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I shoplifted a lot when I was 11 and stopped when I was 13 after getting caught. I started again occasionally in my mid 20s when I worked in a small shop when I knew I'd be able to get away with it.

Used to steal snacks, books and makeup a lot as a preteen but stopping when I got caught at 13. Started again working in a shop in my mid 20s at times when I knew nobody would be paying attention, but obviously I have to be careful.
Semi related, I have a bunch of Sol de Janeiro sprays, VS Bombshell perfume, and expensive candles and diffusers I got cheap from a friend of a friend of a friend who lifted and resold them until getting caught.

yeah i got into shoplifting after reading about illegalism back when i was an anarchist. i regretted the first thing i ever stole, as a kid when some girls pressured me to shoplift from a local theme park before i had the time to think through the ethics of it. but i never regretted anything i decided to take, even after getting caught, since it was worth the risk. i still think it's cool to shoplift from stores i'm ethically opposed to, but don't personally risk it due to having other priorities right now

I used to steal as a kid, like candy from little stores, but that was mainly dares.
2 years ago I was really broke and shoplifted from grocery stores, mainly via self checkout. I'd scan one product but take 2 or neglect scanning the most expensive item. I always got away with it, one time I even asked a store clerk for help with something while I had already pocketed an unscanned salmon filet lol. I'm glad I don't have to do it anymore, my nerves can't handle it.

>Have you ever shoplifted?
No.
>Why?
Never was that desperate. Suffering of hunger goes away as soon as you get something to eat, but taint on your conscience stays until you die, the tradeoff was never worth it for me.
But i did a lot of pirating, i have no scruples with that, because i believe that copyright enforcement hinders exchange of information and thus stifles progress, and because i believe that art-culture shouldn't be an industry in the first place, because industrialization of art contributes to society being fake and gay.

Chloe Power/empathchan long before she started attentionwhoring. She was insufferable and I eventually got sick of her shit because dealing with her retardation was affecting me mentally, so I stopped talking to her. To this day she talks about me and asks people for information about my life.

>>12042
Awww you guys are totes besties

>>12043
Not at all, she just took all of the attention she could get from multiple people whether positive or negative and overshared to the max, believing that brought her closer to people, in typical BPD fashion

Not a friend but I had a coworker with Cotard's syndrome. Total asshole moid. He believed he was already dead and that he was only reliving the memory of his life. He said he knew the exact date of his real death. Naturally this meant that no one around him was real, so he didn't have any real empathy. He was also constantly doing dangerous shit and almost dying because he thought it was impossible to die before the date he had in mind. Fucking lunatic.

> girl from my university was convinced a male professor was stalking her and painting graffiti on her way from home to church
> every meeting after class has turned into a monologic vent session ending with her crying and screaming (we used to meet in cafes, not in some private place)
> during the lectures she constantly jumps from her seat and goes to the window and stares outside / goes outside the classroom
> when she's not fidgeting, she scribbles eye imagery and Bible verses in her notebook
> a year ago she wrote to me on Messenger that she is going to kill herself by jumping off a bridge (I called the police on her)
> into old farts (like grey haired moids)
> sometimes tells me to "shut up" (we're both not native English speakers, so that feels rude and bizzare to me)
Unfortunately I can't avoid her, because we still have classes together, but at least her behaviour is amusing. That's a shame she's mentally unwell. She might be weird, but she's also very determined and smart.

god and by extension devil do not exist

erm akchually beelzebub is the lord of the flies, not THE devil.

>>12177
I believe it was the afterlife for everyone no matter what so it wasn't punishment, it was based on the Mormon hell though

>>12183
Both scare the shit out of me honestly, forever is a horrifying concept

I don't know how this doesn't scare more people, the concept of forever is like the main reason I'm scared of dying because it's so incomprehensible

>>12403
forever isnt that scary, you can never actually experience "forever"

Nowadays in SCP universe, every high ranking genius scientist is either black or has two moms or dads.

>>12436
Children are also more likely to be molested by people in their family but you don't defend kids killing their whole families if they haven't been abusive to them do you?

>>12436
>>12440
>you are more likely to [anything] with people you spend time with
fascinating

Cringe conservatard account aside I'm so sick of "muh psychosis made me do it" for murderers lately, the same as BPDemons using their shit disorder to excuse mentally torturing people and pedos using their shit disorder as an excuse to creep on kids

>>12461
yeah i dont see how you can strangle five kids and say it was just an episode. i guess they are trying to say Lindsey deserves the death penalty cause this guy got it? idk

>>12461
I love how this retard gets brought up as an example but not this one btw: >>12333

>>12432
Don't leave us nona, you're stronger than that.
Think of the loved ones you lost. You won't see them again but you can live on and continue to remember them.

helium isn't a bad choice for full-on suicide, but just in case people don't know: total ego death is possible for many people, if you mess around with the right drugs and meditation styles. it worked for my past self, and i actually find life worth living now & even enjoy it a lot of the time. even if things don't get better, it'll be someone else's problem, and ego death is a skill that gets easier & more complete with practice.

if you don't have access to hallucinogens or the focus for meditation, electroconvulsive therapy can scramble your brain enough to cause lasting mental change, and erases various past memories at random.

obviously actual suicide is necessary for some, but it can be helpful to explore alternatives first just in case.

>>12459
how did you achieve ego death?

>>12460
i don't recommend what i did on the meditation side besides maybe relaxation exercises if you want something remotely quick or efficient. i'm not sure exactly what to look for for something universally helpful, but i'm guessing there must be guides online? feels like a number of new agers were doing something similar to this back in the day. i personally started with thoughtform development/tulpamancy for a long time before basically reshaping those skills for new purposes, simply because i had so much practice with them. when it comes to drugs to use while meditating and letting go, ketamine & mushrooms can definitely be useful & i've heard dmt can be too. i haven't managed to try lsd but 1p-lsd was useful, not as much as the others tho. i don't love dxm due to it having some higher risks (never mix it with alcohol, that is really not a death anyone wants) but it was helpful at a time when i was desperate & didn't have many options left. obviously look up health risks for these & do your own research, especially when doing combinations, i only know so much. i often like to mix one of the above with weed & nitrous oxide, though you especially need good ventilation for nitrous if you have any pets, vitamin b deficiency can suck for them. i replenish vitamin b with mio, any health drink or supplement with b vitamins will help.

>>12466
i didn't get it right right away, to be clear. it took practice, and processing a lot of varied weird emotional stuff that was blocking my progress. i had to stop being so internally rigid & demanding everything inside make sense, to stop obsessing with understanding the past, sometimes by achieving understanding & letting go of it, sometimes by accepting uncertainty & letting go of it. i couldn't do it all at once

>>11964
what even is the difference between permashifting and respawning? Arent't they the same (both being shifting with intent to stay in ones desired reality)

>>11969
Respawning is usually coming back to the current timeline as a new person, permashifting is going to a different timeline as the same person

i hate my life so much this is still my biggest dream. i haven't fully succeeded in 4 years but i've opened my eyes in different places several times, and i astral project constantly. idk how long i can hold on to hope, though. every time i stop believing i'm reminded of that post where someone tried for 6 years, almost gave up but realised that even if it didn't exist they'd make it real, then they shifted.

Every single day I try to manifest the resurrection of the Khazarian Khaganate.

>>12457
What do you like about it so much?
Are you khazarian?

>>12447
i wasnt hoping for anything, but i was correct anyway
i thought that he broke up with you, that much was obvious. you wouldnt have cared enough to send him anything otherwise. i guess he probably laughed a bit (or maybe was sad about wasting so much time with you) when he saw it
you are a bad person though, the intention is more important than the result

>>12448
The intention was not to hurt him. You can judge. You're probably a lot younger than me and it's easier for you. I was really messed up when I was younger. Undiagnosed bpd. I did a lot of other things and I have no idea why I did them, which includes a lot of what I put him through.
What happened here was I wanted him to hate me so I'd stop hurting.

>>12449
im old enough for my age to not be a factor (and im old enough that if you could send videos to people "when you were younger" im probably older)
i also dont believe you for one second. how could you think you would make him hate you without hurting him? did you think he would see the video and then be happy but simultaneously hate you?
sorry, this has gone too far off the thread topic so i probably wont reply to you again

Cheated on a lot of men in my past relationships. It doesn't sit right with me but I've learned to live what I've done.

>>4763
made a guy dress up in a maid outfit and take pics, then later threatened to send these pics to everyone we know, if he doesn't leave me alone

>>12393
Probably that and that Asian people are generally considered to age better than people of other races. The fetishism is nasty to me though and I don't believe you can change race (I say that as a white individual who wishes she could be a POC)

most of it is deluding yourself into seeing any change, but I totally believe in the ones that focus on changing habits and behavior instead of physical features.

I think there's something real underneath it, just not the way most sub makers describe it. Listening to affirmations for months is basically a long-form self-hypnosis ritual - repetition, intention, a liminal state right before sleep. That's old occult tech with a new coat of paint.

Whether it "changes" anything physical, the expectation effect is well documented, and expectation shapes perception of basically everything. The appearance-change subs are the least plausible part, but the mindset ones (confidence, calm, habit change) are just meditation with extra steps.

The useful question isn't "do subs work" but "what part of this is actually doing the work". My guess is the ritual and the sustained attention, not the silent frequencies.

I keep coming back to the idea that subliminals are really a kind of modern folk ritual. You set an intention, you repeat it nightly, you trust the process without needing to see the mechanism, which honestly isn't so different from lighting a candle or reciting an affirmation under a certain moon. I was reading about how different arcana relate to subconscious patterns on https://destinymatrics.com/es/arcanos-mayores/ and it made me think about how both practices are basically attempts to speak to the part of the mind that dreams. Maybe that's why they work for some people and not others, it depends on how willing you are to meet your own subconscious halfway.

Apparently there were creators who'd include sabotage in their subliminals, which cracked me up when I read about it. The level of pettiness and ridiculousness

Israel Keyes is fascinating and scary to me. He's an extremely intelligent psychopath, he hid a bunch of random kill kits all over the U.S. and killed indiscriminately. Despite that, he did seem to love or at the very least have some affection for his daughter.

I’ve been pretty interested in tcc related stuff as of late, but only specifically cases with female perps. Jodi arias, Aileen wuornos, etc.
I find it really interesting to learn about but sometimes it makes me anxious if I look into the cases too much kekw

They finally found the fat fuck behind the Tylenol murders???

>>9971
B

Bob Ross is my favorite serial killer. He painted the spots he buried the bodies at. Let's go find them so their loved ones can find closure.
>>At least this faggot thinks so :D