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>>11876
I had one by accident, I got weed that was laced with it. It was one of the worst experiences of my life. Literal hell dimension.

>>11926
Yeah I've heard lots of stories about people who feel like they visited the afterlife and how hellish trips make them never want to die

My theory based on stuff like near death experiences is that they have some underlying issues that causes their negative emotions to flare up and form into a realm/creatures but that's a complete conspiracy and I have no real proof for it honestly. Maybe it's a prison planet or it's just our brains being weird, who knows

>>11929
For me personally it felt very distinctly (don't ask me how I knew, I just did) that I was being trapped in a "punishment dimension" that was made out of every negative thing I ever did or thought or had happen to me, like a culmination of all the negative energy I ever encountered. I'm not spiritual in the slightest, I think it's interesting how drugs have very specific ways to interact with the human brain and I guess this is just what salvia does. I was trapped all alone in the universe knowing I would never have a human experience again like talking to friends or eating, I was fully isolated and removed from a physical body experience, and at the same time I could look around myself (not in the room I was in but drifting through a landscape) and everything was just covered with a thin veneer of normalcy but underneath I could see flesh pulsing. It was awful because I knew I was tripping and thought I had just smoked a normal joint, which wouldn't even get me super stoned usually, so I thought I had fried my brain the way you sometimes hear it with people who develop a weed psychosis or something. So I was 100% aware of what was going on and my only logical conclusion was that I was experiencing locked-in syndrome and wouldn't come out of it. I was visiting my mom at the time, and she woke up somehow and found me wheezing on the ground, when she found me it exacerbated my panic because I was convinced she would have to call an ambulance and they would put me away in a ward for people who broke their brains irreparably. If I had been alone maybe I would have killed myself from the hopelessness of it all.

>>11932
I think it's been proven psychedelics reduce brain activity (or possibly reroute it) so it's very possible you entered some weird realm of your thoughts. Then again some experiences are super random like people fighting with SoundCloud rappers or hallucinating bags of onions talking to them, some accurately produce near death experience results like tunnels, life reviews and seeing deceased loved ones

Really wish I was high right now

>>12461
I love how this retard gets brought up as an example but not this one btw: >>12333

>>12462
If she had said that she did it because she wanted to, she would have received at least perpetuity.
So she said that the voice in her head that she never herd before told her to do it. Why anybody side with her is beyond my capacity to understand things.

The kids looked like they had bad vibes, maybe it's better she did it.

>>12463
Probably because it's one child instead of multiple. Easier to claim mental illness when it's one mistake, rather than multiple.

There are a talks of another trial starting up. Who's ready for round two?!

>>1808
The illuminati is not relevant

go and watch Inside Job in netflix so we can storm conspiracy ideas based on it

>>10709
I want to fuck Brett tbh

Nobody. There is no grand scheme or plan that leads ahead of the rest, it's constant squabbling all the way down.

Although there're likely forces much further ahead than the others, but I wouldn't expect them to be "running" "the show." It runs itself

god and by extension devil do not exist

erm akchually beelzebub is the lord of the flies, not THE devil.

Flies thrive on decay and filth. People are flies.
Beelzebub is a living reminder of how we fall and degrade ourselves, feasting on degeneracy and the worship of "evil" ideas.
Beelzebub is a mockery of idol worship, of original Gods. Obsession with this thing is self degradation. Whatever compels people to care about it, must be a force interested in laughing at whoever submits to being unclean and sinking into the pain.

yeah i got into shoplifting after reading about illegalism back when i was an anarchist. i regretted the first thing i ever stole, as a kid when some girls pressured me to shoplift from a local theme park before i had the time to think through the ethics of it. but i never regretted anything i decided to take, even after getting caught, since it was worth the risk. i still think it's cool to shoplift from stores i'm ethically opposed to, but don't personally risk it due to having other priorities right now

I used to steal as a kid, like candy from little stores, but that was mainly dares.
2 years ago I was really broke and shoplifted from grocery stores, mainly via self checkout. I'd scan one product but take 2 or neglect scanning the most expensive item. I always got away with it, one time I even asked a store clerk for help with something while I had already pocketed an unscanned salmon filet lol. I'm glad I don't have to do it anymore, my nerves can't handle it.

>Have you ever shoplifted?
No.
>Why?
Never was that desperate. Suffering of hunger goes away as soon as you get something to eat, but taint on your conscience stays until you die, the tradeoff was never worth it for me.
But i did a lot of pirating, i have no scruples with that, because i believe that copyright enforcement hinders exchange of information and thus stifles progress, and because i believe that art-culture shouldn't be an industry in the first place, because industrialization of art contributes to society being fake and gay.

>>12477
>taint on your conscience stays until you die
I'm not gonna feel guilt for the rest of my life for stealing a grocery from a global supercorporation, anon… I'm sorry if you do

>>12496
No one is doubting your lack of conscience, stranger. Don't let anyone's refusal to steal offend you. Who wants to live in a high trust society anyway.

Chloe Power/empathchan long before she started attentionwhoring. She was insufferable and I eventually got sick of her shit because dealing with her retardation was affecting me mentally, so I stopped talking to her. To this day she talks about me and asks people for information about my life.

>>12042
Awww you guys are totes besties

>>12043
Not at all, she just took all of the attention she could get from multiple people whether positive or negative and overshared to the max, believing that brought her closer to people, in typical BPD fashion

Not a friend but I had a coworker with Cotard's syndrome. Total asshole moid. He believed he was already dead and that he was only reliving the memory of his life. He said he knew the exact date of his real death. Naturally this meant that no one around him was real, so he didn't have any real empathy. He was also constantly doing dangerous shit and almost dying because he thought it was impossible to die before the date he had in mind. Fucking lunatic.

> girl from my university was convinced a male professor was stalking her and painting graffiti on her way from home to church
> every meeting after class has turned into a monologic vent session ending with her crying and screaming (we used to meet in cafes, not in some private place)
> during the lectures she constantly jumps from her seat and goes to the window and stares outside / goes outside the classroom
> when she's not fidgeting, she scribbles eye imagery and Bible verses in her notebook
> a year ago she wrote to me on Messenger that she is going to kill herself by jumping off a bridge (I called the police on her)
> into old farts (like grey haired moids)
> sometimes tells me to "shut up" (we're both not native English speakers, so that feels rude and bizzare to me)
Unfortunately I can't avoid her, because we still have classes together, but at least her behaviour is amusing. That's a shame she's mentally unwell. She might be weird, but she's also very determined and smart.

>>12177
I believe it was the afterlife for everyone no matter what so it wasn't punishment, it was based on the Mormon hell though

>>12183
Both scare the shit out of me honestly, forever is a horrifying concept

I don't know how this doesn't scare more people, the concept of forever is like the main reason I'm scared of dying because it's so incomprehensible

>>12403
forever isnt that scary, you can never actually experience "forever"

Nowadays in SCP universe, every high ranking genius scientist is either black or has two moms or dads.

>>12432
Don't leave us nona, you're stronger than that.
Think of the loved ones you lost. You won't see them again but you can live on and continue to remember them.

helium isn't a bad choice for full-on suicide, but just in case people don't know: total ego death is possible for many people, if you mess around with the right drugs and meditation styles. it worked for my past self, and i actually find life worth living now & even enjoy it a lot of the time. even if things don't get better, it'll be someone else's problem, and ego death is a skill that gets easier & more complete with practice.

if you don't have access to hallucinogens or the focus for meditation, electroconvulsive therapy can scramble your brain enough to cause lasting mental change, and erases various past memories at random.

obviously actual suicide is necessary for some, but it can be helpful to explore alternatives first just in case.

>>12459
how did you achieve ego death?

>>12460
i don't recommend what i did on the meditation side besides maybe relaxation exercises if you want something remotely quick or efficient. i'm not sure exactly what to look for for something universally helpful, but i'm guessing there must be guides online? feels like a number of new agers were doing something similar to this back in the day. i personally started with thoughtform development/tulpamancy for a long time before basically reshaping those skills for new purposes, simply because i had so much practice with them. when it comes to drugs to use while meditating and letting go, ketamine & mushrooms can definitely be useful & i've heard dmt can be too. i haven't managed to try lsd but 1p-lsd was useful, not as much as the others tho. i don't love dxm due to it having some higher risks (never mix it with alcohol, that is really not a death anyone wants) but it was helpful at a time when i was desperate & didn't have many options left. obviously look up health risks for these & do your own research, especially when doing combinations, i only know so much. i often like to mix one of the above with weed & nitrous oxide, though you especially need good ventilation for nitrous if you have any pets, vitamin b deficiency can suck for them. i replenish vitamin b with mio, any health drink or supplement with b vitamins will help.

>>12466
i didn't get it right right away, to be clear. it took practice, and processing a lot of varied weird emotional stuff that was blocking my progress. i had to stop being so internally rigid & demanding everything inside make sense, to stop obsessing with understanding the past, sometimes by achieving understanding & letting go of it, sometimes by accepting uncertainty & letting go of it. i couldn't do it all at once