/feels/ - Advice & Venting

hi nonas,

have any of you met a moid from the internet before? i have been talking to a guy for a few months now and we are considering meeting. i have never had a relationship before so i'm nervous about what things will be like in person.. i don't know what to expect.

i have a tendency to self-sabotage and i worry that i am going to cut off this one chance i have at a relationship because i'm scared of what's unknown to me.. can anyone share advice?

thank you anyone who leaves a comment, i wish i had some friends i could talk to about this..

I'm stuck in a weird position.
When I newly turned 17, I met with a 30 year old guy from 4chan because I was lonely and wanted a friend. We had some common interests in games. We hung out at the arcade and in the same year, I went to his house to play co-op. However, the friendship was short lived as he asked me to be his girlfriend right after. I was young and stupid, I saw no issue with him. He was unfit and never had a girlfriend before, I never had a boyfriend before. So I thought I should give him a chance.
It's been 1 and a 1/2 years now. Due to feeling unsafe at home, as soon as I turned 18, I moved out to this dude's house. He said he'd support me. So I moved and enrolled to a highschool near his house.
Over time, living with him, I began to pick up on things that do not sit right with me.
Firstly, he has figurines of some anime girls that troubled me from the very first time I came over, but I thought I should just overlook it. Figurines of miku, vtubers and Fate characters. He has plushes of vtubers, his profile picture is a vtuber. He admits that he likes vtubers but doesn't watch them anymore. Yet when I criticise them for milking money from men he opposed me.
Things that disgust me include him loving the anime 'yuru yuri' a show common among lolicons, loving the soundtrack of 'yuru yuri', he downloaded all of them and calling the government 'woke' because the age for marriage is 18. Other than this, I told him I do not use twitter, but everyday, I check what he has posted and who he recently follows. When I checked his following for the first time, I burst into tears. It was anime porn artist after anime porn artists. Most of his following was that. Yet checking his recently followed, he still actively interacts with these anime porn artists. When he shows me something on twitter, he's very wary and cautious of ever scrolling too much, and when he accidently does - it's all vtubers and ecchi drawings of anime girls. Last night, I checked his following again, and I cried again discovering he followed 20 more disgusting anime artists.
The worst thing is, these anime porn artists also draw porn of underage characters… in other words loli. It's a trend I've noticed across the artists he indulges in.
I feel so stupid, I was too young and dumb to notice this before I lived with him. And now I'm stuck with this borderline pedophile. I should've picked it up when I told him my real age and he said "15 is legal anPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

I found the best man ever and I started dating him and we get along so well together and my life has improved in so many ways since meeting him, but for some reason I'm not falling in love with him.

He can tell that I don't have strong feelings for him, and it's important to him that a girlfriend does. He talked about how betrayed he felt by a past girlfriend that was with him just to not be alone. I don't feel like I'm settling for him, my brain just doesn't produce the correct feelings that I need to have.

Why does life have to be this way? Am I broken? Asexual? I'm just going to be single for the rest of my life the way this is going and it's making me feel very anxious and sad.

im 27 and a virgin, idk, it never happened to me and its getting kinda weird. i just wanna know what is like, and im too tired to form a real bond with some guy until it happens, i dont have any male friends or anything like that so i made a tinder acc

what do you think nonas? i do think is a questionable idea, but tbh every passing year i put less value into giving it to someone "worthy".

Because they behave like a classless submissive to men pigs.

When i told my therpist that i spoke with my previous friend for 4h a day she immidetely started shaming me by saying i expect too much time from people. She says that adults shouldn't have bonds with their friends bc they have their own hobbies, acitvities and partners and nobody will spend their life connected and bonded with me and spending 4h a day with me. it made me wanna die

Share any positive feelings or positive things.

Garden your soul garden.
Every focus is infinite multiverses.
Keep watering the ideas/plants that make you feel the loveliest love


Here’s a thing that has made me feel so good and is important to me:
Thousands of Polska girls and Belarus girls are covering my NorthAmerican city with graffiti. They’ve somehow clearly gotten the idea to all become collectively like a splatoon. It has changed the energy immensely and really improved the omnipresent feminism quality~level vibe. These girls have religions about ancient euro queens and it really shows, lots of ethereal stuff.. I see so many soulful girls are more comfortable loitering around and making anywhere a party! That’s SO important! Sovl

anyone else??? i just find the role submissive and humuliating, i dont wanna post it on nsfw board bc i dont wanna see anons talk about wanting to do humiliating sex acts i have a phobia of

I'm 39 weeks pregnant. I was out for a formal reason, related to my documents. While I was gone (about 4 hours), my boyfriend managed to buy a liter bottle of vodka and drink, like, a third of it, maybe even closer to half. He apologized, but I don't know what to do. Total irresponsibility from him. On top of that, he doesn't want me to get an education or work, and I haven't had the chance to go outside or see doctors because he doesn't like it. I think I've only left the house about 7 times during the pregnancy. If I threaten to leave, he threatens suicide. He has history of suicidal behaviour. I don't know what to do. I can't leave the cat, but seems like it's already over. My bf had issues with alcohol and other substances before, like a year ago.

And i need advice, so i met her a year ago on lolcow in a blackpill groupchat, we got along really well and got raelly close. we spoke for 4h+ hours a day with no breaks for ten months straight. then she ghosted me without a word at the end of may and came back month later bc she saw on my reddit that im about to kill myslef. then she told me she will stay only temporarily. then left three months ago again WITHOUT A WORD. i really care about her, we never had any argumetns. our conversations would always flow perfectly and she never acted distant before in a relation with me.
her explanation after she left me for the first time was that she's not made for close bonds with anyone. this broke my heart. i told her i love her but she had no reaction to it.
i spoke with psychics about the the past months to find out why she left me and will she come back and they all tell me that
- shes going throught something
- shes depressed
- she will come back, many said in november she will be back
- she misses me but she is focusing on herself right now and her own head
in the comments i will also post what i catched her say about me on lolcow one time and you guys can tell me what you think about it.
soo what should i do? i wished her happy birthday a month ago even tho she doesnt respond to me on discord. should i keep messaging her or wait for her to come to me? how should i behave when she comes back? should i be my ecstatic authentic self with her and be happy that shes back and act like before or should i hold back? does she even like me??? i feel like i cant live without her and i miss her so much. i feel for her so strongly