/feels/ - Advice & Venting

Twice so far. First time a few weeks, second time a few months, both times for psychosis and against my will. First time I was way more chill and cooperative, food was good, interesting new people to meet, made a few new friends and felt like a summer school camp only in winter. Second time they had to wrestle me into the isolation ward as I just wanted the fuck out of there. Then they injected some strong shit in my butt and I can't remember the next two whole weeks, then I came to my senses again after being catatonic and it was just boring wating to be released. It's a necessary evil in my book, at least in the case of psychosis.

im a non native english speaker i was so confused i thought it was a thread only for children to post on lmao

googoogaga

i love that there is a thread on this. when i am off work i will contribute

I was working as a TA while doing my Masters and he was studying for his second undergrad in one of my labs. I don't think there was ever one thing he did to convince me he wasn't using me, but I think I realised it after he camped out for a week while I was managing a work placement out in the middle of no where, just so we could be together during my breaks and time off. He knew he'd only get to see me for a few hours a day and he wasn't getting any sex, but it was more important to him to just be with me. I never thought he was actually attracted me for the first 6 months or so of our relationship, because I'm pretty hideous, but I think it was just the comments he made about things I did and how they made him feel toward me. I'd had drunk guys try to fuck me, thinking I'd be grateful, but no one had ever actually been able to bring themselves to desire me, instead of a piece of my body.

>>132875
What a charming story. See? Not every guy is bad

He is attracted to me and I’m attracted to him. Neither one of us is beautiful, but we’re young and in decent shape. Most importantly, we have a mutual emotional attachment. Beauty captivates people, but so does humanity. It’s possible to be loved for other qualities. There will always be a more beautiful woman, but they won’t have your personality. As you get older, and as you love longer, you have more to lose in the other person because they become a part of you.

>>133258
A very charming post!

Insightful.

I'm the joker baby

>>133222
>don't interact with anything that gives you excessive, undue feelings.
You mind explaining exactly what you mean by this?

>>133240
not OP but I know this feel. I ruminate way to much on awkward or uncomfortable interactions with people. by doing so I relive these negative moments constantly and keep experiencing anxiety, fear, guilt, shame, anger that makes my daily life more difficult. in the meantime the other person probably doesn't even remember it happening.

Yeah no I’m not protecting my sanity everyone can touch it if they want. I’m pimping my sanity out. Anyone can tell me horrific things and tell me the earth is ran by lizard moids and I’ll believe them

>>131719
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In health and disease transmission, a vector is a living organism that carries and transmits an infectious pathogen to another living organism

Why do you have to keep showing up in my dreams? Not only that, my subconscious humanizes in a way that isn't true to you, setting me up for disappointment again and again.
It's like I miss something that has never existed.

I wish we could keep talking, but i understand why you hate me, nothing really changed but i get that you don't want to keep being second in my heart. if only the distance was not an entire ocean, i'd help you grow and show you real love. i wish we could still talk, I miss you, M

I miss you.

I wish other people hadn't broken and ruined me. You had more patience for me than anyone else despite all the years of trauma have have piled up on me mentally.

No one else will ever love me the way you did and I wish I was in better condition to receive that love instead of running away. I'm sorry.

Even if I come out of therapy renewed and whole again I'll still feel like killing myself up because I fucked up so badly.

R,

I like to think that my life's improved since then. I still get depressed sometimes but I'm doing way better now. I've been diagnosed with autism and I've been going to therapy. I'm doing fine career-wise. I feel like I luckily won't ever reach that low, ever again.
Although everything's changed, I do sometimes still think about you. I wonder what you've been up to. Sometimes I'd just like to have a chat with you, as friends. I hope you're ok.

H

>>133221
browsing crystal cafe while also acknowledging killing children is not something deserving of sympathy is the difference.
Women can be allowed to also feel horny for serial killers, I don't give a shit.It's still gross.

>>133221
Psychosis is just the new BPD. You have it and you can do no wrong and if you disagree you're an ableist

Cab you guys take this to another thread? People come here to vent about their feelings not debate politics and morality

>>133235
oh no that sounds terrible. Im sorry you went through that.

Anon I love Winx club let's be friends but put Aisha in the next thread pic

>>133087
It's going to be alright, . Don't let the past keep haunting you.

>>133144
Thank you nona

get a job maybe idk

>>133087

What did you do about the stalking?

>>132143
I HATE READING ARTICLES

I miss smoking weed and kissing my uni bestie, I hope she is alright

>>132150
I love reading articles. You should try The Atlantic and Nature Mag they are great :)

>>132143
I will contribute this

I hope you all get a good education and kill it in life like these homos r doin here

>>10
Its almost September and I haven't packed one damn thing

>>132584
Isn't LC enough for you?

>>132585
what?

>>132586
Why do you have to announce you're black wherever you go? Even on an anonymous website? I just don't get why you can't stay in your dedicated spaces for blackcels if you want to talk about racism or whatever. The only reason this post is here is because OP wants attention and knows libfems here will give her that.

>>132587
>>132583
This is so mentally ill and weird, kek. No one's "announcing they're black wherever they go", you just have a hateful fixation on black people like the other incels who sperg about and project on other races. You can hide the thread, no one here has ever (or will ever) reach out to talk to you personally. Also, you have no place to call anyone a "libfem", because feminism isn't for you, and you know exactly why.

>>132584
Probably it being a site for women to talk even though men have been raiding us for years. Is there any website that's like Lipstick Alley for women of all races?

>honest
>likes me
>eats pussy
>gentle
>5'2-5'5
>doesn't have a long head
>likes cats
>dresses cutely
james madison or:
>very buff not too lean no abs
>long curly hair and mutton chops
>deep voice and lets me lay on his tiddies

>>129173
forgot to mention
>virgin
>listens to what i say

i got this weird thing about wanting a brother i can get with, but ive already got a brother and i hate him n find him very, very ugly. im attracted to forbidden, lustful love, n currently got a bf i keep partially secret (and so does he about me) because we met at work. i love keeping secrets. n feeling chosen and special. so i guess my bf is ideal but i wish he were a bit less normie lol.

What if I have no ideal partner? Not even after having my own boyfriend, am sure if he is truly my ideal partner. I usually just described my ideal boyfriend as someone who would choose willingly to be a househusband, practically, a man that would be willing to fit in a stereotypical female role.

I never dated men seriously, and every time I took any of them seriously it would end up awfully for some reason.

I met a guy who had my same interests, taller than my current boyfriend, willing to spend on me as much as he could.

He had a stable family, yet his brother is more handsome than him.

Despite those things, my boyfriend is much more bulky than him. And he is probably much better at sex.

I wish I was more feminine, if I was, I probably would not sound like a male writing this.