/feels/ - Advice & Venting

I’m jealous of other women.
All of them. It feels like every woman in the world has something I don’t. Something I’m missing on a fundamental level. Not just looks. Not just personality. Something deeper. Like they were given a manual on how to exist as a woman and I wasn’t. I don’t measure up. Not in my appearance. Not in how I act. Not in how I talk. I feel like I missed whatever makes someone naturally normal. I feel like a failed version of what I’m supposed to be. Like some kind of glitch. Being around other women makes it worse. I don’t feel like I belong. I feel awkward and wrong, like they can sense that I’m different. I compare myself to every little thing, their confidence, their ease, their femininity, and I always come up short. What makes it worse is that I actually want connection with women. I want female friendships. I want that closeness. But I feel like my jealousy and insecurity just poison it before it can even start. I’m scared I’ll ruin it or that they’ll see through me and confirm what I already believe. That I’m not enough. The only people I really talk to are men, and I’m exhausted by it. Men only end up hurting me. But somehow I feel more comfortable there than with women, even though it’s not healthy for me. I’m just tired of feeling like a failure as a woman. Tired of feeling behind. Tired of feeling like everyone else got something I didn’t.

Honestly, their code of ethics is rancid, but I truly wonder if the Etsy witches when in communion, can manipulate the fabric of our reality and make quite the pretty dress for me to wear to cure me from my mind and bad luck with love.

NEETS = Not in education employment or training. I’m over 25, any over over 25 NEETs? What do you actually do all day?

I’m awake now, took two puffs of my vape. TikTok scrolled, Reddit scrolled and played a game on my phone and I’m immensely bored. Ideas are welcome , any of active forums I should know about? Any & all welcome

There’s a lot of times where I just bed rot and do nothing due to the depression but I think this isn’t one of those days. But I am lonely as I have no one and bored and I don’t feel like gaming tbh.

i hate these freaking guys who follow only fans twitch streamers or whatever it makes me sick when im talking to a guy and i find out he follows them. Or when a man tells me he has like 15 bodies it just feels like so is that what I am to you? am i another one? what did the other 5 girlfriends do so wrong by you? I know its 90% cause of just my own insecurity but I literally cant stop it. I decided to try and be normal and date but i have never hated myself more. i want to retreat into my body and never face anyone again. I'm so sick of being the pursuer too like just once it would be nice to be pursued. never date nerd guys they all fucking suck. all guys fucking suck. It doesnt help that im not pretty and i have to consciously make the effort to cope and push it to the back of my mind. when im talking to or dating a guy the thought of him looking at another girl makes me physcially sick. I literally feel insane. I feel like im one of those crazy obsssessive ppl. which to be honest i lowkey am. I had a better time single and just watching edits on instagram. its crazy cause ive always been the avoidant type

A few days ago I was contacted by a troon asking to be friends, I thought it was okay since I don't have any female friends.
I talked to him for a while until he asked me to do VC, his voice was that of an effeminate man.
The worst part is that I can't even stop talking to him or ghosting him because he could expose me as "transphobic".
I feel stupid for not noticing it sooner; it was so obvious. He was acting very "feminine" in a forced and performative.
If I don't answer he starts spamming me, also he asked me if he could do "yuri" with my character and his (I'm an artist btw).
I have to live with this torture if I want to live, I hate modern society.

nowadays it's so hard for me to connect with people irl, being autistic and lacking social skills plays a huge role in this, but i feel like many people my age have become so shallow and infected with "tiktok brain rot" which is why i feel so desinterested in the people around me in the first place. im not sure if im just paranoid but seeing how people interact with eachother hurts my brain because i cannot stop noticing those typical mannerisms, such as hand gestures and specific slang that obviously stems from tiktok. it is making me feel so sick. everything they do comes off so performative and it scares me to be surrounded by people that are a creation of their fricking tiktok algorithm. it seems like there is no point in trying to befriend anyone if all of them are just a product of a bot that was programmed by multimillionaires to turn them into insufferable people and bring them more profit. i cant cope with this.

Do you think crochet can be a gateway to causing moids to be misogynistic and females to be sympathetic to misogynistic moid ways?

HEAR ME OUT

People could mistake the act of crochet to be a dick(hook looks like a dick) going into a bunch of holes which confirm polygamy or having concubines or being promiscuous, but the loops are all from the same thread so all the loops are actually the same person.

I just started 10mg Lexapro around a week ago. I would say I was generally functional before albeit quite miserable.

Now I sleep 15+ hours a day and still can't stay awake during classes. Too tired to get work done plus my chest is constantly tight from anxiety. In fact I feel like my anxiety and despair has actually gotten worse.

I'm starting to regret starting on meds and it's getting harder to justify waiting it out.

can we please start a pros/cons list of the bf you are dating.

i am sick of seeing bf brag threads, we need a counterbalance with the crappy things your bf does on top of the good things. can be as little as pet peeves!

This ugly swede made a YouTube video whining and e-begging about how he couldn't get a gf, and ended up marrying a 7/10 woman that saw his videos and fell in love with him. Imagine if it was an ugly woman that made a video like that. She probably wouldn't have gotten as popular as he did and definitely wouldn't have got a cute bf to wanting to marry. I fucking hate moids. They have the easiest lives ever