/feels/ - Advice & Venting

>>127480
>anger issues as a child that were never resolved
>very bad reputation on campus
>our college had to move us into seperate houses
Clearly they are seeing something you are blinding yourself to. Please be safe nona.

>>127492
hell no never

Pros
> very sweet and kind, he plans cutes dates for us and is always nice…
> very cute, extremely out of my league
> smartie pants
> puzzle master
> lets me drag him along because he always gets lost otherwise
> has sex witb me on my period
> good taste in films/kino
> very good kisser
> sensible political views for the most part
> not a big whore
> always nice to talk to, very compatible in that way
> really really funny
> gets really sweaty but in a cyte way during sex

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>>128469
>ctrl + f hot
>photo
>hotdog
>photography
>shots
>hot tempered
….

lol what, I think it’s just them being permanently online. Is there anything that makes your art look masc in particular? Seems like a very odd comment from them

>>128422
I'm not really sure ,I posted this photo of this painting I made of my boyfriend and they thought he made it. Even tho I explicitly said I did. They banned me because of my voice ,which I have a deep voice especially now since I'm going through premature menopause ( due to the pcos )

This gotta be fake nobody's this retarded
Then again… i have been wrong before
If true they knew (and were just being malicious)

>>128424
I wish it was ,but it's not. I'm very lonely and wish I had some female art friends. But women hate me because they think I'm trans

>>128423
Is your boyfriend Jasper？

>>128299
It has nothing to do with being autistic. Most of them are desperate for some kind of approval. So you should immediately dismiss any kind of judgement or rejection from them, Especially if youre in a higher place and didnt initially come in looking for that kind of chaos. When i was younger i would try to understand them but its better if you dont. If theyre coming from a place of harrassment of any kind theyre like starved dogs already. I honestly dont think most women are any better than men because theyre brainwashed as hell and begging for scraps because of social conditioning when they dont even have to. Even the prettiest women on earth act like this. (Well honestly i think theyre even more brainwashed to behave desperate, because they have to act the part to please the man that already expects them to behave like this.)

most women are male centered and don’t want to be saved. i don’t think women are as bad as men but i don’t think most women are “good” either. they will stop at nothing to actively uphold patriarchal norms and cater to men.

>>128321
This is true tbh. The amount of women I met that forgive anything shitty their husband does just to not end up divorcing is sad. That being said, it's mostly women in their 40s, the younger generations seems to have better bundaries but are still melow af and 4b is definitely not that popular here except not having children (which is more due to financial issues anyway)

Hey I'm sorry you feel this way ,and I feel the exact same way as a autistic masc woman. It's like normie females can sniff we're not normal

>>128399
Ok I needed to think about it a little. TLDR: weird attention disorder thing?

Example 1: Workplace assessment a few years ago. Every new employee had to prepare to answer to 10 questions in a week or two. No matter how much time it felt I devoted I couldn't really understand what they wanted to hear from me and my answers always seemed incomplete. I kinda just forgot about certain details and didn't think they matter?
I had the same problem during uni verbal exams. I don't know when it started exactly but I remember kinda mentally giving up on this back in school.

Now that doesn't apply if the question has specific boundaries (I love multiple choice tests). This also makes me look weird asf when I talk to other people like I'm not paying attention to the purpose of the conversation.
This actually made answering the question itself quite difficult because I keep defaulting to the very subjective side of experiences/perceptions and not what would be most appropriate for people to hear.


Example 2: Very inappropriate affect and it's the actual embarrassing part… I get too excited by (or involved in) stuff that's too miniscule. Like I once heard some dumbass detail about foreign security agents (doesn't matter) and I just spoke to my friend about it and she said "are you okay you sound like you have an episode" (normally she's really nice so it's genuine) I also get frustrated if people don't pay attention to specific small details like I do. Also I'll ruminate over some random detail in the past to the point I neglect my own needs like home getting cleaned or whatever other responsibilities there are.
I understand I'm acting weird but I just NEED to get this affect out or my thinking gets even worse.

Now this all improves the less stress I have and it sometimes feels like I'm almost thinking like a normal person only to get flunged back later.
Yeah I know it's not really a /feels/ thing at this point and more like "go to the doctor" one. I'll update them on that.

>>128402
maybe youre a highfunctioning autist
autism is a spectrum meaning anyone can be varying degrees of divergent neurologically and theres probably some ppl like you who mightve gone their entire lives never questioning it

>>128403
I knew someone would mention it.
I questioned it before and my symptoms overlap a lot, but I don't have stable autistic traits, didn't have trouble forming relationships during childhood, don't have trouble understanding other people's feelings really… Just abstract tasks like I described.
Plus now that I'm in a good environment my wiring is gradually kinda getting back sometimes which is weird.

Everything changed after I survived sepsis with delirium in early childhood, so maybe it's some sort of neurological dysregulation that never been treated. I do notice I tend to get along with TBI victims better kek.

Now I do recall my dad seems to go off rails in conversation too but it's always with the goal of boasting and showing off or something. So maybe there's some weird genetic component too.

>>128406
I’m no doctor but I’d be exploring either ADHD (hyper focus on small details) or depression (over analysis of past events). Either way practicing mindfulness can keep you out of the past and within the moment. Good luck!

>>128408
thanks
I don't know what to say about practicing mindfulness. It definitely helps to an extent to keep myself in check, but I notice I can't be as confident anymore especially because I need to ignore a huge chunk of my thoughts lol so it's kind of cognitively taxing to be mindful…

>ADHD (hyper focus on small details)
maybe, I think it may be an attention thing of some sort

One time I left the stove on and went to check in on something and it was so exciting I completely forgot about the stove. Whatever I left back there was burnt and inedible. Scary stuff, felt outside my control at the time.

>>128388
Imo sometimes it’s not enough to acknowledge insanity to fix it

>>128389
mhm didn't think it did, it's just something that puzzles me. then again, thats maybe also the point - we cant understand that situation, or its at least very hard to

I'd to hurt as many people as I can but I'm sure nothing will happen, no one I know will feel this much pain, they weren't the ones to kill themselves after all

Kill your landlord first

>>128412
Real.

Ma'am, this is a wendy's.

>>128380
no this is /feels/ on the idiot loser femcel website

It sounds like you're making good progress in school. If you're thriving in that ecosystem, you'll probably do well in the corporate system if you can find a good boss. Don't worry aboutit.

when did this start and why?

>>127867
That would have happened in other generations as well, don't worry.

Other than that, find better friends. You don't want drama in your social life.

>>127867
I’m going through something similar so I feel you. Don’t let the stupidity and immaturity of other people blind you from the truth. At the end of the day you did right by yourself and that’s something to be proud of.

>>128353
Thank you anon… I feel a little less alone now knowing that I'm not the only one going through this this year…
Haha… on New Year's Day they even collectively kicked me out of all the group chats and I found chatlogs of them talking shit about me behind my back all of last year….
Let's just say that this has severely impacted my mental health. I nearly had to check myself into the mental hospital. Now I'm basically just turning myself into a shut-in. I watch anime on repeat and I sit and draw and I don't even leave my house anymore. Since I live in a small town, this group betraying me has left me very distrustful of people and now I don't want to be friends with anyone in my hometown anymore.

>>128367
Do you live at home anon? Are there places you can meet people that aren't from your hometown.

Why use a mid photo of a tattoo to prove your weak ass point lmao. Anyways none of this shit matters. Get over yourself, other people shouldn't have to center their existence on some bitch that probably can't order at McDonald's without stuttering

>>128339
uh oh the inkling is mad

>>128342
Lmfao

>>128333
>>128339
IF YOU HAVE ONE TAT FLOATING IN A SEA OF SKIN OR A COUPLE IT LOOKS BAD OKAY. I'M SORRY YOU FELL TO PEER PRESSURE

>>128342
FUNNY POST

The mark of white trash

>>127479
i listen to audiobooks on my lunch breaks

Back from my psych evaluation
He said I’m likely bipolar and have cptsd
I was fairly certain of cptsd myself, but he said your parents don’t seem to have done anything that egregious
Got me doubting for a sec
But to be fair I know they for a fact distorted my image of social interaction to a point I expected constant verbal attacks and accusations from everyone so idk maybe I was poor at communicating or something

8 months ago I was stealing from the grocery store to make ends meet and now I have a savings account. Keep going anons, it will all work out somehow

>>128347
Good for you, nona.

And thanks, I needed hope today.

>>128347
Congrats on the savings, and ty for the encouragement

>>128048
Nursing definitely sounds like a good option. Not for me, but I volunteered at a hospital at some point and I liked it.
Find something that suits you.

>>128212
Ugh. doesn't sound like a good method for me, I would recommend a healthy diet and regular exercise, otherwise you'd just be bullying your body.

>>128247
u cant water fast out of nowhere
the day before a water fast theres gotta be iron and potassium rich foods like bananas and spinach before u try it. think the first day of a water fast is easy, the second is hard, the third gets easier again but i myself havent gone beyond a fourth (ate on the fourth)
dont think water fasting is THE way but its A way just bit radical. trying alone cant hurt just dont be afraid to quit if its getting too much. but dont overwork urself during it tho!

>>128251
>water fasting
the way you y'all talk about starving yourselves is frying me idk what else to say lol.

>>128251
So what's the point of water fasting if the day before you're just gonna… eat enough for another day ahead?
Sounds silly tbh, like, fasting never madesense to me. I guess for some people, it feels like a sport or a hobby. But i you want to lose weight and not gain it back reducing daily calorie intake seems more viable

>>128251
>>128273
Butalso… spinach as iron source is not very great, spinach has oxalates which hinders iron absorption plus a bunch of other vitamins/minerals, that's not counting in the fact that nonheme iron is poorly absorbed to begin with.
So you're better off eating a steak, with fruits like oranges to help absorption