/feels/ - Advice & Venting

i am almost certain im being stalked by a government worker

there was a post a couple weeks ago of a picture showing the back of a girls head with dark hair. its a random, obscure photo and it was used in a post made towards me on 4chan

ill read random posts referencing my browsing history on this site and others

i seriously want to fucking kill myself. there is nothing stopping some fed worker from stalking you and mentally ruining you

>>120264
Why would it mentally ruin you?
Do you hate your true self so much, that you want to kill yourself, if someone were to point it out?
Why even post at all, if you're so insecure?
Why not work on improving yourself?
Get some confidence. Nobody needs to be ashamed of who they are.

>>120264
I think you're imagining it. watch a show or something, stop overthinking it

>>120268
That's just what a fed would post.

>>120269
no…

>>120207
Nta but ye that’s what made me quit my job, had a snarky old lady making snide remarks to me and petty passive aggressive comments on a daily basis. Not my fault you messed up your life and have to slave away until your 80s grandma

I had a really good friend group at work last year, but this year a new guy has joined our workplace and ruined the dynamics. He's a textbook narcissist, and I don't use that term lightly - he displays all traits described by the DSM 5. He constantly needs recognition and thinks that doing an act of kindness means he can boss me around 30 minutes later because "I owe him". Sadly, the other girls in my friend group are caring, kind human beings. They buy his pathetic sad-clown act and give him endless supplies of attention, to the point where they're exhausted after talking to him. To contrast, he gets mad that I don't react to him and give him the attention he craves.

He's started making an effort to talk to my friends when I'm not there and I've now noticed a gradual shift in everyone's attitude towards me (barring my closest friend). I've been told to stop being mean to him, this fucking jerk who regularly makes fun of me and everyone else; he's clearly been playing the sad act behind my back to make me the villain. Heaven knows what the fuck I've even said that is worse than his typical 'banter;' my guess is that my "meanness" is really just a complete lack of empathy and will to be his therapist. It pisses me off - anything mean he does against me is smoothed-over, because he traps my friends in an hours-long conversation that explains why really he's the good guy in this scenario.

I've just been biding my time, hoping that my friends will eventually smarten up and realise how exploitative he's being, but I think they're charmed by him rather than repulsed. I'll need to start subtly pointing out his manipulative behaviours as they appear.

From what I remember, last time I checked on workplace bullying, Nursing had the highest bullying and hazing rate of any career path. Second highest is teaching, but teaching just had a lot of mild bullying whereas nursing was both very common and extremely vicious. Like "maliciously poisoning targets with hospital drugs, possibly with the intention of getting them fired" vicious.

This means that career paths that are INFAMOUS for their cruel hazing periods, which specifically go out of their way to recruit bullies, have less bullying than the care professions. The United States Marine Corps has less bullying and less hazing than nursing. Teachers are more likely to be former school bullies than cops are. There is more bullying in the nursing sector than in the prison guard sector. And nurses, unlike teachers, will fairly frequently resort to physical violence, or acts of a sexual nature including sexual blackmail. And society will frequently support or permit the bully nurses even in the more extreme cases, sexual blackmail being effective because it plays into the retarded malebrained delusions reinforced by media publishing scandals and blackmail with headlines like "naughty nurse" etc. This physical violence was particularly common in former second-world countries where senior nurses would start criminal organizations and reign over their hospitals by entering the drug and prostitution trades as madams, though I no longer remember the in depth true crime documentaries on that subject.

>>120211
Doesn't sound like your friend group was that good though, like in this scenario maybe good friends will give you the "he's a psycho but be nice to him" talk but not turn on you like this.
>anything mean he does against me is smoothed-over, because he traps my friends in an hours-long conversation that explains why really he's the good guy in this scenario.
This might just be you being paranoid nona
>pathetic sad-clown act
Not an act, peak suffering actually

>>120179
>I wanted to be an RN but now I don't know what I want to do.
I've been an RN for about five years now and while treatment can differ unit to unit or specialty to specialty, nearly everywhere everyone is on edge because of short staffing and high acuity. This unfortunately results in a hostile work environment since everyone is tired and stressed and displacing their frustration onto each other. When you're a nurse to a degree you do have to "suck it up" when it comes to stressful situations like a patient coding, someone sundowning, having to place an IV in a hard stick patient who's already angry etc, but you should never accept lateral violence as part of the job. If you work at a hospital, you should reach out to your manager about the hostility and request to transfer if it's not addressed. If you leave, send an email ccing your director and supervisor explaining your reason for leaving. It's short staffed everywhere so don't feel inclined to stay in one department.

I have worked with several CNAs who started out as nursing assistants with the intention to become RNs but switched majors once they experienced working bedside. If you decide to not become an RN I do recommend becoming a radiology tech. The pay is comparable to nursing, two years of schooling, and less direct patient care.

Similar boat. If I were you I'd just take the jany job because some money is better than no money, if nothing else you can feel less like a piece of ahit by atleast paying your own phone bill or something, maybe take them out to eat everyother week. Go on indeed and look up different kinda jobs, save anything that even remotely interests you and research it. At the moment I'm an overnight baker for a supermarket which is pretty monotonous but atleast I'm not screeched at by geriatrics all day like most service jobs and the pay is decent. My goal is so save up to buy a cheap ass piece of land and homestead, maybe you can do the same. If you live with your parents and save up all your checks you can probably buy yourself a pimped out trailer in like a year, or maybe a cheap condo if you move to bumblefuck nowhere
Last resort you can save up for a pc and vtube. Seems pretty lucrative if you can stand stroking moid ego for money.

>>120178
I was in a similar situation to you. Now over 10 years later I drive trains in my state and make decent money. Never give up.

>>120192
How'd you get into that? I always wanted to be a train driver but it always seemed like something you needed to know people to have a shot…

>>120199
I was in a subway adjacent role before this that kinda sucked, so it helps to get your foot in on the entry level. Probably works the same for traditional trains, get in on the entry level and keep a lookout for openings.

All attraction died for my now ex bf when I found out he was sexually abused during childhood, he cried and shook like a leaf during sex and I couldn't help but laugh, I feel as cruel as the moids I spent my life shitting on but I can't help my emotions, like I wouldn't laugh at a woman that has been through this yet I ghosted this dude because of his trauma. Then again a moid that can't even have normal sex is pretty useless imo.
I know it's a meme but I just get turned off so bad when I see a man cry, like a repulsive reaction going up my throat, anyone else feel like this or am I just a bitch?

>>120177
Latter

>>120177
You are just trash as the same level of moids you complain about

>>120177
Holy fuck you are a depraved and heartless cunt and I don't think I've ever read something so horrible on this site before

I've always given things to other people in my life. I remember looking out for my older siblings, but where are they now? After everything I'm lonely and they don't even care. I feel like I missed my chance to do anything with my life and no one notices or cares. My best friend moved on in life without me, they left me like yesterdays trash. I'm on the ground and everyone steps over me, even though I'm the one that picked them up, got them to where they are. I don't think I'll ever find someone who'll love me, and if they do I don't deserve that type of person. Is there a point in still going? Not many people would miss me, and not for long.

Drama? I thought it was funny
People need to stop taking cartoons seriously

>>120142
Id argue the omegaverse stuff you described is more degenerate because its trying to brainwash people actively, trying to make a nightmare into reality by describing it "realistically", and not just getting them off.

>>120153
>trying to make a nightmare into reality
Women already live in a nightmare reality. Using art to express and understand that fact is one of the higher purposes of art. It is also a fact that women's nightmare reality is sexual in nature, that the illegal crimes committed against women and the inhumane laws and social structures built to exploit and harm women are overwhelmingly sexual and sexually motivated, and must be artistically captured by deliberately sexually expressive media. The stiflement of sexually expressive media created by and appealing to women is part of society's defenses against the liberation of women by preventing the acknowledgement of the nightmarish structure of real life social and sexual dynamics. When normie women read Dworkin's work, especially "Intercourse," the most common attack they mount against her is that her horror at everyday sexuality seems "fetishistic" and fixated on the rapine - this is not because Dworkin was incorrect nor because she was a fetishist. We have been robbed of the language with which to describe reality by social taboo.

>>120156
illegal crimes committed against women and the inhumane laws and social structures built to exploit and harm women
Pick a lane

>>120156
I'm just hearing a lot of blah blah blah mpreg is actually very deep blah blah blah.

This might be shit advice but I just try to find things to get excited about, it doesn't have to be anything big, sometimes I try to get obsessed over media or something so I'll be excited to spend time consuming it. Could be a hobby or some little treat you grant yourself on a certain day. lowkey jealous of the yumejoshi bc they always seem to get excited about doing things related to their waifu/husbando, way better than getting obsessed over someone real since you can't get hurt or disappointed either

Sounds like your family is just being a big bitch and making shit dificult for no reason.
Instead of a motel, maybe try renting a cheap air bnb, you may have to be willing to drive out to find something affordable for a week long stay. I did this a few times years ago and helped me destress from my families petty bullshit.
Otherwise you could try spending all your time at the library, but I'm a nerd so I like quiet spaces

>>120109
You know, I've spent like 25 minutes looking at this chatbox thinking of what to type to help you out nona, I know what its like to have that great big black nothing in your heart, wanting for someone to confide in. Its certainly not easy trying to find someone online, and it certainly does pale in comparison to the real deal irl, but it can help you get that necessary social experience to actually befriend someone in the real world. General pointers for online, stay away from large public discords, find a super niche game or hobby that has a small community, and go from there just, talking to people. If you get lucky, you might just find someone who'll be proactive and invite you to their friendgroup.

Even if you don't do any of this, I still wish you luck, nona, and be careful out there as well.

>>120109
its hard to say nona. The only way to really make friends online these days is to become part of a community and create stuff, I'm lucky in that im a history nerd obessed with mediveal weapons and stuff and I've managed to become part of a little clique who likes to talk about and design those things. but even then I'm like you and am the youngest and least accomplished so theirs still abit of a disconnect. What interests do you have? Like if you like anime/drama shows you could atleast join a fandom and write fanfics or something…

Why do normal women have to pretend to be weird or have mental illnesses? Like is that hard to just have a personality and be like an interesting person? It’s genuinely driving me insane. I would give anything not to be as mentally ill as I am. To just be able to slide by just because I’m attractive. What are wrong with these wh*res?

I'm supposed to go sober but I don't want to.

>>119219
You should commit suicide

>>120183
No, she shouldn't. You should get off cc.

>>120196
She absolutely should. This is a lizard person who takes pleasure in torturing people and cannot see the fault in themselves, this is a pathological narcissist, and she's not going to improve with age, this kind of person is beyond redemption and will continue to spread misery and plant the seeds of hatred and distrust wherever she treads. God forbid she ends up having kids at some point, the best course of action for everyone would be to end it right now, and I say this sincerely.

Take note of that kind of pattern of thinking and learn to recognize it and avoid having people like this in your life for your own sake, trust me.

>>119977
come darling// let me free your wrists with my gentle tongue// pls let me consume you [/spoiler)//historians can call us the space cowgirls of their perverted dreams // and we’ll suck on the others’ spaghetti-faction// dance around these black holes, white dwarves, and nebulas with me honey pot // [spoiler] i can’t find in myself a way to stop// let me kiss that rope burn one more time

>>119985
Free to explore//In the confines of a neural map//The sexually charged destiny they repeated on loop//Youth a classroom for a single lesson//Yet between your thighs I forget//The voyage feels new and spontaneous as if we chose it//The crash is predictable//The unbearable heat before we're swallowed by foreign earth//This next kiss a prayer//Hope for a new death

>>120003
protoplanetary // the ghost of you on top of me // bright, like a goddamn fairy // carbon monoxide, i dont know her// i fucking love her // i only know you, the dreams of you inside me

a blur

a supernova

an unsurety

there was never anywhere else i was supposed to be // only the brightness of you, thru the carbon monoxide sprawl// can guide me through the intrepid darkness of it all // as ellen hutter, i beg on my knees // star crossed love sets me free
fear that it really binds me, fear of obsession, fear of loss of self, fear of fusion, fear that now i am nothing,simply lost in space made to be consumed and used and i fear ill never find a way out of here o god! prooplantery! how you scare me! its so big and empty out here cries //

>>120029
Forced out of the self oxygen trying to escape//A metaphor for soul//Or ecstasy//My lungs are going to explode//

Have yours decayed

Have you decayed

Do we feed off eachother

Gas and fire//They never taught of plasma//Historically accurate collapse//The end like the beginning//Loose chemical structures separate and unsure//Defined by viewer//Confined by definition//

>>120057
in decaying in you i find new life

in your rotting flesh, i pick apart bones to spell out my glee

as we are both consumed the fungi picking at your veins as i always wanted

shock seeps in

we are recreated not as you and me

but as one

one awful mess of goop and slude

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