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nona i just clasped my hands together pretending one was yours… did you feel me

>>11303
Sorry I was sleeping.
Also I'm a biological male.
I'm so sorry.

>>11306
leave this realm forever fag

>>11307
lmaoooooo nona i laughed out loud reading that bwahaha

I had a life threatening surgery a long time ago. After I got home from the hospital I started to develop sleep apnea dreams. My worst one was a reoccurring nightmare where an entity would rape my ass

This dream could happen multiple times a night and I could feel the pain of my ass being split open every time

>>10880
The one where everyone I love dies by randomly melting and where I get holes in my body that expand and I know I'll also die.
Or the one where my grandpa raped me even though I like him and I know he'd never do that and I've never even viewed him sexually and barely see him, he's a good person, why the hell did I dream that.
Or the one where I beat a child and I couldn't stop beating the shit out of it, that poor damn kid was crying and I couldn't stop, I felt so disgusted with myself, I was so fucking horrified, I'd never actually hurt a child, wtf was that dream…

>>10909
Being sold into sexual slavery is probably my greatest fear.

People tell me this was sleep paralysis but i wasnt in my room when i was dreaming this or even a room i recognised.
The dream wasnt that bad but for what felt like hours the most ugly spider was crawling up my arm slowly, so slowly i didnt even know it was moving until i watched it unblinking. As soon as it reached my shoulder it dug its fangs into my arm and i woke up in serious pain. My heart rate was going 240+ min it hurt to breathe

>>11292
I have rape dreams all the time about my uncle who raised me. I know he would never but I have the dreams nonetheless and it’s hard to forget them sometimes. I think it’s just part of being a girl, I’m not sure.

>>4763
I physically abused my sister growing up

used to lie excessively and spread rumors as teenager

Bullied someone to the point of killing themselves and relishing that fact still 13 years later

>>11295
oh dear. it’s almost time for you to be salted like a slug. the demons are going to have fun with you.

Scammed $3,000 out of people by pretending to be a black tranny, shut down the GoFundMe when I started to feel bad about literal 15-year-olds giving me their money.

>>8535
keep your jewelry box on there! stuff you like to wear semi-regularly

Start offering

Don't feel like you have to add lots of things dedicated to her, I think she'd appreciate quality over quantity.

The holy festival of Aphrodesia has her altar purified with the blood of a sacred dove, and that no other sacrifical blood may touch it. That's all I know though

I would like a blessing

I would like to get a job, soon
I would like to find love
I would like to get out of here

>>8311
i would like to be blessed with a man i find attractive who loves me so much he skins me alive and wears me so i don't have to feel the pain of existing anymore.

Please bless me with a rhinoplasty soon. I really want one but I can't afford it right now

I would like to get a blessing for my summer work trip, so it would interesting, enjoyable and memorable (and so I would have to eat during it, it is important for as for genetically sick person)

I wish for 4plebs and archive.moe to be permanently taken offline.

52.479761, 62.185661

>>1212
I'm just focusing on the bear-head shaped outline of the island when I noticed a pentagram on the other island

>>1213
looks more like a rhino with its horn cut off

>>10107
Same. Well mine turned into full blown split personality.

I experienced despersonalization for an entire day once but with flu medication. It was so thrilling I wish I could have it again. I was able to feel like a completely different person, seeing mundane things and situations like it was the first time I experienced them

The closes thing I had was that all my life until the last years or so I had this strange feeling of only living in first person and never thinking of myself as a thing that exist or is perceived, the only thing close to that was continuous deep fear in my bones of accidentally making a mistake and upsetting somebody, like what if my voice slipped and accidentally talked louder than I am supposed to, what if I don't help my parents properly with a thing and I accidentally ruin it, what if I brake something, what if I accidentally say something stupid and I earn a slap to the face so hard my whole cheek feels numb and I don't feel my skin and flesh in that region of the face only bone, looking back at it, I was a bit of a overly melodramatic oversensitive kid

>>10106
Don't be a junkie.

>>10106
I've gotten that, but not from weed. Just from severe trauma and flashbacks.
I spent almost my entire childhood in a dissociative state and then I had a really hard time getting to terms with learning that I wouldn't actually disappear into thin air somehow and had to live in the real world as an actual person who'd have to be an adult and everything…
Maybe I'm too used to dissociating, but I don't think it's all bad, it's only scary if I feel like I can't snap out of it, but that's never really happened to me before, if I couldn't snap out of it it was always because a big part of me just really didn't want to… Or when you're terrified and go completely mute and stuff, it's not that I want to talk, I just want to be left alone so that I can hide under my blanket, hug my plushies and feel safe again.
I got that dissociative empty feeling when I took laughing gas at the dentist, but I wasn't really worried about it, I was just glad that I didn't have to worry about the procedure as much and I felt normal again after the laughing gas effect dissipated. I wouldn't use it recreationally though, because I know that if I really need to dissociate, my body will do that on its own. I just kinda trust in it and hopefully I won't really need to do it and can just be myself and happy as a full person, even if it's hard sometimes.
I think hyperarousal is the worst though… I looked up some things to snap out of it because unlike with a dissociative state, I really can't stand this stress for more than a minute, it just drives me nuts and I really really don't want to wait for it to go away on its own, it sucks so damn much, I'd rather scratch my skin open or hopefully have mints or chilli to eat on hand because that kind of stuff really helps with it

I wholeheartedly believe that African swine fever virus was manufactured in labs for pork industry, so pork producers could easily get rid of each other.
ASF kills pigs very quickly, is highly contagious, there's no vaccines against it, but humans are not affected by this shit at all, which is really weird, because a lot of zoonotic diseases can spread to humans easily. Also there are no close relatives of ASF virus, it doesn't belong to any known family of viruses.
As I said, there's no vaccines, serums and drugs against it, so the only decision is to kill pigs as quickly as possible, burn the pig farm down and quarantine workers for few months. I worked on pig farm belonging to one huge company (in my country) and it's known fact, that they get rid of smaller farms by bringing ASF virus on them, so smaller farms have no choice but to kill all pigs.
Also, because of risk of infecting ASF, pig farms have complex system of biosecurity that allows a great control over workers, even outside of the farm. From my example, we were prohibited to eat pork from other companies, because long time ago they contracted ASF and therefore their production could be dangerous. Because of biosecurity we had to work in space, isolated from big world, we couldn't bring any means of communication with us (phones, computers, etc.), we had no idea what happened outside, we couldn't go away from our work places, even during emergency, we were completely stuck and isolated. We couldn't bring even our clothes, we had to bath together and wear shitty factory clothes. If something happened to us, no one would know.
And of course, ASF biosecurity protocols don't allow any trespassers, so it's very hard to get on pig farm unless you're its worker. I think, it was done, to prevent any sort of vegans and animal right activists from visiting farms, because if wide masses saw what happens on pig farms daily, they would stop consuming pork in a minute. But they don't see it and wicked cycle repeats itself.

>>10977
i hate humanity & animal agriculture so much it's fucking unreal

>>10975
You understand the MK Ultra was only brought up because of the redactions that were in the release, right? Maybe next time you post you could add a little bit more content instead of just self-aggrandizement.

>>10977
All the pig farms have been on in the US have been pretty good on caretaking, but they are extremely biosecure. I never saw any mistreatments of the pigs or anything. But I have the same feelings about the avian flu. The only difference is that they use avian flu to go after backyard chicken keepers and I don't know if ASF is used to punish small swine production. Maybe because it's less common?

There has never a case of chickens catching avian flu from wild birds, but many backyard flocks were euthanized because of the belief that they had avian flu. There's only recently been a case of a human catching Avian flu, and he was like 65 years old with comorbidities. I really think it's just to make sure people don't produce their own food from healthier flocks and happier chickens.

>>9211
kek

>>386
I think conspiracy theories are interesting and funny like "what if" stories, like the Dresden Files, but only as long as nobody gets hurt…
I hate the thought that some people take the reptilian thing seriously, or the UFO pyramid stuff and whatever. The concept of reptilian people sounds so cool, like in fantasy stories and the sort of interspecies romance books I like to read, yet, some insist on making it a euphemism for juice or whatever else they're rallying against, it's disgusting.
If I met a snake man, I'd wanna know if he has two dicks and not assume that he's secretly part of some secret society that has magical powers or whatever. And if snake men with two dicks existed, they absolutely would show it off, there's no doubt in my mind that if any of that was real, we'd have really good evidence for it.
Instead, it often just boils down to the invisible demon in your room, you can't see it, you can't touch it, it supposedly does things that coincidentally could be done by the cat and there's just no way to prove its existence because it can also control your mind to forget it and it's also indestructible or whatever and just… It's just so damn ludicrous. And then people pretend like the demon went to possess the cat when it was just running around and acting goofy and boom, dead cat, thanks for nothing conspiracy nuts. Like yeah, it's good to question things, but you actually have to find ways to verify your conjecture and think about how the world would be different if what you're imagining just isn't true at all. What if aliens didn't build the pyramids? Then people did it. Is that unlikely? No, humans can build pyramids, why wouldn't they have built them thousands of years ago? It sounds like a cool project, humans love making cool stuff.
I don't think there's any conspiracy theories I really believe in, like, sure, I'll have my doubts about some things and entertain possibilities but I'll need some good evidence that isn't debunked 100 times over and it should actually make some sense and not just hint at someone having made it up just to be racist, to sell their books and merch or whatever agenda they were following.
Like, some things just align with the kind of world we live in. Yes, doctors do try to sell you unnecessary surgeries to make more money, there's plenty of evidence for it and yeah, there's a lot of corruption aroPost too long. Click here to view the full text.