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After writing a post on my mom I took a nap shortly after.

I had a dream which had a room something similar to picrelated, but no water. It would have 5 separate chambers. It had a very serene, easy atmosphere. I left some of my soul in one of these, and it met with another. It was a beautiful moment of connection and recognition. Then the CC janny LOL came and exchnged some nice words.

I saw a PC email with a request to delete my mom's records on me, a bit embarrassing, but it was in a bedroomy room.

Then, somehow, it was like I felt how she felt about me, with hope and despair, but it was love. And I felt conflicted about it, I felt bad retaliating at her all these times. I remember last time I lashed out on her via text, she told me I made her cry. Even though she was the kind of person to endlessly scream at me and make me loathe evenings when she'd come home.

I don't know, what a strange dream.

Had a dream I gave birth to a human baby the size of a kitten and I fed him milk. But I still wasn’t that responsible so I was a bit worried.

>>12048
Cat baby. Little baby cat. Yup seen it a thousand times. It's good luck

had a dream that my coworker (and this guy that rejected me for some reason?) gave me a ride home, we crashed into snow and i just remember like shots of their faces. then i went back to work but i couldn't understand anyone, like they were asking me to do things in plain english but i couldn't understand

I had a dream deja vu. I feel I've had dream I've already seen 15 years ago or so.
Me and a boy went to a small souvenir shop near a festival (this time it took place at the White house kek)
There was an old lady just chilling there with all her creepy wares. We asked her for something fun, and she gave us a ball that can gather souls. She asked us to bring 5.

So away we went.
It was more like an audiotranscriptor that would start playing sound from the nearest screen, electronic, or a window. It would repeat what people had said.

We just threw these things real quick in high traffic places and it worked, nobody understood what was going on. For our fifth time we picked a fancy place across the road but it had less people. Maybe it was a theater or something. We just left it there, but then someone saw us doing it and chased after us.

Uh, I kinda managed to talk ourselves out of this. Then we got like 10 bucks for our work from that creepy lady.

every now and then I hear about a bunch of dumbasses die because they ran their car in a garage for warmth
makes me wonder is it really that easy to die sometimes

>>11778
>makes me wonder is it really that easy to die sometimes
Yeah it is. I lost my grandma because she got a fucking bug bite while on a vacation and contracted a rare strand of cancer from it. That could've been anyone, you, me, someone we know, literally anyone can die that way and it's horrifying. Makes me feel almost agoraphobic.

I wish I wasn't so scared of death and what happens after so I could just kill myself and get life over with. I feel existential lots of the time because it's likely there's nothing after death which just makes death and loss more difficult. I don't kill myself because I'm scared of everything just ending and also I'm scared of possible repercussions after death

getting drunk and taking all my sleeping pills. maybeee jump in a lake for good measure, i live on one

Is anybody else only stopped from killing themselves by the fear of death, the afterlife and eternity? I'm not religious so idk what happens when we die but I'm not looking to get reincarnated into a shit life as karma for suicide or end up in hell for it, or it's just nothing forever which I hate the idea of though it's more likely admittedly

Take a shitton of my SSRIs, put my phone too far away to call the ambulance while my body shuts down.

i didnt meet them personally, but my friend had just gotten into an online relationship (she helped him produce some music wasn't just discord edating), everything was going good and he was actually really chill. one day he just started texting her crazy shit about [spoiler]wanting to cut her head off and cum in her mouth.[spoiler] genius level flirting here

>>12053
forgot slash srry nonas

A girl from Mexico who ate human fleash (and she was really into it, wanted to do it again). She said that she was allowed to try it because of cartels (they kill people and sometimes they even eat human flesh). She told me they killed the woman because she cheated on a cartel membe and she was allowed to try it because she was friends with one of them.

Not someone I met personally but I'm fascinated by this guy

I want to kms too, but I heard that you'll just come back and have an even worse life than your last. Don't want to really risk it.

>>8648
I came to the conclusion with this in mind during my suicidal years. I was really gonna do it, bought a gas tank and everything. To me, whenever i get bad thoughts i just literally tell myself to wait this one out. I gave up on this life, i don’t pine for anything anymore and it ironically made me happier these past couple of months to just let go of things even though i’m still here. I’m still here but i’m dead, you know?
Hopefully reincarnation does exist, and the next life isn’t so bad and doesn’t do a number on my identity and happiness as much. I look forward to the next gig my soul takes.

I lowkey believe in reincarnation but does it scare anyone else? Like the possibility of being reborn into a shithole 3rd world country in the middle of war? Or possibly living the same lifetime again and again after a while? I mean numbers with billions and trillions and quadrillions of zeroes are basically nothing compared to infinity and I don't really know how to cope with this life feeling kind of insignificant compared to the infinite amounts of others we'll live

>>8648
>>8649
Yeah either you'll be reborn without getting to choose whether or not to come back, you'll have to come back as a bug, go to naraka, or just have really shitty karma. Afterlife repercussions is honestly one of those things that keeps me from killing myself as well as the possibility that maybe I'm schizo and there's nothing after this, in which case I may as well not rush to the end because it's hopeless anyways

>>8601
Giga ultra based theology scholar nona. The very soul of Joan of Arc is alive within you.

No, you will die. move to japan, if you want to be asian get plastic surgery

Do not believe anything they tell you. They may be in contact with demons. I used to be a "psychic" and it is not what it is portrayed to be on television. I was overtaken by demons very quickly.

>>1318
Kind of believe in this but I'm wondering how they actually know anything. If they're watching you and taking in the world in a different state of being then I'd their knowledge all still based mainly on witnessing events externally or do they have any greater sense of your internal experience?

Never seeked out a psychic or medium, but i did run into a guy doing free Tarot readings after midnight at a convention i went to. I deeply thought of things that were going on in my life, closed my eyes, started hovering my hand over the cards and when i knew the moment was right, i grabbed a card. It was"10 of cups" inverted and how he described what i got which meant something like lacking in relationships. The way he described everything felt like i got cut deep on the inside and i started tearjng up. I was with my now exgf who is not at all into any of this mystical stuff so to her it was just goofy fun, but to me it was another confirmation that i should break up with her. I thanked the magician, gave him one of the magic related trinkets i received and said goodbye. At the same convention i became super close with another girl in our group and we're besties now, and i have been dating and have landed on a great guy. Normally i used to not believe in the supernatural or the paranormal, but ive had too many coincidences happen where i can't fully not-believe. Thank you random Tarot Magician, for being at the right place at the right time

Mediums are sadly very inconsistent but I would like to believe in them. They have a habit of contradicting other spiritual experiences and each other. For example many mediums reject the idea of reincarnation but others fully endorse it and those who endorse it are inconsistent about whether reincarnation is a choice or forced. Some do bring verified facts and those are interesting but sadly they're kind of a rarity

>>11953
Do you mean this in a Christian way, a gnostic way or a new age way? How did you know demons were being contacted?

weirdest one was this girl i was friends with for a year. i only ever tolerated her weird behavior because i had no friends at the time.

>would tell everybody we were dating (we weren't)
>constantly sexually harassed and groped me
>would force me to read her weird gay smut fanfiction
>used her rose toy at a sleepover when she thought i was asleep, multiple times
>was a peeping tom, looked at me while i was showering
>an overall pervert

aside from that; i had

>kid who tried to pay a chick money for nudes, got rejected, and later sent me a manifesto threatening to blow up his school and kill the girl
>girl who would listen to alpha werewolf smut audiobooks in class
>guy who looked like dylan klebold who showed people gore and the blippy harlem shake in school
>guy who wore a fedora and a full fit of cabaret-esque temu clothes everyday
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>>11850
is it bad i want a friend like the first one. SO bad

Chloe Power/empathchan long before she started attentionwhoring. She was insufferable and I eventually got sick of her shit because dealing with her retardation was affecting me mentally, so I stopped talking to her. To this day she talks about me and asks people for information about my life.

>>12042
Awww you guys are totes besties

>>12043
Not at all, she just took all of the attention she could get from multiple people whether positive or negative and overshared to the max, believing that brought her closer to people, in typical BPD fashion

>>12034
Its weird if I'm timeline hopping, I wanna learn how to do it

>>8695
And here's what the crystals looked like arranged in my altar/spread!

I wear this tourmaline because it absorbs radiation. I hope this thread picks up, I have more to post later on at home

Saving up to buy a huge chunk of Angelite or Celestite - so peaceful and dreamy.

Also dropping some threads that had AMAZING info:

https://archive.4plebs.org/x/thread/42188260

https://archive.4plebs.org/x/thread/42149471/#42149471

Toy stores used to have these "young chemist" thingies where you could grow crystals. I always wanted to try it. Maybe I should get one for lolz.

>>8829
Can you provide a link to the YouTube guide please?

>>8854
The raccoon speaks the truth, you all need to take your meds.

>>8829
>>9569
seconding

>>8829
Anon I need you to post that guide.

This is crazy.

Me and bf have been apartment hunting for like a year.

Last Friday morning I decided to do a spell, found a yt video and was going to buy the stuff on friday night. On sunday we walk past an estate agents in town, I have a hunch to go in so we do and there's a property about to go live. We end up going to view it like 30 mins later and love it so much we put an offer in the same day. It gets accepted Monday.

I was about to do this spell + listened to these subliminals on the friday:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dtsOewu3sRQ&t=697s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U9vMlTFtJsA&list=PLNdZR3aj0jSTEPAM4zAtdb3P9R7fV9Gk8&index=12

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ty3n0jVyK0Y&list=PLNdZR3aj0jSTEPAM4zAtdb3P9R7fV9Gk8&index=11

Not her but agree with >>11911
He is the kind to make up conspiracies about himself or do retarded shit just to attention whore

>>11909
I think the Jim Carrey nona has been MIA since 2024

>>11914
Couldn't blame her for being MIA. He seems like a psycho

>>11911
>>11912
As time has gone on, definitely agree with this. He likely started the "rumor" himself because nobody gave a shit about his faggoty French award show