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When I see this I get a visceral reaction.

I wanted to find him. But not like this. Never like this.

How can we get more posts on cc? This site as slow as molasses. How come lc is so much faster? I like this site better, but it's really slowed down compared to a couple years ago. Any ideas on how we can speed things up?

Can we have a KiwiFarms hate thread since Lolcow refuses to allow one? The only other place to shittalk them is Onionfarms and I refuse to make an account there since it's basically KF's version of 8Chan

Why I've grown to start hating it despite previously using it
>Users are overly pissy over very mild shit
>Full of MAGA/Trumpie scrotes and pick-mes
>Degens and literal Nazis on the site
>Makes middle school tier tryhard edgy jokes about rape/murder/etc
>Site goes down and glitches a bunch
>Layout makes posting a hassle
>Using the site in a way that allows proper security is annoying
>Refuses to let you delete accounts
>Josh/Null is a weirdo
>Most threads are boring and overly long

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They make bad friends and are often only interested in getting into your pants. I used to have male friends, but they were incapable of controlling themselves and eventually made advances towards me. I have a lesbian friend and she would never make me uncomfortable like that or ruin our friendship. Not only that, but I have never felt such closeness to a male friend as I have a female friend. Can someone explain this to me?

trying to cultivate the optimism again. i used to be good at this, have not been practicing for a while though.

just thinking about nice stuff helps i think. i imagine a situation i would like and then i have another place where i can default to in case i get lost in thoughts that aren't all that nice. just to breathe for a second.

i do worry that this might create an alternate reality i could end up desecrating as a hideout from actual reality but i do appreciate the breather and there is no shortage of me worrying. if something is bound to happen in the future that i would better be ready for, i am probably already worrying about it anyways so i should be safe for a few seconds.

every time i remember to do that, this little feeling of success and hope appears and reminds me that all i have to do is remember this from time to time.

i have this little post-it note in the shower. says "say 5 things you are thankful for". every time i take a shower i do this. if i can keep it up for a while, this should become a habit. i would remember throughout the day to ask myself what is good, giving ultimate fertilizer to my mental health.

what do you think about socialism?

I find it kind of convincing lately… i got really into economics a couple years ago and have been learning more and more and now I feel like I really agree with it. Capitalism is making increasingly abstracted products bc the production of basic goods is solved and the return on investment for those is almost zero at this point. Why couldn't we just replace those kinds of businesses with a state-run monopoly with computers predicting & dictating the supply? Why do we let people gain so much power that they can lobby the government into lending itself to their interests only??

I feel that things in the world lately have gotten super weird and rich people are way too powerful whereas a lot of normal people are living sad lives. Men seem to lean right wing overall but they're kind of idiot narcissists and I don't trust them to be doing anything except looking out for their own interests.

I really enjoy Andrew Yang's YouTube and even his blog. I was wanting to discover more people like him. Because of how unique he is politically, I cannot find anyone similar to him. Everyone is either edgy anti-woke "based" MAGA (not even conservative or Republican per say) or mentally ill woke gestapo that immediately go trans or other insanity. Even on the more intellectual and serious discussion liberal spaces like Tildes, they randomly mention being "nonbinary polygons" when it wasn't even relevant to the discussion they were having. Is Andrew Yang the only respectable liberal worth listening to or is there anyone else like him? JK Rowling is the queen of Twitter, but she doesn't do YouTube or any alt tech video content either.

I don't think slitting my wrists and smoking a whole pack is healthy but some days I feel so bad that even if I caught myself doing these things I still go ahead.

I hate food. I hate eating out. I hate cooking. I hate eating. I hate shitting. I hate feeling hungry

I wish I could use photosynthesis to get my energy