/feels/ - Advice & Venting

girls, i’m kind of scared about a possible stalker finding where i am. i used to talk to this weird guy online when i was younger. he said something about moving to where i live but i doubt he did. men who look like him are fairly common but i saw a man that looks similar to him. i don’t know if im just overthinking.

drunk as fuck alone in my room. how can i ever find friends or love if im just a stupid gay loser shut in femcel freak

i gotta die i like this guy and i feel like my nervous system is under attack. every time he texts me i feel like im gonna throw up everywhere . dont even know if he likes me back but i kinda hope he doesnt because we should all just die this is the most nerve wracking thing to happen o me

I’m so touch starved. I’m genuinely starting to get curious about where to find male prostitutes. Not for sex. Just for cuddles and to tell me I’m pretty. Maybe he’d play with my hair. Im going insane.
Do any nonas have experience with prostitutes? What was it like?

My boyfriend and I were together for two years - when we started dating I was 18 and he was 23. He was my first kiss and he took my virginity. Not that it really matters, I guess the only significance is that this was my first relationship. He really really cared about me. He told me he thought he would never meet someone who he could marry and have kids with, and that he changed his mind when he met me. And I ruined everything. ;_; He sent me an email yesterday telling me to accept that he will never say "I love you" to me again… I don't know what to do. This is awful. I miss him so much, he was my only friend. I made a lot of the time we spent together suck really bad because I’m always sad or anxious about something but I still loved being around him. He is so smart and so warm, he makes friends everywhere he goes. I miss him so much. Do you think if I work on my issues he will give me one last chance? Please let me know if you need more info, any reassurance would bring me so much comfort. I don't want to be with anyone else. Sorry for the annoying post.

I did the quiz multiple times and ever since I was 16 I got the same answer - INTP (logician). this personality type isn't very common for women and is predominantly men, which makes me feel even more like an outcast.

Most people don't really like me and I don't really enjoy their company either. That's sad but I have come to accept it.

Anyone else just accept the fact that they'll never have a husband and kids? How do you cope?

Why do people get married only to cheat or divorce? Shouldn't they know if they're happy to be together BEFORE they get married?

most women are deluded when they think they meet a good man. all my life i've never met a good man. until i met this one. his behavior was akin to Jesus Christ. it seemed as if it was physically impossible for him to do anything which even mildly inconviences anyone, let alone hurting anyone. as for me, it seems like i am physically incapable of doing anything but hurting people. to cut it short, he absolutely did not deserve what i did to him. i met him online and within less than a month of dating i got blackout drunk and cheated on him. like an idiot i talked to my friends about it because i cant keep my mouth shut about anything. i talked to my best friend about it and what we decided was since it was so early on and i genuinely saw a future with him i should just move on from it. forget about it. so i didn't tell him. we kept talking.

we decided we wanted to see eachother in person. he spent $5000 on a plane ticket and an airbnb for 25 days. i started birth control- the Opill, 3 days before he came. the first 2 days were heavenly. then on the 3rd night we shared a bottle of vodka together. i was doing okay until i put on his boxers. i was reminded of what i had done to him. i grabbed a kitchen knife and started to cut myself in front of him. i cut my neck. then we went to sleep. the dream was over. over the course of the next couple weeks i just wanted to stay in bed all day. i kept arguing with him over the tiniest things. it was like i was constantly on edge. he said it felt like i was never actually there, never "lucid enough to have an actual conversation with." we only had sex a few times because he said he could only have sex with someone who he felt loved him and he didnt feel like i loved him. we didn't go out a lot, not a lot of "cute dates…" we went out to fast food joints a few times. then he broke up with me. he said we could still stay friends and he could keep "taking care of me" but we couldn't have a romantic relationship anymore. he said i should leave the airbnb for a few days. my best friend, who lives nearby where we were staying, asked for his discord tag because "he's a foreigner trapped in an airbnb alone and we (her and her roommate, an acquaintance of mine who also knew what i had done to him,) want to be there for him incase anything goes wrong." then i left to go home.

then it gets worse. basically to cut it short they told him i have something to tell him and i threatened suicide over it. i video cPost too long. Click here to view the full text.