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>>12126
It's not, his eyes are hazel, not brown. Hazel can change color with the light and whatever substances he is on. If you meet anyone with hazel eyes you'll notice they can change color theoretically. That's because they have both brown and green hues. If he's high on coke theyd reflect differently.

>>12132
I didn't say his eyes were any particular color but you're very much correct. Just made a quick search to see what drugs he used to take and learned he used to take 5-HTP, a nootropic that is sold as a supplement in the US and Canda. It has some funny effects.
https://psychonautwiki.org/wiki/5-Hydroxytryptophan

>>12137
any old drug from the hard to the legal stuff can have an effect. It's pretty impossible to tell but the other explanation that was rational that didn't venture into retard clone territory is that his facial bloat aside from surgery was due to a steroid drug, meaning health issues. It would not be shocking with his past and being infected by a thousand STDs if he was doing poor health wise.

>>12138
I wasn't implying that that particular drug caused that color change, just that I didn't know he used to take it. I guess lightning caused that effect alone.

>>12139
Don't know tbh but interesting fact that he took that drug. For someone who claims to be into "natural" crap he seems like he can't stand himself when he's not high enough to constantly be high

>Do you believe in past life regression
I'm curious about it, because the idea of accessing memories from a previous life is almost haunting to me. I don't think our past lives, if they exist, even really belong to "us", since we've only ever known our current bodies and can't be pinned to our old actions. Perhaps this mentality would put a mental block in the way of any future attempt I make to go under hypnosis, but I have had a friend who's spiritually gifted share that she has recollections of things that did not happen to her, and left her with fears. It's interesting

>What's your thoughts on regressive hypnosis
Wouldn't this method be vulnerable to the power of suggestion? Doesn't being put into a vulnerable mental state and then pried with questions make it easier to hallucinate false interpretations of the truth?

>>12085
You know you people stalk others so often it's starting to make me concerned about whether I've ever been stalked. I should delete what little social media presence I have

>>12086
That's a good idea but at the end of the day information like postal addresses and birth certificates are stored in online databases not in social media profiles. Checking https://breach.vip/ can help you see if any of your personal info has been leaked.

>>12088
America is kinda fucked up like that the way there's so many whitepages. Though it's not as bad where I am with all the leaks and the bots that have them at the palm of their hand.

>>12090
The less presence you have on the internet the better. It also helps being bland as fuck so you don't attract crazy people.

Based stalker drama on r9k
https://desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/84997955

I read on Agoraroad that studies done on people who claim to be active Astral Projectors have shown massive amounts of neuron activity in the Hippocampus, the main memory processing center for the brain. Do you think this explains Astral Projection away? I also struggle to make sense of things like people going out of body and seeing inaccurate info like going out of body and seeing an open window when the window is actually meant to be closed. A lot of those people say it feels like dreaming

i'm inclined to imagine that astral projection is high-level dreaming. but i'm curious to know why so many people insist it feels different. is it because of external suggestion, like from the internet and occult spaces? do people want to believe it's special, and therefore it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy? do child astral projectors exist

>>12124
I believe that the main difference between AP and lucid dreaming is that the concept of AP implies that the human soul is multidimensional. You need to believe in the astral dimension if you want to consider AP an achievable goal. Lucid dreaming doesn't have to include a shared common space between souls or minds. I guess that, while you're accessing the deeper places of your subconscious, that doesn't necessarily mean that all human subconscious share a place, the collective subconscious, that is accessible to the lucid dreamer. If you're lucid dreaming you are accessing your subconscious, that is entirely within yourself. If you're APing you are accessing a higher realm which supposedly has always existed and doesn't belong to you. An OBE experience might allow you to roam the real world in your astral form, a lucid dream won't give you access to the real world because you're asleep, you're confined in your own oneiric world. I believe communication between two people is only possible through AP. Lucid dreaming must be an extremely personal experience, AP is supposedly very dangerous because you're in an open world RPG so to speak.

>>12125
but needing to believe in the astral dimension in order to access it is the trick itself, in this case, no? belief is known to change people's personal realities, like the placebo effect. expecting something to work, and to be real, can literally alter perception. belief to access it doesn't make it real in the sense that it can exist outside of belief. so i'm confused how it can be real despite false or true belief, like in our waking world. and there's been no verified, recorded instance of people actually communicating in these states; if a shared common space separates ap from lucid dreaming, then you'd expect to see this being possible. or is the "shared" part moreso with the "outer" of reality, rather than just the "inner" we all access inside ourselves- is that what you mean? if we experience the outer world during an obe, are we doing it in our own little "room" of reality; like it's reflected into the room how it is, but not literally there, hence why no-one's accurately recorded what they saw during one? that's persuasive compared to literally walking around our actual reality as a spirit when we float out of our bodies. we access a different part, through belief. like a way of changing our brain's way of connecting with reality. but, again, what does that mean for the literal world we're inhabiting. does the obe even happen

>>12127
>but needing to believe in the astral dimension in order to access it is the trick itself, in this case, no? belief is known to change people's personal realities, like the placebo effect.
You need to be aware of it because you need to practice a lot of meditation I think. If you mean that this could act as some sort of placebo and deep down not be real, I guess there's always that possibility. But being able to AP and accessing the astral realm is a far too complex thing and I believe that there are several ways to confirm you indeed AP'ed instead of LD'ed that would also confirm that it is indeed a real thing. There's people who've claimed they've worked on group projects on the astral dimension in 4chang. There was this old ''realm'' called Veelox that a few nerds in /x/ claimed they had built from scratch. They even had their own sigil. It could all have been a huge LARP, quite possibly. I have some pictures with info on how to access it. It was over ten years ago. The only way to get a verification is doing all this yourself, I wouldn't trust nobody who claims they've done things like that. All AP spaces belong to the astral dimension.
> if a shared common space separates ap from lucid dreaming, then you'd expect to see this being possible. or is the "shared" part moreso with the "outer" of reality, rather than just the "inner" we all access inside ourselves- is that what you mean?
Yes. It's all very theoretical and I've never AP'ed so I don't have practical experience on the subject. It's a topic that interests me but I'm rather sceptical about it because it's so intertwined with New Age mumbo-jumbo and there are lots of larpers out there.
>info about veelox
https://www.reddit.com/r/AstralProjection/comments/73fy5a/the_story_of_veelox_4chan_astral_base/

>>1432
>How do you cop with Death?
I try to learn from the stoics.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ABRN0E_mI0U
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dBwH2iYC-8c
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d5E2AQKuCyU

>Have you lost someone close to you?
Not really, aunts, uncles and grandparents, but I was never close to any of them.

>How do you feel about dying?
Sometimes indifferent, sometimes I visualize the eternal nothingness and it drives me crazy and force myself to think about something else.

>Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?
No, its ridiculous.

>>1432
I nearly died after contemplating suicide. Long story I won’t get in to. The thing that stopped was a sudden conviction that Hell is a real place, and I was about to spend eternity there. I felt myself recoiling from it like one does standing too close to a cliff.
After I got out of the hospital, I was a physical and emotional wreck, and people abandoned me. In that place of absence, I starting looking for the one who showed Hell to me as a warning and saved my life.
I began researching the resurrection of Christ, and I am convinced He is who he said he is.
I’m only less sad now because I know Him a little. I know I have to do His will, even though I’m a fuck up. That’s okay though, Saint Peter was too, in his own way, and he was the one Christ used to build His church. I pray the rosary daily, and I don’t miss mass now. You may not be happy if you convert, but you’ll put the world’s vanity behind you. Peace be with you.

>How do you cope with Death?

Terribly. It's one of my more troubling anxieties.

>Have you lost someone close to you?

Four years ago I lost a dear friend in a traffic accident.

>How do you feel about dying?

Terrified, but I have a strange relationship with death. On the one hand, I love visiting cemeteries and looking at fossils, yet I'm petrified of my own mortality. The closest I've come to it was a suicide attempt last year. Funny how the mind works.

>Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?

I'm neither.

>How do you cope with Death?
Badly, I've had multiple meltdowns over it through the years. Generally I try not to think too hard about it, I'm a pretty pessimistic person too

>Have you lost someone close to you?
I've lost some pets and my grandmother. It was all very hard. I'm scared of people like my sisters or parents dying

>How do you feel about dying?
It is genuinely my greatest fear. The thought of eternity scares the fuck out of me too

>Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?
Not religious, I'd like to believe something happens but truthfully all possibilities scare me and I don't know how to cope. I think most likely nothing happens and that scares me too

>How do you feel about dying?
I recall my first time realising that I had to die. I was young, probably 7-8, and thought about it in the night, then cried. I've never been someone with strong, life-changing emotions; I simply fade in and out of experiences and don't feel the core of me has ever been particularly changed. But I do remember it. I remember bringing it up to my friend near our lockers, but not what I said. It's that moment of realising death is something everyone has to go through, and that you can't avoid it. Yet strangely enough, when I've lost people, I don't downward spiral into grief about loss and death

I do think about people who are terminally ill. Who are facing the end, and would wish for anything to have their health back. I wonder how they feel looking at others who they know will get to go on. I morbidly want to ask "don't you hate everyone else for being fine?" The living don't know anything about death, how it feels to have it approaching, not truly. Imagine being in the position where you know it's coming.

>Are you religious? Do you believe in the afterlife?
I've never had the ability to believe. I wish I did, because an afterlife would be a comfort. I want death to be a long, long dream where I'm free to communicate with dead loved ones. But our best guess is that it's similar to sleep (the simplest explanation is most likely the right one). Nothingness, none-consciousness. But I still don't understand how death can be eternal, if life can emerge from that same eternity

Dreamt that I accidentally had access to confidential information about myself. There was a grid with specific pictures of my facial features in case I committed an offence and went into hiding so AI security could recognise me. They even registered that I had unruly hair in one eyebrow only. That is the case for 14% of the population (in my dream). Buffy and Willow were there too and kinda in a bad mood. I was supposed to work for this Weinstein fat corrupt guy in an abandoned Rococo theater. I hate having exciting but evil jobs in my dreams because then I wake up to my boring life.

>>12100
Pretty kino dream

I used to have somewhat recurrent dreams about a monster seeing whose picture would curse you. Next time you’d be leaving a closet he’d jumpscare you. This is why hiding in the closet was my least favorite thing in dreams lmao.

But this time I actively expected him to show up and he never did. I don’t even remember what the rest of today’s dream was about.

I had the worst nightmare: Somehow I was coddled up to fat ugly older neckbeard in a sofa. I didn't even want to be near him but I was under the impression that if I left he would be angry at me. I had the typical dream executive dysfunction in which I'm very erratic in my actions and I can't control my body because I feel half-numb. He wanted me to give him oral sex and when he showed me his thing I was so repulsed. Then ha had transformed into my ex for a split second. So I stormed out of the room and got into another bedroom and there he was, my ex, for real. I started having a panic attack, running around the flat that was U shaped. Then my family appeared and those two scrotes vanished. My aunt had brought some Christmas sweets and chocolate but I was too nauseous to eat.

I had a dream within a dream

>>1305
Remember to kiss your local fish boy today and every day until you're no longer breathing.

Reapers, skelies and ghosts! Pic is "Death and the Maiden" by Ahad.

Nona that made this thread I hope you enjoyed this movie too kekeke

If I ever do it, it would either be a classic overdose or by taking my dad's gun and shooting myself in the head. Though I don't have any meds to overdose with so It's probably gonna be the second option.

Best way to do it? Instant death

Ok but whats the fastest and easiest way to kill yourself?

Children should be allowed to get euthanized. I'm suffering since I'm 12, I would get it if I could at that age, I hate this world I hope everyone have a hell life

>>12104
Okay but you have to accept my hug before that mmkay? It'll make it all better

I want to flirt with cute shy nerdy boys, have them fall in love with me, then i want to beat them up, kiss them tenderly(once), knee them in the nuts, hurt them physically, disappear and never contact them again.

>>11541
Extremely based. I have similar fantasies all the time.

I imagine myself having a destructive, drug fueled codependent relationship with another woman. I want us to be possessive over each other, and nothing else would matter as long as we were together. I also fantasize about mindbreaking my pathetic ex. He’s already fragile and manipulative due to past trauma, and I imagine holding his face, staring at him wordlessly as he cries before forcing him down and having sex with him. I want to degrade and humiliate him sexually to the point where he feels deep shame and guilt but still comes crawling back to me to satisfy him every time he’s aroused. I want him to brand himself with my name, and for him to constantly be consumed with thoughts of me.

Is it dark to imagine the entire male population dropping dead at once, or is it just normal?
>>11990
Wtf I have the exact same fantasies as your first one

>>12094
I think it's not normal but it's a thought more common than you think. I like to think they've never been here in the first place.

>>9211
kek

>>386
I think conspiracy theories are interesting and funny like "what if" stories, like the Dresden Files, but only as long as nobody gets hurt…
I hate the thought that some people take the reptilian thing seriously, or the UFO pyramid stuff and whatever. The concept of reptilian people sounds so cool, like in fantasy stories and the sort of interspecies romance books I like to read, yet, some insist on making it a euphemism for juice or whatever else they're rallying against, it's disgusting.
If I met a snake man, I'd wanna know if he has two dicks and not assume that he's secretly part of some secret society that has magical powers or whatever. And if snake men with two dicks existed, they absolutely would show it off, there's no doubt in my mind that if any of that was real, we'd have really good evidence for it.
Instead, it often just boils down to the invisible demon in your room, you can't see it, you can't touch it, it supposedly does things that coincidentally could be done by the cat and there's just no way to prove its existence because it can also control your mind to forget it and it's also indestructible or whatever and just… It's just so damn ludicrous. And then people pretend like the demon went to possess the cat when it was just running around and acting goofy and boom, dead cat, thanks for nothing conspiracy nuts. Like yeah, it's good to question things, but you actually have to find ways to verify your conjecture and think about how the world would be different if what you're imagining just isn't true at all. What if aliens didn't build the pyramids? Then people did it. Is that unlikely? No, humans can build pyramids, why wouldn't they have built them thousands of years ago? It sounds like a cool project, humans love making cool stuff.
I don't think there's any conspiracy theories I really believe in, like, sure, I'll have my doubts about some things and entertain possibilities but I'll need some good evidence that isn't debunked 100 times over and it should actually make some sense and not just hint at someone having made it up just to be racist, to sell their books and merch or whatever agenda they were following.
Like, some things just align with the kind of world we live in. Yes, doctors do try to sell you unnecessary surgeries to make more money, there's plenty of evidence for it and yeah, there's a lot of corruption aroPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

The feds shut 4chan down. They did a dry run April 1st and almost 15 days later on Tax day, she's gone. Rules of lesser magic inform that they have to tell us what they're going to do. It's on brand for TPTB to use entertainment and/or jokes to convey this information.

A lot more will be revealed soon, stay tuned.

Not entirely sure if I believe it but does anyone else feel like the Prison Planet conspiracy may be real?

Hantavirus seems to be a nothingburger. Hopefully it's because the covid fear programming didn't work even if most people took the vax.