/feels/ - Advice & Venting

>logs in
>e-bf "logs out" as soon as I send him a good morning text
This relationship is over, isn't it? He's probably talking to some other girl already.

Why do people get married only to cheat or divorce? Shouldn't they know if they're happy to be together BEFORE they get married?

How do I create some “magic” in my daily routines?

It seems as if all I do is a TON of college coursework that is made even more difficult because I live with family who want me to work on their schedule (which means studying and finishing + submitting work can’t be done in the house since I must be available to their every beck and call). So I have to cram for hours while in college.

This constant work and stress cycle has left me feeling stagnant and bored. How can I not feel like kms every single day?

I considered saving money to rent a motel room for the weekend, for starters.

I have rly low empathy even for friends and I constantly find it very hard to believe that 'bad things' actually happen to people. I've had friends tell me about being assaulted and stuff and even though I don't show it on the outside I am internally thinking 'she is probably lying for attention'. I go through life and people are always really nice to me and they're generally pretty rational, polite, decent, so I find it hard to believe bad things like that actually happen as much as people say they do. Like every person I know seems to say they've been assaulted or something. Is this sort of thing actually normal or am I some kind of sociopath? Or is it just cuz I'm privileged? I can't help but believe people just make this stuff up for attention.

>Is fully aware of mistreatment against women in his community and says the women should always have their best interest in mind
>Hates Andrew T_te & his content and can perfectly explain why it’s bad for men & young boys
>never compliments other women even when I put them in his face and always brings the topic back to me to compliment my appearance
>always listens to me and considers my feelings and opinions

>Asked me if my hymen is still in-tact
>Says that the same body count means differently in a relationship for men & women because of “biological instincts”
>saw an onlyfans ad on his phone one time
>Did once stare at women (while screen sharing) when I think he thought I wasn’t looking (like the sceeen froze)

For context, we’re both young. Is he a lost cause? He’s really kind & caring so this sucks.

My father is having an affair with his colleague and with another friend of his and I think an emotional affair with another one. The colleagues are women and the friend is a man.
This is very shocking due to his overtly homophobic nature. All those years while my mother was abusing and neglecting me my father was having affairs and letting me stay in hell. They both don't love each other so idc UGH FUCK THIS. I have always suspected him because he used to project on my mom a lot during fights.
Also is bisexuality heritable?! Because I'm one too. Oh god. Found this all through on his computer. Why today. Sleep deprived and getting the confirmation that my entire family is a lie. No wonder I have always felt that marriage or having a family was maybe not for me. I will probably never tell my mom even though I hate her sm.

Men are far more satisfied with self-focused and solitary lives. Being unable to socialize hits a woman much harder because we're more socially driven. Yet men get a loneliness epidemic and we don't. Why? Do we not vocalize how we feel enough? What's the board's thoughts?

every day, i feel like i am hollow inside. abusive parents, bad childhood, you know the rest. i want someone to hold me and want to take care of me. i feel like theres some psychological need to have someone want to care for you above anything else. i think thats where we get our will to live. from someone else who feels so strongly about us growing and living well. i feel like i can barely function without someone to validate the effort im putting in, and i just cant do it for myself. i try to be my own mom a bit. when i talk to myself or in my thoughts, it's almost always "let's do this, we can do this, we can make it". like i'm a girl trying to encourage a girl, not just, one person alone. but i can't be my own dad. it's different.

it feels like every other girl dates some older guy to fill the hole. but i don't want to date my father. or father replacement. i want my boyfriend to be boyish and silly and immature and we grow together and learn together. i want my dad to be totally solid. a big rock. a storm shelter i can always run back to. i have nobody, and like, it feels like the world basically has no care for someone who needs a father but doesn't have one the moment i'm not a little kid anymore. so whore out for the luxury of being loved that way or just suck it up? i don't want to. i wish i could be close with a man who cares and wants to protect me and would hold me and encourage me but have no sexual tension, no questions or worries that things could be weird. but nobody would even believe me if i explained that. not that normal people accept the mentally ill clearly defining their desires anyway. i guess i just want to know if anyone feels this way too? am i crazy? are women who date older settling for the next best thing or are my "daddy issues" categorically different from that behavior? am i nuts?

i was looking at my bfs tablet gallery, and in the rubbish bin i saw a screenshot with a half naked woman and a qr code of an onlyfans link. now i know he would never use onlyfans (even if i didn't trust him, we're both broke and our country's currency is shit so subscribing to a platform using dollars would cost a lot) but it's still so disturbing to me. especially considering that the woman in question is a midget (sorry if this is an offensive term). i am also a very petite woman, but she is blond and resembles one of his ex and i do not. am i reading too much into this? why didn't he just jack off and move on instead of taking a screenshot? should i bring this up?