When I really recovered, it took me around 4-5 months to gain what believe was around 30 pounds. It happens really fast, and you have to force yourself to do it and have someone for accountability. I knew I wasn't recovered mentally, so it felt like another fake attempt. But you really can not recover without being weight restored, which is not only dysphoric but also uncomfortable physically (you can be really bloated much of the time). However, AFTER that process, I continued to work on my mental health. I just had to tell myself over and over again, writing it down even, that I'm more than my appearance. Look into body neutrality and try to really internalize it, it's okay that you don't believe it at first. Avoid mirrors and scales (obviously) and social media and any focus on your body during this time. I can tell you that it is completely worth it once it's over. For me I still don't view food 100% neutrally unfortunately, but I never feel guilty for eating until I'm full or enjoying desert. Best of all, I don't control my food portions and can still maintain a natural weight. If you are eating intuitively, you will NOT remain overweight (even if your natural weight is slightly overweight BMI-wise, it really won't matter, no one would think you look fat. fat people are really overweight or obese, and that won't happen if you are recovered). Intuitive eating works only AFTER being weight restored, before you need to eat what is advised medically. Now that I'm recovered, I feel like this is my body, how it is if I just eat what I want and exercise when I want. And I can have a significant other that loves my body as it is uncontrolled and I don't have to worry about 'letting myself go', because it is in its natural state when I eat a balanced diet (which includes some 'unhealthy' food!) and only really walk (which I love to do). Social events are so much easier because I eat what everyone else is eating without any guilt. It is real and worth it, but it takes at least a year of hard work and faking it. Weight restored is necessary for recovery, but weight restoration =/= recovery, and when you quit at that state you quit at the hardest part without reaping any rewards for your efforts.