/feels/ - Advice & Venting

How to kill an adult man as a female teenager or at the very least defend ya self. Also pimple how to get rid of them

does anyone else just hate themselves so fucking much lol. like to the point where its driving me literally insane.

Today my abuser won. He used the things I said in anger in one of my mental breakdown against me. All of his friends and family refuse to hear what I have to say and paint me as the toxic one even if I proof worth of 3 years of him sending me death threats, suicide threats, verbal abuse, mentally agonizing stuff, etc. I used to receive gore by him on daily basis if he was mad, he made fun of my childhood abuse saying what my mother did to 5 year old me was deserved, called me a whore/slut on daily basis, sent me self harm if I even tried leaving. There's just so much I can say that happened to me while being with him that pushed me to almost attempting suicide, living in social isolation, months of missing school because of depression. Just one slip up because I was fed up with him made me lose all my credibility. The world is too cruel and I don't have energy to fight every lie he throws in my way because I've already lost all the energy in this relationship. I can't even defend myself when his lies make people point fingers at me because I'm just too tired of it all. I hope karma gets him but in this unfair world, karma rarely affects those who are bad.

all i do is watch reels and videos on how to make money, what skills to learn, how to move abroad but i STILL dont lend anything at the end of the day. Things are not as black and white as all these ppl in videos tell. I am tired of being broke, tired of not making any progress. I am just so overwhelmed by everything. And i am a horrible human being for feeling petty when someone close to me and my age lends a good opportunity let it be at job or moving studying abroad. I am just so numb ath this point..

Note: This is a general dilemma of youth here. But it's even hard for you if you're a woman. I can not work on site in morning-evening because of my classes, i can not work night shifts because I'm not allowed to, i can not commute long ways bcs again it costs money which i dont have, i am hardly getting anything remote, where the f do i go? How do i make money? How do i save up for my journey abroad? There's no one to guide. There's no one to look upto. Some days the anxiety gets so bad i think to myself if living like this is even worth it. I wish there was some way i could make my life easier.

I doubt it but if anyone here can guide/help in any way, I'd be grateful. Sigh.

Is there any hope for cluster Bs? I'm so fucking afraid of falling in love again. I'm a dyke so it actually matters if I hurt my partner.

Do you often dream of getting married? What are your dreams?

>anorexia for 3 years on and off
>look back to photos of my body last year when i still had my period
>i was so fat
>look to now, i have my dream body which i’ve worked so hard for, but no period

life is so unfair, i try so hard, why can’t i just have both??? why do other skinny girls get to have their period and not me? ive been eating enough calories for maintenance for so long now, im losing hope. i just want to not hate how i look and also be able to be a mother one day

Friendless loser here
>It’s partially my fault cause I kind of just stopped trying to make friends. For a lot of different reasons. Like I always felt like the loser of the group and because my best friend stopped being my friend.
>Well this new girl started at work and we talk a lot and she would stay past her shift to talk. >She ended up quitting and she was gone before I could see her for her last day and maybe ask for her socials or number.
>so I just looked her up on instagram and added her and sent her a message
>it’s been over 24 hours and she hasn’t added me back or answered me. so I think it’s safe to say she’s probably not gonna answer
>when I noticed I went to the bathroom and cried for like 5 minutes. I feel so embarrassed and like such a loser
>I think I’m gonna just go back to not trying.

ITT: we discuss frustrations at our jobs whether you were wronged or you yourself messed up

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i hate being fat but at the same time i dont? my body is huge and it makes it hard to fit into spaces (physically and socially), sometime i feel like being fat makes me stand out a lot (which it probably does) and i really want to lose the weight. but, when trying to lose weight all of the resources are either like, annoying "hot girl walk" bs, or just borderline racist ed-having lana del rey girls. like i said, i don't hate myself, so the shaming doesn't really work to motivate me. ironically fatspo does kind of work on me. i've had sexual experiences but they've all been online (cause im too scared to ever approach a guy irl) and some of which were literally just getting groomed. no guy has ever looked at me in a sexual way irl. actually doing anything with a guy in real life is a terrifying thought though.

i'm trying to lose weight now, but i'm not really sure that the end goal is totally worth it. i recently got friends through playing in a wind band but i'm on the outside of the friend group and spend most of my time eating or playing overwatch outside of schoolwork (especially now that i'm off for the summer) but i've been making an effort to stay active.
also, any reccomendations for other sites like this that aren't like,,, complaining about trans ppl and focus more on like,,, being a girl.