathway does not exist here. Post-secondary here have prerequisite secondary school courses. I aspire to earn a degree, but the thought of being strapped with debt is sobering. Taking out thousands of dollars in student loans, where every payment goes solely to interest and not principal, being normalized is disturbing.

I'm insecure about my lack of schooling. Perhaps the adage 'insecurity blinds one to their greatness' is true; others describe me as well-spoken. I'm a fraud; I bury my incompetence in problem-solving using an expansive vocabulary.

School systems have watered-down curricula lacking rigour in order to widen the disparity between the social classes,even stooping to graduating illiterate and innumerate pupils,but the value of a secondary school diploma cannot be understated.

e-bf of 10 months pronounced my name wrong and was fully convinced its the right pronunciation. i will never be loved or seen properly.

If both female and male friendships/relationships feel awfully transactional and fake/one sided for me then am I absolutely cooked nonas. Destined to be alone beyond romance?

It feels so much better being alone but very lonely than having to be offended and hurt just because I'm not the way someone wants me to be. I'm only worth talking to when it's convenient or when they have no one.

How do you handle seeing men for who they really are, not the idealized “prince charming” version we grew up imagining in anime?

Everywhere I look, I see cheaters, manipulators, narcissists, deadbeats, porn addicts, and abusers… and it feels like they’re not the exception, but the rule. Men are always more likely to leave then women when their spouse and children get ill or born sick. Men are always more likely to cheat and have side bitches. They don’t listen, they only make repeated attempts to make it sound like they know more than you about everything.

There's no care, no love, no empathy, no compassion, no understanding. They don't care if we feel safe or not. Men only want women for sex and the moment they get it, they move on.

I am 23 now and haven’t been able to hack it since I was a little kid. I went to the psych ward for the first time when I was 8. It was the only way my parents could get me to stop hurting myself. They put me on Prozac for all of Elementary school. I was in and out of the hospital or sent to residential until I was 19. (Trust me, I don’t hear the end of how expensive it’s been to keep me alive)

I have been in love and living with my boyfriend for two years. I told him about my life long struggle to keep myself on this planet but I think he's just now starting to realize how retarded I am. When in work or school I struggle the most (in college atm). I don’t think to eat, drink water (my legs have been cramping up for 4 days now) or clean myself until he makes me. I’m obviously fatigued and am having violent meltdowns often that scare him. I’m trying to better myself for us by working or going to college but It feels counterintuitive even though I know that these are the next steps I should be taking.

I’ve had 6 jobs that onset the same symptoms that I would either quit before doing something stupid or do something stupid that would cause them to fire me. I’ve dealt with being abused in the workplace for being autistic, making me do more/stay longer than everyone else because I didn’t know better. My mom waited all night for me to come home and told me to never let them keep me 2 hours after closing, especially if everyone else had already left. I had a manager grab my wrist and tell me that my very old raised/healed sh scars were disgusting and that I was an idiot to have done that to myself. She called me an idiot daily even though she was the one training me. I had accommodations in Elementary/Middle/High school to help me get through but in the real world you do not get accommodations.

I feel loved and supported but I still struggle very hard to see myself being able to hold down a job or take care of myself. I make attempt after attempt, I haven’t given up but it’s been so hard since the very beginning.

Can anyone else relate to finding it very difficult to keep yourself on this planet from a very young age and it not getting easier despite trying to get better? And I’m not talking about “I was depressed as a teenager so I didn’t think about what I wanted to do after high school so I’ve been working at the grocery store for a couple of years in the meantime.” I’m talking about couldn’t even hack 1st grade. CannotPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

Everyday it's more clear to me that women will never be free, it makes me feel suicidal even. We are nothing but pets and will NEVER stop being pets, even if that were to happen I'll be dead by that time. What the fuck do you do from here that isn't giving up?