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This thread is for people who have hit rock bottom. Not people who are having a bad day, but people who are living in the depths of despair. Whether you're a nona who is struggling with serious addiction, mental or physical illness that severely precludes your life, constantly feeling suicidal, whether you're being abused, have any other serious life issues or if you are simply unable to function and don't know where else to turn, vent here and let's try to support each other.

>meet boy on reddit
>funny boy, finds me funny
>somehow in 10 days' time we are exchanging nudes and talking about getting married
>i want out

what do. i feel like such a whore.

Would anyone miss you if you died tomorrow?

i don't know what's happening to me lately, i have been feeling way more lonely than usual, normally, i'm a lonely person, i like to be in my room doing my own thing, i normally sit alone in lunch at uni, i have a very few friends, its normal to be alone for me, but lately i have been feeling a void growing in the pit of my stomach, its eating me from the inside out and i can't do anything about it, or i feel like so, have yall ever heard the song 'race' by alex g? that's how the pit of my heart sounds. Im having 2 weeks of vacation, so i'm in my house all day, i'm not doing much, just assignments from uni, playing LoL, BS1, sims4, eating, bathing, sometimes i call my online friends on discord and we play together, but most of the day, im just… there…
I'm sitting in my bed… doom scrolling… waking up late…
I do talk to people of my family, i live with my grandparents and my big sis, my sister works all day and my grandparents work too in their small business, so the house is always alone. I'm the only one here all day, and i don't have much to do, i just clean, eat, play.
I feel like my life is in pause, like i'm missing something, like i need to be somewhere important and i'm really late. Video Games don't fill the void anymore, every time im playing it feels so repetitive, i don't get distracted of my thoughts by playing, i can't write down how i feel because i don't actually feel anything anymore, im just so tired, but i can't sleep, i don't even sleep anymore, im just existing in slow mo, every time i try to relapse on SH i just can't, i have grown a coward, i just feel so sad and anxious because i feel like this is going to be how i'm going to live for the rest of my life and i can't do anything, i don't feel normal, i see other girls in my class, same age as me (17) looking so healthy, so pretty, so smart (cuz i'm also failing all of my classes), i just look at them and i get so upset, they look so mature and beautiful, they already look like young women, im stuck looking like a pre teenager due to my ED, i want to be like them, surrounded by a lot of friends, pretty, mature, smart, funny, i bet they never feel alone.
i want to stop feeling alone, i want to be normal like everyone else, i just feel like im fragile, but not like glass, like a bomb that could explode any second.
you don't need to give me advice if you don't have any, i just wanted to feel heard, and here i alwaPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

I have rly low empathy even for friends and I constantly find it very hard to believe that 'bad things' actually happen to people. I've had friends tell me about being assaulted and stuff and even though I don't show it on the outside I am internally thinking 'she is probably lying for attention'. I go through life and people are always really nice to me and they're generally pretty rational, polite, decent, so I find it hard to believe bad things like that actually happen as much as people say they do. Like every person I know seems to say they've been assaulted or something. Is this sort of thing actually normal or am I some kind of sociopath? Or is it just cuz I'm privileged? I can't help but believe people just make this stuff up for attention.

I’m looking for fellow victims of a man named Randall Mosey of Ohio. He should be 32 by now. Blue eyes, white guy, computer nerd who loved starcraft. He molested me when I was 13 and I know there are others, because I tried to reach out to his girlfriend through her tellonym and she got really upset and deleted my messages after responding to one saying she’s “tired” of people trying to ruin his reputation. So that is not the first time someone’s tried to tell her that her boyfriend’s a pedophile. She accused me of lying because I hid behind anonymity. Excuse me that I’m not exactly jumping at the idea of hopping on a skype call with you guys.

I wanna know if y’all have any advice on finding other victims too. I just keep remembering.

I’m the failure of my family. I think my upbringing was pretty rough, but out of my 4. other siblings, I’m the only failure. My younger brother and sister are both well adjusted and normal human beings with jobs and houses. My older brother is kinda a weirdo, but he is super nice and makes a lot of money as scientist. And my eldest brother is the coolest and best person I’ve ever known. He literally took beatings on everyone else behalf and practically raised my siblings and I after a certain point. He always protected me and helped me out, even though I’m a worthless person. One time he beat up a kid who hit me and his girl friend always talked to me because she knew I had problems making friends in high school. He was the kind of guy who would stop on the highway to help cars on the side of the road or lend everyone else money. He even started a few side hustles for my other siblings and I, but I never really got into them.

A few years ago he got married to his girlfriend and was promoted to an amazing job . He had the perfect life, perfect friends, and perfect relationship, and he deserved it. I was always super jealous of him and my siblings even though it’s my fault my life sucks.

About 2 months ago my eldest brother’s wife and kid died so he started drinking. Because his job involves cranes and boats, he got fired when he showed up to work drunk too many times. His life has gone to complete hell and I’m pretty sure he is going to kill himself drunk driving.

All my other siblings and his friends are doing everything they can to cheer him up, but there is literally nothing I can do. My sister and younger brother keep taking him out to eat. His wife’s family is helping him clean up his house. Even my weirdo shut in older brother is driving 300 miles a week to hang out and work out with him. I don’t have money to do anything for him and there is literally nothing interesting I do to talk with him about. I don’t have a family of my own for him to be around like my younger siblings or share any interests with him like my older brother. I can’t even help with all the side hustles that are falling apart without my eldest brother, because I have no real skills.

I wish I was nicer to him and I wish I could do something for him. The last time we talked, he told me he was sorry for not helping me more to have a better life before his friends had to carry him out of the bar.

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I want to start dressing nice and wearing makeup but feel really uncomfortable and out of place doing it. It just feels very wrong even though I'd like to try. I think it's a combination of me being autistic with no social skills and never fitting in especially with other women, not having friends, money or going out growing up so never thinking about my own clothes until adulthood, being very boyish and being horribly bullied and outcasted at my all-girls secondary school so I felt alienated from anything womanly as a whole. Plus I'm pretty childish and retarded personality-wise so there's going to be a clash between the way I would present while dressing up and me naturally being annoying. Most of the time I only wear shirts/trousers because it's masculine/androgynous so it feels natural, I feel like I can be my retarded self and I put no effort in; I'm not very attractive anyway so along with my issues of feeling wrong for acting and dressing feminine, I'm terrified that I'll be mocked for it, like 'why does that ugly bitch think she looks good?', or 'why is that tomboyish autist wearing that?'. I'm far from a model but I don't want to feel ugly. I'd rather not try.

Tried wearing skirts and makeup a few years ago during college at ages 17/18 but felt horrible, I think I rushed into it and should've slowly started dressing nicer rather than coming in all dressed up one day but it still felt so very wrong. I still daydream about getting validated by my secondary school classmates all the time precisely because I felt I was so ugly, so retarded, so below them and so alien; I feel like going out dressed the way I've wanted to since I was a preteen would not only fulfil what I've always wanted to do, but also help fix my need for validation by feeling like I'm at least not autistic enough to only wear graphic tees and maybe even alrigth-looking.