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You feel guilty for giving him courage?

Nona you are cute as fuck. Don't feel guilty. He likes you.

>>11820
teach me your ways

I think ur super cool 4 this tbh…if u believe in that sort of thing it will come true…It's all about manifestation

I don't believe in the Pleroma or the origin story of the demiurge, but I believe that God is a demiurge-like being. The problem of evil is too much for basic Christianity in my eyes. (I don't care that this topic has been debated for centuries, none of the Christian arguments are sufficient for me. I don't hate God though, I don't believe He is evil. But I think He is imperfect just like the rest of us. I agree with a lot of the rules Gnostics follow but a lot of them are too extreme for me. I like that men and women are spiritually equals in Gnosticism. I dislike that Gnosticism became popular on other boards like 4chan, It made it cringe in my eyes because I'd rather not be lumped in with those guys. They call anyone they disagree with a hylic. (I don't even think hylics exist, it's just another excuse to treat others as less than yourself.)

Gnosticism is really a modern invention anyways, groups of people lumped into on e category. It makes sense to sort them together but none of these historical groups would have recognized themselves as "Gnostic".

I also believe in things from other religions, like Holy Guardian Angels. I have no cohesive set of beliefs and it greatly distresses me.

Forgive my ramblings I am schizophrenic.

I don't believe in it but if it is true and there truly is no way out that's horrifying. Reincarnation isn't a bad concept but here it's probably the scariest possibility, at least in Hell you would know you're absolutely hopeless, Gnostic Reincarnation teases you with hope before devastating you endlessly and it genuinely gets me panicking. I agree with >>11571 chances are that God's probably just not perfect and religious people really badly try to convince themselves that it is so they don't have to think too hard

It could be real but it feels more likely that there are just some negative entities out there rather than them all being evil. I highly doubt that only angels or only demons exist. Don't know about risking not going to the light when you die, I've read some stuff about how you could get trapped as a ghost and never escape if you do that which makes me nervous to try it

Neoplatonism >>>>>> gnosticism


Matter is actually good because the gods created it and are right here with us. Humans choose to be good or bad. Enjoy your stay.

I arrived to a similar conclusion and worldtheory by myself without having ever heard of gnosticism beforehand, so when I learned about its existence I was quite glad. I

>>9964
All teachings in the Christian church tradition (circumcision, crucifying the flesh, patience and love for the young) are taught to keep risk-taking and impulsive masculine vocation from reigning supreme– The time wherein the Antichrist will Arise. Paul's hermeneutics on women are the inverse of this, and teach women how to be faithful maintainers & wives in their Earthly dwelling.

>>9964
25 Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;

26 That he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word,

27 That he might present it to himself a glorious church, not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish.

The Church is made for Man, not Man for the church. The Church maintains Man. The Church is a woman. Christ is her bridegroom.

>>9965
>I don't know if I am justified in saying this, and it might sound a bit goofy, but I think that males are spiritually constipated, if not incapable of it altogether.

I think this sounds entirely plausible to me. Could you elaborate on what you mean by spiritually constipated? I often see an almost irrational, faith-based reluctance to engage seriously in spiritual pursuits (and by that I don't mean mechanistic religious rituals but stuff like meditation, for instance). They also seem to lack a kind of sensitivity to the sorts of experiences that spark curiosity and commitment to these pursuits in the first place - like I've never met a man who took a serious interest in just walking in nature or appreciating beauty for its own sake. I wonder to what extent they spend their time absorbed in their own delusional thoughts, rather than paying attention to the world, relative to women.

>>9977
I'd interpret to mean someone who's spirituality is only a tradition, just repeating whatever authoritative figures tell them to believe without any personal, subjective input.

Moids can feel everything we do, they just aren't likely to express feelings verbally

Same reason as women being expected to cook but men are well-paid chefs

>>11806
Be careful. You will for certain contact demons.

>>11806
Do not use Ouja boards at all to contact. My mentor is a medium and a lot of demons feed off your attention and have you guessing if you're searching for a family member. I know you want to contact spirits you DON'T know but advise please do not use Ouija!

I've had issues for years dealing with terrible paranormal activity both physically to my body & objects because I was stupid and had a sigil necklace as decoration above my bed. Removed it and although I do not have it often, I've been to a cemetary recently with some friends to kinda troll around and the same spirit that was latched onto me was the same one who was hurting me, I did get a lot of questions answered through those pendents (the ones you dangle from your hand), it was a cool experience though because the spirit attached to me is powerful it managed to fling my vape off my hand which was flat. Made me feel like I had telekinesis lmaooooo. Best advice is to use those pendent things because they are more safe. And probably go to a place that has a lot of spirit activity like abandoned buildings or cemeteries :)

>>11811
To add onto this, if you do go to abandoned buildings make sure you are safe incase of people coming in that have bad intentions. As well also you might find out that you have a passed on family member with you, if you start feeling that theres another energy in the room that isnt just you or others, then it's a family member. If at some point you feel really negative it's a spirit you don't know and potentially a bad one

It could help if you go to a place that was meaningful to them while they were alive

I hope this is relevant I don't know where else to ask… Will ghosts just float through space after the sun engulfs the earth? I mean, if there's life after death in that sense I assume it's eternal right? And ghosts are commonly believed to haunt certain places, so what happens when those places are gone? I mean the sun will engulf the earth eventually so will we all float through space as ghosts or what? Go to another planet? Won't it be far away? I would love answers from people who believe in them

I have a few good ones too
>a dude whos 20 and in 11th grade
>a dude who left italy at 18 with 20€ and was homeless for like 3 years
>a girl whos addicted to ecstasy at 16
All i could think of atm

A fujoshi poly "he/him" who makes zero attempts to try to pass off as a man even a little bit. I think the poly partners might also be girls pretending to be boys but I haven't met them and the photos I've seen of them are too androgynous to really tell.

Honestly I've always been a social butterfly, and had never judged anyone until I started really observing their attitudes to me and realized they were abusing my kindness and wealth. As I've aged I've learnt that people I keep close should be considered sacred and have friends for surface level and my true friends below surface. Overtime I've learnt to remove a lot of people, and it feels easy because I take principles to heart now. Some of the people I've removed from my life which I am VALID to doing was,

- I befriended a girl who bullied me throughout highschool whom deteriorated my mental health, JUST to get her to stop bullying me. I knew my priorities and got rid of her on everything after highschool, she would belittle me even during friendship
- I met a girl from Discord which was in my town, she ended up dating my ex from the same year we broke up, and she still thinks she's in the right! She has even attempted to message my boyfriend calling me egotistical and just downright rude things.
- A guy I was friends with was so obsessed with this girl, he cheated on her with my friend and hid it from her until christmas day, I had to break the news unfortunately as he had all of us thinking he came clean to her and she forgave him. He ended up saying he was sexually assaulted & blamed me for it even though I wasn't even present and warned him not to have sex as he told me he broke up with her the same day for his own peace of mind.
- Befriended this trans guy, they detransitioned and turned completely into a bitch. I made music and when they detransitioned they turned into a massive hater and said really rude remarks to me & my music saying it was going no where, even flat out ignoring me if I wasn't just the only person with her, and making me hold all her things for her because she wanted to walk with nothing on her lmao… She also brought people inside my house which I consider sacred also and warned her NOT to bring people to my house I do not know as I have VERY valuable things there.
- Removed a guy off everything because he threw glass bottles outside my home during a Halloween party I hosted, making me potentially face a fine all just because he got his ego broken as my friend called him out for being a total jerk to myself and other people simply enjoying their time talking…

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weirdest one was this girl i was friends with for a year. i only ever tolerated her weird behavior because i had no friends at the time.

>would tell everybody we were dating (we weren't)
>constantly sexually harassed and groped me
>would force me to read her weird gay smut fanfiction
>used her rose toy at a sleepover when she thought i was asleep, multiple times
>was a peeping tom, looked at me while i was showering
>an overall pervert

aside from that; i had

>kid who tried to pay a chick money for nudes, got rejected, and later sent me a manifesto threatening to blow up his school and kill the girl
>girl who would listen to alpha werewolf smut audiobooks in class
>guy who looked like dylan klebold who showed people gore and the blippy harlem shake in school
>guy who wore a fedora and a full fit of cabaret-esque temu clothes everyday
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>>11850
is it bad i want a friend like the first one. SO bad

>>10032
Why is this topic banned on 4chan?

>>10574
You can actually get banned on 4chan?

>>10032
smells like a psyop

>>10032
schizo content

BEN BEN BEN

>>10203
Yeah I’m with you, that great unknown of whatever is after we die is enough to scare me away from ever killing myself at least. When I see big numbers it also causes me to spiral into that existential fear and any idea of the afterlife or lack thereof is scary to me and makes me want to meltdown honestly

spiders

had one crawl into my hair as an 11 year old. it crawled off my head and onto my bedroom floor and i just cried and cried and cried. now i dont even play minecraft on anything but peaceful. sometimes i get over it, but then i get “emotionally taxed” and it comes back full swing.

fucking hate that shit.

Walking on sandy beaches barefoot.

Ever since I was little I had this fear that there are knives or needles hidden under the sand's surface… I just can't get over that thought. I hate sand anyway, touching it makes me cry.

Big things. Even just pictures of big things, especially when they are next to something smaller like a picture of a person.

Big numbers (look up Meganumerophobia for a name). Causes me to be so existential and realize how short life is and how temporary everything around us is. It's mainly during the winter because I struggle with seasonal affective disorder, the spring and summer time my anxiety over it generally fades

>>10224
He doesn't look inbred but that shitty puffy hair is pissing me off

in the eyes of God you are never too pretty for anything lol

>>10228
God isn't real christotard.

people project their fantasies onto others, but it is just that, a fantasy, it is kind of "objectifying" him

keep his pictures if you must, but remember he is a bad person who hurt someone and belongs there

I don't find him attractive, I actually find him rather creepy looking. Hybristophiles genuinely concern me because they're all just making the world a dangerous place by doing this

The truth isn't schizophrenia.

"Satan has been an omnipresent demon since the beginning of existence.
Satan's real name is Adam.
Satan and Adam, both, of the Bible, are the same person.

I've been fighting Satan for almost a decade straight now. It's 24/7 and nonstop.
Satan started the fight, and Satan won't leave.
So I have no choice but to fight Satan.

Anyone want to help me fight Satan?
Satan is very much real.

Do you have any experience with Satan?
If so, I'd love to hear about it."
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>>11699
>>11700
lolcow probably too cowardly, and greatly fears Satan. Among other things. Like accepting what being abusive really means. Abusers are the most worthless things, in every way. Same goes for murderers and rapists.

>>11701
They don't know what legal self-defense is over there, and they also don't know the significance of it.

>>11687
I think that demons are sexy, as a concept. Hell is too, literally hot. Would heaven be boring? Wouldn't it be more fun to go between heaven and hell? If that's where Earth is, I'd love to come back again. Reincarnated as a worm maybe. Worms are cool. Or a cat. Now that'd be a life… Being an ant sounds terrible though. Sure, you'd get guidance and all, but human kids killing you for fun, that's horrible.

Have you seen the afterlife?

I ate two marijuana cookies once and what I saw and heard made me vow to never touch the stuff ever again. And I know some of you are going to laugh at me and say it's all a LARP but I don't care – this is what happened:

I was watching The Andy Griffith Show when the dope started to kick in. I began to hear this faint singing that I can only liken to the songs humpback whales make, though it was much more beutiful.

The sound gets louder until I close my eyes and SEE these beautiful creatures that look as if they are composed of pure light — dazzling, kaleidoscopic, evincing all the colors of the rainbow and then some. I don't know how, but I sensed that these things were gargantuan in size. They were not even vaguely human, not in form and certainly not in mind — but they were majestic in their immensity as well as horrific in their indifference. It took me a few moments after taking all that in before I realized where I was: I was in the sky, high in the sky – like, the thermosphere at least and these great leviathans of light were there with me seemingly unaware of my presence.

They continued to sing their siren songs as I saw something rise up from the surface of the earth. As it got closer I discerned that it was a group of things – perhaps a flock of birds. By the time I realized what they really were it was too late to warn them. They were people, human souls, and the light-whale things were EATING them. They were sucking these human souls into their gullet as if they were nothing but plankton. As they were vacuumed in I could simultaneously feel the terror of the prey and the savage, ravenous satisfaction of the predators as they fed. It was then that I, too, began to feel myself succumbing to the their gravity, and with all my horror I WILLED myself to return to my body.

There was a painful sensation, almost like whiplash, and I found myself back in my trailer watching Andy Griffith. I was totally sober.

Never again.

>>11276
I believe you , some people have incredible reactions to weed that most don't. I'm glad you made it back to reality.

I love Ketamine! I hope I get my ketamine today :D

I've only done weed, shrooms and acid
Weed was really nice at first, made me feel really giggly and everything seemed funnier so I used to do it while doomscrolling but my tolerance seemed build up extremely quick where after a few months it was basically the same as being drunk which I kinda don't like so I gave it up.
Did shrooms once and didn't really enjoy it. The only thing I've been on where I just felt "drugged"
Acid was fucking incredible, best thing I've ever done and it was still a huge disappointment. I took it for the visuals cause I thought it might help my art, didn't really but the feeling of it, I've never felt as at peace and comfortable in my body as I was on acid. It made doing anything feel nice. It was during the fall and it was kinda cool and crisp outside and I could not explain to you nonas how good the wind felt against my skin. I really want to do acid again, probably do a higher dose since my lack of visuals was most likely from underdosing, a common issue for acid I hear.
Also don't listen to people who say you NEED a tripsitter, I did alone cause extremely asocial and I was fine, I know doing it with someone would've fucked me up. If you don't think you need someone you probably don't.

Have any of you ever had a bad Salvia trip?