/feels/ - Advice & Venting

i'm just now finishing my 2nd year in university and for the two years that i've been here i genuinely haven't had a conversation with a person besides someone asking me like "is this seat taken" or something in a class. i haven't had any friends for 5+ years since all my friends from middle school just stopped talking to me when high school started. i think i'm so socially retarded and lacking in social skills that at this point i don't even know how to make friends even if i desperately wish to do it. i never learned these skills as a child either because for as long as i can remember i've felt like my presence is a burden to other people and i've thought that i'm doing a service to them by speaking or being seen as little as possible so even as a child i didn't engage or begin conversations with people. there's no point to this i just can't see how a life like this is worth living in the long run and i wish that eventually i'll have the courage and decisiveness to kill myself.

I don’t know if this is the right place to post this and if it’s not I am sorry.

As genuinely as I can ask this: how do you deal with retards as an aspergers female or outsider in general?

I have a real issue with retards (zoomers specifically) flirting with me, attacking me in huge groups, trying to one-up me socially or psychologically, and I want to know how to realistically deal with them, because they put you in some intense lose-lose situations

Retard profile for reference:
These people are propaganda agents, they take media at face value, they love gender dynamics and shit, they love torturing the meek and autistic, their humor consists of laughing at fat and ugly people, if their retard friend dated someone three years ago they will find it funny to troll this woman, political issues are off the table, they are obvious: women aren’t people, immigrants out me cuntry, love me some carling, simple as.

I have three current methods that always end up putting me in more danger:

1 - ignore them, which will cause them to utilise extreme measures such as sexual harassment, deepfake porn, false accusations, etc if they think they can ‘get away with it’. They will sexually harass you where you know you can defend yourself, and if you do:

2 - threaten them or get aggressive, which will cause them to get extremely excited because now they can attack you in troves with their friends and feel justified. Also may potentially lead to them telling everyone in a 50 mile radius that you threatened them for no reason, which prompts other retards to take pictures of you in public and shit, all while saying “fuck around and find out” or “you think you’re hard” or other homoerotic phrases that don’t apply to you

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What is it like to NOT be in a one-sided relationship where you invest more energy, care and time than they do? The moment you stop, everything stops. You care about them, but they don't care about you.

The only things to talk about are themselves, their hobbies, their interests, their relationships, their problems, their trials, their tribulations. 99% of the talking is related to them. But they don't care, and won't ever care, about yours. You find yourself often making excuses for why the other person isn’t contributing to the relationship. It's caring about someone who won't ever care about you.

There's this guy I'm basically dating, I haven’t made it official because e-dating feels kind of cringe to me, but he tells me he loves me, that I’m perfect, and exactly his type: smaller, thinner girls. But then I came across his Reddit and found two NSFW boards… one of which featured a thicker woman.
Why do men do this? Why make you feel like you’re the most amazing woman in the world, only to turn around and ogle someone else? Why lie?
What makes it worse is that I’m not even allowed to look at other men or wear certain clothes because he’s possessive.
At this point, should I just block him and move on? Honestly, it feels like so many guys are disgusting these days. I’m starting to feel like I don’t want anything to do with them anymore.

I'm arguing with a moid online and I'm winning but it's so annoying that they point out how long I've spent arguing with them aghhhh. I feel recharged after coming back to cc. thank you nonas for your epic presence

>break up with bf
>get back together
>notice 700+ deleted messages with one person, A
>asked about it, he lies
>said once during the breakup he "was getting desperate" but never did anything, using a nickname others use but mainly A1
>A1 not awkward around me or him
>said he wouldn't want to be with anyone, all he wanted was me, seemed convincing
>A1s body type in media, seemed inappropriately irritated and awkward despite minimal reaction from me
>uste to talk about how i took his (virginity), kinda guilt tripping me to stay sometimes, but doesn't anymore, sees as toxic or other?
>he was very rude when we broke up even reaching out on fake numbers to insult me, so maybe shit talking?
thoughts?

Got sick and did not get any work done. I will journal before sleeping to atleast feel something. My money problems will be solved soon but living through it is hell.

In your own words, what does falling in love feel like to you? How do you know there's a connection, a spark, a vibe?

I had a crush on a guy and I was admittedly weird (mentioning my anxiety). He's 4 years older than me. He would reply to me and we would have some convos (text only) but he always ignored me irl. I think he thought I was trying to compete with him academically (I come from a weird community that's academically competitive). He seemed curious about my academic prospects. I blocked him bc it was affecting me negatively mentally and then he blocked me (after). I recently graduated and he viewed my LinkedIn (100% him).

felt like this should be a thread tbh
what's everyone up to? i'm thinking of downloading tinder again