/feels/ - Advice & Venting

i feel like ill never find true love as a woman partially because men are shit and partially because im also an emotionally unavailable woman who wants very specific things out of a man. im just mad every man ill ever be around is a shithead and men make me feel so mad and evil

I even texted him happy valentines day and he didn't even say it back. He only said he couldn't do anything for me and he felt bad.
He just went out with his friends to drink and I feel lonely and sad.
He told me we couldn't meet today because he had to study, I don't know how to tell him how bad I feel so instead I'm drinking cheap whiskey and watching Gilmore Girls

I'm unmedicated bipolar and when I'm manic I get really hypersexual, I don't do hookups atm I just make out with people here and there

Men want me for my body and don't emotionally connect with me the way women do

I can't find a partner to have sex with at the moment and I don't want to get into a bad relationship by being desperate

I get clammy around people that I find attractive, I alternate between staring at them and looking away, I get beyond flustered with cute people

I've been downright creepy towards people I've crushed on, both men and women

Do you ever see someone attractive and get carried away?

I feel so guilty about this all

Whenever my mania goes away so does my sex drive, I'm worried that it makes dating me difficult
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can we please start a pros/cons list of the bf you are dating.

i am sick of seeing bf brag threads, we need a counterbalance with the crappy things your bf does on top of the good things. can be as little as pet peeves!

I can’t believe that sex and relationships are a normal part of peoples lives. The older I get the more foreign and farther away those things seem to me. It doesn’t even seem real. For normal people, it seems to just happens to them without resistance. Love, marriage, kissing, fucking, starting a family. It’s so common that they would have a hard time going a few months without it, let alone their whole lives. I wonder what it would feel like to be loved and accepted just for existing. And having things just come naturally for you because of that.
I wonder what being held by a man that’s safe and in love with you feels like. I can’t stop thinking about it

It's broken in a weird way. One day, out of the blue while I was typing code in Visual Studio, the monitor turned to grey static all of a sudden and the computer wouldn't respond to any inputs. Then, next time I tried to turn it on, it made a weird buzzing sound and wouldn't show anything on the screen. I have worked with lots of computers but never seen anything like this before.

Technical specifications:
- HP Desktop Slim 2021 Model
- 16 Gigabytes of RAM
- 1000 GB m.2 drive with Windows 10
- 500 gb m.2 drive inside a PCIE16 adaptor with Linux Mint Cinnamon
- I was on Linux when it crashed

Please let me know if you have further questions or solutions. I use this computer for professional purposes and need it for a programming project.

Are toxic female friendships common? What are they really like?

As a 25F with literally no friends, I always wondered how bad other women can be.

I'm jobless,and uneducated.I'm held back.

I lack in-person adult school. My attempts at net school and mail courses failed due to them emulating the lack of support,and proper education I recieved. Brick and mortar adult school is necessary because it provides community. Not to mention, I'm exhausted from self-teaching without guidance or feedback. Relocation to attend an adult-school is necessary.

I live online. I lack solo-hobbies, such as reading physical books, or embroidery,as doing anything my family does not approve of feels risky.There is lots of activites I want to participant in, but my family holds me back.When I go outside, I am accused of doing something weird. Hence, to avoid conflict, I stay in my room. Given they do not participate in casual sports,or volunteering,doing so would make me ostracized.

I'm unemployed.I'm a caregiver. My sibling has an illness, and my parent is scared for them to be alone. Hence, I cannot work. I am also in the process of geting my ID. My parent lacks consistent hours, so working around their schedule would be challenging.

I love my family. But this is unfair. I'm unable to pursue a social life, and work towards my career goals. I feel an obligation them. I do not have in me to go out and do the activities I want to anyway, ignoring them. I do not want to come home to accusations,and be yelled at for defying them. I expressed my concerns to them, and they claimed I have everything I want. That is false:I want a job, and an offline life. I want independance. I'm ashamed of being a NEET.

Me and my boyfriend have been together for a about 3 months but we've only seen each other 2 times within 2 months.
I want to meet every weekend but my boyfriend says he can't meet as much because he needs to study and he says he wants to reward us both with meeting when we've done a good job studying.
The problem is that I work really hard studying but it seems like he doesn't even try and then he tells me that we'll meet when he's catched up on everything.
I haven't told him it hurts my feelings but it really does because I feel like he doesn't want to see me at all when he doesn't even do his school work.
It feels like he's trying to avoid seeing me and it really hurts.
How do I stop feeling hurt by this? Or do I just tell him I am and that I'd rather meet even if he hasn't done anything?

i'm in constant need of something that would make me feel like anything at all. Drinking, smoking, binge eating/consuming media/gooning/having sex/finding more bitches/playing video games.. just binge anything
Luv attention and validation, I wanna feeling like I'm wanted, I can't survive without human contact although i hate being around people but I just love being seen in a way i think.
I can't focus on multiple things simultaneously and it's exhausting as fuck. Like if i'm trying to focus on improving my career i feel the need to start cutting people off, and if i'm trying to focus on the gym i'll completely abandon everything academic
I can't find balance in anything. And I also can't feel anything. Honestly the only things i feel are anger and shame, and they keep me in line.
I don't hurt people because I want to be seen as a kind and decent human, I would be ashamed if people saw me in a negative way, but i also have so much rage inside me and little empathy. i tried to feel love towards people who actually cared about me and wanted to be with me but it didn't work.
Can't love anyone and can't feel sad or upset either, even about things that used to really hurt me at one point.
Just existing, trying to make the most of it, having fun and doing whatever, and i feel very disconnected from reality.
no regrets, just feeling off sumtimes