found out one of my tumblr mutuals' name about a year ago & using that and a video which he uploaded and had sent me i found his full name, but i wasnt as much of a creep as i am now.
anyway, then a few months later i found his sister's account through looking him up on youtube again AND his steam handle which was just his name, and she had linked some other accounts on her youtube like her deviantart ETC. and then using that i found her on instagram and eventually saw what he looked like.
i tried forgetting about this and pretending like nothing happened because i know i went too far and somebody could just as easily do this to me, but today i found out his middle name and got googling. i found his great grandfather's obituary and information on his family.
then i went back to instagram through his sister's account i found his and through that account i found his mother's and went through it all and found loads of pictures of him when he was younger
i feel like a monster i cant stop this madness i dont even like him or feel anything towards him but im terrified one of his family members has an IP tracker tool attached to their profiles and the thought of the possibility of them seeing me screenshot their posts using those tracker apps is making me lose my mind although i know this is entirely my fault.
i think i am going into a panic attack thinking of him confronting me about this because i really have no excuse.
i feel horrid but i cant stop and i do this everytime i find somebody interesting.
i feel especially awful knowing this could be done to me just as easily but i cant keep my hands to myself curiosity really gets the best of me.